Although it was difficult when I made this decision, it was still not as difficult as it is now.
Shao Jingyu was not afraid of the scolding from his elders, but now when he met Yan Yiming's gaze, he didn't know how to start.
Just like Nangong Ye said at the beginning, no matter how much he convinced himself that he was doing this for Yan Yiming's good, because of the slight selfishness in his heart, he was filled with unprecedented guilt and torment.
Yun Xiao had told him at the time that there was nothing wrong with explaining this. Who knew Yiming could really survive after being so badly injured? That's why she wrote that letter. Who would have thought that Yan Yiming would actually survive after so many days.
It sounded reasonable, but Shao Jingyu was unwilling to use such an excuse to evade her. He stared at Yan Yiming, and after a while he slowly said, "Yiming, if there are other people around you in the future, don't mention that you once led troops to fight in a war."
"Why?" Yan Yiming looked up in surprise.
"Because in the eyes of the world, Captain Yan is already dead," Shao Jingyu said directly, "I brought you back to the Shao Mansion. Many days have passed. Now everyone knows that I brought a woman home."
Yan Yiming stared at Shao Jingyu's face blankly, as if he was too shocked to understand what Shao Jingyu said. "But I'm still alive, why do you say I'm dead? And General... why did you take me back to the Shao Mansion?"
"Because you are a woman, Yiming. Women cannot join the army. If His Majesty finds out, it will be a crime of deceiving the emperor."
Yan Yiming was silent for a moment and murmured, "I can keep it from other people."
"You can hide it for a while, but you can't hide it forever, Yiming, you must remember that you are not a man," Shao Jingyu said, "Look at the wounds all over your body. Which woman in this world would have such a scarred body? You always say it doesn't hurt, is it really not painful?"
Shao Jingyu put her excited hands back into the quilt and continued, "At the beginning, I asked you if you would like to go home with me after the war, and you agreed at that time, so now I bring you back, but the most important thing is that I want to bring you back."
Shao Jingyu said, "Yiming, I want to marry you."
The room was very quiet, so quiet that the two could hear each other's breathing. Yan Yiming opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but could not utter a few words.
After a while, she suddenly covered her chest with her hands and said in a trembling voice, "You are crazy."
"I'm not crazy, I just want to marry you," Shao Jingyu said, "At first I thought you were a man, and I doubted whether I had a homosexual relationship with him. Later I found out that I was only like this to you. You are a woman, and I am really happy."
Yan Yiming turned his head and said awkwardly, "I said I..."
"You said you would not marry, because you are a woman so you cannot marry, but you can marry someone."
Shao Jingyu looked at her, the guilt in his heart burning so much that he dared not think too much. He paused before continuing, "Your body can't stand being injured again. If there is another war in the future, I won't agree even if you want to go. You said you can't let others know, but you are a woman after all. Now that you have made great achievements in the war, there will definitely be many noble families coming to propose marriage to you, and even His Majesty will personally grant you a marriage. How can you refuse then? The truth will be discovered one day, and once it is discovered, it will be a crime of deceiving the emperor."
Little Apple clapped her hands, saying that what he said made a lot of sense.
Yan Yiming pretended not to hear Xiao Pingguo's voice, and after a while he said, "I have no relatives at home, and I am alone. If Your Majesty wants to convict me, I will give him my life."
"You have no relatives but you still have friends and comrades. They care about you very much, and so do I," Shao Jingyu said. Looking at Yan Yiming's still clear eyes, Shao Jingyu opened his clothes and knelt on one knee on the ground. Yan Yiming was suddenly startled, "What are you doing?"
"A lot of what I said were just excuses," Shao Jingyu said slowly. "When I wrote the memorial, I was worried that you wouldn't wake up or get hurt again, or even that His Majesty would blame you. But I was also worried about what would happen if you were willing to hide your identity for the rest of your life or leave the capital to hide your identity."
Yan Yiming was still in a coma at that time. Shao Jingyu once convinced herself that it was because Yan Yiming was in a coma that she could not ask her what she thought. In fact, she was clearly glad that Yan Yiming was not awake at that time.
Even if Yan Yiming was willing to sacrifice himself to save him, he still wasn't sure whether Yan Yiming's feelings for him were the same as his feelings for her.
He selfishly ended the gamble without giving Yan Yiming any choice. When Yan Yiming woke up, he was faced with only this situation.
He was all she had.
