Chapter 105 A Change of Mind
Logically speaking, the hourly nanny should be more familiar with G-Dragon. After all, he was often seen at the home of his employer, Ms. Xue, and it was clear that they had a very close relationship. Based on this relationship alone, the hourly nanny shouldn't have just listened to Zhang Jingran and not told G-Dragon more facts. She also didn't let him go directly to the hospital to find Jingrong, but insisted on passing Zhang Jingran's approval first. The main reason was that the hourly nanny was so old and had previously worked as a nanny for wealthy families. Naturally, she knew that there were some things she shouldn't get involved in if she could. So, she did whatever Zhang Jingran asked her to do. Besides, he was doing it entirely for his employer, Ms. Xue, and there was extra compensation to be made, so the hourly nanny figured why not do it.
After hearing what Auntie Zhong said, Quan Zhilong took Zhang Jingran's business card from her and turned to leave, casually throwing it into his pocket. It seemed that he didn't want to pay much attention. Auntie Zhong thought for a moment and reminded him, "Mr. Quan, Miss Xue is... not feeling well in the hospital right now. If possible, you should go see her sooner rather than later."
Quan Zhilong paused, then turned around and asked, "Auntie, can you tell me why Jingrong is sick?"
Auntie Zhong shook her head hurriedly: "I don't know about this, you should ask Vice President Zhang!"
Seeing that she looked very secretive, G-Dragon didn't bother her anymore. He nodded and hurried to the elevator. While walking, he took out his cell phone and called Zhang Jingran.
Because Zhang Jingran was in the company, he chose to say the same thing to G-Dragon on the phone as Zheng Yunhao did. After that, he didn't care how happy and sad G-Dragon was at the moment. He gave him the address and the phone number of the special care arranged for Jingrong, and didn't talk any more. He had a meeting to attend in the afternoon. Now that the president has fallen down, if he falls down again, Xue Group will be in trouble.
For a moment, G-Dragon didn't know whether to laugh or cry. His beloved was pregnant, and the child was definitely his. However, her current condition wasn't conducive to childbirth, and she didn't even want it. That's why the doctor suggested keeping the news a secret for now... It's hard to believe G-Dragon couldn't be overly excited after hearing this news. How heartless could one be to be so completely happy about something like this? Furthermore, Jingrong already had a legitimate fiancé. How were they going to resolve this situation?
If, just a moment ago, Quan Zhilong had positioned himself as someone who didn't care who she was with, as long as she was fine, he could let go and protect her without any response, but after hearing Zhang Jingran's words, his thoughts instantly changed. Now Jingrong was pregnant with his child, as long as they persevered a little, they could become a happy family of three. How could he possibly give up both the woman and the child? Besides, if Jung Yunho was really good enough, she wouldn't have chosen to commit suicide - it was a pity that he had sent him a text message before he left.
Thinking of this, G-Dragon had some unspeakable resentment towards Jung Yunho. Of course, Jung Yunho had always been trying to steal his girlfriend, so he had long lost his previous good impression of this senior. But this time his attitude was different from before. In addition to the complexity, G-Dragon really felt a little disappointed. He thought that every man could be like him, loving and caring for her like a treasure, putting her affairs first in everything, but in fact, that was not the case at all. Jung Yunho cherished Jingrong enough, but to be honest, in Jung Yunho's heart, Jingrong was still worse than his career.
From an objective point of view, it's not that G-Dragon cannot understand Jung Yunho. They are actually the same. They have ambitions and dreams, and are not limited to their current achievements. The desire to struggle will never stop. Before this, G-Dragon had never thought that he would love a woman so much that he would love her to the point of losing himself, let alone having a career. When G-Dragon heard Zhang Jingran say that Jing Rong really committed suicide, he even had the madness to destroy the world at that moment.
So, in this world, there will never be another person except him who is willing to give up everything and love her regardless of the consequences. Based on this, G-Dragon is unwilling to let go. He was willing to hand Jingrong over to Zheng Yunhao before. In addition to those external reasons, the more important reason was that he just believed that he could take good care of her. But Zheng Yunho can't even compare to him, so why should he be with Jingrong?
With a lot on his mind, G-Dragon took a taxi to the hospital. This was not his first time here. The building where Jing Rong lived was strictly managed, and he also had to be accompanied by someone to enter. This time, it was a nurse who came to pick up G-Dragon. After G-Dragon answered Zhang Jingran's call, he roughly understood that perhaps this matter was so serious that even Jing Rong's assistant and secretary were not aware of it, so Secretary Lin should not have intentionally lied to him last night.
