Chapter 77 Chapter 77 Have I Ever...Hurt...
"Is it because of Soraha Fuka?"
When his senior brother said this, Ji Chu seemed to hear the sound of a stone falling to the ground in his heart.
Yes, the root of everything lies in the flower on the back of her neck.
Ji Chu did not deny it, but looked at Meng Yuci:
"Brother, you've already discovered it, haven't you?"
The more she thought about it, the funnier she found herself. She couldn't help but sneer:
"Senior Brother saw it all a long time ago, but he didn't say anything. He just made me act like a fool, self-righteous and ridiculous."
"That's not what I meant."
Meng Yuci frowned, not understanding why she said such words in such a tone.
Ji Chu looked at him, obviously not believing it.
He then said:
"I know you have a secret. If you want to tell me, I'm willing to listen. If you don't want to tell me, I won't force you to ask..."
"Brother, don't you think this is hypocritical?"
Ji Chu suddenly interrupted him.
There was a teasing and sarcastic smile in the corner of her eyes, and it was hard to tell whether it was directed at him or herself.
"Brother clearly cares and has his own thoughts, but he's trying to hold it back because he cares about my feelings."
"But if the truth of the matter is not as you think, and I am not as pure and kind as you think, will you be even more disappointed and take your anger out on me?"
Her eyes were dark, yet burning with a bright fire, dazzling and dazzling. When she suddenly looked at him, he dared not look directly at her:
"Isn't this kind of understanding, indulgence, and tolerance a kind of hypocrisy?"
Meng Yuci looked at her dazzlingly bright eyes, his heart filled with turbulence.
In the past, Ji Chu was always smart and cute in front of him, or stubborn and unyielding, a child who needed his care.
He naturally knew that his junior sister was not completely without claws, but her aggressiveness had always been directed at others and never towards him.
This was the first time she looked at him with hatred and disdain, calling him "hypocritical."
Indeed, perhaps he was indeed hypocritical.
This is how he acted when facing the former witch clan.
He does the same when facing Ji Chu today.
He did not feel any resentment for being accused, but instead felt a sense of relief, a relief that Ji Chu saw through him.
He even felt a slight joy from this relief.
She was so perceptive that she could easily see through his hypocrisy and his fear, and thus was able to see through the illusion of the temple and save his life.
So how could he not like her?
How could he pretend that nothing happened? Watching her make friends with others, hug others, and have a tacit understanding with others?
But they just treated him as an ordinary senior brother. When they remembered him, they could still call him "senior brother". When they didn't remember him, he was no different from any other plants or trees in the Fu Yu Immortal Sect.
He doesn't want to.
He wanted to stand by her side, not just as a senior brother, but also to stay by her side for a long time...
lovers.
As soon as these two words came out, his heartbeat suddenly became heavier.
Yes, he has always coveted a position by her side.
It’s not that Ji Chu is greedy for this companionship and warmth, but he, as a senior brother, has selfish motives.
It was he who deliberately indulged in their closeness and deliberately shortened the distance between them; it was also he who, knowing that Ji Chu longed for care, deliberately approached and seduced her, making it a habit for her to rely on him.
Without his tacit consent and deliberate guidance, she would not have had the opportunity to be so close to him.
So when he recognized the feathers and floating flowers on the back of her neck, although he was shocked, he was also relieved.
Fortunately, apart from the identity of "senior brother", he was different from others to her.
He had such despicable selfishness, but she only concluded with the word "hypocrisy", which was enough to save his face.
Ji Chu said these words not to make his senior brother reflect or feel guilty.
She just couldn't accept that her previous life ended up like that.
What made her even more unwilling was that the person who finally took action and caused her to end up like that was actually her senior brother.
She was filled with grievances and had nowhere to vent them, so she could only comfort herself that everything was back to normal.
However, the sudden appearance of a floating feather flower shattered all her fantasies.
"I will give you flowers by opening my soul, and protect you with my life."
What a touching meaning!
