Think more about happy things
He looked inside the house and realized he really owned his own house now.
I turned on my computer and saw that my monthly salary was 5,000 yuan, which was not bad.
She started writing.
The mother came into the room and said, "Miao Xingzhou, are you happy now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I'm very happy."
Her mother saw right through her: "Why are you always unhappy?"
She said, "I'm so happy that I've achieved my dream and can support myself."
Suddenly, my sister came in and asked, "How much did the house you bought cost?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Three hundred thousand."
Sister: "Three hundred thousand now, that's a lot."
Miao Xingzhou: "Let's go out."
As they went out, the older sister said, "Your life is so easy now. You can stay at home every day and write novels whenever you want."
She looked at her phone and said, "Hmm."
"Let's begin the meal," Dad said.
They sat down and began to eat.
Mom: "Now that we've bought a house, we'll buy a car later."
Miao Xingzhou: "I don't want a car."
The mother began, "Why don't you buy a car?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I feel very relaxed now, why should I put so much pressure on myself?"
Sister: "It's more convenient to have a car."
Miao Xingzhou: "I live in the village, why would I need to buy a car?"
Mom: "Are you happy to stay with us?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Mom: "We don't need you to come with us. You should focus on writing your novel."
She started looking around, but she wasn't very happy.
If I'm suffering like this, why should I live?
Seeing my family so happy.
Why should I suffer?
She might have to continue seeing a psychiatrist.
My sister said, "As long as you're happy now, that's all that matters."
Miao Xingzhou: "This is the kind of life I've always dreamed of. I don't know why I've gone through all that longing and now I'm at rock bottom."
Sister: "I really don't understand you."
Miao Xingzhou slowly began to say, "Living is truly painful. Why should I live?"
Suddenly, many eyes turned to her, and she stopped talking. "What's there to be in pain about!" her mother began to say. "What's there to be unhappy about? You're just pretending to be in pain when you're not."
Sister: "Making a fuss over nothing."
The older brother sat down. "That's right."
Dad said from the side, "If you're not feeling well, you can tell us. If it's too serious, you can go see a doctor. Technology is much more advanced now."
Miao Xingzhou stood at the edge of the field, and only after a long while did he finally hum in response.
After finishing his meal, Miao Xingzhou went to sleep.
She looked at the time and it was four o'clock in the evening when her mother knocked on the door.
Miao Xingzhou: "I'm up."
Mom: "Shall we go on a trip together?"
Miao Xingzhou did not answer.
Mom: "Would you like to come to Phoenix Valley?"
"The whole family went together."
Miao Xingzhou: "I still need to write my novel, you guys go ahead."
Mom opened the door with a smile.
Perhaps anyone with mental illness could smile more or less just by seeing the smiles of their family members.
She started by taking her family to Phoenix Valley.
When she saw the phoenix lanterns of the play begin to illuminate the sky, the lamp of destiny in her heart also began to light up.
She began to speak slowly: "So the sky lantern can illuminate the heart."
She reached out her hand, but tears streamed down her face.
Why am I in pain?
Is simply surviving all there is to it?
The older sister said, "Let's go ice skating."
They started ice skating.
My brother and sister-in-law were having a great time. My sister said, "It feels like we've gone back to when we were eighteen."
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Sister: "How are you feeling now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
After playing and shopping, the parents were sitting in the car on their way home when the older brother asked, "Are you still happy now?"
Miao Xingzhou looked at his brother and said, "I'm very happy right now."
Brother: "Be happy now, that's all that matters. Try to make yourself happy and don't think about the bad things."
They came to our house, and my sister said, "Are you going to write your novel now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Sister: "Then I'm going to sleep now."
She sat down at the computer and started to sleep.
High-tech parents: "Are you really happy now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I'm just sick."
"Hmm. Since you're sick, what do you want?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I want a future without pain."
Sister: "Are you in pain right now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I feel unhappy..."
Brother: "What did you see?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I will never forget that incident."
In a place of endless insults and torment.
She was a pitiful victim; her family said she got sick because she was too fragile.
She is feeling very upset right now.
She looked at her parents and said, "I will never succeed. I am a failure."
Mom: "Look at yourself, you've become the person you wanted to be, and you've even bought a house."
Miao Xingzhou: "I can't distinguish between reality and illusion. I want a place where everything stops forever, so I'll never have to feel pain."
Sister: "Didn't you used to believe that no matter what, you had to live? That living is hope?"
Miao Xingzhou began to back away, "I am now just a painful mistaker!"
She woke up and continued writing her novel. At seven o'clock, her mother knocked on the door and said, "Let's eat together."
