Chapter 284 It's You I Love
Lu Jingyan did not answer her question.
He stood up and walked behind her.
In the mirror, he saw her pale face and her swollen, red eyes.
He reached out and hugged her from behind, tightening his arms so tightly he almost wanted to meld her into his very bones.
Su Wantang closed her eyes, and tears streamed down her face again.
Lu Jingyan rubbed his chin against the top of her head.
"Su Wantang, listen carefully."
His voice was low, but powerful.
"I want you, from head to toe, inside and out, the real you."
He paused.
"My child, yes, that's good; no, I only want you."
Su Wantang opened her eyes and turned to look at him.
"But you clearly said..."
“What I say is not important,” Lu Jingyan interrupted her. “What is important is that I’m telling you now, I don’t care.”
Su Wantang shook her head.
"You care, you definitely care."
She pushed him.
"Don't lie to me, your Lu family definitely cares."
Lu Jingyan grabbed her hand.
"What does the Lu family care about? Me? You? Or a child whose very existence is uncertain?"
He pulled her into his arms.
"I only care about you."
Su Wantang's tears wouldn't stop.
She pounded her fist on his chest.
"You're lying! You're lying!"
She pounded him hard, her fists striking his chest with a dull thud.
"You almost died in the Northwest, and the first thing you said when you woke up was that you wanted to have my child!"
Lu Jingyan let her hit him.
"so what?"
"So you do care!" Su Wantang cried until her voice was hoarse. "You just want a child!"
Lu Jingyan grasped her wrist.
"Su Wantang, let me finish."
Su Wantang wouldn't listen and struggled to push him away.
Lu Jingyan hugged her even tighter.
"When I was in a coma in the Northwest, all I could think about was you."
His voice was very soft.
"I'm thinking, if I die, what will you do alone?"
Su Wantang was stunned.
Lu Jingyan continued, "I think if I come back alive, I want to give you an explanation."
"What explanation?"
"To give you someone to rely on." Lu Jingyan looked at her. "Whether it's a child or anything else, I want you to have someone in this world who truly belongs to you."
Su Wantang's tears fell even more fiercely.
"But I can't have children..."
“Then we won’t have any more children,” Lu Jingyan said resolutely. “You are my support, and I am your support. Neither of us needs to rely on anyone else.”
Su Wantang buried herself in his arms, crying and trembling all over.
In her previous life, she fought cancer for ten years.
She didn't cry once in ten years.
She vomited bile during chemotherapy, but she endured it.
She endured the pain of the radiation therapy that caused her skin to ulcerate.
She endured the pain even when her veins hardened from the injections.
Because she knew that crying was useless.
But now, she couldn't hold back anymore.
Those four words from Shen Qingyun brought out all the despair she had accumulated over the past ten years.
"Almost zero."
She thought that by traveling through time, she could escape those nightmares.
And what was the result?
Nightmares are just in a different form.
In my past life, I was a cancer cell; in this life, I am a uterus.
They are all part of her body, and they are all betraying her.
Su Wantang's fists grew weaker and weaker with each punch.
Finally, she collapsed into Lu Jingyan's arms, sobbing uncontrollably.
Lu Jingyan held her in his arms without saying a word.
He just hugged her tighter and patted her back gently.
After crying for a long time, Su Wantang finally couldn't cry anymore.
She looked up, her eyes swollen like walnuts.
Lu Jingyan looked down at her, wiping away the tears on her face with his fingers.
Are you still crying?
Su Wantang shook her head.
"Don't cry."
Her voice was terribly hoarse.
Lu Jingyan cupped her face in his hands and gently pressed his thumb against the corner of her eye.
"Then listen to me."
Su Wantang looked at him.
Lu Jingyan's eyes were very dark, so dark they could suck people in.
"What I want is you, not a womb."
He spoke slowly, and every word was clear.
Do you understand?
Su Wantang nodded.
Lu Jingyan released her and took a step back.
He began to unbutton his shirt.
One, two, three...
Su Wantang was stunned.
What are you doing?
Lu Jingyan did not answer and continued to unbutton his shirt.
He took off his shirt, revealing his muscular upper body.
There are several scars on his chest, all left by bullets.
He walked over, grabbed Su Wantang's hand, and pressed it against his chest.
"You touch it."
Su Wantang placed her hand on his chest and could feel his heartbeat.
One stroke, one stroke, very powerful.
Lu Jingyan stared at her.
My heart beats for you.
He grabbed her other hand and pressed it against his own scar.
"All these injuries I have are so that I can come back alive to see you."
Su Wantang's fingers trembled slightly.
"My body, from head to toe, belongs to you."
He let go of her hand. (Please use your imagination to fill in the blanks.)
Su Wantang blushed.
"you……"
"Don't speak," Lu Jingyan interrupted her.
A moment later he stood in front of her, completely naked.
Su Wantang looked away.
Lu Jingyan walked over, picked her up, and carried her to the bed.
“Look at me.”
Su Wantang dared not look.
Lu Jingyan placed her on the bed and leaned down to press her down.
