Chapter 57 Chapter 57 The sister-in-law next door asked: "Did you have a fight...
Su Yan felt suffocated and walked into the room, comforting herself that it was just because her hormone levels had not returned to normal. There were so many people in the world giving birth and raising children, so it was nothing.
Qin Zhanwu put down his chopsticks and saw that Su Yan had indeed covered herself with the quilt and gone to sleep. He sat on the bed and grabbed Su Yan's hand. "What's the matter? I was just saying it casually, why did you take it so seriously?"
Just a casual remark? Su Yan turned over and sat up after hearing this: "Oh, you just said it casually, but I am making a big deal out of it?"
At this point, Qin Zhanwu no longer dared to argue with her and quickly waved his hands: "No, it's all my fault. You're not brave enough, I'm brave enough, and I just spoke nonsense."
Popularity like Su Yan's comes and goes quickly. She turned her head away and asked, "Who cares about you?"
Qin Zhanwu smiled. "If you ignore me, I'll pay attention to you. The effect is almost the same anyway. Honestly, if you find it hard, you should still invite Mrs. Hu back. You've been away from work for so long that your work has been neglected. A few months is nothing, but if you waste several years at home because of childbirth, that would be very uneconomical."
Su Yan wanted to go to work. She didn't want to stay home all day, doing chores and dealing with the daily grind of food. She asked, "Really? Do you support me going out to work?" Most of the people in this military academy's family compound were stay-at-home mothers, taking care of the children and doing the housework. Those who did have jobs often asked their parents or relatives to help out, or sent their children back home until they were almost ready for school. Su Yan had no hometown or relatives, so she had to raise her children herself.
Qin Zhanwu patted her hands and said, "Of course, after you invite Mrs. Hu back, you can continue working. You are a college student, and it would be a bit of a waste if you waste your time on family affairs."
Su Yan didn't quite believe that this was what Qin Zhanwu really thought. She looked at him and asked, "Do you really think so, or are you just saying this to cheer me up?"
Qin Zhanwu assured: "This is the absolute truth." As he said this, he smiled and tried to lift the quilt and get into bed.
Su Yan then noticed when he sat on the bed and hurriedly urged him to take a shower: "Oh my God, when did you sit on the bed? It's so dirty outside, and the train is so dirty, full of bacteria."
Qin Zhanwu stood up reluctantly: "I just changed my clothes before leaving, so they're not dirty. There are not many people in my carriage, only me."
Su Yan put on her clothes and took out his change of clothes from the closet: "What does it have to do with whether there is anyone there? It's dirty even if there is no one!" After that, she pushed Qin Zhanwu out to take a shower.
When he came out of the shower, the baby had already fallen asleep, and Su Yan was holding him and feeding him. Qin Zhanwu leaned over and saw that the baby's eyes were still tightly closed, just sucking unconsciously. He asked, "Why are you still feeding him in the middle of the night?"
Su Yan glanced at him and said, "How refreshing! I'm hungry, so I have to drink milk, right? Who cares what time it is?"
Qin Zhanwu shook his head. "That won't work. There have to be rules for when to eat and when to sleep. If he eats whenever he wants, wouldn't that be very tiring? If you go to work, can you just leave your job and come home when he's hungry?"
When he said that, Su Yan was actually afraid that he would take it seriously. She said, "How can a child be compared to us adults? His digestive system and stomach are not well developed. Moreover, breast milk is not like other flours or starches. It is very easy to digest. The doctor also said that feeding every two hours is scientific. He can't talk. If he feels uncomfortable or hungry, he will just cry."
Digestive system? Qin Zhanwu smiled and said nothing. He put the child back into the cradle after feeding. "This kid really doesn't cry. Everything will be fine as long as he is full."
Su Yan looked at her watch. It was already four in the middle of the night. If it were summer, it would be dawn in just two hours. Fortunately, it was winter and she could still sleep for three or four hours. She turned on the light and said, "Go to sleep. I'm so sleepy."
