Chapter 43 Chapter 43 The word love sometimes seems...
The word love seems to be easy to say.
"Mom and Dad also said they love me." Fang Shimian relaxed and leaned back into Huo Zhongshan's broad and warm embrace.
"They also said that they were the people who loved me the most in the world... Huo Zhongshan, I don't know."
Fang Shimian didn't understand why the love his parents gave him was so heavy and so painful.
When his mother hugged him and cried, he wanted to look up to comfort her, but what he saw was a pair of eyes full of hatred.
To the extent that he often cannot tell the dividing line between love and hate. The book says that everyone expresses love in different ways, just like when Fang Shimian loves his parents, he doesn't want to see their sad expressions.
When he was in pain, he always told himself that severity was also an expression of love, but it was not until now that he realized that disgust could also be expressed in severity.
Huo Zhongshan hugged Fang Shimian, with many emotions surging in his heart. He wanted Fang Shimian to completely dispel all his fantasies about his parents.
Just like him, if he didn't care, he wouldn't feel any pain. But the words 'they don't love you at all' were like a red-hot iron, making it impossible for him to say it to the other person.
Even though this is a fact that everyone knows.
When a couple of parents attribute all the failed marriage and stress of life to their ignorant children, then their belated feelings are not love at all, but guilt after causing irreparable harm to their children.
Not to mention, Fang Shimian's parents simply resented him, and even guilt was scarce.
Huo Zhongshan only hated himself for being helpless when he was young, and also hated his indifference and paranoia at that time. He didn't know what else he could give Fang Shimian. He only said, "I will give you everything you want. Don't be afraid."
No matter what the words are, they are easy to say, but Huo Zhongshan has always been reluctant to say them and only proves them with actions.
"You lied to me." Fang Shimian said suddenly.
Huo Zhongshan paused for a moment, then said immediately, "I'm sorry. Brother Huo apologizes to you. Can you forgive me?"
Fang Shimian lowered his head and thought for a while, then reached out and touched Huo Zhongshan's chest, "I forgive you, can you please not lie to me in the future?"
"I'll never lie to you."
Fang Shimian asked again: "Why do you keep me locked up?"
Huo Zhongshan was silent for a moment, "I'm afraid you'll move away, and I can't bear to let you go."
“I’m very reluctant to leave.”
"But you seldom come to see me. Is it because you are very busy recently?" Fang Shimian rubbed his head against Huo Zhongshan's neck, exploring around like a little animal.
Huo Zhongshan was silent for a longer time this time before he said, "When I'm with you, I can't help but control you. I'm afraid you don't like it and I'm afraid I'll hurt you."
"Control?" Fang Shimian thought for a while before looking up at Huo Zhongshan and tilting his head to ask, "Is it because you feel insecure?"
Huo Zhongshan didn't say anything this time, he just looked at Fang Shimian quietly.
Fang Shimian thought about it for a while and felt that Huo Zhongshan was actually the same as him. He was very pitiful, so he tentatively kissed the man on the face and said, "Then you control me."
"Do I have to wear handcuffs all the time?" Fang Shimian raised his hands and shook them. He had seen criminal suspects in TV dramas being controlled this way.
Huo Zhongshan stared at him, breathing heavily but with a calm look in his eyes. "Are you sure? Mianmian, don't make promises about things you can't keep."
"Sure." Fang Shimian shrunk back to Huo Zhongshan's shoulder and said slowly: "I will treat you well."
"I won't lie."
"I will work and make a lot of money, give you a lot of love, and a lot of security."
"real."
The man silently curved his lips, gently lifted Fang Shimian's face, and leaned over to kiss his flushed forehead.
He kissed those white and beautiful hands again, from the fingertips to the palms, looking very pious and obsessed.
Fang Shimian was tired from crying today. Listening to the sound of burning wood, he fell asleep peacefully in Huo Zhongshan's arms.
The next morning, Fang Shimian woke up and found that his eyes felt cold and had a slight smell of medicine. He put his hand on his eyes and felt around, but before he could figure out what it was, his hand was taken away.
