Moonlight, Shadow, Night (5)
But now.
He raised his head and looked at the confused girl in the moonlight with complicated eyes, and his heart was inevitably filled with surging pain.
A lot of memories suddenly flooded in front of my eyes——
"Brother, I have admired you for a long time. This is a snack I made by myself. I hope you like it." In the quiet bamboo forest, light shadows intertwined and the sunlight was very soft, illuminating the astonishment on Xie Feng's face clearly.
The person speaking to him was a completely unfamiliar woman with a Feng Shui Institute sign hanging around her waist. She looked shy, and her eyes seemed to gleam as she looked at Xie Feng.
"Why?" He felt neither joy nor disgust, just confusion.
"Senior brother, you are always the most hardworking and talented. Everyone likes strong people, and I like them too." As she spoke, she lowered her head and handed the box of snacks in her hand forward.
Xie Feng's doubts remained unanswered. In his simple life, apart from cultivation and Li Zhaoyue, there was nothing left.
"Can I understand that you mean that if you like someone, you can give her something? Then giving something to someone and being nice to him or her means you like him or her, right?" he said.
The woman looked up blankly, her face turned red when she met Xie Feng's serious gaze, and she nodded hurriedly.
Is that really the case? Xie Feng recalled Li Zhaoyue sending him gifts and chatting with him, and a strange feeling gradually spread in his heart.
Like the osmanthus candy she had given him, it was sweet with a hint of fragrance.
It turns out that his feelings for Li Zhaoyue are just love.
Xie Feng came back to his senses, his eyes swept over Li Zhaoyue's fair face, and he said in a low voice: "It will be uncomfortable, it will feel very uncomfortable."
Li Zhaoyue's face showed a trace of anxiety, and he asked, "Why is that?"
Xie Feng had imagined this scene countless times, where he could openly tell her about his possessiveness towards her and vent out the dark emotions that had been accumulating in his heart for many years.
You can muster up the courage to say you like it.
But……
Xie Feng took a deep breath, looked at the bright moon in the sky, and whispered: "Because I want to stay with her, I think she likes me, and she only has eyes for me. I like her, so I want to possess her, but my reason tells me that she is free. I need to respect her, I need to restrain myself." His last voice had begun to tremble.
"Afeng..." Li Zhaoyue noticed that something was wrong with him and subconsciously grabbed his hand hanging by his side.
Xie Feng felt the warmth coming from his palm and closed his eyes.
Once upon a time, his world was a blank. From the moment he met Li Zhaoyue, it was filled with all sorts of beautiful colors. He was like a newborn baby, stumbling and exploring this unfamiliar world, repeatedly hitting walls and failing. But no matter how much he despised himself and rejected everything, she was always there for him.
Xie Feng was afraid of the dark, so Li Zhaoyue took his hand and led him into the darkness step by step. Xie Feng was unsympathetic, so Li Zhaoyue dragged him into the world of mortals, letting him experience joy, happiness, and bitterness. In the eyes of others, Li Zhaoyue was a useless, ignorant person who knew nothing.
But in his world, she can do anything.
And after he grew up, he got used to standing in front of her and shielding her from all the ups and downs, just like she did back then.
But...what went wrong? Why did she fall in love with someone else?
Xie Feng lowered his head, and something wet fell out. He hurriedly reached out and caught the tear before it fell. The warm tear melted in his palm, finally turning into ice-cold water.
"Ayue." Xie Feng called her.
Li Zhaoyue approached him worriedly.
"Are you in love with Xu Xing?"
There was a long silence. Xie Feng closed his eyes, waiting for his own verdict.
"Is this feeling called love?" Li Zhaoyue's confused voice sounded.
Snap——
The water in the palm of his hand flowed through his fingers onto the ground, drowned out by the chirping of insects in the darkness.
"Yes, it's called love. Will A Yue have similar feelings for me?" Xie Feng asked.
"Yes, but..."
"But it's not this strong. You wouldn't feel such an overwhelming sadness when Lou Yao gets close to me."
Xie Feng raised his head and looked at her calmly.
Xie Feng rarely looked at Li Zhaoyue with such eyes. These eyes were as melancholy as moonlight. Although calm, they contained a kind of sadness of departure.
"Afeng..." Li Zhaoyue wanted to ask him what was wrong, but was speechless under his gaze.
"Although I don't like Xu Xing and feel that he always approaches you with an ulterior motive, it is undeniable that he is very good to you." Xie Feng forced a smile and said.
"If you like it, don't be like me. I didn't do anything and lost the opportunity."
"Afeng, do you have someone you like?" Li Zhaoyue asked as if he understood.