Qin Zhanwu moved closer and slowly reached out his hand. Seeing that his lower abdomen was flat and there was no trace of a knife mark, he smiled.
Su Yan was very sleepy and had no interest at all at the moment. Just as she was about to push his hand away, she heard him say, "I thought you would ask the doctor to perform a caesarean section this time so that there would be no scar."
She was about to say, "I'm not sick, why would I leave a scar on my stomach?" She probably had given birth, so her reaction slowed down, and it took her a while to react. She was Su Yan, so naturally, she had no scars on her body, but Lu Yingzi had been stabbed several times, so she should have scars.
Could it be that Qin Zhanwu already knew that she was not Lu Yingzi? This thought gave Su Yan a start, and her sleepiness completely disappeared, and she woke up completely.
Both of them were silent. Su Yan didn't know why he brought this up at this time, nor did she know whether he was just saying it casually or if he had really suspected that she was not Lu Yingzi a long time ago. Suddenly, the room was quiet, and the only sound could be heard outside the window: the north wind blowing against the treetops.
Su Yan felt her heartbeat getting faster and faster, and said, "There's nothing wrong with my brain. Why would a doctor perform surgery and deliberately leave a scar?"
Qin Zhanwu turned over and sat up, but did not turn on the light: "Do you still remember your classmates in college?"
Su Yan was horrified by this short sentence. No matter who the college classmate he was talking about was, Su Yan didn't know him at all. Su Yan didn't know whether he was asking because he suspected that she was not Lu Yingzi, or if he was asking about Lu Yingzi's lover.
Su Yan was speechless and said reluctantly, "My...my own college classmates, how could I...how could I not recognize them? It's just that I left Shanghai and came back in a hurry, so I haven't been in touch for a long time. So, did you meet my classmates?"
"Have you met my classmates?" Su Yan asked casually, but who would have guessed it before Qin Zhanwu hummed, "I did meet your college classmates, but to be precise, it wasn't an encounter; I made a special trip to visit them. Most of your classmates were assigned back to their hometowns. Only one female classmate stayed to teach at Shanghai Normal University because of family connections. Do you still remember her name? Her name is Dong Zhiqiu, and she knew you very well. She told me that you shared bunk beds when you were in college."
Su Yan's body was stiff, her mind was dazed, and she only answered unconsciously: "I remember her. Is she doing well?"
Qin Zhanwu chuckled softly, "The guy who slept with you isn't called Dong Zhiqiu, but Dong Qiuhe. There's no one named Dong Zhiqiu in your class. I made up that name."
Su Yan felt cold, weak, and powerless. Sure enough, Qin Zhanwu had indeed investigated her. She just didn't know when he'd gone to Shanghai. If he'd known before they got married, then he was truly terrifying. No, he had his own suspicions, and instead of asking Su Yan, he'd investigated on his own...
Seeing Su Yan speechless, Qin Zhanwu asked, "Don't you have anything to tell me?"
Su Yan felt as if all her strength had been drained away. She was completely confused and didn't know what to do. "What do you want me to say? Or rather, what do you want to know?"
Qin Zhanwu asked the fatal question: "Who are you?"
Su Yan smiled bitterly. "Perhaps even if I told you the truth, you would think I was crazy, or that I was making up some nonsense to fool you. Since you went to Shanghai and went to school on purpose, you must have your own speculation. You don't need me to tell you, you have already made your own judgment."
How can I say that I came from a different era, that I am from 60 years later, that I am not from this era at all?
Su Yan thought that it would be better to say that she was an alien, which would be more reliable than traveling through time.
What Qin Zhanwu hated most was her attitude. It was as if she had made up her mind not to make a fuss or let others know, so she didn't even bother to be perfunctory to herself, treating herself like a fool. His repeated hints didn't get her to confess, so he tricked her and made her reveal her flaw, but she still had this attitude.