But why was it that he was the one who gave her the flowers and also the one who killed her?!
She felt that she couldn't understand her senior brother and couldn't figure out all this.
She didn't want to carry this flower, as it was like stepping on rotten fruit from her previous life. How could she guarantee that the new fruit that grew would not be rotten?
After much thought, all she could do was stay away and cut her losses in time.
So she said:
"Brother, I really cherish the friendship between us. I don't want to think of you one day with hatred in my heart. I also don't want to look at me one day and be so disappointed that you want to kill me."
"So... let's stop here."
"Why?"
Meng Yuci's handsome brows knitted together, and he sincerely couldn't understand:
"Why do you always think of me this way? Ask yourself, I have never done anything to hurt you. Yet you have been extremely wary of me from the very beginning."
He took a deep breath, as if he didn't know what to do with her:
"Ji Chu, can you tell me how this empty feather floating flower came about?"
"Have I ever...hurt you?"
At the end, his tone was almost pleading.
Praying that things weren't as bad as he thought.
Pray that those things that never existed in his memory but made Ji Chu unforgettable, even if they were not so beautiful, at least they were not full of hatred.
Ji Chu remained silent and did not answer immediately.
Subconsciously, she knew that the senior brother in front of her had never done anything to hurt her. It would be unfair to blame him and hold a grudge against him for things that happened in her past life.
But another voice in her heart said maliciously:
Is it fair for her to die at the hands of Shaowei Sword in her previous life?
Anyone can kill her except her senior brother.
Because... Senior Brother is different from others.
Senior brother is the only person in this world who understands her fragility, helplessness and pain.
He was like the unattainable bright moon, yet he took the initiative to approach her, gave her hope, and then cruelly crushed this hope with his own hands.
She couldn't accept it, couldn't forgive it.
"Because you don't believe me, brother."
Ji Chu said.
Then, as Meng Yuci showed a look of surprise, she added:
"If you don't believe me, you will kill me. Even if you give me the Empty Feather Floating Flower, you will still doubt me one day, question me, and then kill me—"
"I won't!"
Meng Yuci suddenly took a step forward, held her shoulders, lowered his head, and met her eyes.
His usually silent and cold eyes also ignited with a burning fire, as if he was extremely angry, but he had no way to vent it. He could only hold her arms and force her to look directly at him:
"Ji Chu, I won't kill you. No matter what happens, I won't hurt you!"
"I don't believe it!"
The calmness that Ji Chu tried so hard to maintain was easily broken by him, like a balloon with its disguise punctured, instantly venting all the resentment and anger inside.
She tried to break free from his hand, but it was difficult to do so. She could only shout at him:
"You clearly did that! You can only speak so confidently because you don't remember or know anything!"
“…”
Meng Yuci's eyes suddenly dimmed.
He let go of her and saw Ji Chu immediately take a step back, glaring at him with hatred in his eyes.
She hated him...
She really hated him.
This realization made him feel despair and then gave rise to endless pain.
He then closed his eyes, unable to bear to continue looking at the hatred on her face.
There was a long silence.
When he spoke again, his voice was heavy, like a sigh:
"Yes, I don't know anything and I don't remember anything."
He opened his eyes, and they were dark, returning to an indissoluble coldness.
The shock, anger at being misunderstood, and uncontrollable emotions that had just appeared all disappeared, turning him back into the cold and indifferent Sword King who kept people at a distance.
He just said in a very ordinary tone:
"But Ji Chu, haven't you discovered it yet?"
Ji Chu's breathing was fluctuating, and hatred in his eyes had not disappeared. He looked up at his senior brother.
She heard him say to her in a tired and heartbroken tone:
"It's not that I don't believe you, but you... don't believe me."
Ji Chu was stunned when he heard this, and his expression became a little stiff.
After saying this, without waiting for her to answer, the senior brother turned and left.
*
Since that unpleasant meeting that day, Ji Chu never spoke to his senior brother again.