In the soft and dim light, Fang Shimian saw Huo Zhongshan's handsome face and his smiling eyes.
"Good morning." Fang Shimian's brain hadn't fully woken up yet, and he still felt a little uncomfortable thinking about what happened last night.
But when he saw Huo Zhongshan so close to him, he naturally kissed the man on the face, then reached out to hug him, closed his eyes and went back to sleep.
Huo Zhongshan leaned down and kissed the boy's smooth forehead.
After a while, the man pinched Fang Shimian's neck and asked, "Mianmian, what am I to you?"
Fang Shimian closed his eyes and leaned against Huo Zhongshan's warm chest. After thinking for a while, he muttered, "The important person is my boyfriend."
"Good boy." Huo Zhongshan touched Shi Mian's furry head with satisfaction. "I'm going to work at the company. Do you want to go with me?"
Fang Shimian opened his eyes, thought for a moment, and said, "Maybe I should go find a job."
Huo Zhongshan looked at Fang Shimian without saying anything.
Fang Shimian felt that Huo Zhongshan was a little clingy, but inexplicably found him cute, so he could only slowly fumble his way out of the bed and said, "Okay, I'll go with you."
The curtains in the house opened automatically, letting in sunlight, and the lights in the room turned on one by one.
Only then did Fang Shimian see the bedroom clearly. It was very big, but empty. There was nothing in it, and there was no trace of life.
After Huo Zhongshan and Fang Shimian finished washing up, they pushed the door and walked out of the bedroom. The space outside was a complete and wide space. The load-bearing columns were used as decorations and were well hidden. A huge circular sofa surrounded the black screen on the wall.
It was very spacious, and Fang Shimian really wanted to roll around in that large open space.
The cloakroom was like a clothing store that had been moved directly to the home, with leisure and business items divided into categories, and each type of accessory had a dedicated area. Because there were too many accidents yesterday, Huo Zhongshan didn't have time to ask someone to put Fang Shimian's clothes up. He looked at Fang Shimian and wanted him to wear his own clothes.
But there is a big difference in their body sizes. Huo Zhongshan is 1.9 meters tall, while Fang Shimian is 1 centimeter short of 1.8 meters. However, Fang Shimian is only 18 years old, and he will definitely grow taller after he gets better. There will always be a chance in the future.
The clothes are matched by the life assistant according to today's itinerary.
Huo Zhongshan put on his clothes and tied a tie. Fang Shimian was originally at the elevator entrance getting clothes brought by the servant. He came back happily, turned around and saw that Huo Zhongshan had tied his tie, and stopped smiling all of a sudden.
The handsome and delicate boy was holding a pile of clothes, muttering something to himself. He was extremely cute.
Huo Zhongshan looked at him for a while, stretched out his hand to tear off the tie and threw it aside, his expression calm: "This one doesn't look good, Shi Mian, help me pick one."
Fang Shimian's eyes suddenly lit up, he ran to where the ties were placed, carefully selected a dark red embroidered tie, brought it to Huo Zhongshan, and looked at him eagerly.
Huo Zhongshan couldn't help but smile and lowered his head to make it easier for the little guy to show off his skills.
Fang Shimian tied his tie skillfully and felt that he had done a good job this time. Looking left and right, he felt that he was very good and should not be disliked, so he looked up at Huo Zhongshan again.
The man looked very satisfied. He leaned over and kissed Fang Shimian on the forehead, "You're great, baby."
Fang Shimian felt a little embarrassed by the compliment, and followed Huo Zhongshan for a while. When Huo Zhongshan was helping him put on his clothes, he suddenly put his arms around the man's waist, hugged him tightly, blushed and said slowly: "Then I will tie your tie every day from now on."
The boy's face and ears turned red, and his innocent side always appeared in unexpected places for Huo Zhongshan, which was novel and particularly interesting, making people unable to let go and fall deeper and deeper into him.
Huo Zhongshan chuckled and said, "Okay."
