Chapter 26 Chapter 26 She saw it that day, His Majesty gave her...
The little palace maid was so frightened that she almost lost her balance. She gasped, staggered and knelt on the ground.
"Your Majesty...but what did this servant do wrong to anger Your Majesty..."
Lingchuan was choked by her and couldn't say anything. The side effect of power is that it will amplify the consequences of anger.
When she was a child, there were always fierce women on the streets who would grab men and scold them. People would either turn a blind eye or just eat melon seeds and watch the show. No one ever thought there was anything wrong.
Lingchuan bit his lower lip and clenched his fists, looking at the frightened little palace maid whose face turned pale.
I thought to myself, no wonder everyone says that people in high positions of power should not show their emotions on their faces. So that's why.
Even a little bit of anger from the superior is enough to make the weak bleed dry.
She really wasn't suitable to stay here.
Lingchuan tried hard to control his temper and pretended to be tolerant and said:
"I'm not mad at you. If I thought you were wrong, I would tell you directly. I just get angry easily. You don't have to pay attention to me normally."
The young palace maid nodded repeatedly, feeling puzzled. His Majesty and the Empress had a very close relationship, so why would she be so angry?
She didn't dare to say anything, but just lowered her head and acted submissive.
Lingchuan turned her face away. She couldn't describe what she felt in her heart, she just felt sad.
The young palace maid kept calling her "Madam." She wasn't stupid; she wouldn't be so clueless about Gu Shi's thoughts. She was also deceiving herself.
Lingchuan felt extremely disgusted, as if he had punched cotton.
If Gu Shi didn't want to continue, he could just marry her off to someone else. If he was even more ruthless, he could just kill her quietly. She would then be unable to fight back against the imperial power, as she could only fight like a trapped beast.
But now that Gu Shi has bowed his head, all her previous struggles have become ungrateful. She should be deeply grateful for his devotion.
The courage she had mustered, the determination she had made, and the promises she had made to her friends, all became a joke.
That's the privilege.
Those in power can easily get everything just by bowing their heads slightly, but a beggar on the street won’t get a single look of pity even if he knocks his head.
She clutched her chest, as if an arrow had pierced through all her pain and anger, turning her emotions into dust.
"Lingchuan, why are you up so early?"
Gu Shi walked out, his hair half-covered and his eyes sparkling.
Lingchuan avoided his eyes and remained silent.
He had so easily made all her efforts go to waste...
"Why don't you get some more sleep?"
Gu Shi came over, put his arm around her shoulders and kissed her forehead.
The physical contact between them was very natural, just like a person's left hand pulling his right hand.
Lingchuan was terrified by this.
"Nothing, just got up and went out for a walk."
She pushed his hand away and said perfunctorily.
They shouldn't have been together at all, it was wrong from the beginning... They were basically two kids tasting the forbidden fruit, making one mistake after another, leading to a terrible thing.
She once thought that she had made such an irreparable mistake, but Gu Shi just brushed it off lightly. He thought that as long as he married her, all the mess would be written off, and if she made a fuss again, she would be ungrateful.
Lingchuan's teeth began to chatter.
"Gu Shi... do you want to marry me..."
Indeed, there was no deep hatred between her and Gu Shi. As long as he married her and gave her the highest honor, she could give birth to the baby in her womb and all problems would be solved.
But somehow, she wanted to hear a negative answer at this moment.
Gu Shi looked at her with some doubt and said it without thinking.
"Who else could it be? Aren't you awake yet?"
She pursed her lips, not knowing what to say.
Obviously, all the problems would be solved just by doing this, so why did she feel so uncomfortable?
Gu Shi looked at Lingchuan and had a bad feeling, and suddenly became uneasy.
"Gu Shi, I misunderstood... Actually, I always thought you were going to marry someone else, so I asked you."
Lingchuan hesitated for a few moments and spoke slowly.
Gu Shi didn't want to make the same mistake again, so he spoke before her.
"You are the only one I want to marry."
His voice was low and his expression was cold.
Lingchuan felt a strange silence. It was not that she didn't want to speak, but that she wanted to say too much, filling her throat and ultimately unable to say anything.
A strange feeling enveloped her heart, as if she was walking down a steep staircase in complete darkness. She was ready to reach the next step, but she stepped hard on the flat road, causing her knee to ache.
Her silence made him even more unhappy. He was fed up with the misunderstanding between him and Lingchuan.
"Didn't you hear me? I told you that you're the only one I want to marry. And I'm not asking for your opinion. You don't have to tell me whether you're willing to marry or not. I don't care...as long as the result is that you marry me."
"I heard it."
Lingchuan lowered his head and said nothing except these four words.
She finally knew what this strange feeling was.
Gu Shi made her feel incompetent.
