Chapter 125 Love But Not Obtained
After careful consideration over the winter vacation, and with the guidance of family and friends, Shen Sisi decided to formally confess her love to Song Ci today, Valentine's Day. Regardless of success or failure, she will have no regrets about her youth and will give an explanation for her relationship.
The spring breeze in February still carried a hint of chill. Miss Shen sighed leisurely in the breeze, feeling that she too had a miserable life.
Falling in love with an extremely cold man, even if you have taken ninety-nine steps, he is unwilling to cooperate with you to take a small step forward and give you the slightest response.
Half a year has passed since the military training last year. During this time, she followed the advice of her roommates and showed concern for Song Ci.
Unfortunately, she didn't get any feedback from Song Ci. The other party seemed to be avoiding her intentionally and never gave her any hope.
From the first time they met at the Peking University party two years ago until now, she has been the one taking the initiative in their relationship. This kind of unrequited pursuit is really tiring.
Shen Sisi has made up her mind that on this special day of Valentine's Day, if Song Ci rejects her without any hesitation or nostalgia, she will cut off all ties with him.
Before coming, Shen Sisi specifically inquired and found out that Song Ci did not go out today and stayed in the dormitory in the morning. After thinking it over, she sent a text message and asked him to meet downstairs.
Standing downstairs of the boys' dormitory, she looked towards the dormitory gate from time to time. Song Ci had not replied to her message yet. Miss Shen was both expectant and nervous, wondering when Song Ci would come downstairs to meet her.
Waiting is undoubtedly the most torturous thing. It makes people wander between hope and despair, consumes their energy and erodes their confidence.
Even so, Shen Sisi understood that for the sake of her own feelings, she had no choice but to persevere, even if the process was painful, and she had to wait for the answer that belonged to her.
Finally, when that familiar figure appeared in sight, Shen Sisi's heartbeat quickened, and her hands in her pockets trembled slightly because of nervousness.
After not seeing him for a holiday, Song Ci is still as charming and stunning as ever. His handsome face carries a hint of coldness, and he exudes an aura that keeps people at a distance.
Shen Sisi took a deep breath, mustered up the courage to greet him, and gently called out his name: “Song Ci!”
Song Ci walked in front of Shen Sisi and stopped, with a complicated expression. After a long silence, he greeted her: "Sisi, I haven't seen you for a long time. Are you okay? Is there anything I can help you with?"
Shen Sisi did not reply immediately, but just stared at Song Ci, as if she wanted to deeply imprint this man who was the only one who made her heart beat deeply in her mind.
Miss Shen looked resentful and smiled self-deprecatingly: “Can’t I find you if I have nothing to do?”
Without waiting for Song Ci to speak, Shen Sisi murmured to herself, "Song Ci, during the Chinese New Year, I had a nightmare! I dreamed that we had a quarrel, but when I woke up, I found that reality was the real nightmare.
I don't even seem to have the qualifications to quarrel with you. We haven't seen each other for a long time since I participated in "Challenge Host" last year. "
Shen Sisi's eyes were blurred, and she kept mumbling, as if she wanted to pour out all the grievances she had suffered for a long time:
"When I sent you messages expressing my concern for you before, you didn't reply. Then I thought, we are just ordinary friends, and it is normal for you not to reply. I crossed the line."
Song Ci had completely lost his usual intelligence and cleverness at this moment, and he didn't know how to answer Shen Sisi. It seemed that he couldn't say a thousand words, so he could only helplessly say: "I'm sorry."
Shen Sisi shook her head. These three words were the ones she least wanted to hear. Her cheeks flushed slightly, and she whispered with a hint of longing:
"Song Ci, you should understand my feelings. I really like you and I want to be with you. Is that okay? Even if you can't accept me for the time being, I am willing to wait until the day you change your mind."
Shen Sisi's affectionate confession was tinged with humility and expectation, and she had almost exhausted all her strength when she said the last sentence.
Song Ci was silent for a while, as if he was looking for the most appropriate words in his mind, how to refuse without hurting her heart.
In the end, Song Ci gave up. If they didn't make it, both of them would be hurt. He shook his head gently, his voice gentle but apologetic and resolute:
"I'm sorry Sisi, I just treat you as an ordinary friend. There is no possibility between us. You don't have to spend your time on me."
When Shen Sisi heard this, her face suddenly turned pale, the light in her eyes dimmed instantly, and she forced a bitter smile at the corner of her mouth, but it couldn't hide the loss and sadness in her eyes.
