Don't you want children?
Miao Xingzhou's novel is still unsigned.
She will not give up even if she never signs a contract.
Let's just treat it as a hobby.
They were surrounded by wolves and tigers.
How can I survive if I have to fend for myself?
You're still alive now, but your future will be terrible. Either you'll be locked up in a mental hospital for life with no one to care for you, or you'll die.
No one wants to be happy, and no one cares about them.
Would it be better if I were dead?
She controls her own brain.
How can death bring good fortune?
She fell asleep while writing her novel and saw the field again. There were no scarecrows in the field, but wildflowers grew everywhere. She lay down.
Even if dreams can't be realized, you still have to try. There probably aren't many people as foolish as her.
Who told me I was sick? I'll definitely succeed eventually.
The moonlight was bright, and the wildflowers were delicate.
She slowly stood on the flat ground and looked down. How lovely the river was! She used to catch crabs there when she was a child.
How I miss my childhood.
How I long to see them appear again.
Perhaps everything should have changed. I myself have changed too, even when it comes to money.
He can only rely on himself, but how can a disabled person rely on himself when he doesn't even care about dying?
Saying such things from one's closest family member is like a knife to the heart; there's no one to comfort me, and no one to talk to.
She woke up and started crying again.
Dad said, "Get up and cook!"
Miao Xingzhou got up.
While cooking, he thought about how he cooks every day, and yet he's still called lazy and told he doesn't do anything.
Their words were like sharp blades cutting through my skin, touching my scars.
They even forced her to commit suicide again.
Why did you do this to her!
Mom? Why did you give birth to me?
After she finished cooking, she went to sleep, and when she woke up, she wrote her novel.
A long time has passed and I've grown old, but my novel writing still hasn't made any progress.
She watched as she poured her youth into the cause but couldn't earn a single penny.
It's not suitable, and no matter what you do, it won't work.
Have I truly achieved countless successes? I have already tried my best.
She started to sleep.
She grabbed her tech-savvy parents' clothes, crying, "I don't want to live in reality! Take me away!"
The tech-savvy parents grabbed her hand and said, "Everyone has to go through pain."
Miao Xingzhou began to weep bitterly, "What use am I to live? I'm just a burden to my family!"
The tech-savvy mom closed her eyes. "Are you really sure?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Never again will I have to suffer from mental illness and the indifference of my family, as I read successful novels.
She was writing a novel when her mother said, "Let's eat."
Miao Xingzhou stood up and stretched. He sat down at the table and asked, "What dishes?"
Mom: "Bread and toast."
Miao Xingzhou: "It's absolutely delicious."
Mom smiled and said, "Are you sure you don't want to go back?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Going back would only bring endless tears, so I don't want to go back."
Mom: "Mmm."
Dad: "In that case, let's stay here."
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
After she finished eating, she went upstairs to write her novel and excitedly told her mother, "I earned eight thousand this month!"
Mom smiled and said, "Mm."
Dad: "Do you want to study?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Mom: "Get up and go study."
Miao Xingzhou: "But..."
Mom: "Look at yourself."
Miao Xingzhou: I've turned into a sixteen-year-old!
She entered high school and began attending No. 1 High School, observing the students there.
She suppressed a smile, determined not to waste this opportunity.
She suddenly remembered her sister.
They were all afraid of being asked for money, but I actually gave them some when I earned money.
But they are more realistic.
They believe they can't make money and won't care about their own life or death.
Cold and indifferent, thinking he's very powerful.
The indifference of family members can kill a person.
She began to feel sad.
Under the teacher's earnest guidance, I was admitted to a top-tier university.
After graduating from university, he returned home to write novels.
Mom asked, "Are you happy now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I'm so happy that I actually finished university!"
Mom: "As long as you're happy."
Miao Xingzhou said with a smile, "I'm very happy now."
She stepped into the computer, confident that she would succeed.
Her novels have indeed improved.
Mom: "Are you happy now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I'm very happy, so let me die here."
Mom: "You want to die, but you don't want to go back?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Going back will only bring countless tears. Only here, in this place, can I have a better world."
Mom: "Even so, you never want to go back?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I don't want to go back."
Mom: "You won't hurt anyone by doing this."
Miao Xingzhou: "That's right, even family members wouldn't care about me."
The mother began slowly, "Now go to reality. Your family is indeed cruel, but they..."
Miao Xingzhou shouted, "I will never go back. I love it here, and I want to stay here forever!"
Mom: "Are you really sure?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I don't want to wake up! Don't let me wake up!"
Miao Xingzhou grabbed something and discovered it was a cell phone, the time being 20 years later in 2045.
She looked around and realized that she was renting a small apartment.