The two entered the elevator. Fang Shimian saw that they were now on the sixth floor. There was a seventh floor on the elevator. Fang Shimian pointed to the ⑦ button and asked, "Is this the secret base?"
"right."
The elevator reached the basement floor, and Huo Zhongshan led Fang Shimian out. However, this time there were bodyguards watching, and Ming Ke was also there. He nodded at Fang Shimian, and Fang Shimian immediately felt embarrassed and tried to pull his hand away, but of course he failed.
When they arrived at the company, Fang Shimian followed Huo Zhongshan into the exclusive elevator, only to find out that the building actually had 45 floors, but the button on the elevator used by employees only went up to the 43rd floor.
Huo Zhongshan is very focused when he is at work. The whole morning is filled with continuous important meetings. Some important decisions require a long discussion. If a controversy arises, a second round of meetings may be required.
While Huo Zhongshan was in a meeting, Fang Shimian sat on the sofa, eating snacks and watching movies. He watched Ming Ke and two other assistants continuously delivering documents, and a small hill of documents was piled up on the empty desk.
Fang Shimian first went to find Senior Brother An Guo and spent 999 yuan to light a longevity lamp for Huo Zhongshan and placed it in front of the Ksitigarbha Temple.
Then, Fang Shimian began to search for Hengshi Group on his mobile phone. After browsing slowly for a while, Ming Ke came in and asked Fang Shimian if he wanted to go to the indoor sports field downstairs to play for a while.
Because the last meeting of the morning has been extended, lunch time may be pushed back a bit.
The webpage with the lengthy text introduction was closed. Fang Shimian shook his head at Ming Ke, saying that he wanted to sleep for a while, and then entered Huo Zhongshan's exclusive lounge.
Fang Shimian didn't go to bed. He took off his shoes and slept on the sofa, closing his eyes and thinking about things.
Half an hour later, he opened his eyes, took out his mobile phone from his bag, and deleted the three recruitment software at a very slow and painstaking pace. After deleting them, he closed his eyes and thought for a few minutes, and then deleted all the games and short video software.
When Huo Zhongshan came in looking for someone, Fang Shimian was staring at the empty screen of his mobile phone. It was not until someone rubbed his head that he put down the phone and slowly sat up from the sofa. He looked at Huo Zhongshan and subconsciously clasped his hands.
Huo Zhongshan didn't say anything. He just stood in front of Fang Shimian, rubbing the boy's head from time to time, waiting for him to speak.
"Brother Huo," Fang Shimian clasped his hands, his expression difficult and tangled, and after a while he said, "Can I still take the college entrance examination this year?"
This was certainly not a difficult task for Huo Zhongshan, but he did not answer immediately. Instead, he asked, "Did anyone come into my office and say anything to you?"
Fang Shimian shook his head quickly. Huo Zhongshan pulled him up from the sofa, looked at the hand that was full of marks from being pinched, and gently rubbed it. "You can participate next year. The pressure won't be that great."
It was already March now, and Huo Zhongshan had looked at Fang Shimian's transcript for his senior year mock exam. The score was 512, and there was basically no hope for him to get into a good undergraduate program in China through the national college entrance examination. In addition, he still had more than half a year to study, so it would be a bit difficult for him to catch up in three months.
"I want to try." Fang Shimian looked at Huo Zhongshan, "My worst subject before was math, mainly because I was slow at it, but these few days I did some exercises on my phone, and my speed... is okay."
Hearing this, Huo Zhongshan stopped talking nonsense. If the results were not satisfactory, he could just go abroad, but the time they would spend together would be much less...
"If you don't want to go to school, I'll find a teacher for you and you can have the class on this floor. Is that okay with you?" Huo Zhongshan took Fang Shimian downstairs in the elevator.
Fang Shimian nodded, and suddenly seemed to remember something. He looked down at his wrist, took a step closer to Huo Zhongshan, and asked curiously, "Brother Huo, why don't you control me?"
He really wanted to give Huo Zhongshan enough sense of security.
Under the indescribable gaze of the tall and handsome man, the pretty and innocent boy tilted his head, his eyebrows curved, pure and flawless.
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