Chapter 50 Hug.
Gu Xun couldn't quite remember when his father began to drift away from the family.
About seven, maybe eight or nine.
In short, when he began to remember things, the role of father gradually faded away from his life.
Even now, the memory has started to blur.
Impression The clearest impression I have of my father was one day in the fourth grade of elementary school. Gu Yunping had to go on a business trip for a week and planned to ask Luotuo's parents to help take care of him.
That night when Lin Hongyi came home and heard about this, he objected with dissatisfaction, thinking that it was not a big deal to always trouble the neighbors since he had people at home too.
At that time, the relationship between Gu Yunping and Lin Hongyi was already very bad. Although she deliberately avoided Gu Xun every time they quarreled, he was not completely unaware of it.
After all, there is no parent who doesn't talk to each other at the dinner table.
But perhaps for the sake of her child, Gu Yunping gave in again and chose to believe Lin Hongyi.
Besides, Gu Xun was not a troublesome child. Taking care of him was nothing more than cooking a meal for him when he came home from school and heating up milk in the evening. There was no need to worry about anything else.
So Gu Yunping prepared the vegetables, beef, eggs and milk for the whole week and put them in the refrigerator. She also wrote down a detailed list of things that needed to be done every day and gave it to Lin Hongyi before leaving home with her suitcase.
As soon as the people left, Lin Hongyi threw the list on the table, sat down on the sofa, and said to Gu Xun: "Son, Dad will cook for you these few days and take you to the Science and Technology Museum on the weekend."
In fact, during those two years, Lin Hongyi came home later and later, and slept in a separate bed from Gu Yunping. He was like a guest in a hotel, only treating this place as a place to sleep. In a month, Gu Xun might not run into him more than a few times.
So when he said that, Gu Xun was secretly excited the whole night.
As a result, the next afternoon, when Gu Xun came back from school, he did not see Lin Hongyi.
Gu Xun thought that he was just delayed on the road and would always remember to come back and cook for him.
However, I waited until ten o'clock in the evening, and there was no sign of anyone, not even a phone call.
Although he is young, he still has to save face. Gu Xun has never thought about going to his neighbor's house for a free meal. It would be quite inconvenient at this time.
So he ate instant noodles for a week and comforted himself by saying that adults are always busy and have to make money to support the family.
After all, I'm still thinking about the weekend appointment.
Also because of his expectations for the Science and Technology Museum, Gu Yunping would routinely call Gu Xun every night to ask what he had eaten and done. He would subconsciously lie, fearing that Gu Yunping would quarrel with Lin Hongyi again and shatter his last bit of expectations.
On Sunday, Lin Hongyi slept until noon and woke up. He saw Gu Xun sitting on the sofa, well dressed and looking at him eagerly. Then he remembered the promise he had made to the Science and Technology Museum.
He didn't want to break his promise this time, so the father and son each ate a bucket of instant noodles and drove out.
After only strolling for ten minutes, Lin Hongyi felt bored. He received a phone call in the middle of the walk, said a few words reluctantly, then turned around and told Gu Xun that he had some work matters to deal with, and asked him to play for a while and he would pick him up at six o'clock in the afternoon.
Gu Xun also believed it.
However, he did not wait for Lin Hongyi at six o'clock in the afternoon.
I borrowed a cell phone from a passerby and made a call, but the other party didn't answer.
Although he already had the answer in his mind, Gu Xun was particularly stubborn that day and waited alone at the door until nine o'clock.
Finally, the security guard couldn't stand it anymore and sent him home on his motorcycle.
Not long after Gu Xun entered the room, Gu Yunping also returned from a business trip. She saw her son reading alone in the room as usual, and didn't think much about it.
Until she went to the kitchen and found that the vegetables in the refrigerator were rotten and the trash can was full of instant noodle buckets.
That night, Gu Yunping finally exploded, and in her excitement she forgot to avoid Gu Xun.
He heard his parents' quarrel clearly in the room.