"Su Wantang, look at me."
Su Wantang closed her eyes.
Lu Jingyan grabbed her chin and forced her to open her eyes.
"I'm going to let you know today that what I want is you."
He lowered his head and kissed her lips.
The kiss was forceful, possessive, and brooked no refusal.
Su Wantang's tears flowed again.
Lu Jingyan kissed her and began to undress her.
The buttons on the cheongsam were unbuttoned one by one.
(The persimmons can't be shown here) T﹏T
Su Wantang closed her eyes, tears sliding down her cheeks.
Lu Jingyan kissed her collarbone and then stopped.
He looked up at her.
"Wantang, your body is the most beautiful I have ever seen."
Su Wantang opened her eyes.
Lu Jingyan's eyes were filled with her.
I love every inch of your skin, every bone in your body.
(It can't be posted here either)
She took off all her cheongsams and threw them on the side of the bed.
Su Wantang bit her lower lip.
Lu Jingyan took her hand and interlaced his fingers.
"I'll show you just how good your body is."
She was sick for ten years in her previous life and felt nothing but disgust for her own body.
Because her body betrayed her.
But now, Lu Jingyan's kiss made her feel for the first time that this body might not be so bad after all.
Lu Jingyan's palm rested on her waist, his thumb gently caressing her ribs.
"You're too thin."
His voice was low and filled with heartache.
Su Wantang looked away.
"I know."
Lu Jingyan kissed her ribs.
"I'll cook for you more often from now on and fatten you up a bit."
Su Wantang smiled.
Lu Jingyan looked up at her.
"What are you laughing at?"
"It's nothing," Su Wantang said. "I just think... you're a really nice person."
Lu Jingyan leaned close to her ear.
"I can do even better."
Lu Jingyan kissed her earlobe.
"Wantang, look at me."
Su Wantang opened her eyes.
Lu Jingyan's eyes were very dark, so dark they shone.
"I love you."
He spoke very seriously.
"I love you no matter whether you can have children or not."
Su Wantang's tears flowed again.
Lu Jingyan kissed away her tears.
"Don't cry."
Su Wantang shook her head.
"I just want to cry."
Lu Jingyan smiled.
"Then cry."
Lu Jingyan didn't say anything, but just hugged her even tighter.
The only sound in the room was their breathing.
Sweat dripped down Lu Jingyan's forehead and landed on Su Wantang's face.
Su Wantang opened her eyes and looked at him.
Lu Jingyan was also looking at her.
The two just stared at each other without saying a word.
But they could see each other in each other's eyes.
Lu Jingyan leaned down and kissed her lips.
The kiss was deep, so deep it felt like he wanted to swallow her whole.
She was lonely for ten years in her previous life.
No one loved her, and no one wanted to touch her.
Because she was a patient.
But now, Lu Jingyan is holding her, loving her with all his might.
She is no longer a patient.
She is Su Wantang.
She is Su Wantang, who is cherished by Lu Jingyan.
“Su Wantang…”
"Wantang..."
"My Wantang..."
Every sound is like a vow.
Su Wantang closed her eyes, tears sliding down her cheeks.
Lu Jingyan kissed away her tears.
"Don't cry."
His voice was terribly hoarse.
"You are mine, and I am yours. No one can separate us."
Su Wantang nodded.
"Um."
Lu Jingyan hugged her tightly.
Su Wantang closed her eyes, (…
After a long time, the two slowly...
Lu Jingyan lay on top of her, his forehead pressed against hers.
Their breaths mingled together.
Su Wantang opened her eyes and looked at him.
Lu Jingyan was also looking at her.
Are you still feeling unwell?
Su Wantang shook her head.
"I don't feel bad anymore."
Lu Jingyan kissed her forehead.
"That's good."
He picked her up and carried her to the bathroom.
In the bathroom, hot water was flowing freely.
Lu Jingyan put her into the bathtub, and then sat in himself.
The water was very hot, so Su Wantang leaned back.
Lu Jingyan pulled her into his arms.
"Don't move, I'll wash you."
He picked up a towel, wet it, and gently wiped her back.
Su Wantang leaned against his chest with her eyes closed.
"Jingyan".
"Um?"
"I love you."
Lu Jingyan paused for a moment.
He looked down at her.
Su Wantang opened her eyes and turned to look at him.
I said, I love you.
Lu Jingyan stared at her for a few seconds, then suddenly smiled.
He turned her over so that she faced him.
Say it again.
Su Wantang blushed.
"I'm not going to say anything more."
Lu Jingyan pinched her chin.
"explain."
Su Wantang bit her lower lip.
"I love you."
The sound was very soft, as soft as a mosquito's buzz.
Lu Jingyan laughed out loud.
"Speak louder."
Su Wantang glared at him.
"Don't push your luck."
Lu Jingyan pulled her into his arms.
"Okay, I won't force you."
He whispered in her ear.
"My promise is for a lifetime."
Su Wantang leaned against his chest and closed her eyes.
The water was very hot, and so was her heart.
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