Xie Feng's smile was as wide as it could be, almost a brilliant one. He rarely smiled, but this relaxed smile looked very nice.
After a brief moment of surprise, Li Zhaoyue curved her eyes and smiled, "Afeng still looks better when he smiles."
"I have, but it doesn't matter anymore." He answered her previous question and swallowed the next words in her confused eyes.
Because the girl he liked already had someone she liked, and the person she liked was not Xie Feng.
"It's getting late. Let me take you home first." Xie Feng looked at the bright moon in the sky and cleverly changed the subject. Li Zhaoyue didn't quite understand what he just said, but after hearing what Xie Feng said, she felt much more comfortable. So she smiled and nodded, and walked shoulder to shoulder with Xie Feng towards Qingfeng Courtyard.
The moonlight was hazy, and Xie Feng watched his beloved girl walking away from him step by step.
Back at Lixiangyuan, Xie Feng, contrary to his usual behavior, blew out the lights and sat at his desk in a daze. The faint moonlight filtered through the windowsill and shone into his eyes, revealing a deep sadness.
Song Shiyu was waiting in the yard early. Seeing him so worried, he coughed lightly.
"Who?" Xie Feng's voice was weak and full of fatigue.
"It's me." Song Shiyu suddenly appeared from under the windowsill and looked at him with a smile.
"I'm a little tired today..." Xie Feng rubbed his eyebrows. Before he could finish his words, Song Shiyu's stomach growled.
"I didn't eat enough tonight. Do you have anything to eat?" Song Shiyu covered her stomach and winked at him.
Song Shiyu had a rather voluptuous appearance. He remembered the first time they met, she was lying in the arms of several men, laughing wildly. The shock she gave him was no less than the first time he saw a pornographic painting. Not surprisingly, Xie Feng caught her.
Song Shiyu has always been very naughty and even lawless. Xie Feng hates such people from the bottom of his heart, but because he needs to find out the truth, he has to force her to stay by his side.
But at this moment, he suddenly saw something different in her eyes.
"No." He said in a hoarse voice.
"If you say there's nothing, then there's nothing. But I'm going to come in and look for it anyway." Song Shiyu said as he jumped in, holding onto the windowsill. As soon as he came in, he found the floor full of papers and many small items.
"Why do you put things in a mess..." She bent down to pick up the papers and was caught off guard by what was written on them.
It's about Li Zhaoyue.
"Give it back to me." Xie Feng said to her weakly, but did not actually try to snatch it away.
The boy's usually straight back was slightly bent, his hair and collar were messy. Song Shiyu felt that he was like a piece of crystal full of cracks, about to break.
Xie Feng stared blankly at the moon in silence. Song Shiyu wanted to say something, but seeing his expression, he stopped talking, found a stool, and sat beside him silently.
After a long moment, she lowered her head in frustration and whispered, "I'm sorry, I didn't know you were so sad."
Xie Feng didn't say anything, but suddenly stood up, walked to the yard, and dug out a jar of wine under the pear tree.
"Do you want to drink?" He shouted to Song Shiyu in the room.
Before she could answer, a handful of wine filled with leaves flew in front of her.
"Refreshing!" she shouted and drank the wine.
They drank the whole jar of wine, one sip at a time, and finally, they lay drunkenly under a tree, looking at the bright moon hanging high in the sky with dizziness in their eyes.
"Why are there so many moons?" Xie Feng pointed at the sky and said with a silly smile.
Song Shiyu was feeling better, at least his vision was clear. He chuckled and said, "Don't you usually drink? How did you get so drunk?"
"Drink...drink and I won't feel uncomfortable, and I won't think about her..." Xie Feng's voice gradually became lower.
Song Shiyu rested his head on his arm, staring at the bright moon in the night sky, and said, "Do you like her very much?"
She was asking Li Zhaoyue.
Xie Feng was silent for a while, then said in a hoarse voice, "I like it. I've liked it since I was a child."
"Then you have a good eye!" Song Shiyu praised.
I thought she would ask herself why she had liked someone for so long, but unexpectedly...
"Do you have someone you like?" Xie Feng asked her.
Song Shiyu shook his head: "For someone like me, it's hard to live, so how can I have the time to like others?"
"Then why do you go to that kind of place, lying among so many men, looking like you're enjoying yourself?"
Song Shiyu laughed heartily: "Can't going to a place like that be for relaxation? I don't do anything, I can just spend money to buy someone to serve me, how great is that."
"Why do you say that it's not easy for you to live? The demon race and the human race are not incompatible." Xie Feng talked a lot after getting drunk. He could ask Song Shiyu all kinds of questions.