G-Dragon wore large sunglasses, obscuring the upper half of his face, and his shirt collar was turned up, covering the lower half. He was completely covered up, but the more he covered himself, the easier it was to tell something was amiss. In the elevator, the nurse had stole a glance at G-Dragon, and it wasn't the first time. She excitedly wondered if it was him, thinking he looked like him in terms of build and temperament, but she wasn't sure. President Xue was famous, but she had seen celebrities during her time as a caregiver. TVXQ's leader, Jung Yunho, had even solemnly urged her to take good care of Jingrong! So, celebrities weren't a big deal, just stay calm! The female nurse kept trying to convince herself, but she couldn't help but feel excited. After all, seeing Jung Yunho wasn't unusual; everyone in the country knew about his relationship with Jingrong. But seeing G-Dragon was unimaginable. Their president's hospitalization had been kept a secret, even from ordinary friends. So, what did G-Dragon actually mean when he came?
Beneath the nurse's mask of a professional smile, the fire of gossip was already burning.
When G-Dragon arrived, he happened to catch up with Zhang Zhiyao and Cui Yingya who had just left. Zheng Yunhao was really busy and had already taken the youngest member and Jingrong to Japan for promotion. Zhang Jingran was also too busy to get away. Among the few people who knew about it, he was the only one who appeared outside Jingrong's ward. G-Dragon looked at the empty floor and felt an indescribable feeling in his heart. He even felt that except for him, no one would really take care of Jingrong carefully, so this was a rhythm that no one believed.
As Quan Zhilong thought about it, he couldn't wait to go to the door to see Jingrong. However, there was a glass window on the door, which allowed him to see inside a little bit. He could see the person sleeping peacefully on the bed, but Quan Zhilong was a little dissatisfied. On the way there, he finally spoke to the nurse for the first time: "Hello, can you let me in?"
The nurse was just excited that she had guessed correctly that it was really G-Dragon himself. It took her a second to realize that he was asking her. The nurse quickly shook her head: "No, sir, no one can go in except the attending physician!"
Quan Zhilong didn't say anything. His eyes were complicated and fixed on the person inside. Even though he couldn't see anything clearly, he didn't want to look away. Just looking at her, how nice. After watching for a while, Quan Zhilong suddenly realized something was wrong and asked the nurse next to him: "Why hasn't the patient woken up yet if they rescued her in time? And even family members are not allowed to visit?" Quan Zhilong had a bad feeling in his heart.
The nurse answered truthfully, "We don't know the reason why the patient is unconscious yet. The expert team has been meeting since last night to discuss it. They will come up with the best plan by then. Don't worry too much, sir."
Quan Zhilong was just being sensitive when he asked. Zhang Jingran had only said Jingrong wasn't feeling well on the phone, but he hadn't said anything specific. He'd assumed she wasn't feeling well in a psychological sense, but he hadn't realized she'd been unconscious for over twenty hours since yesterday! Quan Zhilong couldn't afford to dwell on this. He immediately looked away from Jingrong and fixed his gaze on the nurse across from him. Even through her sunglasses, the nurse could still sense her sharp gaze. Quan Zhilong asked, "Why haven't you woken up yet?!"
"This... the expert group is still discussing it."
"We're just discussing it, but there's no progress at all?!" G-Dragon pressed on.
The nurse was startled by G-Dragon's sharp words and took a step back before speaking carefully, "The attending physician told Vice President Zhang yesterday that the patient is fine in all other respects and all indicators are normal, but she hasn't woken up yet. Initial speculation suggests two reasons. The first is that she's eight weeks pregnant, which might be due to the fetus. The second reason is that the patient herself doesn't want to wake up. In other words, she has no will to live at all."
Hearing this, Quan Zhilong fell silent. Just like Zhang Jingran's initial reaction was the latter, he shared the same worry. Remembering Jingrong's last words to him about "going back," he became even more worried. If she kept holding onto that ridiculous idea, even if she survived the first time, what about the second and third time? If she kept refusing to give up that idea, who could guarantee that he would be there to protect her every moment?
Quan Zhilong pursed his lips, looked back at Jingrong, and asked in a low voice: "The will to survive...what if this is a psychological reason?"