Although she had no idea how power worked, she understood that the people should not fight against the officials. Even a small tax collector could make things difficult for her family, let alone the high and mighty prince. She had no power to fight him.
But she and Gu Shi were too familiar with each other. Putting aside all external conditions, she felt from the bottom of her heart that he was a beast and could not feel the slightest awe for him.
He is the person she knows best and is closest to, and he is also the most powerful person in the world who can decide her life and death.
Gu Shi is very unhappy now.
He thought Lingchuan was the one who took the initiative to marry him, so he was so happy that he almost lost himself in joy.
But I didn't expect that it was just his wishful thinking.
He hesitated, waiting for her to say yes, but she really said nothing and remained silent.
He raised his eyelids and secretly looked at her face. There was no trace of joy of falling in love on her face, nor was there any resistance to him. There was only a faint disgust, as always.
He looked down at her hand holding the teacup, her fingers trembling slightly, wondering what she was thinking at this moment.
But even if she didn't want to marry, he would never let Lingchuan go.
It is he who cannot live without Lingchuan, not Lingchuan who cannot live without him. The so-called robbery is nothing but a manifestation of incompetence and cowardice in love.
Gu Shi admitted it.
"Lingchuan, be happy..."
He reached out to touch Lingchuan's fingers. Her fingertips were hot, but the back of her hand was cold. Her fingers did not respond enthusiastically.
"Lingchuan... say something to me..."
He squeezed her fingers lightly, his tone somewhat displeased.
"oh."
Lingchuan responded somewhat reluctantly. She didn't expect Gu Shi to bring up the marriage so directly.
"Is there anything about living here that you're not used to?"
"Call Jinzhan over. Although the palace servants haven't done anything wrong, I'm used to being free and unaccustomed to the palace's rules."
She really couldn't bear to see a teenage girl kneeling down to her at every turn. She just had a bad temper, but she didn't have a habit of humiliating people. Jinzhan at least understood her.
"No matter how strict the palace rules are, they don't apply to you."
He reached out and touched her hair.
She said nothing and lowered her head.
She hated herself for being useless, but she really didn't know what she could do. She had no place to vent all her energy, and in the end she could only turn the blade inward and torture herself until she was covered in wounds.
Lingchuan opened his eyes and looked carefully at the gorgeous decoration in the palace. He felt it was so unfamiliar and curled the corners of his mouth in sarcasm.
She is just the daughter of a small restaurant owner and should not be sitting here.
No matter what, she just couldn't fit in to this place. She couldn't establish any connection with these things at all, as if her hands and feet were tied by invisible ropes.
She pulled her hand back from Gu Shi's, supported her chin, and looked at him straight in the eyes.
"Yes, you are the one who calls the shots in the palace. You indulge me, so of course I am unruly, but in essence, it is you who calls the shots."
Gu Shi felt that her gaze was like that of some cold-blooded animal. He smiled and touched her face.
"Whatever you say, we'll be married soon."
He had never been able to say this before, but now, for some reason, he wanted to say it several times, preferably so that everyone knew it.
Before, he was hesitant to take the initiative to propose marriage to Lingchuan, simply because he was afraid that her cold-blooded rejection would destroy his wishful thinking. But now the illusion of love has been shattered, and it is time for him to face reality.
After taking this step, he no longer felt afraid. After all, his feelings were clear, and now she was the one who should be afraid.
There was still a hint of disgust on her face. He didn't want to deceive himself anymore and thought that he could be indifferent to the disgust on her face, so he couldn't help but speak.
"Lingchuan, do you hate marrying me..."
This sentence sounded like some kind of coquettishness. He just wanted a few sweet words and some affirmation of love.
"Is this important to you?"
After a long silence, she spoke indifferently.
"I don't have a choice anyway."
He lowered his head as if admitting defeat.
"Your love for me has always been out of choice..."
"no."
Lingchuan's voice trembled suddenly, and then he started coughing.
She was so honest about her feelings that she was cruel. She had no way of avoiding or retreating, and could only be tortured by love and hate until she was bleeding.
She was not good at disguising herself, and Gu Shi's pleading and humble courtship turned into a torture.
"Don't ask!"
She coughed and spoke in a halting and hoarse voice.
"Don't ask!"
Gu Shi poured her a cup of tea, Lingchuan took it and drank it quickly.
He just stood beside her, looking down at her, thinking that he really didn't need to ask.
Lingchuan loves him.
He stood behind her, contentedly placing his hand gently on her throat and tracing it up and down her throat.
Now that everything has surfaced, let's speed up.
He has faced his feelings head on, and Lingchuan is not allowed to hide anymore.
He stroked her chin with a satisfied smile. He was determined to force her to say that she loved him, no matter what means.
Now it was her turn to be anxious.
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