If she meets him by chance, she will quickly turn around, pretend not to see him and run away.
It's not that she hated her senior brother that much, but after what had happened that day, it seemed that anything else she said would be awkward. She was even more afraid that her senior brother would bring up the past again and force her to ask for more reasons.
But sometimes, whenever she thought of what her senior brother said, "she didn't believe him", she would feel uncomfortable.
But soon, her memory would remind her:
She was not wrong. It was obvious that her senior brother in her previous life did not believe her and it was he who killed her.
Does it really matter whether she believes it or not?
…
But why does she still feel so sad?
Ji Chu squatted on the grass, stunned for a long time without moving.
She would come to feed the rabbits whenever she was upset or happy, and the rabbits at Qingji Peak were fed by her until they became plump and white.
But they hadn't been here for a while, and perhaps the disciples who had received this task hadn't mastered the trick, so the rabbits became thinner again and became agile and nimble again, making it extremely difficult to approach them.
At this moment, she was quite absent-minded. She was holding the red spirit fruit seeds and was about to scatter them. The rabbits squatted not far away and stared at her movements.
Ji Chu just stood there in a daze, letting the rabbits anxiously roll their red eyes at the seeds in her hand.
A slender and graceful figure approached.
The person who came did not deliberately slow down his footsteps, so Ji Chu did not notice it. Instead, the rabbits that had been waiting for a long time were startled by him and ran away.
Ji Chu realized it belatedly and turned around, only to see Xue Wanning.
She smiled at Ji Chu softly, as kind as the older sister next door:
"Junior Sister Ji Chu, why are you squatting here motionless? Is there something bothering you?"
Ji Chu was a little surprised.
She and Xue Wan Ning had only met once on the first day of returning to the sect, and had no contact since then. It was probably not a relationship where they could talk about their personal matters.
Besides, Xue Wan Ning was not a disciple of the Fu Yu Xian Sect, so naturally there was no "senior sister" relationship between them.
Now that he was suddenly so friendly, Ji Chu felt uncomfortable.
But "don't hit a smiling person", even though she didn't like Xue Wan Ning very much, she could only stand up and answer:
"Hello, Senior Xue. I'm feeding the rabbits."
Xue Wanning smiled gently:
"Junior sister is so kind. These spirit rabbits on Qingji Peak have always been cunning, and only junior sister has the patience to come here to feed them."
Ji Chu was increasingly unsure of what she wanted to do.
She didn't think Xue Wan Ning came here just to talk to her about feeding rabbits.
She didn't respond, and Xue Wanning didn't feel embarrassed, and continued to herself:
"Junior sister, don't feel constrained. The word 'senior' is a bit unfamiliar. Just call me 'senior sister'."
Then she said:
"Chen Ke told me that he has accepted an extremely smart and beautiful disciple. I will definitely like her when I see her. I didn't have time to get close to my junior sister that day, but we have the chance to meet today. I wonder if my junior sister likes the gift I brought her?"
Ji Chu frowned.
Even if Chen Ke was mentally ill, he would not brag about his intelligence and beauty in front of Xue Wan Ning, and say that "she will definitely like it."
And no matter how kind and generous Xue Wan Ning is, she wouldn't be so completely free of grudges against someone like her, whom everyone calls "her substitute", right?
Could it be that she was "judging others by her own mean standards"?
Ji Chu couldn't help but doubt himself.
So she said cautiously:
"Senior Xue is not a disciple of Fu Yu Xian Zong, and he is also good friends with Uncle Shen. According to seniority, I shouldn't address him as Senior Sister."
He not only cut off his relationship with Shen Ke, but also rejected Xue Wanning's attempts to get close to him.
Although she didn't say it explicitly, the words "Master's Aunt" were clearly written in her eyes.
Xue Wanning's face froze.
After a moment, she smiled softly, looking at Ji Chu's appearance, with some ambiguous meaning flashing in her eyes:
"Your uncle Shen and I are not close friends."
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