"That requires waiting until the patient wakes up and then letting the psychiatrist give him counseling and treatment."
"Yes, everything depends on her waking up." G-Dragon muttered to himself.
Ignoring the despairing pressure in his tone, I immediately offered comfort. "Don't worry, sir. When the patient remained unconscious last night, the experts were concerned her life might be in danger. But after several checks today, they've confirmed no symptoms. She's incredibly energetic, so awakening is inevitable." The challenge was figuring out what to do after she wakes up. A woman who absolutely refuses to live, pregnant with a newly formed fetus, wouldn't be a good idea to hurt anyone. It was truly a headache.
Quan Zhilong also thought about Jingrong waking up. After thinking for a while, he asked, "By the way, why did the doctor recommend not letting her know about the pregnancy?"
"Because the patient's condition is complicated, the attending doctor is worried that she wouldn't want the baby even if she knew she was pregnant, so he wanted to keep it a secret from her for the time being and tell her when she calms down." The nurse didn't tell her about the consequences of Jing Rong having an abortion. After all, the person in front of her was a young man, and the patient in the ward had an fiancé with someone else, so she knew very well what to say and what not to say.
Most people would nod and stop asking questions after hearing this, but G-Dragon was different. In this world, he undoubtedly knew Jingrong best. Although he thought her talk of "going home" was absolutely nonsense, G-Dragon knew that since Jingrong was holding on to this idea, she would not let it go easily. Waiting for her to calm down? I'm afraid he won't wait in this lifetime - it's not that G-Dragon is pessimistic to think so.
After thinking for a moment, G-Dragon said, "Since she has no intention of living, why not tell her the news? I heard that a mother is strong. What if she knows she is pregnant, she will be willing to live a good life instead?"
"This is too risky. It's better not to do this. It could result in two deaths. Besides, the fetus can't stand the most physical abuse. If the baby is aborted, it would be very heartbreaking."
Quan Zhilong pursed his lips, hiding the pain in his heart, and pretended to be nonchalant: "Why not give it a try? At least it's a good way to awaken her will to live."
"You're not the father of the child, so of course it's easy for you to say that!" Hearing G-Dragon say this, the nurse couldn't help but roll her eyes at him, thinking that even if he's a big star, so what? He's just like other men and doesn't take women and children seriously!
Little did he know, G-Dragon's heart was already in unbearable pain. Before he could even feel happy about becoming a father, he realized that his beloved might not want to have this child with him. He had been trying hard to pretend nothing was wrong, because he didn't want to burden Jingrong by coming here. But now he couldn't even see her, and the one he loved was in the intensive care unit, refusing to wake up! G-Dragon felt that he must have been too happy and complacent recently, and now major events were happening one after another, catching him off guard every time.
How could he not be heartbroken? That was his child, the fruit of his and Jingrong's love. It had come so unexpectedly, a huge surprise to him. But it was still just a fetus, barely formed. How could it be more important than Jingrong? As long as she was well, he wouldn't hesitate to sacrifice himself, let alone a fetus?!
G-Dragon's mind changed again. A few minutes ago, he had made up his mind with great dominance that he would defend his family no matter how difficult it was. He must have Jingrong and the child, but in this second, he had to choose between Jingrong and the child. In fact, if he did not choose Jingrong, in the end, he might not even have the child.
The nurse, of course, had no idea how Quan Zhilong felt at the moment, so she couldn't help but add, "And if the patient doesn't want the child, it's not just a matter of abortion. Given the patient's physical condition and current situation, if an abortion is performed, it's very likely that she will never be able to conceive again in her lifetime."
G-Dragon was stunned and looked at the other person with wide eyes.
Jing Rong felt strange, just like the last time when she suddenly fell into darkness. Although she could not move, her mind was clear and she knew that she was dreaming. At this moment, she had the same feeling. She had obviously cut the knife very deep, and it should have been successful, but she could not go back successfully. Instead, she felt like she was imprisoned by something.
Is there really no way for her to go home? Jingrong couldn't help but think of Xue Jingrong's last words from a young age: she couldn't go back. Could she know something? Jingrong thought about this, concentrating on feeling everything around her. She felt that even if she couldn't go back, she should be dead. But what about her soul? Why couldn't she float freely like Xue Jingrong? Or shouldn't there be a hell? She really wanted to go down and ask Xue Jingrong what was going on. After all, even in death, she wanted to be a ghost who understood.
