Chapter 38 Chapter 38 I tried my best but failed
Lingchuan slapped his hand away impatiently and said:
"Gu Shi, don't bother me, I want to sleep."
"Don't you want to be close to me?"
He began to kiss the junction of her chin and neck. The skin there was very thin, and it would turn red after about three kisses.
"My mother said that I can't have sex during pregnancy."
"Did your mother tell you this?"
"How can ordinary people be so particular about things..."
Lingchuan was stunned for a moment. In the past, her mother always said that her daughter was not going to enter the palace to be an empress, so there was no need to learn all those three obediences and four virtues. She just needed to be able to read the account books and do some small business.
But now she had entered the palace by mistake and had no choice. It was really fate that played tricks on her.
She pushed his hand away.
"It really doesn't work. Don't bother me. If you don't believe me, go ask the doctor."
"But didn't you do the same thing before?"
“The past was the past, and the present is the present.”
"Don't you like me anymore?"
He insisted on kissing the skin below her collarbone, and used his teeth to gently lick and bite small kiss marks on her chest. Lingchuan was annoyed to death and slapped him in the face, but he remained indifferent and continued with his actions.
"I'm so hot, Lingchuan, just let me kiss you for a while, I can do nothing else..."
Lingchuan was really annoyed. She thought that she should either do the whole thing, since she was not afraid of it anyway, or just not kiss at all.
She was annoyed by the fact that they kept sticking to each other but doing nothing, and the fire was half lit but couldn't ignite, which only made it become boring. What's the point?
"Get lost! Don't you have arms? Go play by yourself and don't bother me. You said you'd be considerate of me this morning and acted like a decent person, but why are you showing your true colors now? I want to sleep!"
Amid Lingchuan's protests, Gu Shi had no choice but to give up and lie down beside her obediently.
To be honest, in the past six years, he and Lingchuan had done everything they could think of. It wasn't that he longed for Lingchuan physically, but that he wanted to possess her psychologically.
He just wanted to confirm that Lingchuan still belonged to him. He just wanted to do something to confirm Lingchuan's love for him.
He kissed her cheek and asked:
"Do you still love me?"
Gu Shi felt that he was a little silly. If she really loved him, how could she make him so sad? He was really asking a question even though he knew the answer.
"No love! Go to sleep quickly."
After receiving a blunt rejection, Gu Shi could only close his eyes and pretend to sleep without saying a word, but he couldn't fall asleep no matter what. His thoughts were in a mess until midnight, when he finally fell asleep in a daze.
The next day, Gu Shi went to court normally. He specifically looked to see if Qin Sizhao looked listless or had unsteady steps.
There were two dark circles under his eyes, clearly he hadn't gotten much rest last night. He must have been working hard all night...
Gu Shi couldn't help but gloat and laughed triumphantly.
Bah, with such little ability, you still dare to think about his woman.
After court, he went to the study to handle official business. Lingchuan was also there. She was sitting awkwardly, leaning on the side with a book in her hand.
She came to the study with the intention of learning something, but she couldn't get it into her head. The characters before her eyes were sometimes large, sometimes small, sometimes high, sometimes low, like a pile of unevenly arranged insects.
She was distracted three times and forced herself to look at the book, but as she read, Lingchuan began to feel sleepy. This sleepiness was not because she wanted to sleep, but because she wanted to escape from the world in the book.
After throwing the book aside, Lingchuan was no longer sleepy. She felt awake and even extremely excited. She was finally freed from the cage of densely packed words.
She began to wonder how much hardship Qin Sizhao had to endure to become the top scorer in the imperial examination. How much effort did he have to put in to memorize such a thick book?
"Lingchuan?"
She suddenly came back to her senses when Gu Shi called her.
"Gu Shi, how many books like this do you need to memorize to become the top scholar?"
She thought that Qin Sizhao must have a very good memory. Only someone with a photographic memory could remember so many densely packed small characters.
So he also remembered the innocent affection they had in their childhood and the kindness his mother had shown him.
But Qin Sizhao is also a child with a miserable life. If he can't forget those painful memories no matter what, it must be very difficult for him...
"What do you mean?"
Gu Shi's voice was full of jealousy. He keenly noticed that Lingchuan was thinking about Qin Sizhao.
He traveled thousands of miles to see her after passing the imperial examination. This kind of affection is truly remarkable.
Gu Shi sneered. She had never seen Qin Sizhao with dark circles under his eyes and unsteady steps today.
Lingchuan was suddenly jealous of him and shrank her neck back. She couldn't help feeling annoyed that she couldn't hide anything she was thinking from Gu Shi.
"Nothing, just asking."
A servant came in and saluted Gu Shi.
"Your Majesty, Lord Jiang Jiuzhou is here."
"Well, let him in."
Gu Shi sneered, and it was just right for Jiang Jiuzhou to report on Qin Sizhao's actions, so that Lingchuan could listen carefully to the shameful story behind her ideal husband.
Jiang Jiuzhou walked in and bowed to Gu Shi.
