Chapter 59 Hello, world
Compared with Gu Xun's house, Yue Qianling's living room is much brighter.
She didn't turn on the air conditioner, but left the windows wide open, letting the evening breeze flow in and take away the late summer heat.
Yue Qianling poured a cup of hot water in the kitchen. Instead of rushing out, she turned around and glanced at Gu Yunping who was sitting on the sofa.
In the few minutes since she came in, she has tried her best to control her emotions and just sat there quietly. On the table was a tissue that she used to wipe her tears.
Yue Qianling grew up in a simple environment, similar to other families. Her parents occasionally had minor quarrels, but there had been no major conflicts in more than 20 years, and the family had not encountered any unexpected changes, so Yue Qianling had never seen her elders cry in front of her.
Now that this situation was before her, she had no idea what to say, and couldn't even find a way to start a conversation.
As she walked over, Gu Yunping bent over, with her elbows resting on her knees, her palms still covering her face.
Yue Qianling gently placed the cup of water in front of her, hesitated for a moment, and sat down at the other end of the sofa.
Gu Yunping didn't seem to notice her presence, so after a few seconds, Yue Qianling moved a little closer to her and said softly, "Auntie, what's wrong?"
Yue Qianling didn't wait for Gu Yunping's answer, so she didn't rush and held the cup in front of her: "Would you like to drink some water first?"
Gu Yunping finally moved her hand away from her face.
She had long lost the habit of wearing makeup, but her face now looked blurry as if she had put on too much makeup. Her eyes, which already showed traces of time, looked tired because of the traces of tears.
After drinking two sips of water, Gu Yunping blew her nose and forced a smile at Yue Qianling.
She originally wanted to say, "Auntie has lost her composure. I won't bother you anymore," but when she met Yue Qianling's gaze, the grievance in her heart surged out again.
She urgently needed to talk, and there happened to be such a person in front of her.
Although she was just a little girl, Gu Yunping couldn't find anyone else.
She held the cup tightly in her hand, the warmth gradually transferred to her palm, but she couldn't find the right opening words.
Until Yue Qianling asked cautiously: "Did Gu Xun make you angry?"
"I made him angry."
Gu Yunping lowered her head, her voice still tearful, "I always make him angry."
Yue Qianling: "Is it because of the dinner arrangements for tonight?"
In fact, when Gu Yunping opened her mouth, she hadn't figured out how to talk about her quarrel with Gu Xun, but she didn't expect that Yue Qianling's words would go straight to the core of the conflict tonight.
She was sure that from the moment they arrived at the restaurant until they returned home, Yue Qianling and Gu Xun had been under her nose the whole time, and they had no chance to talk to each other alone.
And the tone of her questioning at this moment did not sound like she had learned the whole story of the night from Gu Xun.
But this girl, who could only count the number of times she had spent time with him on one hand, still saw everything.
At that moment, Gu Yunping felt as if she was the only one in the fog.
Everyone knows about the conflict between her and Gu Xun, but it seems that she is the only one who doesn't understand it.
Gu Yunping looked at Yue Qianling with tears in her eyes and did not speak for a long time.
The grievances she originally wanted to express receded in an instant, the grievances and sorrows quietly disappeared, her mind went blank, and only one question remained resounding in her chest.
Is her problem so obvious that even Yue Qianling can see it at a glance?
After a moment, Gu Yunping said: "I didn't force him to change jobs. I just wanted him to have no worries and have better options around him. Did I do something wrong?"
At this moment, Yue Qianling finally understood what Gu Xun meant when he told her that day that Gu Yunping's efforts made him very tired.
But Yue Qianling couldn't say "you did nothing wrong" against her conscience, nor could she tell her "you were wrong" as a junior.
You only regret not having enough knowledge when you need it, and you only regret not having enough experience when you have the ability to comfort people.
After a long silence, Yue Qianling spoke cautiously.
"You've given him a lot, but are you sure he really needs it?"
She often heard the four words "I don't need it" from Gu Xun's mouth, but after years of confrontation between mother and son, she could no longer rationally think about the simple literal meaning of Gu Xun's words, and subconsciously judged it as his rebellion.