Even if it turns out that she was deceived by Xue Jingrong, that her coming here had nothing to do with him, and that he couldn't send her back, and that her only way home was shattered, Jingrong remained calm. She felt that after all, she had tried, so if she died, she died. She had tried her best, so there was nothing to regret. So Jingrong calmly waited for her fate to come.
After Quan Zhilong had spoken to the nurse for a long time, the doctors came again and gave Jingrong a comprehensive examination. They still couldn't find anything. The doctors were becoming increasingly frustrated, but they only managed to hide their feelings slightly when facing Quan Zhilong, who regarded himself as a family member. At this time, the doctors naturally couldn't say anything depressing that would put more pressure on the patient's family, so the attending doctor said to Quan Zhilong, "Sir, the patient's condition is still very stable. With luck, she may wake up soon."
Quan Zhilong didn't believe these sweet words. He took off his sunglasses and stared coldly into the doctor's eyes: "What if she never has the will to live?"
"This..." The attending doctor was also stunned for a second by the question. If it were an ordinary person, he would have already prepared the other party for the worst. Turning into a vegetable was really possible. But even if he didn't follow celebrities, he knew who this person was. And the person in the ward was now their biggest boss, okay? The attending doctor forced a confident look and said, "Don't worry too much about this. The patient's body functions well. It's unlikely that he will remain unconscious."
It's just unlikely, not impossible! Quan Zhilong's eyes dimmed for a second, then regained their sharpness. He looked at the attending doctor rather aggressively, "Doctor, you should know her condition two days ago?"
"I know. What's wrong?"
"At the time, you also said you didn't know what would happen and how it would get better. In the end, it was only after I went in to persuade her that she recovered. If she didn't have the so-called will to live, she should have asked someone important to go in and encourage her, right?"
The attending doctor thought about it and actually agreed. He looked at G-Dragon and said, "You are right, we can give it a try, but Vice President Zhang..." The attending doctor was not afraid of Zhang Jingran, but after all, the person lying inside was his own president. In case of any mishap, he still had to get the approval of the people above.
Quan Zhilong naturally knew what he was thinking, and before he could finish, he interrupted and said, "Don't worry, I will tell him."
"That's good. For safety reasons, please go change into sterile clothing with the nurse. By the way, agreeing to let you in is already a big risk, so please don't make things difficult for us any further."
"I know."
After completing the full body disinfection, Quan Zhilong entered the ward. He looked closely at the lifeless face on the bed. The expression was even more shocking than the white sheets. Quan Zhilong felt a pain in his heart. He sat down next to Jingrong, took one of her hands, and buried his face in it. Men don't shed tears easily, but they just haven't reached the point of being heartbroken. Quan Zhilong couldn't imagine that if Zhang Jingran didn't go to see her, or if he went an hour or two later, would he really lose her forever? He would never see her again, and he wouldn't need to know if she was okay, and he wouldn't need to worry about whether he should let their child down... Quan Zhilong really couldn't imagine how difficult it would be to never see her again, or whether he could make it through it.
When I was young, I thought I could live and die for love, but I never even had the time to devote myself to it, let alone love, let alone the desire to live and die. When I reached an age where I felt mature, when I thought I would never love again, I suddenly went crazy like this, loving to the point of losing myself, loving to the point of being willing to follow through with life and death. Perhaps this is why life is so unpredictable.
Although G-Dragon was so confident and domineering when he was trying to persuade the attending physician, he actually had no idea at all. He just wanted to find a chance to see her up close, to be as close to her as possible, to snuggle with her, to tell her that she was not alone and that he would always be by her side.
Jing Rong still didn't wake up. Even though Quan Zhilong buried his entire face in her hands and the hot water droplets wet her palms, she still didn't feel anything. After Quan Zhilong calmed down, he began to talk incessantly. Even if there was no response, even if he didn't know whether the other party could hear him, he kept talking, or just talking to himself, from the afternoon to the evening, until it was pitch black outside the window, night fell, and the lights came on. It was unknown how long the night lasted. Quan Zhilong was finally called out by Zhang Jingran without any explanation.
In the small lounge next to the ward, Zhang Jingran, who rarely lost his smile, said with a sense of oppression, "Hurry up and eat. After dinner, go back and rest. The president is like this now. If you collapse again, who will take care of her?"
