Chapter 127 The full text is officially completed
Tao Jinrong really didn't want to see a strange stranger pretending to be Qin Sizhao. Even though he wanted to use him to annoy Gu Shi, he couldn't do it physically. He lay at home in pain for several days.
Jinzhan sneaked into the room, grabbed her wrists with both hands, and pulled her out of bed like pulling a carrot.
"Girl! Girl! He's here to see you..."
Early in the morning, Tao Jinrong was forcibly pulled out of bed. He was quite irritable and yelled:
"What the hell is wrong? Even if the king of heaven comes, I will still sleep!"
After cursing, she crawled back into the quilt, pulled the corners of the quilt twice to wrap herself tightly, and squirmed twice like a caterpillar.
This attitude clearly means that I would rather die than get up.
She fell into a deep sleep, completely unaware that someone was secretly peeping at her through the crack in the bedroom door.
The sun shone obliquely into the room. Gu Shi could only see a figure barely outlined by the thick quilt. Her hair was disheveled and she was sleeping so soundly that she was oblivious to the world around her.
God knows whether she sleeps alone or with someone else these days...
Hearing that she had rewarded a popular actor, he went to take a look yesterday.
That actor actually looks 70% similar to Qin Sizhao...
Gu Shi couldn't help but bite his lower lip.
If she wanted to have a lover, then let her do it. He could just turn a blind eye. He was used to it after enduring it for so long.
But if she fell in love with someone else again, he couldn't accept it.
Even if he couldn't accept it, there was nothing he could do. He had no way to deal with her...
Looking down at her face which was completely covered in sleep, he couldn't help but poke it twice with his fingertips.
"Jinzhan, don't mess with me!"
Tao Jinrong was extremely annoyed, but Gu Shi felt a sudden sense of relief.
Fortunately, she didn't call out another man's name.
Inexplicably, he took advantage of her yawning and stuffed his fingers into her mouth.
“Click…”
Tao Jinrong was suddenly awakened by the feeling of a foreign object in his mouth. He opened his eyes and met a pair of eyes full of resentment.
Fortunately, it was his finger that he put into her mouth, not something else... Tao Jinrong rolled her eyes in disgust and spit out his finger from her mouth.
Otherwise she would have to bite it off.
"Gu Shi, what are you doing here? Don't disturb my sleep."
"What time is it and you're still sleeping? Were you very busy last night?"
"It's none of your business whether I'm busy or not."
"Tao Jinrong, tell me the truth, have you been sleeping alone or with someone these days?"
"Two people, sometimes three together... Don't worry, I only let them serve me verbally and physically, so I won't get pregnant."
…
Hearing her messy words, Gu Shi's eyelashes trembled slightly and he was silent for a while.
He tugged at her sleeve and asked:
"What do I have to do to make you want to be with me again?"
Gu Shi's nose felt sore. Even if she agreed to his request now and remarried him, he felt that he and she could never go back to the past.
All his sense of security had been completely destroyed. He no longer believed that she loved him, and he could not go back to the time when he squandered her love.
From now on, he would forever live in a world where he was the only one who loved Tao Jinrong, and Tao Jinrong did not love him. He would live in anxiety, fearing that he would do something wrong and displease her.
Tao Jinrong suddenly sneered:
"Even after what I've said, you still want to be with me again. What on earth are you trying to achieve?"
"I don't care. It's already been like this. There's no difference between one and two. Whatever."
"Do you think too highly of yourself? With your skills, you think you can satisfy me?"
Tao Jinrong began to attack his lower body viciously.
“…”
He pursed his lips and said:
"You just said that you don't have to use that part to feel happy. Besides, I can just take medicine."
Seeing that Gu Shi was so stubborn and invulnerable, Tao Jinrong could only sigh and said in a serious tone:
"It's over now. Let's live our own lives from now on. Don't bother me anymore."
"I don't want to be separated from you. You have to help me find a solution."
"I can't think of one."
A tear fell from his eyes. He turned his face away and emphasized it again:
"You have to help me find a solution. I only want to marry you. Nothing else is acceptable. No negotiation."
