Chapter 29: Admit Defeat

What kind of person should I like?

Yin Jiu had also thought about this question.

But probably, he will be a very good person.

If given a choice, who wouldn't want a more perfect lover? Yin Jiu felt like a vulgar person.

When he was young, his ideal lover should be passionate. She or he would be like a ray of sunshine, bringing him vitality and energy and illuminating his gloomy life.

When he gets older, he starts to prefer quiet and emotionally stable people. They can rely on each other and don't need too much passion, as long as they can comfort each other.

But whether young or old, Yin Jiu never met the right person.

It's not that he hasn't met outstanding people before, but Yin Jiu knows his own temperament very well. He is independent and domineering, hot and cold towards people, suspicious, and intermittently a homebody.

Just imagine that the lover who was very affectionate to you yesterday ignores you today. People are emotional animals, and if this goes on for a long time, I guess no one will be able to stand him.

So Yin Jiu gave up later, thinking it would be better to get a pet. Dogs are too noisy, so cats are just right.

It’s best to have a bad temper, be less clingy, and be a little cool.

He won't abandon the cat just because it has a bad temper, and the cat won't leave him just because he is moody.

fine.

After completing the transaction with the system, Yin Jiu also thought that if he really couldn't find anyone interested, he might as well get another cat. After all, the system didn't say that the mission target must be a human, and the cross-species love group shouldn't mind adding him.

But he still wanted to give it a try, to find that person and leave his life and death to him.

——If you love me, I will live; if you don’t love me, I will die.

It's that simple. Having a love affair with no way out and risking your life is a kind of romance, no matter whether you win or lose in the end.

But this candidate should not be Ning Changyue.

He shouldn't be such a mediocre, ordinary, a little dumb, a little silly, and someone who is far from his ideal type.

Yin Jiu had a thousand reasons to deny this person. You see, this person usually doesn't talk much, is not sunny at all, not humorous, and not witty.

He doesn't seem to be very smart. He dropped out of school at a young age and has a bleak future. He doesn't seem to have a correct sense of right and wrong. He can't take good care of himself. He won't even pick the bones when eating fish and won't fight back when being bullied.

Being in love with him is very tiring, as you have to take care of him all the time.

But... no matter how many reasons there were, Yin Jiu was very clear about one fact -

Yin Jiu was afraid that Ning Changyue would be happy.

Yes, he was afraid of him.

Whenever he got close to Ning Changyue, Yin Jiu would feel uneasy. The feeling was hard to describe. It was like seeing a poisonous apple covered with honey, or like falling from a high altitude, and what was waiting for him was not a life-saving net, but a spider web, which would shatter him if he got close.

Dangerous, yet... tempting.

It's ridiculous. What is there about Ning Changyue that can attract him?

Is it because she is good-looking? Because she has a nice voice? Because she looks good when she cries? Because the way he looks at her is always teasing him?

Yin Jiuxin said: Damn it! Damn it! I even deceived myself.

I found so many reasons to belittle him, but I am just interested in this person.

So I deserve to die.

"Have you thought about it?" the system urged.

Yin Jiu said, "Let's choose him."

The system asks: "Who?"

Yin Jiu accepted his fate and said, "Ning Changyue."

At this time, several hours had passed outside.

It was late at night and the man at the end of the bed was no longer standing there stupidly, but it didn't make any difference. He just moved to the bedside, sat upright on a stool and stared at Yin Jiu's face.

The other two beds in the ward were empty, but he didn't seem to want to go and rest for a while. He rarely even blinked and just kept staring.

Like waiting for a miracle, or a declaration.

Outside the mirror, after hearing the name given by Yin Jiu, the system had a feeling that it was as expected, and laughed, "I asked you several times before whether you liked him, and you lied to me. Now you finally stop pretending, right?"

"I am indeed interested in him, but I can't really say that I like him." Yin Jiu was frank now. He felt that he had at most a good impression of Ning Changyue, but it was not yet love.

