Chapter 192 Endless Abyss
Commander Zhou has been holding his breath because it is inconvenient to say it.
He has been very nice to Zhou Siwei recently, and he has some intention of making amends.
"Since you are too embarrassed to ask, why not give me this opportunity?" Chen Zhu raised his eyebrows, having noticed the sneaky child.
It was precisely because of his childhood experiences that Zhou Siwei was more perceptive than other children. He probably knew about Commander Zhou's change in attitude towards him a long time ago.
Before Commander Zhou agreed, Zhou Siwei pushed the door open and walked in. His eyes were red, but there were no tears. His expression was extremely conflicted, and it seemed that he did not want to acknowledge this biological father.
"If you knew what my mother and I had been through, you might not have appeared in front of us." Zhou Siwei stood straight with his small body.
These words were so harsh that even Commander Zhou, a man accustomed to gunfire and hail of bullets, felt his body tremble suddenly. He looked at his son with some hesitation in his eyes and his fingers moved nervously.
"My mother is dead. She died of illness in front of me. Uncle Zhou, I always thought you were a very good uncle, but I didn't expect..."
Zhou Siwei's words were already a little confusing.
"But you can't be my father. My mom said my father died a long time ago. Don't try to be related to me. I hate you!"
The angry expression and the way his fingers were clenched into fists made people feel a little distressed.
Chen Zhu rubbed his head, not too hard, with a complicated look in his eyes: "Soldiers have many things they cannot help themselves. Maybe you can listen to his difficulties?"
"I don't want to listen!" Zhou Siwei pushed Chen Zhuyi away and took two steps back. There was still not much tenderness in his eyes, as if he had abandoned everything in the past.
"I'm already an orphan. I don't need anyone else to give me belated fatherly love. I don't want that kind of thing. Besides, I hate anyone forcing me!"
After finishing speaking, Zhou Siwei ran outside.
The sun was scorching, but he seemed completely unaffected by the scorching heat. There was a complexity in Chen Zhuyi's dark eyes, but Commander Zhou was particularly anxious and subconsciously wanted to chase after him.
"He's smart enough not to get himself sunburned. But you need to think carefully about how to get along with him. There are some things that are better left unnoticed. At least you won't get stuck somewhere."
Chen Zhuyi stopped Commander Zhou and shook his head and sighed at him.
There was no need to speak openly about relationships like father and son, or kinship.
No matter how urgent the situation was, Commander Zhou sacrificed his own family for the sake of everyone. He is a hero, but to Zhou Siwei, he is an irresponsible man.
He watched his mother leave and was trapped on the boat. Even though he was well-dressed, the life of being beaten and scolded at every turn made him completely lose the innocence of children of the same age, and he even persecuted many people.
But now, Zhou Siwei knew that his father was such a bright and great hero. How could he accept it so easily?
"I originally thought I could give him something to make up for it..." Commander Zhou sighed for the first time and explained with a lack of confidence.
He was not good at handling such complicated relationships, otherwise, he would not have been so hesitant and thought it would be better to discuss it with Chen Zhu.
"He doesn't actually need to make any amends, but these are just my own thoughts. Maybe I'm wrong." Chen Zhu waved his hand, indicating that there was no need for them to continue talking about this matter.
Commander Zhou hung his head, no longer as high-spirited as before, and left with heavy steps.
I didn't see Zhou Siwei during lunch.
It was not until the evening that Chen Zhuyi went out to look for him and saw him on the beach.
Zhou Siwei's small figure sat on the rock, the sea breeze blew, almost taking him away with it, into the embrace of the ocean. The bright moon hung high in the sky, and the salty sea breeze brought with it the moisture of the ocean, making it less uncomfortable.
"Aren't you hungry?" Chen Zhu handed him a prepared cake.
Zhou Siwei paused for a moment, then reached out to take it and began to eat it in big mouthfuls. He was really hungry, as if he hadn't eaten for several days. Or perhaps he wanted to vent his emotions by eating.
"Sister, why did he come out at this time? And he has such an extraordinary identity."
After waiting for a long time, Zhou Siwei finally brought up the topic himself.
He originally thought that Chen Zhu would come to comfort him, but he didn't expect her to just sit there, enjoying the sea breeze, with no intention of speaking at all.
"Can't you feel that he is taking care of you with ulterior motives?" Chen Zhu threw the question back lightly.
She didn't see Zhou Siwei when she came back last night. She thought he was probably with Commander Zhou. Although she didn't know what he was doing or what happened, she could guess a little.
An old father must be overjoyed to finally find his long-lost child.
Zhou Siwei, who grew up among the people, must be able to feel Commander Zhou's intentions.
"I..." Zhou Siwei was too embarrassed to speak anymore.
How could he not feel it?
I just feel that there is a layer of window paper that cannot be broken, so everyone can tacitly turn a deaf ear and turn a dumb.
He was a heroic father, but he had a child who grew up in the gutter and might have had some lives on his hands.
How can this be a family?
"He's your father. Even if you've committed countless evil deeds, that can't change the bond of blood. You're willing to accept him as an elder, but don't you want to see what it would be like if he became your closest person?"
Chen Zhuyi rubbed Zhou Siwei's head and gave him some advice softly, with a hint of envy in his words.
If she could see her father again, she would cry and struggle, and would use any means to keep her father.
She doesn't need a heroic father, she just wants an ordinary man, even if he's a little selfish.
"Sister, someone like me shouldn't be involved with Commander Zhou." At this moment, Zhou Siwei bumped into Chen Zhuyi's arms, her voice choked with sobs, and she expressed her thoughts bluntly.
In fact, it would be nice to be able to live in this confused way forever.
"Can you...can you find a way to send me away, or let me go to where you lived before? I don't want to stay here anymore."
He tugged at Chen Zhuyi's clothes, knowing that his request was inappropriate.
But what else can he do now except escape?
His inferiority complex surged up like waves, almost dragging him into the endless deep sea and drowning him completely.
"I know this is a bit unreasonable, or you can just abandon me and let me go out and wander around. Anyway, I can survive.
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