Chapter 116 The Absoluteness of Effort, the Relativity of Love
She first talked about Song Size's honesty and character, and Song Size then told her in person his views on this marriage.
Song Size said to Zhan Qingning:
"At first, when Grandpa suddenly asked me to marry into the Zhan family, I was surprised."
"My parents asked me if I was still willing. They had been living in harmony with each other all along, so naturally they hoped that I could marry my sweetheart and not ruin a girl's life."
"For the first twenty years of my life, my mind wasn't preoccupied with romantic relationships. At that moment, you could call me cold-blooded or rational. But it wasn't completely unexpected."
"I know very well that there aren't many families in Qingnan that can match the status of the Zhan family. Whether it's sincere or expedient, I will take it seriously. Women are always at a disadvantage in this regard. Since you've become my wife, I will protect you and give you dignity and respect."
I listened carefully and attentively.
Song Size's words were true but also complicated. The sense of responsibility and duty he expressed in his last sentence was almost identical to the promise Zhou Junheng made to her on the day he proposed to her.
But it is the only thing that does not reflect love.
What she cared about most was that Song Size was going to love Zhan Qingning, so she was about to break down.
Zhan Qingning also couldn't deny that she had the same mentality at the beginning -
Treat each other with respect and treat each other with equal respect.
Shi Ye was almost crying, Zhan Qingning was at a loss whether to laugh or cry, and told her not to cry.
The story wasn't even finished yet, and she was about to burst into tears.
I quickly explained to Shi Ye: "We are in love now, we are slowly falling in love, but we are not in the same mindset as we were at the beginning."
"You didn't lie to me, did you?" Shi Ye blinked his big eyes blankly, as if to confirm.
Zhan Qingning nodded.
"You have to listen to the whole thing. Why are you still the same as before? Don't cry. I promise I haven't been wronged in any way. I'll tell you slowly."
Shiye nodded, "Okay, you tell me, I won't cry anymore——"
Zhan Qingning just talked about every little detail of her time with Song Size:
I couldn't find the shawl I wore on the first night we got married. We weren't that familiar with each other at that time, but he saw that I was in a bad mood, so he suggested taking a detour and buying me another one since I liked it.
Whenever I ate with him, I never picked up the bag again.
When he got up and went to the company, he subconsciously turned his head and tucked in the quilt with his gentle movements.
He would apologize to me for the unexpected but busy schedule during our honeymoon, and repeatedly told me to take care of my health, but he himself had lost a lot of weight.
He didn't want me to have a headache from drinking too much before bed so he switched to a drink of a similar color.
He would also apologize for being rude and rude when drunk.
After he bought me flowers for the first time, I never stopped buying roses from Qingnan and even bought me a whole camellia garden.
When I was feeling down after watching a movie, he would empathize and understand me, but at the same time he would also guide me to another perspective.
He has never queued for Sunset Rollercoaster in Hong Kong. I told him it was a great atmosphere, but he remained patient.
He was too considerate of my emotions and feelings. When it came to the implementation of the supercomputing project that he cared about the most, he was reluctant to let me go back to the Zhan family and make things difficult for them. It was even just a matter of a word. The original intention of the marriage was to exchange interests, and when it was really necessary, he was afraid of making me sad.
He would adjust his itinerary when he saw my smiling face when I talked about my travels. He always felt that he didn't spend enough time with me.
Take me to Yunnan and take me sea fishing.
Take me hiking, camping together...
There were also problems in the company, and he was always the one to clean up the mess. Other friends would also ask him for help, and he never refused.
No one has ever heard him swear outside.
He really is that good and thornless.
Some people in the business world might say that he is heartless, but since our marriage, he has always cared for and respected me.
He is so good, how could I not love him and open my heart to him?
Shi Ye burst into tears again. She wiped her tears with a tissue and explained to Zhan Qingning, "I'm not crying because I'm sad this time. I'm very happy. I'm happy."
Zhan Qingning could only smile at the little girl, feeling both distressed and helpless.
"You, you~" There's nothing I can do about her.
Shi Ye's eyes were still a little red, but she was even happier for Zhan Qingning:
"Ningning, do you know?"
"Um?"
Shi also talked about her idealism: "In this vast sea of people, even if we just pass by each other, we need to pray to the Buddha for five hundred years. To fall in love and possess each other is even more of a great fate."
"We all know that while effort and hard work are absolute, success is still relative. Not everything will go as planned, and it's so difficult to achieve what you want, so it's all the more precious."
Shi also added, "Also, I always feel that everything is in our hands. It's not that we don't have a destiny, it's just that we don't want to. Why use the word 'fate' as an excuse for separation and reunion?"
"So, I am really happy for your relationship." Her bright smile dazzled Zhan Qingning. She was really happy for her. The smile was too dazzling and too bright.
Zhan Qingning knew this when she was in school:
Knowing that Shi Ye’s view on love is always so clear and pure, I feel distressed as well.
She's good, very good even—
Depend but not cling, be gentle but not weak, love but not obsessive, be independent but not forceful, be autonomous but not selfish.
So she was even more worried about whether she, who was so clear-headed and lonely, would still be alone in the world in the future?
She really hoped that there was someone who could see through her stubbornness, accept all the heartbreaking past of the little girl, and stay with her.
So it’s Zhou Junheng, right?
"So Xiao Ye, are you willing to tell me about you and him?"
Shi Ye didn't refuse. She blinked slowly and said, "Then I'll tell you everything from the very beginning, bit by bit. But I'll tell you right at the beginning that I love him very much now."
"At first, I was probably more of a surprise. Like you, I felt that although we didn't have feelings for each other, we could still treat each other with respect and avoid any major mistakes."
"That's exactly what I did. I told him to put his work first and not have to change anything because of me..."
"We can read together in the study, and stay up all night talking about business or small matters, but we can't cross certain boundaries."
"Because I know I can't be like a real couple and ask him to coax me, put me first, pamper me and love me. After all, we have no feelings for each other."
"I hope he is like this too, because after all, this is the safest way for both of us."
"Though it seems like stagnant water without any waves."
"But I gradually realized that he didn't seem to be like that, um...right."
"He wants me to have a temper with him, to have demands on him, and to expect him to do something..."
Zhan Qingning's anxious heart finally relaxed a little:
Although Shi Ye just wanted to live a peaceful life, this guy probably wanted to find a partner and fall in love, so Zhou Junheng was quite proactive.
Shi Ye continued:
"The first time he tried to persuade me to include him in my husband's responsibilities, to trouble him and to make demands on him, I generally brushed it off, still going my own way, hoping for non-interference, and I pushed him away."
"Then the next time I pushed him out, he got a little sulky. I reflected on it and realized I was actually doing it properly, in an orderly manner, and without any faults... So I kind of understood our disagreement:"
"He wants me to care about him, to keep him in my heart, to value him emotionally. But what I do is never make mistakes with him, and to hold him high, then keep him at a distance, respecting and avoiding him. He wants me to bother him, but this is the mentality that only comes from someone who loves and cares about another person."
Zhan Qingning probably understood that Zhou Junheng's marriage was probably not a arranged marriage, but had been planned for a long time.
The two of them are blessed with a perfect match and should be living a happy life. The male protagonist is even more obsessed with love, while Shi Ye just wants to swipe his credit card to spend money, which is why the above situation has occurred.
Because when treating each other with respect becomes a shackle, then propriety is the gentlest violence!
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