Staring at Song Ci in a daze, she didn't expect the other party to reject her so straightforwardly, without any hesitation or attachment, leaving her no hope.
Tears welled up in her eyes, she felt extremely wronged and asked stubbornly:
"I have always hoped to warm your heart, but it seems that no matter how hard I try, I just can't.
I was so unwilling to lose. Is Liu Shishi really that good? How am I worse than her? I don't believe it. Have you never been moved by me at all?"
Song Ci turned his head slightly, avoiding Miss Shen's resentful gaze, and said with deep affection:
"If you have a good lover in your heart, everyone in the world is just a passerby. Shishi doesn't need to be that good, as long as I like her, that's enough.
If I give one person a preference, I will be generous for the rest of my life. My teacher and I have been childhood sweethearts, and we love each other, and we won't tolerate anyone interfering."
Tears fell quietly, Shen Sisi finally gave up, whispered softly, as if to say her final goodbye: "Song Ci, I fell in love with you at first sight. Love rises with the wind, and love is hard to calm down when the wind stops. Dusk and sunset, the evening breeze is also you.
I used to be confident that I could beat Liu Shishi and snatch you away from her, but reality is always cruel. Why does the scene of childhood sweethearts being defeated by a man who falls from the sky never happen in my world? "
Chen Sisi turned around silently and prepared to leave with heavy steps. Because of her absent-mindedness, she stumbled and almost fell. Fortunately, Song Ci was quick-witted and helped her up so that she did not fall.
"Are you okay, Sisi? I'm really sorry." Seeing Miss Shen's heartbroken look, Song Ci felt sorry for her, but also felt aggrieved.
I really didn't do anything. From the military training last year to now, for more than half a year, I have been keeping my distance from Miss Shen. You left in tears like this, making me look like a heartless man.
Shen Sisi wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, broke free from Song Ci's support, and said stubbornly: "Don't worry, the movie will end, the moon will disappear, I will forget you, and I won't bother you anymore."
After walking a few steps, Shen Sisi turned around again, stood there quietly, looking at Song Ci with eyes as gentle as water.
His eyebrows were slightly frowned, as if there was a hint of sadness, and he pondered for a long time before slowly saying: "Song Yiyi, I wish your master happiness, the little lion is a good girl.
Since you rejected me and chose her, you must love her well. If I find out that you let her down in the future, I will never let you go, you scumbag."
Under Song Ci's surprised gaze, Shen Sisi turned around and left without any hesitation, but she murmured in her mouth with a bit of regret:
"Song Ci, you know, I have hoped countless times to call you by your nickname like Liu Shishi, but in the end, there is no such opportunity.
This girl hates waiting the most, but since I met you, I have always been waiting. Since we are not destined to be together, let's just be well. "
Song Ci watched Miss Shen leave and stood in the spring breeze for a long time, feeling lost. Alas, it is so difficult to be a good man who is devoted to his wife!
Shen Sisi returned to the dormitory, took off her strong disguise, and could no longer suppress the sadness in her heart. Her shoulders trembled slightly and tears flowed out like a flood.
Her eyes were already blurred by tears, and her red eyes seemed to be soaked in sadness. She sat quietly in the corner of the bed, buried her head between her knees, and let the sad emotions drown her like a tide. This Valentine's Day, for her, was only endless sadness and heartbreak.
Wang Jing was the only one in the dormitory at that time. Hearing Weiwei crying, he hurried out of the bathroom. When he saw his best friend's heartbroken look, he knew that her confession had failed and it seemed that she was rejected completely.
Wang Jing gently sat beside Shen Muyi, gently held her friend's hand, and comforted her softly: "Mu Mu, don't be sad. It's not worth being so sad for someone who doesn't like you. There are many good men in the world.
Your college classmate Bai Yang is very good, the key is that he likes you. As a woman, it is better to find someone who loves us than to find someone we don’t love. It is not good to be held in the palm of your hand for a lifetime.”
When Shen Sisi heard her roommate's words, she raised her head slightly, her eyes were empty, and she said in a hoarse voice: "I am really sad. I lost miserably. I am unwilling to lose."
Wang Jing sighed. Everyone in their dormitory knew that Song Ci had someone in her heart. Shen Sisi's confession today would most likely fail. As expected, she looked at Miss Shen distressedly:
"Mu Mu, I know you are in pain now, but time will heal everything. Song Ci didn't choose you because he was blind. You are so good, you will definitely meet someone who is more suitable for you."