Gu Yunping scolded Lin Hongyi for being addicted to gambling. He spent all day playing cards. Not only did he lose all the family savings, he even ignored his son.
Only then did Gu Xun know the real reason why his father didn't come home every day.
Then, he clearly heard Lin Hongyi slamming the table and yelling, "How dare you blame me?! I f*cking asked you to have the surgery, but you insisted on giving birth to the baby! If it weren't for the child, would I have given up the opportunity to do business in Laos?! People who come back now are big bosses, but I'm still a f*cking salesperson! I've been ruined by you and your son my whole life!"
Gu Yunping probably didn't expect Lin Hongyi to say that. Her eyes were bloodshot, but her first reaction was to take the initiative to call a truce. She quietly pushed open Gu Xun's door to see if he was woken up.
She breathed a sigh of relief when she saw Gu Xun calmly closing his eyes.
However, she didn't know that what Lin Hongyi said that night was like a curse, lingering in Gu Xun's ears for many years.
Although he was young and had never heard of many things, he was able to guess what "undergoing surgery" meant from the context.
It turned out that his birth was not only not a surprise to Lin Hongyi, but also a disaster.
For a long time after that, whenever Gu Xun saw Lin Hongyi, the words "I fucking asked you to have the surgery" would always echo in his mind.
Whenever he tried to get closer to Lin Hongyi, those words were like a cold hand touching his heart, and the cold touch immediately pulled back all his impulses.
so--
Some people say that in this world only parents will love you unconditionally, which is simply survivor bias.
Only those who are loved have the right to say this.
Gu Xun is the unfortunate one.
To him, blood is thicker than water and love or not has nothing to do with it.
Gu Xun stood downstairs for a long time before he came back to his senses.
He didn't want to disturb Xiaomai or Luotuo, and Gu Yunping was probably asleep by now.
He walked for a long time in this familiar city and finally entered a hotel.
This was the place where he had lived for more than ten years, but he couldn't find any sense of belonging at all.
Looking at the thick night outside the window, he suddenly missed the bright moon in Jiangcheng.
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When Yue Qianling received Gu Xun's call, she felt that he was in a bad mood, but she was not surprised.
Who can still smile happily when their father is injured?
But when she heard Gu Xun say that he missed her, her heart was inexplicably shaken.
At that moment, she realized that the words "I miss you" are much more powerful than "I like you".
It was enough to make her sink into a vortex of weightlessness, and she almost subconsciously replied, "I miss you a little too."
But when the words reached my throat, they turned into: "When will you come back?"
After saying this, Yue Qianling suddenly felt that it was still a bit inappropriate.
The other person's father was injured and in the hospital, but she seemed to be urging him to leave quickly.
So he immediately added: "If you are not in a hurry, stay with your father for a few more days before coming back."
Gu Xun was silent for a moment, then whispered, "Actually, I'm a little anxious."
"Ah? Didn't you say it's okay?" Yue Qianling thought his father's condition was a little serious, so he was busy comforting him, "Well... maybe Dad is a little old and recovers slowly, don't worry."
After a while, Gu Xun said "hmm" softly.
"He's really fine."
Yue Qianling continued, "You haven't had much rest recently, so it shouldn't be a big deal to take a few days off."
Gu Xun still said “hmm”.
It was the first time that Yue Qianling found Gu Xun so docile. He agreed to whatever she said and chatted with her for a long time. There was no particular topic and he just talked about whatever he thought of.
The call lasted for more than an hour, until Yue Qianling's alarm went off, and then the two hung up.
After lying on the bed, Yue Qianling still felt a little unsatisfied.
For some reason, this evening she felt as if she and Gu Xun were... in love.
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The next morning, when Yue Qianling opened her eyes, she found a message on her cell phone.
[School Prince]: Are you awake?
Yue Qianling leaned over the bed with a smile on her face.
【Glutinous Rice Dough Sticks】: Wake up.