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
She went outside and saw her older brother and sister standing in the hallway. She went inside and looked at the food in the room; it was all leftovers.
The older brother said, "You're so big, why does Mom still have to call you to eat?"
Miao Xingzhou did not speak.
They went to the table and began to eat.
Brother: "Try not to make Mom angry anymore."
Mom: "Xingzhou definitely won't make me angry. He's all grown up now and can take care of himself."
Mom looked at Dad and said, "Let's eat!"
Dad: "I have no appetite right now."
Miao Xingzhou: "I've finished eating."
She began to return to her hometown and write novels.
The older brother began, "Let's go play later."
Miao Xingzhou: "I don't want to play. You guys play."
Her older sister and brother both watched her leave.
Mom started laughing and said, "Going to make money?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
She went to the computer, but before she could even turn it on, she went back to sleep.
I witnessed countless humans turning into cold-blooded people. They were like machines, never communicating with each other, and they didn't even eat.
I spend all day researching.
She slowly began to watch as a human simply vanished from the spot.
After that, countless lives began to disappear.
My own hands and feet also began to disappear.
When I woke up, I was already eighty years old.
All I have around me is myself.
Watching the terminal, slowly connecting.
Start writing.
Time passed quickly, and after calling the funeral home, she began to die.
When she woke up, she found out she was only in her early twenties.
She had truly entered the cycle of reincarnation. She was reading a different novel.
Am I really still alive?
Mom: "What are you thinking about now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Why am I still alive?"
Mom: "What's wrong with being alive? You can go work with your sister later."
Miao Xingzhou: "I don't want to work."
Mom: "Why aren't you working?! What are you doing?!"
She suddenly plummeted into a black hole.
Looking around, I saw countless overlapping spaces. I entered one of them and found myself writing a novel.
Another space stone is reading a book.
There is a space for part-time work.
There is another space where you keep walking around in a white house.
Now she was struggling in pain, grabbing her hair and pulling it hard, when she suddenly looked around and saw that she was in a classroom.
Teacher: "What's wrong?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I want to wake up now!"
"I want to live in reality!"
Teacher: "Are you sick? The high school entrance exam is coming up soon, so study more and try not to think about those things."
Miao Xingzhou started to leave get out of class, and then he jumped. He saw that he had entered another space and was committing suicide.
Why didn't you die then, instead of suffering like this now, when you tried to hang yourself with a rope?
She felt helpless as she watched countless painful things happen.
She crouched down and covered her head, saying, "No more, I don't want to live anymore."
Let's leave me out.
When I woke up from the dream, the world was still in chaos.
High-tech parents: "What would make you happy?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I am very happy now."
Mom: "Even though you're not outstanding, everyone has their own value in living."
She slowly began to say, "Do I have a reason to live?!"
"Haha, someone as bad as me can actually survive!"
Everyone wants me dead! But I'm determined to live!
"Living better than them!"
I woke up suddenly.
My older sister said, "We're going to work now, so take good care of yourself."
Miao Xingzhou: "Hmm."
Mom: "We don't need you to take care of us. You can take care of yourself."
Miao Xingzhou started writing, and then he read books. This kind of life seemed good, but it was still painful.
Mom: "Why are you grabbing your hair like that?!"
Miao Xingzhou: "It's probably because it's too itchy."
Dad: "We could sell some anti-itch shampoo."
Mom: "Are you feeling unwell? You should see a doctor."
Miao Xingzhou: "No, I just don't know why I feel uncomfortable."
Perhaps it was because of a few words from her family that she felt sad, watching countless flowers wither.
Seeing countless illnesses and pains torment him.
Looking at the countless cold houses.
Countless sufferings surged forth like a tidal wave.
Overwhelmed and helpless.
After that, I started sleeping all the time. After working five or six hours a day, I would just sleep and look at my monthly salary of about two thousand.
My sister asked on the phone, "Are you happy now?"
Miao Xingzhou: "Yes. I'm very happy."
Sister: "As long as you're happy."
After chatting for a few minutes, the conversation ended. Looking at the novel on my computer, I wondered why I wrote novels, and whether what I wrote had to be good.
She felt the logic was confused.
I always get distracted while reading, so my mom said, "I'll buy an ice pop and have one."
Miao Xingzhou: "Popsicle?"
Mom: "Mmm."
They were wearing popsicles. The mother said, "What's there to be unhappy about? Look at you, you have money, food, and a house now. So many people envy you."
Miao Xingzhou: "Maybe I'm sick."
Mom: "Aren't you already better?"
Miao Xingzhou: "I am indeed better, but I sometimes feel that way."
Mom: "You need to go out into the world. Don't think about those unhappy things. You're so lucky to have older brothers and sisters."
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