Can't tell

Can't tell

Miao Xingzhou is sleeping.

High-tech parents: "Are you disappointed with the future now?"

Miao Xingzhou: "I will not be disappointed until the last moment of my life."

Mom: "Come here."

She slowly went inside, looked at the computer, but didn't touch it herself.

Mom: "Are you really giving up?"

Dad: "Go play."

Miao Xingzhou: "I don't want to play right now."

Mom: "Are you all grown up now?"

Suddenly, my sister said, "Why aren't you feeling sad now?"

Miao Xingzhou: "I'm all grown up now, I should be responsible."

Sister: "Indeed."

Brother: "Now take a look and see if there's anything you've lost."

She walked in and watched as countless bubbles appeared.

He closed his eyes and touched a bubble.

The parents, both in their sixties, went out to work.

Mom said, "You can keep it now."

Miao Xingzhou: "I'm thirty years old now, it would be a shame if I didn't work."

Mom: "Can you handle this all by yourself?"

Miao Xingzhou: "My sister and I work together."

Mom: "Yes, if you're not feeling well, go see a doctor. Don't suffer in silence."

She didn't have much money on her.

She came to the factory and worked on the machines.

The working hours are not long.

Eleven hours a day.

As she started heading home, her sister said, "How much longer do you plan to work?"

Miao Xingzhou: "I just want to earn 300,000."

Sister: "Mmm."

Suddenly, his mother called. Miao Xingzhou asked, "Mom?"

Mom: "Have you eaten?"

Miao Xingzhou: "It's still in progress."

The older sister said, "Eat now."

Mom: "What did you eat?"

Miao Xingzhou: "Food..."

Sister: "Tomatoes, preserved eggs, and spare ribs."

Mom smiled and said, "You ate well."

Miao Xingzhou: "Mom, what did you eat?"

Mom smiled and said, "The vegetables we eat are from the garden. And the cured meat."

Miao Xingzhou: "Is there anything you'd like to buy?"

Mom: "We have money."

Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."

Sister: "I bought you a box of Want Want rice crackers."

Mom laughed and said, "Are you feeding me like a pig?"

Dad: "As long as you're doing well, you don't need to worry about us."

Miao Xingzhou: "You raised us when we were young, so it's only natural that we should take care of you when you're old."

Mom smiled and said, "Are you tired from working now?"

Miao Xingzhou: "The work isn't tiring."

Sister: "You'll get used to it."

While I was sleeping, a voice suddenly spoke: "Your world has become chaotic because of mental illness. But you are still you."

Miao Xingzhou: "Sometimes I really wish I wasn't sick."

Mouth: "The disease has found you, so you'd better not suffer."

Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."

She began to jump down from the green mountain, a vertical distance of one thousand meters, and began to spread her arms. Below her was a huge blue mat, and with tremendous elasticity, she began to bounce into the air.

Bubbles came out of its mouth.

She touched the red bubble.

Watching myself being threatened.

The beating is over now, but it's a scar that will never heal. Even if the heart heals, the physical wound can never be cured.

So many pitiful people were wantonly trampled upon.

They had a bright future ahead of them.

But everything was ruined...

Would they be in so much pain if it weren't for them?

I should have already finished college, so I should go and get a job.

Instead of finishing junior high school and then being unable to continue his studies.

In parallel worlds, there are countless possibilities, including the possibility of finding happiness.

Big Mouth, "All those impossible things happened."

Miao Xingzhou said slowly, "How I long to be able to live a good life."

She didn't feel that she was bad, nor did she feel that she was really ugly.

Is everything now predetermined?

High-tech parents: "When did you start believing in fate?"

Miao Xingzhou slowly stepped off the mat.

"I wish I could stay at home, write novels, and make money, but it's too difficult."

Mom: "This path is inherently difficult, giving up is not a mistake."

Miao Xingzhou: "Yes, I want to work hard now and earn enough money."

Mom: "This is fine."

She gazed at the endless expanse of green mountains.

I will eventually disappear from this world.

Why be sad over something that only lasts a few decades?

The tech-savvy parents said, "Working won't destroy your dreams."

Miao Xingzhou started to wake up and looked at his sister, saying, "Time to go to work."

Sister: "Hmm~"

After they finished washing up, Miao Xingzhou worked at the factory while writing a novel in his mind.

After get off work, I turned on my computer for the first time and wrote four thousand words that day.

My older sister looked at me and said, "You work so hard, and you still write novels?"

Miao Xingzhou: "I want to realize my dream!"

Sister: "Your dream isn't about staying home writing novels and working."

Miao Xingzhou: "I'm happy to be able to improve every day."

Sister: "You look down on factory work, and the factory looks down on you too. You're a mental patient."

Miao Xingzhou didn't find it funny at all; on the contrary, he found it extremely ironic.

She went to sleep after she finished writing.

Making money is difficult these days.

It's hard to earn even a penny.

