The emotion in Su Zhimeng's eyes made Bai Ye's heart tremble.
That hesitant look made Bai Ye even more heartbroken.
He had long noticed Su Zhimeng's attitude towards him, but he was just deceiving himself with the excuse that the two were so different that it was impossible.
He feared that in the end he would be the clown, so he preferred to ignore it and not think about it, so that he wouldn't suffer that sad ending.
This is Baiye's consistent style.
But now, Su Zhimeng's attitude towards him has always been different from her attitude towards others.
Su Zhimeng is truly a very gentle girl. He once thought that such a girl would be gentle to anyone, but he wasn't the special one.
Just like what Teacher Da said:
I hate gentle girls.
A gentle girl is gentle to everyone, but I mistakenly thought she was only gentle to me. I became complacent and carried away, which led to a falling out and both of us getting hurt.
If the truth is cruel, then lies must be gentle. So gentleness is a lie. Time and time again I expect, only to be disappointed. I don't know when it started, but I stopped having any hope.
He always regarded every word his teacher said as gospel, and deeply believed that they contained endless wisdom and philosophy, like a beacon in the darkness.
Just then, Su Zhimeng, without realizing it, quietly clenched her delicate little fists.
It was as if an invisible force was tightly gripping her heartstrings, and that unyielding obsession lingered in her heart like smoke, never dissipating.
Her lips trembled slightly as she finally mustered the courage to ask, "Junior, do you... have a girl you like?"
The voice was not loud, but it was full of anticipation and nervousness.
Upon hearing this, Bai Ye was taken aback at first, then his face showed a matter-of-fact expression, and he answered without hesitation:
"Of course! Anyone would be fond of a gentle, kind, beautiful girl like you, senior."
However, this answer seems so broad that it appears to respond to a universal feeling that encompasses everyone, without clearly distinguishing between liking and loving, or defining the subtle differences between individuals and groups.
Su Zhimeng naturally understood the hidden meaning behind this, and she knew she shouldn't press the matter any further.
Although reason told her to know when to stop, the uncontrollable concern in her heart surged like a tidal wave, constantly assaulting her fragile defenses.
In fact, ever since she realized her true feelings for Bai Ye, she couldn't help but pay extra attention to him.
Whenever she saw Bai Ye interacting intimately with other girls, her mood would instantly plummet, as if shrouded in gloom.
When she sees Bai Ye smiling and full of joy, she can't help but be infected by it, as if she is basking in warm sunshine and sharing in her happiness.
And so, without realizing it, all of Su Zhimeng's emotional ups and downs had become closely intertwined with her junior, Bai Ye.
Whether it was joy or sorrow, happiness or pain, her sensitive and passionate heart resonated strongly with Bai Ye's every move.
Before she knew it, she found herself eagerly anticipating every encounter with that junior.
Every noon, when her junior classmate enthusiastically came to tutor her, that thin piece of paper seemed to transform into an invaluable admission ticket, allowing her to see her beloved junior classmate every day.
From a rational perspective, she naturally hoped that her junior's studies would improve day by day and flourish. However, a little bit of her own selfish desire was also quietly mixed into this beautiful hope—she longed to have more time alone with her junior.
At this moment, Su Zhimeng pursed her lips, slightly raised her head, looked directly at Bai Ye, and asked softly:
"Junior, I just want to ask you, is there a girl in your heart that you want to spend your life with and entrust your life to?"
Hearing this, Bai Ye couldn't help but show a wry smile, shook his head helplessly, and replied, "Senior, the phrase 'entrust one's life' isn't usually used to describe boys, is it?"
However, Su Zhimeng did not offer any rebuttal or explanation in response to Bai Ye's words.
She simply stared intently into his eyes, as if trying to discern his truest thoughts through those deep gazes.
Seeing this, Bai Ye's expression instantly turned somewhat bitter. He slightly turned his head away, avoiding Su Zhimeng's burning gaze, and then, as if suddenly remembering something, quickly said:
"Hey, senior, let's not discuss this for now, let's do some problems instead!"
Clearly, he was trying to ease the slightly awkward atmosphere by changing the subject.
Su Zhimeng already understood Bai Ye's obvious avoidance.
Although a hint of disappointment was visible on her face, she still maintained her composure and refinement.
Since her junior chose to avoid the topic, she naturally wouldn't press him for a definitive answer.
Su Zhimeng smiled and said softly, "Junior, please sit down and start working on the problems. If you encounter any difficulties, feel free to come and ask me."
Her gentle gaze fell on Bai Ye, as if giving him boundless encouragement and support.
Bai Ye nodded after hearing this and softly replied, "Mm!" Then she obediently sat down at the table, ready to start solving the problem.
However, as time passed, Bai Ye found himself increasingly out of sorts. Despite the problem right in front of him, his mind felt shrouded in a fog, and he couldn't concentrate on thinking at all.
At this moment, Su Zhimeng's words kept echoing in his mind—
Her words lingered like a demonic chant.
The more Bai Ye tried to focus on the problem, the more chaotic her thoughts became.
He couldn't help but start to have wild thoughts, and his mood became complicated.
At first, when Bai Ye realized that the beautiful, charming, and popular senior actually had feelings for him, he felt an indescribable joy. After all, it was truly flattering that such an outstanding girl as his senior would favor someone as insignificant as him.
But then, a deep sorrow welled up in my heart.
Not long ago, he had made a promise to another girl, saying he would take full responsibility for her. Now, faced with his senior's sudden affection, he felt incredibly conflicted and torn.
And so, Bai Ye unknowingly fell into a long daze, completely forgetting everything around her...
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