Chapter 15
Zhang Yunniang wanted to express that feeling, but she felt that the words were insufficient and she couldn't express it at all.
"Well, my previous fear was of people. After my parents died, I was left alone and was driven away wherever I went. Even begging was bullied by other beggars.
You must also always remain vigilant and guard against kidnappers.
So, I don’t want to see anyone. I will be safe if there is no one around. My fear of people makes me want to hide and escape as far away as possible.
The feeling of dying is that you can clearly feel the blood flowing out of your body and your body temperature dropping, but you can't shout or move.
I was conscious, and I knew that if I sealed the wound, the bleeding would stop, and I wouldn't get cold. But I couldn't move. My bones were cold, and I couldn't help shivering.
Later, perhaps because I was too unwilling to die like this, I woke up from my coma. From then on, I seemed to be less afraid of everything.
Just like the days that follow are earned, even if I die now, the days before this moment were also gained for nothing."
"The rest of my life is earned, and you still think like that?"
"Why not? Since I've already died once, and the past is just like my previous life, and God has given me a chance to start over, why should I worry about trivial things and waste such a great opportunity?"
"Okay, we've been out for quite a while, let's go back."
Looking at the person lost in thought, Zhang Yunniang threw away the oil-paper bag and pushed the person back.
Fortunately, she was able to stay at home and live a stable life at that time, and Jun Qingmo didn't have much impression of her or the original owner, so she could make up whatever she wanted so unscrupulously.
After all, her behavior these days is really a bit unreliable.
Ever since returning home that day, Zhang Yunniang found that Jun Qingmo was busy with something. He would go back to the study whenever he had time. The desk was piled with papers covered with words. It would be fine if he didn't clean up the mess himself, but he also wouldn't let her clean up.
Even if he asked, since he didn't tell her what he was writing, she was too lazy to pay any more attention to him.
Jun Qingmo has his own things to do, and she also has her own things to do.
The two of them finally spent a few days of peace and quiet in their own little yard.
Now Jun Qingmo no longer needs to be by her side all the time. The house inspection deadline she agreed with the tenant has arrived. She said goodbye and said she was going out to buy some daily necessities and then left the house.
The people who rented her house were a young couple who used to run a small business in the city. Now their elderly family member is in poor health and they have to leave.
"I'm so ashamed. We said we wanted a long-term lease, but we've only been renting for half a year. Miss, please do the math and get as much of the deposit back as you can."
The man sat there with his head down, not saying a word. The woman came up to him and asked.
Zhang Yunniang looked around the yard carefully without replying in a hurry. The two of them followed her nervously.
When the contract was signed, it was agreed that the deposit would not be refunded if the lease was terminated early.
In her previous life, Zhang Yunniang was deeply cheated by bad agents and landlords when renting a house. It was not easy for outsiders to survive, and she didn't want to be so ruthless. She just said that if there were unexpected circumstances such as force majeure, she would be willing to refund part of the money.
The yard is not big and consists of the main wing, east and west wing, toilet and kitchen. The gate of the yard faces the main wing, and there is a small open space in the middle.
The kitchen is located in the southeast, close to the courtyard gate, and the toilet is between the northeast main wing and the east wing.
Although it is a single-entry house, it has all the necessary facilities.
The couple are decent people. They take good care of the house and take good care of the furniture. Apart from the friction caused by normal use, there are no signs of deliberate damage.
All the clutter in the yard, warehouse, and room has been cleared away, and the whole place is very clean inside and out.
Zhang Yunniang is very satisfied with the current state of the house.
"Are you satisfied, young lady? We've already gotten rid of all our personal belongings, and the only things left are some tableware in the kitchen. I was thinking of getting rid of them, but then I figured if someone else came to rent the place, we wouldn't be able to take them with us anyway, and the new tenant would be able to use them."
"My eldest brother and his wife are respectable people. They keep the house so clean. They have returned to their hometown to take care of the elderly at home. I will return the deposit to you."
"Oh, girl, you are such a kind person. We, we don't know how to thank you enough."
The woman was overjoyed when she heard this. They had thought that they would be happy if they could get back a hundred copper coins, but they didn't expect that they could get back all of them.
The man standing nearby smiled upon hearing this. They were running a small business, and their monthly rent was half a tael of silver. After deducting the capital for running the business, they didn't make much money, but it was only slightly better than farming back home.
The young couple didn't expect to get a full refund, and they were very surprised and delighted.
“It’s not easy for anyone who is away from home.”
Zhang Yunniang handed over the deposit she had prepared early in the morning.
I recall when she graduated, the floor had clearly been soaked in water and cracked before it was rented, but she insisted that it was her fault and even carried a lantern around looking for traces of friction.
After graduation, she was too embarrassed to ask her family for money. If the landlord had not unreasonably withheld the deposit, she would not have had to eat plain noodles for half a month.
She emptied all her pockets and bank cards before she found two hundred and thirty-five yuan, twenty-three cents. She will never forget this number.