【Glutinous Rice Dough Sticks】: Why did you wake up so early?
[School Prince]: It’s the biological clock that’s at work.
【Glutinous Rice Dough Sticks】: Oh, have you had breakfast?
【School Prince】: Eating.
[Glutinous Rice Dough Sticks]: Yeah, I’m ready to eat too.
[School Prince]: I ate beef noodles.
【School Prince】: Very hot.
[School Prince]: The oil is a bit heavy.
Yue Qianling was a little happy, but at the same time felt a little childish.
[Glutinous Rice Dough Sticks]: You don’t have to tell me all this.
【School Prince】: Alas.
[School Prince]: I even want to tell you how many grains of beef are in the beef noodles.
“…”
Yue Qianling felt that she was finished.
Just because of this sentence, she actually held her phone and laughed for a long time before getting up to wash up.
Before going out, she changed her shoes and thought about having to go to and from get off work by herself for the next few days. She was actually a little uncomfortable with it.
well.
This can't be done.
Yue Qianling suddenly reached out and patted his head.
The talent left in less than 24 hours, there is no need for that.
After regaining his composure, Yue Qianling quickly changed his shoes and reached out for the door handle.
As soon as the door opened, a figure appeared in front of me.
Yue Qianling was stunned for a moment, blinked, and thought she was hallucinating.
Gu Xun was standing at her door, still wearing the clothes he had left yesterday. He was standing alone, and the morning sun could not clear away the dust on his body.
His face was full of fatigue. He looked down at her. Although his eyes were gentle, he did not have his usual high-spirited attitude.
Somehow it looks a bit like a puppy returning home in the rain.
"you……"
Yue Qianling spoke slowly, "Are you back?"
Gu Xun said “hmm” and said, “I just had breakfast downstairs.”
“…”
Yue Qianling was a little confused and stared at Gu Xun intently.
It turned out that he had already gone downstairs when he sent her the message just now.
But it was only 8:20 now. Yue Qianling calculated based on the time and knew that he should have returned on a red-eye flight in the middle of the night.
Didn’t you say he should spend a few more days with his father?
Why did you come back without even staying all night?
Yue Qianling: "Why did you come back so soon? Why don't you stay a few more days?"
“That’s not necessary.”
Gu Xun was probably a little tired, he had one hand in his pocket and his voice was weak.
He exhaled deeply, "This trip back is not worth it."
Yue Qianling didn't know what Gu Xun had experienced that night.
But she remembered that her mother had just told her that Gu Xun's parents did not have a good relationship and asked her not to expose other people's scars.
So Yue Qianling suppressed the urge to ask more questions.
But at this moment she could clearly feel that the low pressure all over Gu Xun's body was making it hard for him to breathe.
The boy, who was obviously tall and straight, looked a little fragile at this moment.
Yue Qianling felt that her behavior was getting out of control again.
She stared at Gu Xun in a daze and said softly, "Bend down for a moment."
Gu Xun's eyes moved slightly, obviously not understanding what Yue Qianling meant.
But he still bent down as he was told.
Yue Qianling pursed her lips, slowly stretched out her hands, put them over his shoulders, and then hugged him.
The person in his arms was visibly startled.
It was also the first time for Yue Qianling to hug a person of the opposite sex of the same age, and she didn’t know how far she should go.
I touched his back lightly with my hands, a little stiffly, not sure whether to use a little more force.
Just as she hesitated, the person in her arms came to his senses.
Then he suddenly raised his hands, took the initiative, and hugged her tightly in his arms.
Then, Yue Qianling felt Gu Xun's head buried in her neck and took a deep breath.
The two hugged each other quietly.
The voice-controlled light went out at some point. In the dim corridor, Yue Qianling couldn't see Gu Xun's expression. She just felt that he was hugging her tighter and tighter, but his breathing was becoming steady.
She didn't know how long it was before she heard him whispering in her ear.
"Well, it's worth it now."
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