But when others said the same thing, Gu Yunping suddenly realized that she seemed to have overlooked the fact that Gu Xun had actually expressed this request to him a long time ago.
Yue Qianling felt that these were just common sense, but Gu Yunping's reaction at this moment told her clearly that Gu Xun would probably never say such words.
Too.
Yue Qianling sighed.
With his personality, there is no way he could say these things to his mother.
"He actually told me before that your efforts made him feel…" Yue Qianling paused and did not say the word "tired", "painful."
Gu Yunping raised her eyes and asked blankly: "Did he tell you that he felt sorry for me?"
"Of course."
Yue Qianling bent down and took out a tissue from the table, gently wiping the tears from the corners of Gu Yunping's eyes, "He should be embarrassed to say these words to you, right? But he often told me privately that he is obviously able to stand on his own and can be your support, but you don't seem to realize this and are still working hard for him. He feels sorry for you."
Yue Qianling didn't even blink when she told this lie, and even her tone seemed to be imitating Gu Xun.
But that doesn't matter.
After hearing these words, although Gu Yunping fell silent, her emotions obviously calmed down a lot.
So Yue Qianling got excited and said, "Sometimes he is so heartbroken that he can't sleep at night."
Gu Yunping paused slightly.
Seeing her reaction, Yue Qianling's heart skipped a beat and she wished she could turn back time and take back what she said.
Oh fuck.
Fuck! ! !
What the hell did I say! ! !
Fortunately, Gu Yunping did not seem to question the truth of this sentence. She just took a sip of water in surprise.
Yue Qianling breathed a sigh of relief, finally finding an opportunity to say what she had always wanted to say.
"Perhaps, at the age of 22, what he needs right now is for you to let go and give him freedom."
In these few words, Gu Yunping actually did not clearly realize how her actions did not give him freedom.
But she was still immersed in Yue Qianling's words just now: "He feels sorry for you."
Over the years, everything she did was for the best of Gu Xun, and subconsciously she never thought about getting anything in return from him.
But when she heard Gu Xun "feel sorry" for her, she realized for the first time that she also longed for something in return.
These words made her feel as if she had fallen into a pool of warm spring water. The cocoon on her body was softened by the water and she felt as if she had finally caught her breath.
When a person is content, it is always easier to compromise.
Unfortunately, Gu Yunping was in a tense state most of the time when she was with Gu Xun.
Only at this moment, her heart was soft, without her tough outer shell. She did not think too much, but just followed Yue Qianling's words.
Since he wants more freedom, give it to him.
Gu Yunping sat quietly for a long time.
When the water in the cup was completely cold, Yue Qianling said, "Let me pour you another cup of hot water."
Gu Yunping suddenly came to her senses and quickly picked up her bag and stood up.
"No, no, I've disturbed you for too long. I'm going back to the hotel first."
-
When leaving the house, Yue Qianling saw that Gu Yunping seemed a little dazed, and she didn't know what she was thinking.
Yue Qianling handed her a bottle of mineral water and asked her to drink it on the way.
Then the elevator door closed, Yue Qianling took a deep breath, then covered her face and rested her forehead against the wall.
God knows how nervous she was when she was talking to Gu Yunping just now.
She had never had such a deep conversation with anyone, let alone with her boyfriend's mother.
I don’t know if I said something wrong that made things worse.
The more likely possibility is that Gu Yunping came to her senses and thought that how could a little kid like her have the nerve to lecture her.
Thinking of this, Yue Qianling felt like she was suffocating.
She couldn't stop banging her forehead against the wall.
Gu Xun! What are you going to pay me back for what you owe me? ! !
When she knocked against the wall for the third time, her forehead suddenly felt something soft.
Gu Xun's voice sounded behind her.
"What are you doing here? Praying?"
“…”
Yue Qianling turned around and glared at him, "Why did you come out for no reason?"
"Of course I'm looking for you."
Gu Xun took back his hand that was resting on the wall and glanced at her. "I sent you a message but you didn't reply. What are you doing here?"
Yue Qianling looked at him quietly, recalling Gu Yunping's tearful eyes in her mind.
After a long while, she sighed, touched her stomach and said, "I'm hungry. I plan to go downstairs to eat."