"This is a jar of preserved fruit that I pickled myself. Everyone in my family loves it. Take it home and try it, girl."
"This is some pickled radish I made from drying it myself. I'll give it to you to try."
"Then I won't be polite."
Zhang Yunniang knew that this was a way of expressing gratitude, so she didn't refuse.
The couple handed over the keys and hurried off in their carriage.
Zhang Yunniang sent the person out of the courtyard and then looked back at the small courtyard. This was her home.
Although she had never lived here before and had always lived in a small room in the palace, this was her foundation. No matter when, she had a place to stay.
Over the years, she had almost turned her main job at the palace into a sideline. She had a lot of free time, so she worked as a helper in the nursery shop outside. She had finally saved enough money to buy a house.
Zhang Yunniang sat on the stone bench in the middle of the yard, placed her hands on the stone table, and looked up at the sky with her palms resting on them.
I don’t know if this sky is the same as the sky in the original world.
She has been renting out the house since she bought it and has never lived in it herself.
Looking at the empty yard, she thought there was no rush to rent it out, so she might as well leave it there for the time being.
This is her own place, and she feels that the wind blowing here is free.
The jar of preserved fruit was still on the stone table. She opened it, took a piece and ate it. After chewing it twice, her eyes lit up.
It is sweet with a slight sourness, not greasy at all, and soft and sticky.
She ate several pieces and even made herself a pot of tea. She ate and drank at the same time, which was really comfortable.
At this moment, she didn't want to go anywhere from the bottom of her heart, she just wanted to stay here.
But she currently has an unlucky boss.
Seeing that it was getting late, she carried a jar of preserved fruits and a jar of pickled radish, intending to go back and feed them to her poor boss who was almost defeated.
She returned to Wencuiju and found Jun Qingmo in the yard.
Besides him, there was also Jun Qingxuan, and the two were chatting about something. She had originally planned to go around to avoid disturbing the two brothers' bonding.
"In the middle of next month, my father will celebrate his birthday. If there is anything you would like to prepare, I will go and find it for you."
"If I don't show up in front of the guests, it will be the best birthday gift for my father."
Jun Qingmo tilted his head to look at the path outside the courtyard gate and replied nonchalantly.
Jun Qingxuan was already used to his indifference and said to himself, "I know you have resentment in your heart. Even if it's not for the sake of showing filial piety, I have to prepare a gift anyway. It won't be criticized in terms of etiquette and it will save some trouble."
"I know what I'm doing."
When he noticed the figure coming from outside, Jun Qingmo's lifeless eyes suddenly flashed with light, and he became more energetic.
He looked at the man's steps as he tried to slip away after noticing them, and the two small jars in the man's arms, and a smile unconsciously appeared on the corners of his mouth.
The man clearly saw them, but he pretended not to see them and walked away.
He pushed the wheelchair towards the man, and when they were still some distance apart, he called out, "You're back. What did you buy? You've been gone for so long."
There was a hint of complaint and grievance in his tone.
After Zhang Yunniang left, he stayed in the study for a long time. After more than an hour, he put down his brush and felt a little tired. He called Zhang Yunniang several times but there was no response. He thought that she might not have come back yet.
He pushed his wheelchair into the yard and wandered around the flower beds and paths. The whole yard was quiet and deserted.
He kept wandering around the yard. The more he wandered, the more panicked he became, and the more panicked he became, the harder it was to calm down.
The Anle Palace is not far from the market. No matter what you buy, you should be back in two hours.
Later, he began to wonder if Zhang Yunniang had slipped away and would never come back. He hurried to the side room next door and saw that nothing had been taken away. He then confidently denied this possibility.
Then, I became worried that the man might have had an accident on the road.
He couldn't calm down, and time had never seemed so long. He walked around the yard again and again, and then waited at the gate.
Later, Jun Qingxuan came. He dealt with it perfunctorily and kept his eyes on the direction of the courtyard gate.
At this moment, seeing the person, he finally swallowed his uneasy heart.
Zhang Yunniang handed over the preserved fruit she was holding. "This is for you. This jar is some pickled vegetables. Eat them with your meal."
"Where did you get squatted here again? It took all this effort."
Zhang Yunniang could hear the unhappiness in his tone and knew that he had returned a little late and must be hungry. "Well, we have to save food this time. The boss has gone back to his hometown in the countryside, so we can't buy food even if we want to."
Upon hearing this, Jun Qingmo wiped his hands on his lapel and naturally grabbed a piece of preserved fruit and put it in his mouth.
The fruity aroma lingered on his tongue, a sour and sweet taste, just like his mood. The preserved fruit was soft, glutinous, and sweet, but not at all cloying. Following Zhang Yunniang, he could really enjoy good food.
Jun Qingxuan also came over, and Zhang Yunniang bowed politely.
"What are you eating? I want to try it too."
Jun Qingmo turned his back to Jun Qingxuan, stuffed the jar of preserved fruit into his arms, pressed it with a blanket, and handed over the other piece of preserved fruit in his hand, "This is the only piece left. Here you go."
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