Chapter 32: I Hate You, Not Miss You (1) Why are you crying? Are you unhappy? ...
Meng Xuanli fell onto the stone steps, bathed in the golden afterglow. The air was filled with the indescribable smell of blood. He was clearly about to die, and she could leave, so why did she save him?
Saving him, hurting others, and then hurting herself, is this the result she wants? No, in order not to become an executioner, she has to save him, have to struggle with him again, and escape from him.
If he really died in front of her, she would never be at peace even if she left.
Lu Guanque practically flew down, his eyes bloodshot, terrified beyond belief: "They won't die... They won't die... Ah Li, wake up..."
As he spoke, Lu Guanque picked her up and shouted to the people behind him, "Go find the imperial physician!"
These people had never seen such a scene before, so they lowered their heads and hurried to the palace and the mansion.
Meng Xuanli leaned against him and slowly closed her eyes. A huge pain enveloped her. She didn't know whether it was the pain in her body or the pain from him.
In short, she gradually lost consciousness, as if she had come to a peaceful and quiet cloud, where she lay, feeling very comfortable.
Lu Guanque turned his back to the darkness of the forest and stumbled down the mountain. He couldn't remember what trees there were in the forest, nor did he know if the moon would appear tonight. He just held the woman in his arms tightly as he stumbled forward.
When he arrived at the mansion, his heart was twitching, his breathing was rapid, and he felt a trance that was both familiar and unfamiliar.
He was a nobleman blessed with everything in the world. When he returned to the Eastern Capital from Xuzhou, he learned that his mother, believing him to have died tragically, had died of grief and depression.
At that time, his father scolded him to his face: "If it weren't for you, this evil creature, how could your mother have died of grief? Why didn't you die in Xuzhou? You deserved to die!"
Yes, he deserved to die. He should have turned to bones and died in Xuzhou. But God had mercy on her and let her save him... But what she did just now, was it because of her kindness that had nowhere to go?
Lu Guanque nodded, hummed lightly, sat on the edge of the bed, and saw two swallows outside the window flying into the corridor, chirping a few times, and then left.
The sky was as blue as silk, the wind suddenly picked up, and the whole courtyard was filled with the setting sun.
After the diagnosis, the female doctor knelt on the ground, buried her head, and whispered, "There are many purple bruises on the Crown Princess's knees, and her pulse is floating, tight, and rapid. I'm afraid she has a seizure, but..."
"Just what?" Lu Guanque narrowed his eyes.
The female doctor was stunned for a moment, then quickly replied, "It's just that the Crown Princess still has some hidden injuries on the back of her head. She needs to drink some calamus soup and be observed for a while."
Lu Guanque glanced at Meng Xuanli and said calmly, "Go find Uncle De and ask him to arrange a room for you. You will live in the mansion for the next few days and be at his service at any time."
"Go down and get the medicine."
The female doctor lowered her head and did not dare to look up: "I obey your command."
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After a while, Lu Guanque wiped her body with a hot towel. Her fair skin was covered with mottled and blurry red marks, like candle wax stuck on a pearl curtain, which solidified when the wind blew.
Lu Guanque slowly laid her down, applied ointment on her, dressed her, lifted the curtain, and walked into the study.
"Whose people are they?"
Lu Guanque was suspicious. After all, she had not gone anywhere these days and had always been under his nose. It was impossible for her to gather so many people.
Uncle De frowned, somewhat hesitant to speak. Seeing this, Lu Guanque said coldly, "Tell me, I promised her that I wouldn't hurt them."
"Yes...it's Lord Wei's man." Uncle De closed his eyes and moved to the window.
After he finished speaking, Lu Guanque threw the inkstone in his hand to the ground, and ink splashed everywhere, like a crow's feather, fluttering and about to fly.
He said angrily: "If I had known this would happen, I should have killed him myself!"
Uncle De closed his eyes, watching his figure grow longer and shorter. He hurried forward and said in a gentle voice, "Your Highness is confused. If you really kill the Marquis, won't the Crown Princess be even more alienated from you?"
Lu Guanque felt a sharp pain in his arm. He took a deep breath and asked, "What else did those people say?"
"The leader is called Lu Yun, the concubine of Marquis Wei. She has come to the Eastern Capital to take the Crown Prince's wife away."
"Take him away? You're such a fool." Lu Guanque laughed in anger and said sternly, "You dare to covet my people, and have been coveting them for so long?"
"Do you think you've lived a long life?"
Lu Guanque sneered softly, then thought of Meng Xuanli still asleep, and said calmly: "Give those people twenty lashes and send them to Jiangnan. Tell Wei Yuan that if something like this happens again, I will go to Jiangnan to kill him even if it's a long way away."
Uncle De shook his head. "My Lord, I have something unpleasant to say. If you insist on doing this, it will only make the Crown Princess more afraid of you."
"Afraid?" Lu Guanque snorted coldly, not wanting to hear a word. "If she was really afraid, she wouldn't have led me to that place."
"Do you still think she's scared?"
Uncle De sighed deeply and agreed reluctantly.
