Her lament about "living in vain" was indeed partly due to him, but that was actually a very small part. The main reason was her two daughters and her son, Xiao Lu, which made her feel this way.
Zhu Qianying was very nervous about this matter. After all, her mother had finally stood up again and was finally able to live like a normal person again.
"Mom, is it really unrelated to him?"
Zhu Qianying held Chen Jing's shoulders and looked steadily into her eyes.
Chen Jing shook her head. "I just feel that if I can't even figure out what two little kids are thinking, tell me, haven't I wasted the last forty years of my life?"
Zhu Qianying looked at her carefully a few more times and found that she didn't seem to be lying, so she breathed a slight sigh of relief.
"Mom, don't tell me you don't understand what Zizai and Xiaolu are thinking, I don't understand either!"
For example, regarding the matter of Zizai and Luo Yifan, Zhu Qianying was always worried that he would mismatch lovers, but as it turns out, Zizai saw things very clearly.
Of course, he may not be able to express it in words, but his subconscious will drive him to do the right thing.
For example, during the few days that Bai Shao and her father were away, he teased Xiao Luzi more than usual and bullied her more.
To those who don't understand, this would certainly seem like what Mom thought: this kid's temperament is really too wicked, actually bullying a little girl.
But after reading it a second time, Zhu Qianying understood her son's good intentions.
"In fact, the more we see, the easier it is to be deceived. On the contrary, children like Zizai are more likely to see the pain in Xiaoluzi's heart. Every time Xiaoluzi plays with Zizai, his mood will improve significantly."
Zhu Qianying's heartfelt words made Chen Jing fall into deep thought.
"Mom, stop overthinking all that nonsense. Eat it while the sweet soup is still hot!"
Chen Jing obediently accepted the sweet soup her daughter handed her and slowly began to eat it.
As she ate, she felt something was off. Didn't her daughter usually bring Yan Shao sweet soup up to him?
"Young Master Yan, aren't you going to eat?"
"Yes, he's working overtime today and hasn't come back yet, so I saved some for him."
Without thinking, Chen Jing finished the sugar water in her bowl. Just as Zhu Qianying was about to ask her if she wanted more, she heard Chen Jing let out a burp.
"Give me the bowl! Mom, go take a shower. Let them tidy up the toys themselves."
Zhu Qianying took the empty bowl into the kitchen, thinking that her mother would, like she had done a few days before, turn around and obediently go upstairs to take a shower.
After all, Mom is only made of flesh and blood. She goes to the wholesale market before dawn every day and works until she comes back at night. It would be a lie to say she's not tired.
But when she stood in front of the sink and dishes with the water running, she heard footsteps behind her. Judging from the sound, it didn't seem to be Yan Shao's, because Yan Shao's footsteps were very strong and steady, while her mother's footsteps were light and slow.
“Ying’er…”
The calls coming from behind confirmed Zhu Qianying's judgment.
"Mom, why aren't you taking a shower yet?"
Chen Jing didn't reply to her. She walked to her side, sat down at the counter, and quietly watched her wash the dishes, dry them, and put them in the cupboard.
"Ying'er, do you think I'm being too sensitive, or perhaps I've gone too far and been too heartless?"
Chen Jing had never actually told her daughter in detail about Luo Yifan.
She mainly talked about their work-related interactions; as for their personal emotional interactions, this was the first time she had discussed them with her daughter.
Of course, this was partly because she was only focused on the pain and didn't know how to express it.
More importantly, before Luo Yifan disappeared, she had never realized that Luo Yifan might have had something else in mind for her.
And she herself, subconsciously, perhaps also longed for something from Luo Yifan.
But before anything could happen, he suddenly left without a word, and after he left, he acted as if he would never see him again.
This made Chen Jing feel wronged and angry, and at the same time, she also felt sad and pained.
Originally, whether he came or left, it was all in the past, and Chen Jing felt she could get through it.
Moreover, Luo Yifan, although he can't compare to the power of the Ji family or the Yan family, is still a chef like her, so they are definitely from two different worlds. Therefore, it's a good thing that he left.
But then, he left, and then he came back.
Moreover, he completely changed his sarcastic tone towards her on the phone after leaving L City, and returned to his former gentlemanly and good-tempered manner.
This made her think more deeply.
If the first day, Luo Yifan's presence was like a leaf silently drifting on a lake, creating only tiny ripples, then today, the second day, is like a pebble being dropped in, causing ripples that linger for a long time.
The reason she left so early these past two days was that she didn't want to face Luo Yifan anymore, because she increasingly didn't know how to face him.
It's only been two days... If he stays here any longer, what will she do?
Zhu Qianying had already dried her hands and stood beside her. She didn't ask her anything, but just watched her quietly, waiting for her to sort things out before she spoke to her.
Chen Jing lowered her head, staring at her toes, trying to sort out the things that had happened to Luo Yifan these past few days, and then talk to her daughter about them.
She admitted that she wasn't smart enough, and her two daughters, especially her eldest daughter, had always worried about her.
My daughter must have seen what's been going on these past few days, but she hasn't said anything because she believes that she, as her mother, can handle it herself.
Although my daughter has high hopes for me, if I can't solve the problem, I should still talk to her. Maybe I can get some inspiration from her and find a breakthrough.
Otherwise, if things continue like this, she's not sure how many more days she can endure.
"Ying'er, I want to talk to you about Luo Yifan. There are some things I don't quite understand."
Zhu Qianying secretly breathed a sigh of relief. Her mother had finally learned to ask for help, or rather, she had finally learned to communicate proactively.
"Hmm, shall we talk here? Or shall we talk in your bedroom?"
Chen Jing thought for a moment, "Then let's talk in my bedroom!"
Zhu Qianying nodded, "Okay, you go take a shower first, I'll go remind the two little ones to take a shower and go to bed."
Soon, Zhu Qianying stepped out onto the terrace. "Little princess and little prince, it's nine o'clock. Time to wash up and go to bed!"
The two little ones had already finished their roughhousing and were now lying side by side on the grass, looking up at the starry sky, whispering something to each other.
"Yanxu, isn't it true that everyone is like a star in the sky?" Xiaolu Zifanxing asked Zizai very seriously.
Zizai had certainly heard this kind of talk before, but he also knew that it was just talk and had no scientific basis or source.
"Of course! I think the brightest and biggest one is definitely me! And the one next to me that's about the same size is you!"
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