He wiped the tears from his face with the back of his hand and continued:
"Didn't you say you wanted to marry me when the roses were in full bloom? Does that still mean you're still going to marry me?"
Tao Jinrong was suddenly stunned. When did she say this?
She suddenly came to her senses. Oh, it seemed like she had mentioned it casually before... But at that time she didn't know that the person Gu Shi wanted to marry was actually her, so she made it up.
In fact, she didn't like Yue Ji at all and didn't want to marry him.
"I don't like roses at all, stop talking nonsense."
"Then what do you like? Anytime is fine, but you must marry me."
"I don't like roses, nor do I like you."
He wiped his tears with her sleeve:
"It would be painful for me to be apart from you, but it would be even more painful for me to be with you. But I don't know why, when these two choices were presented to me at the same time, I actually wanted to choose the more painful path."
"I don't know why, could you please tell me?"
Tao Jinrong said irritably:
"Because you're a masochist with a weird quirk."
"No matter what you say to me, I can never believe that you love me again."
"That's right, it seems that there is something wrong with your brain."
Gu Shi kept sobbing.
"Tell me, will you ever fall in love with someone else?"
Tao Jinrong thought about it carefully and decided to tell him the truth:
"meeting."
"Does that include me among the people you might fall in love with?"
“…”
Tao Jinrong was silent. To be honest, she didn't know the answer to this question, but she really wanted to reach out and wipe his tears.
But after wiping them several times, the tears on his face remained there, and she realized that her hands were shaking.
She couldn't help but start to wonder, if she really got back together with Gu Shi, who would be the most miserable person between them?
"Gu Shi, let me think about it and tell you later."
She remembered that Gu Shi had indeed inexplicably brought in a lot of roses. She hadn't understood the meaning at the time. She hadn't expected that he had misunderstood her preference for them.
He hugged her tightly, and she felt her soul was getting farther and farther away from her body, and she was in a daze.
She just patted his shoulder lightly and whispered:
"Go back."
"Tao Jinrong, I know in my heart that if I ever get you again, I'll always live in fear of losing you at any time. That would be too painful..."
"But I still want to marry you... I don't know why. Maybe I'm just angry. Why did you and Qin Sizhao worship heaven and earth, but not me? I was here first."
He wiped his eyes with a handkerchief, he didn't want to cry too ugly.
Tao Jinrong choked back his words coldly:
"You weren't here first. We've known each other since we were kids."
"I just can't figure it out... I can't figure it out..."
"I can't figure it out. I'm just living like an animal. Even a donkey can't figure out why it has to grind the mill every day. Go back quickly."
Tao Jinrong kept speaking coldly, but Gu Shi didn't think she was asking for trouble. She held her chin with both hands and gently kissed the side of her face.
She dug her nails into his neck, scratching hard, leaving red marks, but he ignored them, gently parting his lips to show her the silver stud on his tongue.
"I have a tongue piercing, so I can do anything. Do you want to try it?"
"Not interested."
"A tongue stud will be very painful if bitten. Do you want to try biting it?"
"No, go back quickly."
She rejected him with her cold attitude, and he had no choice but to go back in disgrace.
Tao Jinrong stood up and looked out the window. The weather had turned cold, not as cool as it had been in the past few days. Gu Shi had already sent someone to deliver winter clothes, and the charcoal fire in the house was also sufficient, so she could not feel the biting cold in the house.
Her fingers tapped restlessly on the window frame.
Qin Sizhao has passed away, but she did not have a mental breakdown or cry out loud. She endured it all silently. She can still work, joke and have fun. Sometimes she feels that she is great, but sometimes she thinks that she is too calm... She loves him, and she shouldn't be so calm.
After all, life is not a stage. If one dies, the other will not go crazy and scream all day long, lying in bed as if terminally ill. It is even less likely to be like wild geese, where if one dies, the other will simply crash into a wall and die.