"Your Majesty."
"Well, tell me quickly, what did Qin Sizhao and his five wives and concubines do?"
Gu Shi raised his chin proudly, secretly glancing at Lingchuan from time to time.
"Your Majesty, I think that Master Qin Sizhao is a promising talent. He said that the five concubines are, after all, five poor people with no one to rely on, so it would be better to give them freedom."
"After hiring the guards, he distributed the remaining silver to his five concubines and had the guards escort them home."
"Master Qin Sizhao's character is truly excellent. He will be of great use in the future."
Jiang Jiuzhou was a simple-minded man, who didn't expect so many twists and turns. He didn't notice that Gu Shi's face was getting more and more pale, and he could hardly hold the teacup.
Lingchuan cleared his throat and said:
"Master Qin is right. Why send a bunch of poor girls to be sold? They are all raised by their parents."
Lingchuan's words immediately irritated Gu Shi. Did she mean to say that Qin Sizhao was a gentleman, and he was the only one who was a tyrant with bad character and abused the imperial power?
He didn't dare to get angry at Lingchuan, so he had to vent his anger on Jiang Jiuzhou:
"Go away. It's not your turn to interfere in the affairs of the court."
"I made a mistake..."
Jiang Jiuzhou retreated with a breath held in his throat. He didn't know how he had upset Gu Shi. Wasn't His Majesty testing whether Qin Sizhao was a promising talent?
Lingchuan couldn't help but sneered:
"Your Majesty is truly magnanimous. You deliberately pick on these poor women, sending them here and there to be sold. If you didn't know better, you'd think you were planning to open a brothel. If you're going to waste your time fighting with women, you might as well go and fight a trafficker."
Gu Shi's face turned pale and blue after being insulted by Lingchuan.
"When I have brought order to the country, people will no longer sell their children."
She sneered and said:
"I don't understand what's going on in the court, so I don't dare to comment. I just hope you won't just talk about governing the country."
She looked out the window. It was the time of spring, when the roses were already somewhat wilted.
People especially want to commit suicide in spring. It must be because they have endured the long and bleak winter and finally welcomed the spring flowers. Only then did they suddenly realize how harsh winter was and thus want to die in this spring.
She thought that Tao Jinrong's family had done Qin Sizhao a favor after all, and he might have come to repay the favor, not out of affection for her.
When they were thirteen or fourteen, they might have had a secret relationship, but the feelings they had at that time were so vague and vague now.
Lingchuan no longer remembers how she felt about Qin Sizhao when she was a child. She only remembers that when she was a child, she and Qin Sizhao went to fight with other children. She chased three boys alone and Qin Sizhao couldn't stop her.
Later, she didn't remember what happened, but her mother made the decision and arranged their marriage. Every day, she happily boasted to other children that Qin Sizhao was her husband, and others laughed at her, saying that a bandit had robbed a young girl.
At that time, Qin Sizhao was short and looked like a little girl, and Lingchuan was half a head taller than him and looked like a tomboy. But now, he has grown into a tall and handsome man, and is no longer as weak and well-behaved as before.
Lingchuan remembered that she was not very good-looking when she was a child, and it was only after she came of age that she gradually began to look like a beauty.
Qin Sizhao, does he really have any romantic feelings for Rong'er, the one who jumped around and dragged him into a fight?
But now she has indeed rekindled her feelings for him, and she is very sure that this feeling is different from the vague affection she had at the beginning.
This is the love a woman has for a man, just like looking at the moon in the sky through a thin layer of window paper.
But this affection had to be strangled and buried by her own hands as soon as it took root.
"Lingchuan."
She turned her head, and Gu Shi's gaze was always on her, like a big net that she could not escape even if she struggled to death.
She felt as if her heart was suddenly stabbed. She was Lingchuan now and could not go back to being Tao Jinrong.
Gu Shi walked over and hugged her from behind.
I am so stupid and have made so many stupid moves. Now I have shot myself in the foot and ended up slapping myself in the face.
He had to admit that he was afraid of losing to Qin Sizhao.
The more upright and fearless he is, the more petty and vindictive he appears.
Gu Shi wondered whether Qin Sizhao was so bold as to steal his wife, or whether he was so shameless as to take advantage of the situation and kidnap his fiancée?
He didn't dare to think about it too much. The more he thought about it, the more painful he felt. He had become a villain who bullied men and women.
"As long as he gives up, I won't make things difficult for him. I'm not a narrow-minded person."
"do not you?"
Lingchuan asked back.
"But any man would go crazy if faced with something like this. I've been very restrained... I restrained my murderous intent not because I'm a gentleman, but because I want you to think I'm a gentleman."
He held her hand and spoke sincerely.
After he finished speaking, his expression changed again. He gritted his teeth secretly, the corners of his mouth pulled down, and a nervous red appeared in the whites of his eyes.
"If it were someone else who was really ruthless, he would have killed both of you long ago."
"Kill us, and remember to bury us both in the same grave."
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