Gu Xun raised his eyebrows and looked at her in confusion.
Yue Qianling couldn't find any topic to talk about at the dinner party that night, so she just focused on eating. If he remembered correctly, half of the roast duck on the table was eaten by her.
"Are you hungry so soon?"
Yue Qianling raised her chin and stared at him: "What do you mean by that?"
"It's nothing."
Gu Xun took her hand and walked towards the house. After entering, he didn't say anything and went straight to the kitchen.
After a while, there was a noise.
Yue Qianling looked up and saw that he was boiling water with a bag of frozen dumplings next to the stove.
He was making her food.
Yue Qianling tilted her head and looked at his back quietly without saying anything.
More than ten minutes later, he turned off the fire, brought a bowl of hot dumplings to Yue Qianling, then sat next to her, picked up his mobile phone and started looking through something.
He didn't say anything from beginning to end.
He always seems to be like this, doing things instead of talking.
No wonder Gu Yunping had no idea what he was thinking.
"Hello."
Yue Qianling leaned towards him and poked his lips with her hand, "Don't you have a mouth?"
Gu Xun glanced over, stared into her eyes, slightly opened his lips, raised his chin and took hold of Yue Qianling's fingertips.
The warmth instantly spread from her fingertips to Yue Qianling's face. She quickly withdrew her hand, turned her head and muttered, "You're sick."
Gu Xun laughed, "Don't you know whether I have a mouth or not?"
Yue Qianling didn't say anything, so he continued to remind her: "Weren't you chewing very vigorously a few days ago?"
“…”
Yue Qianling picked up a dumpling and stuffed it into his mouth, "Shut up."
She knows now.
Gu Xun has a mouth, but he just doesn’t have an instruction manual.
After quietly eating a few dumplings, Gu Xun suddenly remembered something and asked casually, "Were you planning to go out to eat alone?"
Yue Qianling heard a sense of accusation, "You actually planned to eat alone and didn't call me," so she swallowed the food in her mouth and said calmly: "Actually, I just ran into Auntie in the corridor."
Gu Xun's eyes flickered slightly, and after a moment, he spoke.
"Didn't she leave a long time ago?"
"No."
Yue Qianling said calmly, "I saw her crying."
Although he didn't turn around, Yue Qianling could feel that the person behind him was obviously stunned.
After putting down the chopsticks, Yue Qianling looked back at him, "Do you want to go find her?"
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Gu Xun went directly to the parking lot on the underground first floor. When he left the community and drove to the intersection, he remembered that he had forgotten to bring his cell phone.
Under normal circumstances, it would be okay not to bring a cell phone, but he was not sure whether Gu Yunping would see him tonight, so he had to turn back.
He parked his car at the gate of the community and jogged in.
It was already completely dark at this time, and the surrounding green belts were hidden in the night, with only a few street lamps for lighting.
Gu Xun walked all the way towards the building where he lived. When he was about to turn around and enter the lobby on the first floor, he suddenly stopped.
He turned around and saw Gu Yunping sitting on a bench next to the green belt with her head down, as if she didn't notice his presence at all.
She didn't look up until Gu Xun sat down next to her.
The moment she saw Gu Xundi, she opened her mouth in surprise, but just stood there, unable to speak.
After a while, they both spoke at the same time.
"Why did you come down?"
"Why are you sitting here alone?"
There was another moment of silence.
Neither the mother nor the son answered the question, but said another three words in unison.
"sorry."
"sorry."
Gu Xun felt as if someone had grabbed his chest. He frowned and said, "You don't have to say sorry to me."
"I want to say it."
Gu Yunping retracted her legs and turned to look at him, "Don't be unhappy, I'm sincere this time."
This was certainly not the first time Gu Yunping had said "sorry" to him, but without exception, she always said it with a strong sense of sarcasm, forcing him to accept her arrangements with an apology.
Only this time, she really wanted to apologize to her son.
"I chatted with Qian Ling tonight, and I found that I don't seem to understand you as well as she does."
Gu Xun suddenly raised his eyes and looked at the lights on the 13th floor opposite.
Gu Yunping did not notice the change in his expression. She just reached out her hand hesitantly and touched the back of his hand carefully.