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A few days later, Meng Xuanli woke up in bed, feeling weak all over. He opened his eyes with difficulty and saw a blurry figure. "Who's there?"
"Princess, you're finally awake." An Xiang hurried forward and handed her a cup of tea. "Does your body still hurt?"
"I don't feel any pain, but I'm a little tired." Meng Xuanli propped himself up, leaned on the pillow, and said calmly, "Where are Lu Yun and those people now?"
"The prince...beat them up and sent them to Jiangnan." An Xiang pinned the curtains to the sides and whispered, "Don't worry, princess. They're not seriously injured. They just suffered some physical pain."
Meng Xuanli finally woke up completely. After all, he had slept for so long, his head was confused and swollen, and he could only think of the struggle he had before closing his eyes.
After a moment, she asked, "The imperial physician probably didn't see anything, did he?"
Anxiang lowered her head and whispered, "It was a female doctor who came this time. While she was taking my pulse, I listened outside the window..."
"There was no mention of the Crown Princess using contraceptive medicine."
"The dosage in that prescription is extremely tricky. It's impossible to detect it without a master pulse reader. It's normal that she can't see it. Besides, the purple bruise on the knee would scare any medical officer to death."
Anxiang nodded: "I will pay more attention to her."
"But... do we still need to continue planning?" Anxiang tilted her head, really unable to understand why Meng Xuanli suddenly changed his plan.
Meng Xuanli was speechless for a moment, but she knew in her heart that she had no way to kill him. The only way was to escape quietly.
After a while, she nodded and said firmly, "Let's continue planning."
As she spoke, she couldn't help but think of Lu Guanque's life experience. After a pause, she instructed, "Go and find out where the Duke is currently staying in Chang'an. You need to find someone to deliver a letter..."
"I understand."
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It was midnight, the inner room dark and quiet. Meng Xuanli was lying on the bed when she heard his anxious voice: "Why didn't you let someone know you woke up?"
Meng Xuanli pulled at the quilt, his eyes desolate and lonely, and said calmly: "I'm telling you, so you can hurt me again?"
"I hurt you?" Lu Guanque approached and asked coldly, "Who is it that feigned amnesia and collaborated with Wei Yuan's men to kill me?"
"It's me." Meng Xuanli should have retorted, but now he was calmer. "I forgot to tell you that what I said in bed before was also a lie."
"You just woke up not long ago. Do you have to talk like this?" Lu Guanque sat on the edge of her bed with a complicated and unbearable look in his eyes.
"I'm fine, just some scratches." Meng Xuanli turned her face away, not wanting to see him, let alone hear his voice.
Seeing her pale face, Lu Guanque stood up and brought the medicine to her. After a while, he said, "Drink the medicine before going to sleep, you will feel better."
"Whether I drink the medicine or not, whether I feel good or not, it has nothing to do with the prince."
Lu Guanque put the medicine aside and lifted her up from the bed, his movements extremely gentle. His heart moved slightly, and he felt a sense of movement: "Ali, do you really want me to die?"
In this sentence, Lu Guanque paused several times.
Meng Xuanli's lips twitched slightly, but she didn't say anything. Lu Guanque picked up the medicine with one hand, took a sip, and pinched her chin before pouring it in.
Meng Xuanli resisted and struggled, and dark brown liquid overflowed from the corner of his lips, making Meng Xuanli look depressed and suffocated.
Lu Guanque didn't let her go, holding her face in his hands and deepening the kiss. Meng Xuanli raised her hand and slapped him hard on the side of his face.
With a "pop", Lu Guanque let go of her. Meng Xuanli couldn't stop coughing, breathing rapidly: "You are despicable!"
"Yes. I am despicable." Lu Guanque didn't find the answer in the end, and asked forcefully, "Why did you pull me in? Are you afraid that I would kill someone? Or are you afraid of seeing blood? Or... something else?"
His voice became increasingly trembling, as if he was afraid of her reply.
Meng Xuanli said faintly, "No, nothing at all."
"Yes, you called my name. You couldn't bear to leave me, right? You were afraid that I would die, right?" He forced her to speak again.
"No," Meng Xuanli pushed his hand away and tried to get off, "Don't lie to yourself."
Lu Guanque's forehead veins bulged, and he said coldly, "So you want me to die, right?"
Meng Xuanli laughed silently and said nothing.
Lu Guanque's eyes were bloodshot, like a trapped animal cornered. He suddenly placed her on the bed, turned around, found a dagger, and held it in her hand.
Meng Xuanli realized what was going on, opened his eyes suddenly, and his face turned pale: "What are you going to do..."
After he finished speaking, Lu Guanque suddenly pressed her down: "Since you want me to die." He breathed rapidly, fiercely grasped the back of her hand, and said in a low voice: "I'll give you a chance."
Against the backdrop of the dark night, the knife in his hand seemed even sharper and colder. Meng Xuanli trembled all over and tried his best to avoid his hand: "Are you crazy?"
Lu Guanque held down her struggling body while letting the blade approach him. When it was about to pierce her neck, Meng Xuanli used brute force to bite his arm fiercely.
