No further mishaps occurred on the way to see Ye Qingcheng off.
After watching Ye Qingcheng open the door and go inside, Bai Ye also turned and left.
Ye Qingcheng leaned against the door and looked through the crack at the figure waiting for the elevator outside.
There are some things she can never say, things that she keeps bottled up inside for a long, long time.
When they start their junior year, they will be doing internships, and they will see each other less and less.
So their sophomore year was basically the time they spent the most time together.
How long can this drag on?
She murmured to herself, "Should I take the initiative?"
As for getting Bai Ye to take the initiative, that would be harder than climbing to heaven.
Having spent so much time together, she had come to understand what kind of person Bai Ye was.
People with avoidant personality disorder often conceal their emotions, yearning to connect with others yet fearing emotional risks.
In reality, it's because they lacked recognition in their childhood and were rejected and controlled by their parents in their youth, which led them to subconsciously distrust themselves, be very cautious in everything they did, and be able to make friends with many people but not many close ones.
On the surface, Bai Ye always seems to be smiling, but in reality, he is very lonely inside.
Although Bai Ye sometimes acts in a frivolous manner in front of him, she knows in her heart that Bai Ye is just trying to liven up the atmosphere, or deliberately using this method to amuse her and divert her attention when she is in a bad mood.
Bai Ye is actually very gentle. When she is with him, she feels particularly relaxed. She can confide her troubles to him, and he will listen and give his opinion, but he will not interfere with her decisions.
It turns out that Bai Ye has so many good qualities. She has never thought about Bai Ye's goodness so seriously before. In the past, her impression of Bai Ye was only that of a pervert and an old lecher.
The more she thought about it, the hotter her face became. Why was she inexplicably infatuated?
It's all Bai Ye's fault!
...
The elevator ride down was long. Bai Ye's expression was calm, but she was thinking a lot.
Ye Qingcheng's emotional outburst this time, and the way she turned away and cried in front of him, deeply moved him.
He really didn't know how to respond, whether it was to her or Yao Xialuo.
He knew that the longer it dragged on, the more burden it would be on them.
They have the best years of their lives ahead of them and shouldn't be tied down to him.
That's what he was thinking, but he couldn't bear to part with them; it was a very complicated inner struggle.
His subconscious thought was to escape.
But can I really ignore their undisguised feelings time and time again?
He had a crush on someone when he was young, but the unrequited love ended without a trace, which was a regret of his youth.
In junior high school, he fell in love with a girl in his class. He did some silly things to attract her attention, but the girl didn't even glance at him. She treated everyone the same.
Bai Ye kept her crush to herself and didn't reveal her feelings until graduation.
Bai Ye knew that the girl had no feelings for him, and that he wouldn't succeed even if he confessed.
Some people say, "So what if you fail? At least you tried and won't have any regrets."
But for Bai Ye, it was a doomed failure, and trying was pointless.
At that time, reason undoubtedly prevailed over emotion, and he thought he would continue to be rational in that way.
Until he met Yao Yuyan, his emotions overcame his rationality when he was with her.
But now, reason has taken over again.
There are some things you may like, but you don't necessarily have to own them.
This is what Bai Ye is thinking right now.
Do you really think he has absolutely no feelings for them? That's impossible.
But he didn't dare to gamble; he felt that human nature was not something to be trusted.
People change, love changes, everything changes.
His mind is unsettled as he cannot guarantee that things will remain unchanged.
Because he was afraid of losing it, he dared not try and subconsciously chose emotional isolation.
In the end, he was just a selfish person who only thought about himself.
Bai Ye couldn't help but laugh at himself.
...
The time has come to 11:40
Su Zhimeng had already arrived at the study room. Seeing that Bai Ye hadn't arrived yet, she assumed he was delayed by something, so she sent him a message and waited for him to arrive.
She yawned wearily, her eyelids feeling heavy.
Thinking that his junior hadn't arrived yet, he decided to lie down and rest for a while.
Gradually, Su Zhimeng drifted off to sleep.
When Bai Ye arrived at the outside of the study room and pushed the door open, he found that Angel Senior seemed to be asleep at the table.
He tiptoed inside, afraid of making a loud noise that would wake her.
Because of the cold weather, Baiye went home to get a coat, so she arrived a little late.
He sat next to the angelic senior, gazing intently at her pretty face.
Su Zhimeng was sleeping with her head resting on her arm, so her face was facing Bai Ye.
Bai Ye could better admire her senior's pretty face.
Just looking at Bai Ye's pretty face gave her a feeling of healing, though it might just be psychological.
Although the air conditioning was on in the study room, it wasn't on for very long, and it was still a bit cold inside.
He noticed that Su Zhimeng was curling up from time to time, and knew that she was a little cold.
Bai Ye was glad that she had brought a coat with her when she went home.
Bai Ye took off his coat and gently covered her with it.
Hopefully, this will dispel the chill.
Then they raised the temperature of the study room's air conditioning by a few degrees.
After doing all that, Bai Ye didn't know what else to do.
I originally came here to receive one-on-one tutoring from my senior, but she actually fell asleep.
The senior looked very tired, and Bai Ye couldn't bear to disturb her.
Bai Ye hadn't slept well that morning either, and was also a bit sleepy =_=.
So he also lay down on the table facing Su Zhimeng.
Facing each other, Bai Ye couldn't help but blush, feeling that this situation was not quite right.
But looking at my senior's face made me feel inexplicably at ease.
Moreover, he wouldn't dare stare at his senior like this if she weren't asleep. Now that she's asleep, he can enjoy her without restraint.
This was the first time Bai Ye had ever seen Su Zhimeng sleeping.
The senior student was naturally beautiful, had a good personality, and a gentle temperament.
Bai Ye thought to herself: I could watch it for a lifetime and never get tired of it.
To be honest, he had a bit of an urge to reach out and poke the senior's face. He felt that her cheeks would be incredibly smooth and feel wonderful to the touch.
The moment the thought crossed Bai Ye's mind, he wanted to slap himself.
What inhuman words! How could you do such a thing to an angel!
Gradually, Bai Ye also drifted off to sleep.
The room was clearly meant for studying, but two people were sleeping there at the same time.
Fortunately, the study room only started charging when they left, so no one bothered them.
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