Her pain was not like that. Pain was like a shadow, invisible and intangible on a normal day, but as long as she turned her head, she would find that it was always behind her and never disappeared.
Sometimes she didn't even realize it, but she was affected in many details of her life...Those shadows would emerge from behind from time to time and control her.
She is no longer the helpless and deceived child. She can get through it, but no matter how old a person is, it still hurts when they get beaten.
Tao Jinrong frowned. She felt that the person in the mirror had become a mature woman with somewhat firm lines.
But she still didn't know how to look at Gu Shi... Whenever she saw his face, the shadow in her heart would emerge from time to time to control her.
He used to be stronger than her and could manipulate her at will, but now she is the more mature person. He is still a teenager, but she has grown up before him. He was left behind and was panic-stricken.
She has grown up, but she doesn't miss her youth.
Now, she even began to vaguely dislike Gu Shi's childishness.
What Gu Shi said was actually right. If they got back together, he would be the one who suffered more. He would always live in fear of being abandoned, while she would be calm and composed.
He seemed to represent her entire teenage years. As a teenager, she was almost exactly like him, anxious, helpless, and clinging to the only lifeline.
There was nothing worth remembering about Tao Jinrong's childhood.
But every time she saw Gu Shi's eyes, she would think of her past self.
This could almost be called a perfect revenge, but she couldn't be happy... This feeling was very bad, like seeing a dried corpse that solidified the entire past.
She felt that it was time for Gu Shi to move on... He couldn't always be like that, neither human nor ghost, acting crazy as if he was about to perform a big show.
…
Inside the bedroom, Gu Shi made two little figures of a man and a woman out of straw, with his and Tao Jinrong's birth dates written on them respectively.
He once thought that this kind of witchcraft was ridiculous, but now he has no choice but to do this. After all, love is not like an imperial examination, and hard work will not produce results. Sometimes people have to seek help from this mysterious power.
Next, it's time to recite the prepared spell...
"What are you doing?"
A cold female voice sounded, and he was startled. Tao Jinrong took advantage of this opportunity to quickly snatch the two little figures from his hands, pinched them with two fingers in disgust, and shook them in front of his eyes.
She sneered:
"Oh, this kind of thing is useless."
Being mocked by her like this, Gu Shi felt aggrieved and said:
"I asked you what I should do, but you didn't tell me. What else can I do?"
Tao Jinrong couldn't help laughing:
"Why aren't you surprised at all that I suddenly appeared here? Aren't you curious about how I got in?"
"You can come whenever you want."
"Hahaha……"
She smiled and threw the two unlucky dolls into the charcoal stove, then reached out and pinched Gu Shi's chin, saying:
"Open your mouth."
He opened his lips obediently, but not too wide, for he was afraid that his face would be distorted by the exaggerated expression.
She reached out, unscrewed his tongue studs from both ends with a click, pulled them out, and threw them into the charcoal stove, where they would be kept company with the two unlucky dolls with their birth dates and horoscopes etched on them.
Tao Jinrong's tone was partly mocking and partly sighing:
"Stop wasting yourself like this."
After she finished speaking, she felt her nose getting sore. Someone had told her this before, and now she was saying it to him again.
It feels like a lifetime ago.
Gu Shi felt a faint smell of blood oozing from the tip of his tongue, and he just wanted to kiss her.
"If I change for the better, will you be with me again?"
She patted his shoulder and said with a smile:
"Maybe tomorrow, maybe never."
He took advantage of the situation and put his arms around her back and kissed her lips, but just when he had covered her lips with his, his lips separated as if he had been electrocuted... He let her go, tears glistening in his eyes, and passively waited for her answer.
She drawled out her voice, almost singing:
"Gu Shi, I don't need you to feel pain for me anymore."
Gu Shi clenched his fists, a layer of cold sweat seeping out of his palms:
"Don't you need me anymore?"
She suddenly narrowed her eyes and smiled, but she hadn't figured out how to answer him yet.
But she suddenly felt that maybe the idea of marrying him tomorrow spring when the roses bloomed might not be so bad.
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