Although the wound on his arm had healed, it left a scar. At this time, Meng Xuanli bit him, and the new pain and the old pain were entangled in a complex way, making him suddenly lose consciousness and let go.
The dagger fell on the bed with a dull thud.
Blood oozed from the corners of Meng Xuanli's lips, and it seemed like he had been burned and had blisters. "You lunatic, I won't be like you!"
Lu Guanque didn't feel a single ounce of pain, and even felt immense joy. He was forceful and cold, his fingers weaving into her hair, forcing her to look him in the face. "So, Ali didn't kill me because she didn't want to end up like me?"
"Isn't it good for me to be like this? Hmm?" Lu Guanque pursed his lips, his fingertips slowly stroking her earlobe. "I love you so much, care about you so much, and protect you so much, but you're still not satisfied? Do you have to like Su He?"
Meng Xuanli felt a burning sensation in her chest, as if she'd been thrown into an alchemy furnace. Even her eyes burned. Her breathing became ragged, and she sneered, "You love me? You really do love me!"
"You've committed countless evil deeds, disregarding other people's wishes and arbitrarily deciding their lives. I shouldn't have saved you, shouldn't have returned to Dongdu, and shouldn't have agreed to marry you. In fact... you deserved to die in Xuzhou!"
Lu Guanque was stunned for a moment, then remembered someone had said the same thing before. He immediately covered her lips and bit them hard: "Open your mouth!"
The tears were hot, and his lips were hot too. Meng Xuanli's mouth was dry and he seemed to be turning into water as he lay in the stove.
She gritted her teeth, refusing to let his tongue enter: "You're dreaming!"
After saying that, Lu Guanque snorted coldly, left her body, extinguished the candle, sat on the edge of the bed, his eyes cold and motionless.
This kind of calmness made Meng Xuanli feel extremely scared. She retracted her feet and tried to escape.
But the next moment, Lu Guanque came up again, holding her ankles, his eyes shining like a poisonous snake in the dark night, emitting a cold air: "Want to run? It's impossible in this lifetime..."
Lu Guanque bent her legs. Meng Xuanli felt pain in her knees and cursed, "Lu Guanque, do you think you can trap me by doing this? You're just wishful thinking!"
"It's okay, I'll be gentle and make you fall for me." Lu Guanque kissed her, then undressed her, reached out to comfort her, and floated for a moment.
Meng Xuanli sweated slightly and tried to kick him desperately: "You lunatic! You will get your comeuppance!"
"You'll suffer for talking nonsense." Lu Guanque used his knees to separate her legs and gently licked her lips. "By the way, I'm not crazy. I'm Ali's husband."
They had never tortured each other like this before. Meng Xuanli wanted to bite him, but Lu Guanque seemed to realize it, so he turned her sideways, hugged her from behind, and opened her up.
Meng Xuanli's consciousness was in a state of confusion, as if he was walking barefoot on the edge of a cliff, twisting and turning, and finally falling into the abyss.
The air was filled with the smell of explosions, and the hot wind blew past her ears, like the feeling of climbing to the top of a mountain. But she knew that she was not rising, but falling.
The curtain floated, Meng Xuanli wanted to stop, but every time she resisted, she was held down by Lu Guanque.
She thought of what he had just said, feeling somewhat lost. Her voice was hoarse and she said with difficulty, "You are not. You never were."
For Meng Xuanli, being honest is the most normal thing, but when she meets Lu Guanque, she will subconsciously say the opposite. But now, she is speaking from her heart.
Lu Guanque seemed dissatisfied with this answer and forced her to change her words. Meng Xuanli had not shed tears until now, but now she started to cry: "You are not."
"Why are you crying? Aren't you satisfied? Who was the one who teased me before? Huh?"
Lu Guanque rubbed his chin against her neck, his angry breath spraying in her ear. Meng Xuanli raised her face, opened her mouth slightly, and spilled clear liquid. She said in a delicate voice: "No..."
"no."
"You can't satisfy me!"
Lu Guanque's face was gloomy, as if he hadn't heard her. He clutched her arm, completely losing his composure. He cornered Meng Xuanli, as if she were in a dark, deserted ruin, desolate and desolate. After the violent contraction, she was drenched in sweat, and she clung to him, feeling his scent.
The two were silent, and time seemed to have stopped.
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In the past, Meng Xuanli loved basking in the sun the most, but now, she completely locked herself in the house and refused to step out.
When Lu Guanque came in, he saw that she looked haggard and was drinking medicine. After Meng Xuanli finished drinking, she looked up at him. The two of them were separated by the screen, facing each other in silence.
"I'm going to Chang'an in two days. You're not feeling well, so stay at home and take good care of yourself." Lu Guanque lifted the curtain, walked around the screen, and sat down opposite her.
Meng Xuanli placed the bowl on the kang table, picked up the book again, and said calmly, "Go ahead."
"Not surprised?" Lu Guanque leaned back and squinted at her.
"Surprised, I'm so surprised." Meng Xuanli forced a dry laugh. "Is that okay?"
Lu Guanque's eyes suddenly turned cold, he stood up and slammed the door and left.
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