Fear
She was inside the bubble, rising higher and higher, and she saw countless people disappearing from her sight.
Finally, they started sleeping in the bubbles.
"Miao Xingzhou?"
Miao Xingzhou woke up and looked at the computer.
No one reads my novels, but that's not a big deal.
The older sister said, "Miao Xingzhou, you're sleeping again now. Aren't you going to chase your dreams anymore?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I think so, but I'm sleepy."
Sister: "If you're sleepy, go upstairs to sleep."
She started going upstairs.
Mom said, "You're playing on your phone now, when are you going to get a job?"
Miao Xingzhou glanced at it and continued upstairs.
Sister: "I want to wait a while."
Mom: "You've been here for a year. You still think we can't afford to support you? Don't scare me."
The older sister smiled, then said nothing more.
Miao Xingzhou began to feel anxious about not being able to realize his dream.
When I wake up, I keep writing novels, but in reality, no one pays any attention to them.
Have I truly lived a lifetime?
She was looking at the computer.
When I felt better, stopped having these wild thoughts, and stopped having these noises, I went back to work at the factory.
This didn't happen until ten years later.
The parents began by saying, "You don't need to work now since you don't draw much."
Miao Xingzhou: "I'll save some money and then go home. Take care of yourselves."
Mom: "I told you to go to work, but you wouldn't. Now that I'm not telling you to work, you want to go."
Miao Xingzhou: "What if I get sick? I don't have any savings."
Mom: "If I said you don't want to go, then you shouldn't go! What are you looking for!"
Dad: "It would be good if you cooked for us."
Miao Xingzhou: "I need to make some money first."
Mom: "If you insist on going, nothing I say will make a difference!"
Miao Xingzhou began to board the vehicle.
Her sixty-year-old parents watched her leave.
She worked in the factory with her relatives.
It was 10 p.m.
She was looking at the book.
Then my parents called.
Mom asked, "Have you eaten?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Mom: "What did you eat?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Bread, it's delicious, do you want some?"
A long time passed, and she came again during the harvest season.
Her mother looked at her and asked, "Is your work hard?"
Miao Xingzhou: "It's not hard work at all."
Mom: "Mmm."
She was on the mountain, harvesting with a machine.
Planting vegetables.
I worked on it for three or four months.
She looked at her hands, which seemed to have calluses.
It was quite late when she finished, and her mother and father were waiting for her to have dinner.
Miao Xingzhou: "It's already six o'clock. Just leave me some food, there's no need to make me wait."
Mom: "It tastes better when we eat together."
Dad said, "Want to play together?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I don't want to play."
Mom: "Then you should write a novel."
"Um."
Life is great now.
I wish it could stay like this forever.
While I was sleeping, I suddenly discovered that I had successfully signed a contract.
She was overjoyed.
But this is only the first step.
She didn't give up even when she was only making a few dollars a month.
Ten years have passed, and with continuous improvement, it's not too bad anymore.
My sister called. "What do you want right now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I earned two hundred this month!"
Sister: "Two hundred, that's less than what I earn in a day."
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Sister: "Are you still writing novels?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Dad suddenly appeared and asked, "How are you doing these days?"
The older sister didn't say anything.
The air suddenly froze.
Dad started to wait, and his sister looked at him. Miao Xingzhou said, "She's the same as before, still working odd jobs."
Dad started to leave.
My sister asked, "Are you still happy now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I'm very happy."
Mom appears in the frame: "Hello!"
Miao Xingzhou smiled.
Sister: "What did you eat?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Spicy strips, do you want some?"
Sister: "I want to eat this, will you buy it for me?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I'll feed you. Open your mouth!"
The older sister, watching from behind the screen, started to laugh.
When we finished talking, my sister said, "Misfortune may be a blessing in disguise, and a blessing may be a misfortune in disguise!"
Despite being ill, I was able to steadfastly pursue my dreams.
She suddenly realized that she had completed all the high school courses and read over sixty books.
This journey has been anything but easy.
But thankfully, we made it through.
Some have been successful so far.
The older sister said, "Miao Xingzhou, are you feeling any better now?"
"Um."
She started to end the video call.
He was just lying in bed when he suddenly entered an advanced civilization. Those humans from 300 million years ago began to look at him slowly, and then reached out their hands.
She touched her hand and began to feel countless pains wash over her.
She was caught off guard.
I slowly entered their world.
In a laboratory, countless animals observed humans and began cutting open their abdomens with knives to remove their internal organs.
Looking at the corpses.
Now I can no longer stay calm.
She grabbed it with the back of her hand. Then she went inside the wall.
Mom: "Why did you go out!"
Miao Xingzhou: "What's going on?!"
