In the lobby on the first floor of "Paradise", the lights are dim and the atmosphere is gentle. Pale yellow spotlights are shining on the circular stage in the center. A quiet-looking boy is quietly playing the guitar and singing soulful love songs.
In a quiet corner, Nanxi and Yana sat opposite each other. Not far from them sat Biaozi and Zhanpeng. The two quiet men sat there dryly, staring at each other, and occasionally turned their heads to look at the two women next to them who were whispering, crying and laughing.
Nanxi held Yana's hand, her eyebrows knitted tightly, "Yana, this kind of thing requires evidence. If you don't have evidence, he will never admit it even if you kill him."
Yana smiled bitterly and shook her head. "How could he possibly let me get any evidence? I only started to get suspicious because I smelled other women's perfume on him several times."
"Have you ever asked him?"
"I asked him, and he told me not to think too much. He said it was just a social event." Yana wiped her tears. "Xixi, what kind of social event would leave him smelling of a woman's perfume? What kind of social event would leave lipstick marks on his shirt? I even saw a woman's dyed hair on his belt..."
At this point, Yana could no longer hold back her tears, and she held Nanxi's hand and began to sob.
"Ever since I found out he had a woman outside, I feel incredibly disgusted every time he gets close to me, seriously, Xixi. Before we got married, I knew he had had many women, and I couldn't get over it, but he knelt in front of me and swore that as long as I married him, I would be his only lover.
I didn't love him that much at that time, but I was already pregnant, so there was nothing I could do. He half coaxed and half threatened me into agreeing, and I did spend a few happy years with him.
But now, the child is grown up, and I am busy with family affairs at home every day, so I don’t have much energy to devote to him. He is also a playboy, and can’t stand the loneliness, so he has affairs outside. "
Yana cried more and more sadly. Nanxi frowned and didn't know how to persuade her. She could only listen to her crying.
"I told him several times that I wanted a divorce, but he always got very angry and told me not to be like those women and have other ideas. He was a bandit and if I dared to divorce him, he would do anything.
I can't understand it. He is already fooling around outside, which means he doesn't care about me at all. Then why doesn't he let me go back?
Every time we quarrel, he comes back to coax me in a gentle voice soon after. He is like this. When he really wants to coax you, he can put down all his attitudes and say anything. I am led by him by the nose again and again. Xixi, I really don’t know what to do.
Nanxi pursed her lips and took out another piece of paper to wipe Yana's tears. "To be honest, Yana, I don't know what to do either. My father and mother have never had a good relationship. I remember my mother quarreling many times. My father would sometimes lower himself to comfort her, but after a while, he would get annoyed and start to ignore her. In the end, my mother gradually became disappointed until she no longer had any hope in him.
I've watched my mother do that since I was little, so I don't have any expectations for relationships, let alone how to handle them. Balu and I only focus on the present and don't think too much. If we think too much, we'll definitely have a lot of conflicts."
"But I can't help but think about him, Xixi. I have a child, and I have to think about him. If I take him back to Thailand, Chanpong will go crazy and might even come after me and kill me. If I keep him in Daqili, what if Chanpong finds another woman and that woman treats my son badly? What if she abuses him?
Xixi, I really regret it. I should have been like you. I should have escaped even if it cost me my life. If I had escaped, I would still have a chance of survival. If I hadn't escaped and stayed in that place, I would never be able to leave.
"Things that are too easy to get will never be cherished. He thinks that since I have so submissively accepted the arrangements of fate, I will also submissively accept his finding women. In his heart, I am just a ball of mud, and he can do whatever he wants with me."
Nanxi lowered his head, and suddenly thought of the endless layers of mountains in Daqili.
It is endless despair, an invisible net, a despair that is difficult to escape once you get lost in it.
Looking at Yana in front of me, she is still so beautiful and gentle, but under this carefully nurtured skin is a soul that has long been riddled with holes.
"Yana, do you want me to help you?" Nanxi asked tentatively.
"Xixi, Zhan Peng isn't afraid of anyone, and doesn't listen to anyone except Balu. Can you help me by asking Balu to look after Zhan Zhan after I leave? At the very least, don't let other women bully him. If possible, let's keep in touch. If you have a chance, send me some news about Zhan Zhan."
Nanxi's heart was pounding. "Yana, you're leaving? We don't know what Zhan Peng's current situation is. If you leave so rashly, what if he goes crazy and really attacks you? Don't be impulsive."
"Then let him do it, Xixi. If he kills me, please find a chance to tell my son the truth in the future." A sharp light suddenly appeared in Yana's soft eyes, and that light was as sharp as a knife.
"Yana, has it really come to this?" Nanxi still couldn't believe that Yana could do such a cruel thing.
"Xixi, I was young at the time, not even twenty, and didn't have a clear understanding of love. I mistook my reliance on Zhan Peng in desperate situations for love. During the years we were together, I devotedly lived with him. It was he who betrayed me.
I'm weak, and I don't have a family like you do to support me, but I'm also human, with a temper. I don't want a man who has changed his mind. If I was still hesitant before meeting you today, after meeting you, I've really made up my mind.
I could have graduated from college, gotten a respectable job, found an ordinary man, and lived a life without having to worry every day. But all of this was ruined because of my weak character.
After not seeing you for a few years, you've completed your studies and have your own career. Baru loves and respects you, but what about me? I dropped out of college, stayed in that small town to have a child, and lived my life. In the end, I couldn't take my child with me, and I couldn't keep my man. I lost everything.
Yana bit her lip, clenched her hands on the table, and wiped her red eyes. "But it's okay, I'm still young, and everything will be in time."
"So where are you going after you leave? I remind you, Zhan Peng is so powerful that it would be easy for him to find you. Balut and Natu will also help him. Even if I restrain Balut, he will secretly do something."
Yana smiled bitterly. "Yes, in Southeast Asia, they might be able to make things happen with a wave of their hands, but the world is so big, they can't reach everywhere."
Nanxi was silent for a few seconds, her clear eyes filled with determination. "Okay, I'll find a way to help you, but don't be impulsive. We need to think long-term and find a foolproof solution that will succeed in one fell swoop."
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