The system sneered, “Hehe.”

The two of them watched from a third angle for a while through the mirror, and the system said, "Since you have made your choice, our contract is officially established."

"I will go into hibernation from now on, but you can still check my love value and plot completeness in real time. Yin Jiu, my friend, I wish you good luck."

Yin Jiu said: "Thank you, and I wish you a sweet dream too."

…

After returning to his body, Yin Jiu did not open his eyes immediately.

It's really strange that I feel a little nervous at this moment. I don't know how to face Ning Changyue.

Even rarely, I began to question myself.

Is this the right choice?

Is it worth it to entrust your life and death to this man and risk everything? Is he worth it?

Then, in the midst of this uncertainty of self-doubt and doubt of others, he felt a warm breath hitting his neck.

Ning Changyue lay on Yin Jiu's neck and sniffed something gently. Then, as if he had confirmed some information, his back, which had been supported all night, suddenly bent down, and he lay weakly on Yin Jiu's chest.

In just a moment, his silent tears turned into soft sobs.

But it seemed that he was trying hard to restrain himself, so the sound he made was only half-spoken before being swallowed back.

The warm tears fell on the lapels of my clothes, quickly soaking the fabric. They stuck to my skin and felt a little sticky. It was not a pleasant feeling.

"Why are you crying? I'm not dead." Yin Jiu curled his lips and wanted to smile, but found that he couldn't smile.

Why is this child crying so sadly? It seems that they haven't spoken to each other for many times, and he hasn't given any ambiguous signals.

He cried so sadly that Yin Jiu's hesitation just now seemed particularly despicable.

Damn it!

Yin Jiu cursed himself like this once again.

Without further hesitation, Yin Jiu raised his other arm and before it landed on Ning Changyue's hair, he changed it to the back of her neck.

This is more of a signal of intimacy than just the comfort of stroking someone's hair.

The hot palms touched the cool skin, and the person lying in the arms also calmed down.

After a moment, a tearful face looked up.

Those beautiful eyes soaked in tears looked straight at Yin Jiu, as if waiting for an explanation.

What should I say? Yin Jiu asked himself.

Usually a very talkative person, at this moment he couldn't think of what to say, so Yin Jiu just remained silent and used his fingertips to wipe the remaining tear marks on Ning Changyue's face.

Yin Jiu had never touched anyone's face like this before. It felt delicate and soft. Ning Changyue looked thin and small, with a pointed chin and a small face, but she felt quite fleshy to the touch.

When he realized he had stayed too long, Yin Jiu stopped and prepared to retract his hand.

Noticing his retreating movement, the person who had been letting him touch her face without any reaction finally responded. She quickly grabbed Yin Jiu's hand, pressed it back on her face, and rubbed it with her cheek affectionately.

Two deep laughs escaped from his throat, and Yin Jiu asked him softly, "Ning Changyue, do you want to go home with me?"

As if hearing something unbelievable, the cheek under the palm stiffened for a moment, but soon, Ning Changyue reacted.

But his first reaction was not agreement, nor joy, but to press down the corners of his mouth, and more tears welled up in his eyes.

Then he threw himself on Yin Jiu again, but this time he pressed his body against his neck and sobbed softly.

It sounds even sadder than before.

Yin Jiu was stunned by his crying. Although he didn't know why he was crying, he still stroked the back of his neck to comfort him.

It should have been a sad scene, but the messy hair and cold cheeks rubbing against his neck gave Yin Jiu an unfamiliar shudder that made him want to laugh at an inappropriate time.

He actually laughed.

Okay, he gave up.

Yin Jiu warned himself in his heart:

——Since you have chosen him, you cannot regret it. Even if you find out in the future that he is not to your liking, you cannot give up on him.

"Be good, don't cry, don't be afraid, I'm here." He coaxed softly.

The soothing voice is gentle and skilled.

Volume 2: Destiny