I didn't rely on anyone at all.
She started writing novels, and by writing them herself, she could earn two or three thousand yuan a month, which was enough to make ends meet.
After washing up, she started eating, which was a bowl of white rice.
After he finished eating, he started working.
Life was tough, but I was happy.
They are able to support themselves.
Do not rely on anyone.
She looked at the kitten and said, "You like me the most too, right?"
Kitten: "Meow~"
Miao Xingzhou looked at the other kitten in the room, a cute little mix of a tabby cat and a white cat.
Miao Xingzhou hugged one, then continued writing his novel, noting that the cat food available nowadays was unhealthy.
Most of them are toxic cat food.
She could only feed them some meat.
I have hundreds of novels I've written on my computer, but the best ones only have around a hundred favorites.
I make money entirely from word count.
They just never seem to get it.
He deleted all his family members from his contacts, and tears streamed down his face.
Loneliness is a deep black color.
She started taking her medication.
When it got dark, I started to sleep, while the kitten ran around. Then it ran onto the bed and we slept together.
Miao Xingzhou understood that none of his family members wanted him to be alive.
They must have been happy to hear they wanted to die. They were all smiling.
I never need family!
She continued to cry.
The doctor said it's best not to let negative emotions affect their condition, but they always get angry with themselves.
To speak of oneself in a sarcastic or ironic tone.
The grief that had been building up was now overwhelming.
Only by constantly leaving home.
She looked at the money she had saved; it was enough to treat her mental illness.
Entering the hospital, lying in the hospital bed, I completely ended my mental illness. When I came out, it felt like I was walking on clouds.
She no longer needs to take medication, just like a normal person.
I can live on my own now!
After that, she started returning to her rented apartment and found that her novels were getting better and better. Her life was getting better and better.
Everything is thriving.
She looked happily at her phone, but there were no relatives or anyone else on it. She then started walking down the street.
Passersby didn't even glance at her. Miao Xingzhou picked up her phone and started watching videos.
Afterwards, I looked at those people, and then went home.
The kitten meowed, and Miao Xingzhou picked it up, saying, "My chubby daughter!"
Tabby cats are soft, while white cats with tabby markings are thin and therefore hard.
Miao Xingzhou slowly fell asleep.
Looking at the plains, I've been here countless times, and the night here is still so serene.
How welcoming the flowers and plants here are!
A woman in a white plaid suit appeared: "You really don't want to get married?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Why get married? I'm perfectly comfortable right now!"
The three children beside him looked at Miao Xingzhou and asked, "Don't you have someone you like?"
Miao Xingzhou: "The person I like doesn't like me back. Why should I even be in a relationship?"
The man slowly looked at Miao Xingzhou and said, "Why don't you like it? You should live a good life."
Miao Xingzhou: "Even if my body is eaten by a cat after I die, I won't be afraid."
The man began to speak slowly: "You may not be afraid now, but have you ever thought about what it will be like when you're old?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Wouldn't it be nice if I lived alone when I'm old?"
A silver ring appeared in the man's hand. "This silver ring will allow you to see what you see."
Miao Xingzhou reached out and took it.
Looking at the clouds, she saw her seventy-year-old parents smiling as they took care of her brother's child.
My older sister and brother are still working.
She smiled and threw the silver ring on the ground. "It was just a dream."
The person began by saying, "Life's journey is long, are you ready?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
The man smiled and said, "Keep living."
Look at the sky, then slowly close your eyes, or just live life to the fullest.
She began to wake up.
The kitten meowed, and Miao Xingzhou slowly grabbed the tabby cat and rubbed it hard.
Then I gently touched the cat that looked like a mixed breed, and then got up.
I started cooking slowly.
After finishing my meal, I started writing.
A long time passed, and it was already evening. Life is so good now!
To be able to live a good life.
She went out and bought a bag of spicy strips.
Then go back.
Living alone is truly blissful.
She looked at the pedestrians on the street and they all seemed so happy.
If I understand happiness myself, that's enough; my family still sees me as a burden.
She didn't tell her family where she was going, or whether she was alive or not, and they didn't care.
She slowly walked to the supermarket and bought a bag of snacks.
Back home, I looked at my tablet and started drawing.
After finishing the drawing, I went back to sleep.
The cats were all looking at her. Miao Xingzhou said, "Oh, right, I haven't given you any food yet."
He opened two sausages and started feeding them. Watching them eat happily, he said, "The kittens are so cute!"
The kitten started meowing.
I saw those green mountains in my dream.
As I walked slowly through the mountains, gazing at the bright moon and sparse stars, a child suddenly appeared and asked, "Don't you really want to have your own family?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I don't want to get married. I can live a good life on my own."
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