Mother: "We have been abandoned by the Creator."
Miao Xingzhou: "Why?"
Dad: "Humans don't know how to be satisfied with reality and pursue their dreams."
Miao Xingzhou woke up from his dream.
Should we not blindly pursue our dreams?
But how can I live like this? It is because I have a dream that I have a reason to live and that I can stop thinking about death all the time!
He slowly started looking at the computer.
I can't work right now.
I remembered what my sister had said: everything has two sides, one good and one bad.
What seems like a misfortune may actually be a blessing in disguise...
She slowly smiled. That's true.
She must support herself.
She looked at her phone.
It's 10 PM now. I did some math outside, then went back to sleep.
Despite her daily perseverance without any progress, she was still very happy.
I suddenly remembered a dream: humanity destroys itself because of its own stubbornness. Is that true?
But without making food, how can we survive?
She had another dream.
In the dream, my parents said, "How long do you want to continue this dream?"
Miao Xingzhou: "This world is truly fake."
Mom: "Yes, this world, the entire universe, is nothing but an illusion."
She looked at her mother and said, "If we're fake, why are we in so much pain?"
Mom: "It's not painful now, as long as you live well."
Miao Xingzhou: "But what if life isn't as good as yours?"
Mom didn't say anything.
Many people don't not want to live well, but they simply can't survive.
She looked at the sky. If even surviving was a luxury, what should she do?
Many have been forced to die out of desperation; this world is already filled with nothing but suffering.
Mom said, "Miao Xingzhou, you still haven't grown up."
Miao Xingzhou: "I'm probably just a flower in a greenhouse."
Mom: "You can't live in a greenhouse your whole life."
Dad: "The world is cruel, but you must adapt."
Miao Xingzhou: "But I... just want to live happily."
She woke up from her dream.
Looking at the computer, I've only written three thousand words today. Time to get back to writing!
Hurry up and finish them off!
After finishing writing, I started cooking. My dad asked, "What dishes are you making?"
Miao Xingzhou: "What kind of table is it on?"
It's not that she hasn't seen her father unhappy; on the contrary, her father gets angry a lot, but he never loses his temper easily.
They were eating.
Dad said, "Don't put chili peppers in the bean curd."
Miao Xingzhou: "I think it tastes delicious."
Dad started to frown.
After that, he didn't say anything more.
As evening fell, she was reading alone.
Dad came home, and suddenly Mom called. Dad said, "How have you been lately?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Mom: "Don't talk to this old hag."
Miao Xingzhou smiled, and his father smiled too.
Mom: "Just seeing you gives me a headache!"
Dad started talking to her with a smile.
After chatting for a while, Mom said, "Whoever wants to talk to you, give it to Xingzhou."
Xingzhou: "Mom."
After chatting for a while, Mom asked, "Are you feeling better now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Mom: "Take good care of yourself."
Mom: "Is there anything else?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Did you hang up?"
"What else do you want to talk about if I don't let you?" the older sister said from the side.
She started reading.
Time flies.
He wrote over a hundred novels in a short time, and twenty years have passed since then.
My sister said, "You haven't earned a single penny all these years?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I'm not making money now, but that doesn't mean I'll never have any. I'm still doing farm work."
She continued reading.
When it was time to go to bed, I remembered that my sister had bought six meat floss buns, which cost sixty yuan. That was really too expensive.
Are prices really that outrageous these days?
Making money is hard these days, but spending it is easy. I'd better not go to a big city and become a spendthrift.
Spending money is terrifying.
Now, expenses are low when living at home.
I am truly happy.
In my dream, I saw countless bubbles and mermaids. They belonged to the sea and came from the ocean.
She saw someone suddenly grab her hand. Her sister said, "Come here quickly."
They arrived at a blue house.
The mother said, "This place is a high-level civilization that has kept humans captive and is observing them at all times."
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
The older sister began, "Now, do you still want to pursue your ridiculous dream?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I don't know." If everything is fake, is there any point?
She began to slowly watch countless bubbles rise into the air; those were all her memories.
My memories have been sold...
She went outside and saw a mouth constantly blowing bubbles...
I woke up with a start, thank goodness it was just a dream!
My dream must come true.
Countless efforts combined can surely cultivate one's dreams with sweat.
She is happy every day.
My mother called and said, "You seem to be feeling much better now."
Miao Xingzhou: "I think so too."
She looked at the messages on her phone.
Someone commented on my post again!
She commented: Thank you!
Run towards your dream on the horizon.
The past is no longer progressing.
When she was sleeping, she saw her parents; they had grown old.
As people gradually grow older, it's only natural.
She is not afraid of getting old, not afraid of failure, and not afraid of wasting time.
But even the strongest person has moments of fear.
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