Xie Wanyun was stunned, and his head felt a little dizzy.
After a pause, he said coldly, "What do you mean? Yan Suizhi, do you really treat him as your son? Then why are you willing to send him away?"
Yan Suizhi's eyes were deep, filled with unspeakable pain.
He said hoarsely, "Meimei, don't you understand? The person that night was me. Jinbai is my son, your son and mine. All these years, I didn't dare acknowledge him, only saying he was my nephew. You didn't know whether your son was dead or alive, and I was guarding my son but didn't dare recognize him."
It was like a bolt from the blue! It instantly shattered Xie Wanyun into countless pieces. She stood there stupidly, her mind blank.
When she was finally able to gather the fragments and put herself back together, she heard her own dry, hoarse voice.
"Yan Suizhi, what are you talking about? Why, why don't I understand?"
Yan Suizhi frowned in pain.
"That day, I saw you following the maidservant from Princess Anyang's family into the inner chambers. I felt a little strange and worried, so I followed them. The courtyard was so large, and the light was poor at night, so I got lost. When I found you, you... looked like you were drugged. You held on to me tightly, and I... couldn't hold back."
How could Yan Suizhi forget? Xie Wanyun lay in the gauze tent, moaning softly, her clothes in disarray.
Her eyes were blurred and passionate, and she hugged him tightly.
He wanted to push her away, but what man could resist the woman he had admired for a long time?
Their clothes slipped off as they tangled, and her body was hot and soft, almost melting in his arms.
The reason, belief, and morality that Yan Suizhi had held on to for many years collapsed under her fiery red lips.
"Mingmian, Mingmian," he repeated these two words over and over again like a man possessed, too excited to control himself...
Over the years, he has recalled the scene of that night countless times, and relying on these memories, he has spent one lonely night after another.
The corners of Xie Wanyun's mouth curved into an arc, as if she was laughing and crying at the same time.
"Then why didn't you admit it later?"
"I, I was nothing at that time. I was afraid that I was not worthy of you... I was scared, I didn't dare... As a result, I was still hesitating, Qin Su'an jumped out, and Princess Anyang immediately confirmed it. I was stupid at that time and had no idea what was going on. My mind was in a mess. When I woke up and wanted to explain the truth, it was already impossible to make amends." Yan Suizhi still felt extremely regretful when he thought of the scene that day.
If he had been braver and less hesitant, the three of them wouldn't have been separated for so long. Jin Bai wouldn't have had to go to Mobei as a hostage.
His mother-in-law wouldn't have to suffer so much in the Qin family.
It's all his fault.
Xie Wanyun had calmed down. It turned out that the person that night was really him. Her feeling had always been right.
Even though her son was right in front of him, he could still hide it from him cruelly.
"And then, there were so many times when you could have told me the truth, but you kept everything from me."
"I'm sorry, Meimei. I'm investigating what happened back then. I'm in danger and I'm afraid of getting you into trouble. I want to wait until I'm strong enough to recognize you. This is all my fault, but Meimei, my feelings for you have never changed. From the moment I entered the Xie family, I've loved you, so that night, I had no way of saying no..."
"Don't say anymore." Xie Wanyun interrupted him. What a good reason! It's for your own good! But if you really want to do this for my own good, you won't have the heart to watch me suffer like this.
Yan Suizhi, you're such a coward! You dare to do it but not admit it. You stood guard outside my house when I gave birth. Were you trying to prove that I gave birth to your child, or that you cared about me?
If you really cared about me, you wouldn't have left me alone in that den of tigers and wolves, until I was tortured to death. If God hadn't given me another life, I would have become a ghost in hell long ago.
How can I have the chance to stand in front of you?
Tears welled up in Xie Wanyun's eyes.
Yan Suizhi felt distressed and hurriedly wanted to wipe her tears, but Xie Wanyun turned her head away.
The Mobei team continued to move forward, with wheels rolling and flags waving.
Her Jinbai was gone after all.
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