He turned on the light, turned over, and pressed on Su Yan, carefully examining her expression. She had a pale face, a slightly frowned brow, cold palms, and a thin layer of sweat on her forehead. She was extremely panicked and frightened, completely lacking the arrogance she usually had towards him.
The two looked at each other quietly for a while. Su Yan closed her eyes and said, "I don't have much to say. I can only say that I have an absolutely clear conscience and have not hurt anyone..."
Qin Zhanwu hated that she was always like this, never telling him anything, or that she never trusted him, her husband, or the father of her child. Even though they had been together day and night, even though they had been intimate, even though they had a child together, she still didn't trust him, and he was not in her heart.
Qin Zhanwu kissed her fiercely, roughly and without any skill. In the past, Su Yan would have pushed him away, but now, looking at Qin Zhanwu like this, Su Yan knew that it was wrong to say that she had never hurt anyone. At least she had hurt his heart, and she felt extremely sad for a moment.
Qin Zhanwu kissed her for a while, then felt extremely bored. He raised his head and saw Su Yan had opened her eyes, staring at him blankly, tears already overflowing from her eyes. He sighed in his heart, he couldn't bear to see Su Yan like this. Just as he was about to get up, put on his clothes and leave, he saw Su Yan caressing his face: "I'm sorry!"
Qin Zhanwu felt as if his heart was held in her hands and he could not move. He saw Su Yan raise her head and put her arms around his neck, and he was immersed in a dense and gentle kiss.
Qin Zhanwu felt that Su Yan was extremely gentle that night, as if she was guiding him, as if she was obeying him, as soft as a pool of spring water, allowing him to take whatever he wanted. The more Su Yan obeyed him in this way, the more resentful Qin Zhanwu felt, but he couldn't bear to leave Su Yan like this, so he simply let himself drown in this gentle spring water.
That night, the two of them tossed and turned for a long time, one feeling angry and the other feeling guilty, and it was not until dawn that the fight gradually ended.
Su Yan was exhausted, so she leaned over and fell asleep. Qin Zhanwu, however, couldn't fall asleep for a long time. He put on his clothes and sat in the living room, smoking one cigarette after another. Before long, the ashtray was full of cigarette butts.
When Su Yan woke up, she was awakened by the crying of the child. She climbed up with misty eyes and patted the child's back with one hand: "Don't cry, don't cry, your mother just fell asleep."
She picked him up, fed him, changed his diaper, and wiped him with warm water. She let him lie on the bed clean and refreshed, and laughed while blowing bubbles.
The sister-in-law next door heard the crying and ran over: "Why did you cry for so long, child? I thought you fell asleep, right?" She picked up the child and rocked him while saying, "Auntie, hold him, let's go out and play."
She looked around and asked, "Where's Chief of Staff Qin? Why isn't he home so early in the morning? I heard the guard say he came back at midnight yesterday."
Su Yan followed her out to the living room and saw the ashtray next to the sofa was full of cigarette butts, some of which were scattered on the floor. The room smelled of smoke, but no one was there. She hurried over and opened both the upper and lower windows to ventilate the room.
The sister-in-law next door asked, "Did you have a fight?"
Su Yan shook her head: "No!"
The sister-in-law next door didn't believe a word she said: "Look at you, you look so haggard. I'll watch the child for you today. Go to bed. I'm afraid you didn't sleep all night last night. No matter what happens, whether we quarreled or not, you should get yourself together first."
Su Yan was indeed groggy. After thanking her sister-in-law, she closed the door and collapsed onto the bed. Her head was aching, and she wondered what she could do to get Qin Zhanwu to stop asking. She absolutely couldn't say anything. If she confessed, how much would she have to say? How could she prove it?
Qin Zhanwu probably doesn't care that much about the truth of the matter. What he cares about is his own attitude. Su Yan understood this very well from the beginning to the end.
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The author has something to say: Once all the misunderstandings are explained, it should be over.
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