Shen Sisi wiped away her tears, and her mood calmed down a little, but she was still dejected: “But I’m so confused now, I don’t know what to do.”
Wang Jing hugged Miss Shen and gave her some warmth: “It’s okay, when you calm down a little, let’s go outside together, breathe some fresh air, and change our mood.”
Feeling the slight sobs, he continued, “Look, we are in college now, and there are so many wonderful things waiting for us to do.
We can go to the library to study together, participate in club activities, and make more friends. Don’t let one person affect your life.”
After listening to Wang Jing's words, Shen Sisi gradually felt a little warm in her heart, nodded, and said with sincere gratitude: "Thank you, Wang Jing. With you by my side, I feel much better."
Wang Jing smiled and said, "You're welcome. We are roommates, but more importantly, friends. When you are sad, I will always be with you."
Outside the window, the morning sunlight shines into the dormitory through the gaps in the leaves, as if telling Shen Sisi that life is still beautiful and the future is full of hope.
After Song Ci and Shen Sisi had talked it out, they returned to their own pace of life. They were busy with their studies and group affairs every day. Occasionally, they would call Liu Shishi to talk about her feelings. Their lives were busy and fulfilling.
Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, it is March, and the crew of "Young Generals of the Yang Family" has finished filming. On March 5, Liu Shishi returned to Beijing after attending the media meeting of "Young Generals of the Yang Family".
During this period, Tangren Film and Television is preparing to shoot "The Legend of the Condor Heroes". Miss Liu, who has no filming to do for the time being, has returned to school. In a few months, she will graduate from Beijing Dance Academy. She will stay in school until the filming of "The Legend of the Condor Heroes" starts.
Friday, March 10, 2006, is a very special day for Song Ci. Today is Liu Shishi’s birthday, and he made preparations early for it, wanting the most important person in his life to have an unforgettable and beautiful memory.
Song Ci took a special leave and waited downstairs of the apartment building early in the morning. After a while, he saw Master Liu slowly coming down the stairs.
Miss Liu is particularly beautiful today. She is dressed in a cool outfit, with her shiny black hair naturally draped over her shoulders. She is wearing a lively and casual off-shoulder sweatshirt, revealing her clear and beautiful collarbone.
The pink dress perfectly highlights her long and beautiful legs, the white high heels are simple and elegant, and a pair of exquisite crescent chains are buckled diagonally on her snow-white wrists, giving her the demeanor of a top female star in later generations.
Seeing the little Qingmei standing in front of him with a smile on her face, Song Ci's heart melted, "Shishi, you are so beautiful!"
Hearing her boyfriend's praise, Liu Shishi stood on tiptoe, kissed her lover softly on the cheek, and asked with a smile: "Honey, where do you want to take me today?"
"You are the protagonist today, where do you want to go?" Song Ci asked with a smile.
"Then let's go to the amusement park!" Liu Shishi tilted her head and thought for a while, then mentioned an unexpected place.
Song Ci nodded, with a doting look on his face: "Okay."
The amusement park was still crowded and lively on Friday, and there was a long line in front of the ticket office.
While queuing to buy tickets, Liu Shishi chattered with Song Ci about the fun things that happened during their childhood visits to the amusement park. When they were in elementary school, this place was always the first choice for the school's spring outing. The two childhood sweethearts have many interesting memories here.
After checking their tickets, they followed the crowd and entered the park to the sound of music. They saw the Ferris wheel, carousel, and other facilities in the park running happily.
"Honey, let's go ride the Ferris wheel." Holding her lover's arm, Liu Shishi shouted happily.
Liu Shishi was already very excited just by queuing up to buy tickets. Now seeing the joyful scene before her, how could she suppress the happiness in her heart?
Song Ci smiled, took her hand, and led Miss Liu towards the Ferris wheel.
As the huge roulette wheel began to turn, the small cabin the two were riding in slowly rose, and their field of vision became exceptionally broad, with a panoramic view of the amusement park and the city landscape in the distance.
"Yi Yi, will we be together forever?" Liu Shishi closed her eyes and snuggled in her lover's arms, whispering.
"I will hold your hand and grow old with you." Smelling the fragrance of Liu Shishi's beautiful hair, Song Ci hugged her tightly and said with deep affection.
(End of this chapter)
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