"What is this?" Song Shiyu suddenly stretched out her hand and waved it in front of Xie Feng. He frowned, slapped her hand away, and said irritably: "Why put a mosquito in front of me?"
"I'm different from ordinary demons." She suddenly lowered her voice. "If you knew my true identity, you would probably kill me. Any cultivator in this world would kill me if they knew my identity."
After saying this, Song Shiyu turned to look at Xie Feng, only to find that he had already closed his eyes and fallen asleep. She chuckled softly and continued to look at the bright moon in the night sky.
The moon tonight is really round.
*
Lou Yao and Xu Xing walked one after the other on a small path with interlaced shadows of trees. Xu Xing took big steps, and Lou Yao had to jog to keep up with him.
"Sorry, I didn't notice." Xu Xing saw the sweat beads on her forehead and said apologetically.
Lou Yao shook her head and said nothing. Xu Xing continued to walk forward leisurely, taking the same steps.
She gritted her teeth and trotted over to him.
"Xu Xing, I feel like you and Li Zhaoyue seem to have a very good relationship."
Hearing this, Xu Xing smiled and narrowed his beautiful eyes slightly, indicating that he was very interested in this topic.
"I heard it from others. They said you treat Li Zhaoyue differently. They said you..." Lou Yao bit her lower lip and said nervously, "They said you like her."
Xu Xing raised his eyebrows and asked her, "Why are you saying this in front of me?"
"Don't you think the relationship between Li Zhaoyue and Xie Feng is even stronger, and no one else can interfere? There are even rumors that they are already engaged. Regardless, their union is inevitable and destined by nature."
"Combination? Inevitable? Destined? What you say is really interesting." Xu Xing said with a smile.
Seeing that he still looked nonchalant, Lou Yao felt a sense of relief. She continued, "Actually, Li Zhaoyue is very kind to everyone. Even though I've only met her a few times, she still treats me very well. She even gave me her sincere gratitude just because I saved her."
At this point, she noticed that Xu Xing's smile had faded a bit, so she couldn't help but stop talking and said, "I'm just saying this to make it clear to you that she treats everyone very well, so..."
So the reason she was nice to him wasn't because he was special, but because she was nice to everyone.
Lou Yao didn't say this out loud, but she knew Xu Xing understood.
Xu Xing was known for his gentle, thoughtful, and helpful demeanor. In just a few months at Yiziyuan, he had already captured the hearts of many female students. Unlike Xie Feng's aloofness, Xu Xing sparked a deeper admiration in the young women. And just like everyone else, Lou Yao fell in love with Xu Xing.
In their eyes, Xu Xing is the sun, the light, who can take them out of the disgusting swamp and save them like a god.
"Why should I care about this?" Xu Xing scoffed, the gentleness in his eyes fading completely. The moment Lou Yao met his gaze, it was as if a living venomous snake crawled through her body, bringing with it a piercing fear.
She managed to calm herself down and said hurriedly, "Don't you... like her?"
Xu Xing did not deny it. He glanced at her with contempt and prepared to leave.
"Don't you like her? Why don't you dare admit it!" Lou Yao shouted angrily behind him.
Xu Xing stopped and turned around abruptly, his cold eyes sweeping over her body inch by inch, watching her change from being so confident at the beginning to being timid.
"I don't need to care about what you said," Xu Xing rolled up his sleeves slowly and shook the light yellow headband in his hair, "I never wanted to be friends with her."
"You have no right to question me."
Lou Yao understood. Her face turned pale and she stumbled back.
Xu Xing habitually reached his hand into his sleeve, touched the familiar golden hairpin, turned around and walked towards his own yard.
*
Late at night, a full and bright moon hangs in the sky, and the strong moonlight makes the courtyard seem as bright as day.
Lou Yao carefully took out a knife and cut her wrist fiercely. Her exposed wrist was covered with ugly scars. She had done this ritual countless times.
Legend has it that as long as you draw the correct formation at midnight on a full moon night, offer a blood sacrifice, and count to five, the mysterious man in black will arrive.
This is actually a legend that has been circulating in Cangyun City for many years. Somehow, it has become popular in the entire floating island in recent days. Some people say that they have seen the man in black, who is omnipotent. As long as you are willing to give up your most precious thing, your wish can come true.
Lou Yao summoned many times, but never succeeded. Just when she thought she was going to fail again, the red formation drawn on the ground suddenly lit up.
Dark clouds obscured the moon, darkness fell, and the surroundings suddenly became extremely quiet.
A pair of shoes stopped in front of her. Lou Yao looked up along the black hem of the clothes, a black cloak, and hands as dry as branches placed on both sides of the clothes.
It's the man in black.
Her summoning was successful!
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