When Quan Zhilong heard Zhang Jingran's second sentence, he couldn't help but want to refute, but after hearing what he said, he fell silent again. After thinking for a while, he said: "I'll live here."
"You must be joking. The conditions here are so shabby!"
It wasn't shabby at all, but since the other person was a big star, Zhang Jingran thought it was better to be cautious. But Quan Zhilong was determined. He turned around and glanced in the direction of Jingrong's ward and said, "If she can endure it, why can't I? Besides, I can't rest assured if I don't stay with her."
Zhang Jingran thought about it and nodded. Fortunately, Jung Yunho went to Japan, otherwise it would be hard to say at this time. "By the way, Quan Zhilongxi, I heard that the next concert is in Kuala Lumpur. When are you going there?"
Quan Zhilong paused while holding the spoon, nodded and said, "The day after tomorrow."
"That's good." Zhang Jingran seemed relieved. "With you here, we feel much more at ease. After all, the president..."
G-Dragon didn't return to the dormitory the whole night, and I heard he didn't go home either, which made his teammates very curious. Everyone knew that he came back early yesterday to see Jingrong, and they thought that after the big incident in the Xue family, the two of them shook hands and made peace, and transitioned from lovers to good friends, so they didn't ask too much. But now that he didn't come back to live, and his phone couldn't be reached last night, it's really easy to let people have wild thoughts. But it's not right for the old love to rekindle, after all, Jingrong and Jung Yunho are still a fact!
The friends were not curious for too long. They slept until they woke up naturally, ate lunch leisurely, and then packed their luggage. Yes, they had just returned yesterday and were leaving for Kuala Lumpur today. Although the concert was tomorrow, there was a press conference to be held, so they were not particularly curious. They would wait until they met Captain Quan at the airport to ask for details.
When TOP and his friends arrived at the airport, they didn't see Captain Kwon, nor did they see their manager, Kim Nam-guk. Seungri couldn't help but ask his manager, "Brother, why hasn't Jiyong arrived yet? We're about to board the plane!"
"You don't know?" Seungri's manager looked surprised. "Jiyong asked the president to let us go tomorrow."
"Why?!" Everyone present was surprised. Captain Quan had never let down his guard like this before. Perhaps this matter was a little serious. And they knew without thinking that it must be related to Jing Rong. The smile on Taiyang's face disappeared immediately, and there was obvious worry in his eyes.
Seungri's manager revealed a piece of information and shook his head, saying, "I don't know, maybe it's something urgent. Jiyong usually doesn't act like this."
Top's manager smiled, glanced at them, and came over carefully to say, "When Zhilong was talking to Nan Guo on the phone, I was right next to Nan Guo. It seemed like Zhilong had a serious problem and couldn't leave... Oh, and from the sound of it, it seemed like they were in the hospital, because I heard someone nearby discussing someone's condition or something..."
Taiyang asked hurriedly: "Is it because of family or something?"
"I don't know about that." Top's agent said, looked ahead, and said, "We're boarding, let's go."
So everyone put aside their curiosity for the time being and prepared to board the plane with their belongings.
Jingrong showed no signs of waking up, and G-Dragon was really worried about leaving. Even if he stayed by his side, it would be of no use, but at least he could have peace of mind. G-Dragon always kept public and private affairs separate, and he valued work more than anything else. It was only two days, and he had already disobeyed for the second time. The first time, Jin Nanguo helped him return to Seoul without telling the company, but how could President Yang really know nothing? He just turned a blind eye and agreed because he saw that it was not easy for Jingrong and he didn't cause any trouble. But the second time, he came to him openly and asked for leave. President Yang was a little angry when he heard that G-Dragon wanted to take leave from today's press conference again for Jingrong.
Yes, the child who has always been the most well-behaved and obedient actually did this kind of thing again and again. President Yang, who is used to being the only one in charge, naturally couldn't tolerate it. But G-Dragon is the child he has watched grow up since he was a child, and now he is a golden signboard of their company. In public and private, President Yang treats G-Dragon differently. Some people even say that their relationship is more like "father and son", which is not groundless. So when he saw his child like this, President Yang couldn't help feeling sad, and then reluctantly agreed to his request. But at the same time, President Yang also said that the last time he secretly ran back to Seoul from the Philippines, he would not be allowed to do it again, and he had to fly over early in the morning to meet up with everyone because he had a concert in Kuala Lumpur tomorrow!
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