"If you can tell me your true feelings in the future just like you tell her, I think... I can understand you just like her."
Gu Xun didn’t know what Yue Qianling had said to Gu Yunping at night that caused her to change her attitude.
He thought for a moment and asked, "What did I say to her from the bottom of my heart?"
"She said..."
Gu Yunping was actually a little embarrassed. After a pause, she said, "Actually, you feel sorry for me."
The early autumn evening breeze blew past them, a little cool, but also refreshing.
Gu Xun didn't say anything, still staring at the window on the 13th floor, and saw the familiar voice and shadow swaying.
At this moment, the only voice in the wind was Gu Yunping's.
"Qian Ling told me everything you didn't want to say. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't know what you wanted."
"Mom is telling you seriously this time. I won't force you to do anything you don't need in the future."
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Gu Xun and Gu Yunping didn't talk much. Their personalities were already deeply ingrained, and it was impossible for them to completely open their hearts in such a short period of time.
But it was the first time they sat on a bench for so long in such silence and peace.
Although we didn't talk much, we tried to change the attitude little by little in silence.
It was late at night, and when Gu Xun sent Gu Yunping back to the hotel and returned, it was almost twelve o'clock.
When he pushed open the door, the lights in the living room were off, but a dim light was coming through the crack of the door.
Gu Xun walked over step by step, opened the door, and saw Yue Qianling sitting at his desk, flipping through a game magazine.
She was so engrossed in watching that she didn't notice Gu Xun's presence.
Gu Xun didn't say anything, just kept looking at her.
He remembered that when Gu Yunping returned to the hotel, she asked him to thank Yue Qianling for taking the time to talk to her today.
But at this moment, he suddenly felt that what he wanted to say to Yue Qianling was not "thank you" at all.
A few minutes later, Yue Qianling finally noticed someone was looking at him. He turned around, met Gu Xun's gaze, and muttered, "Are you born in the year of the cat?"
Gu Xun raised an eyebrow: "Hmm?"
Yue Qianling: "There's no sound when walking."
"What kind of cat am I? I belong to you."
Yue Qianling: “…”
The fact that he could say such things showed that his conversation with Gu Yunping went smoothly.
So Yue Qianling curled the corners of her mouth, closed the magazine and stood up: "Thank you, but now I don't feel any emotion when I hear such words."
Gu Xun walked towards her, his eyes falling on her seriously.
"Then you want to listen to my true feelings?"
Yue Qianling anticipated that he might say something cheesy, so she turned her back and looked at his bookcase, her heart pounding, but she pretended to be indifferent.
"Oh? Tell me about it."
After saying that, she picked up the magazine and put it back where it had been placed.
At this time, Gu Xun suddenly spoke.
"Second book at hand."
Yue Qianling: “Hmm?”
Gu Xun repeated, "Take down the second book next to you."
Yue Qianling took a look and saw that it was a book in English original titled "The C Programming Language".
She thought Gu Xun wanted to use it, so she pulled it out.
But before he could say anything, Gu Xun said again: "Open the title page."
Although Yue Qianling was confused, she still did as she was told.
She flipped the page with her fingers, and a sentence suddenly appeared on the old page.
——"hello, world"
Yue Qianling was not unfamiliar with this sentence. Although she studied fine arts, she knew that "hello, world" was the first greeting that every programming student uttered to the computer world.
But she didn't understand what Gu Xun meant by asking her to look at this.
"I see. Then what?"
Gu Xun: "When I am developing and learning, I always use this sentence to test whether the development environment has been configured. It has become my sense of ritual, and I use it to pay tribute to the binary world that I love."
Yue Qianling seemed to understand something in a daze, blinking her eyes, not knowing what to say.
"Look back."
Gu Xun said.
Yue Qianling turned around again as she was told. Gu Xun stood a foot away from her, looking at her closely and speaking word by word.
“Now I salute you with these words.”
"This is not a procedure, it's a love word."
Yue Qianling's eyes flickered, with a faint light in them.
"What's the meaning……"
"What I mean is," Gu Xun lowered his head and kissed her forehead gently, "you are the first beauty I have ever felt in this real world."
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