My sister said, "You're still writing novels now; you might actually succeed."

Miao Xingzhou: "The wonderful life I hope for will come."

Sister: "What a wonderful life!"

Miao Xingzhou: "I feel very happy right now."

Sister: "Then your wonderful life has already been achieved."

Miao Xingzhou: "Are you going to rest for a while again?"

Sister: "Mmm."

My mother once said that they were all unreliable; my brother was struggling to make ends meet, and my sister was ill.

This is truly disheartening.

The older sister asked, "What are you thinking about now?"

Miao Xingzhou: "I want to live a good life."

Sister: "Whether you're happy or unhappy, it's still a day, so why not be happier?"

Miao Xingzhou: "I feel okay now, but I feel like my time has been wasted."

Sister: "Your time has been wasted. Who do you think you are, that your time has been wasted?"

Miao Xingzhou: "I'm feeling a bit sleepy now. I'll stop here for now."

While I was sleeping, my older sister asked, "Did you take your medicine?"

Miao Xingzhou: "Call me when we arrive."

Sister: "I won't call you."

At eight o'clock, her phone suddenly rang.

Mom: "Did you take your medicine?"

Miao Xingzhou: Not yet.

Mom: "Don't forget your medicine."

He picked up a glass of water and swallowed six pills in one gulp.

While chatting with my mother, she asked, "Are you alright now?"

Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."

Mom: "That's good."

Miao Xingzhou: "What do you usually do at home?"

Mom: "Farming, playing."

Suddenly, Miao Xingzhou found himself on the riverbank and began to slowly back away, with his high-tech parents appearing behind him.

She was filled with doubt and surprise.

He began by saying, "When did I enter this dream? It feels so real!"

Mother: "You are dead now. Those fragments are your memories. Come with us."

Sister: "We're going to the Land of Dreams now. To fulfill your long-held wish."

Miao Xingzhou: "You are not my family!"

Mom: "You'll understand when you achieve your goal."

They arrived at an empty space.

Mom: "Write down your life story."

He suffered frequent disasters in his childhood.

I developed a mental illness when I was older and in school.

It cost the family most of their money, and they suffered as well.

He died when he was feeling better.

Mom said, "Is a few lines you wrote enough?"

Miao Xingzhou: "I want to go back now!"

Mom: "You have a healthy body now. Your parents would be better off without you."

She looked at herself on the computer screen.

She said slowly, "But I don't feel happy now. I should let go of my obsession."

Sister: "Obsession, once you let go, how will you exist?"

Dad: "We can only exist by constantly relying on our obsessions. Writing novels is your obsession, so don't give up."

Brother: "You can only stay in this house for now. We will give you whatever you need later."

Miao Xingzhou: "I want a cat."

Brother: "Mm."

He saw a familiar cat; it was his own tabby cat.

She hugged it, but the cat pushed her away.

Miao Xingzhou held it up and said, "It's so good to have you by my side after I die!"

Sister: "Now you take good care of her."

She doesn't feel hungry here because she doesn't feel hungry whenever she's writing a novel.

After writing ten short stories, it's been almost a year.

Mom came in and said, "We've found the book you wanted."

She smiled, her face full of surprise, "If I study hard and write novels now, I'll definitely do even better."

Mom: "Mmm."

When her mother left, she was completely absorbed, as if she were rewriting human DNA.

When I finished writing, my mother said, "Don't you feel bad now?"

Miao Xingzhou: "Maybe."

Mom: "In that case, let's rest first."

Miao Xingzhou: "Can I go out?"

Mom shook her head. "This isn't a dream."

Miao Xingzhou: "I haven't left this room for almost a year!"

Looking at Miao Xingzhou's atrophied legs, his mother said, "Didn't you want to realize your dream? To realize your dream, you have to lose your freedom."

She heard her pupils turn white.

Mom closed the door.

Miao Xingzhou started falling off the chair, pounding her legs, crying out, "No! No!"

Suddenly a robotic arm grabbed her, placed her on a robotic chair, and began her daily and monthly work.

Her eyes were bloodshot, her fingers were hard, the words on the screen became blurry, and her fingers felt like they were being pricked by needles.

She kept saying, "I don't want to dream anymore! Let it go..."

Her finger bones gradually became prominent.

She cried out that she couldn't hold on any longer and was about to fall, but the robotic arm grabbed her hand and said, "You can't give up on your dream, that's what you said."

She's blind, and her fingers have no feeling...

But he still had to look at the computer and feel that faint light.

He said slowly, "Miao Xingzhou, wake up!"

He woke up from his dream to find himself writing a novel, with his mother sitting beside him. "You're sweating so much even in your dreams?"

Miao Xingzhou: "Mmm." She wiped away the glistening, cold sweat. Her expression was filled with terror.

Mom: "Aren't you going to have another attack?"

"I can't tell what's real and what's fake now."

Mom: "If you can't tell the difference, then don't."

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