At this moment, Shao Jingyu knelt in front of Yan Yiming and told him everything. Yan Yiming looked at the man in front of him and felt for the first time that there was something wrong with the four official data.
Compared to Jian Yuyan, who has the highest EQ in terms of data, Shao Jingyu's rank is clearly not inferior to Jian Yuyan at all, and is even slightly better. After all, when attacking Jian Yuyan, it was she who controlled the rhythm, but now it is Shao Jingyu who takes the initiative.
This one step blocked all her options but she didn't make excuses and confessed everything frankly, making it hard to know how to blame her.
He hid everything because he didn't want you to get hurt and wanted you to live well. He brought you back selfishly just because he wanted you to rely on him and be with him.
If there is real affection, this action is really hard to resist.
Yan Yiming should have known long ago that an invincible general could not be a simple person who only knew how to read military books and fight wars. He was very scheming and decisive in his actions. Whether it was war or anything else, Shao Jingyu would never lose to others.
Xiao Pingguo said before that in the original plot, Shao Jingyu stood on Jian Yuyan's side to help him restore his country. Even if he really killed Nangong Xuan in the end, it is still a mystery whether that position will eventually belong to Jian Yuyan.
Yan Yiming was somewhat curious as to how Jian Yuer had persuaded Shao Jingyu to give up helping Jian Yuyan restore his country. Since Nangong Xuan still ascended the throne in the end, what would be Jian Yuyan's final fate? Xiao Pingguo was determined not to reveal a single detail and hesitantly told her that one day she would know.
Yan Yiming thought about it and realized that by the time he got home, the game might have already ended, so it wouldn’t be too late to watch it then.
This was a bit far-fetched and now was not the time to think about these things. However, in Shao Jingyu's opinion, Yan Yiming was just frightened so he didn't find it strange.
Yan Yiming came back to his senses and met Shao Jingyu's eyes again. He stretched out his hand and paused in the air. Finally, he helped Shao Jingyu up. Then he turned his face to the bed and said in a muffled voice, "I want to be alone for a while."
"Okay," Shao Jingyu said softly, tucked the quilt around Yan Yiming, then turned and left.
Yiming's attitude was much better than he had imagined. If she was hesitating, it meant that she also had feelings. If she was wavering at this moment, it was only a matter of time before she agreed.
What he should do is to resolve the conflicts with his family as soon as possible and make them accept Yiming as soon as possible.
If he insists on not accepting it, that's fine. After this battle, Your Majesty can no longer reward him, so all the rewards were given to Marquis Yiyong. However, Marquis Yiyong is no longer here, so no matter how many rewards he gives, it's just talk. So Your Majesty still wants to reward him but cannot.
If there is really no other way, he will go to the palace to ask His Majesty to grant the marriage. Considering his achievements in this battle, even if His Majesty is not happy, he will not refuse.
Shao Jingyu thought that the worst outcome was to sever ties with his family, but his father and mother would definitely not go to such lengths. After they got married, they would only see the good in Yiming and naturally would not oppose it as much as they do now.
She insisted on leaving today because what her father said yesterday was too harsh. But deep down, Shao Jingyu still hoped that her family could accept Yiming. Now that she was really taking her to the general's mansion, her father disliked Yiming even more and their relationship was ruined.
Shao Jingyu needed a way to cover up his actions today, so he didn't need to take the initiative. Mrs. Shao, who had been waiting outside, came forward when she saw her son finally come out.
Shao Jingyu had an idea at once.
Mr. Shao has a bad temper, but Mrs. Shao has a rare good temper. Shao Jingyu has a very good relationship with his mother. The only thing that bothers him is his mother's family, Shao Jingyu's maternal grandfather's family.
From his grandmother to his cousins, Shao Jingyu particularly disliked each of them. He really couldn't understand why such a gentle and virtuous mother would have such an unreasonable, domineering and bullying family.
Shao Jingyu smiled and sat next to Mrs. Shao and said, "I'm sorry to have kept you waiting for a long time."
"Mother will be happy if this girl wakes up soon," Mrs. Shao said gently, "I have asked someone to send the imperial physician over. Now that she has just woken up, we should take good care of her."
"Yes," Shao Jingyu said, "Mother is very thoughtful."
"Women are naturally more thoughtful, unlike you men who are careless and have hot tempers, especially your father who says things that irritate people. He has lived half his life and has not improved at all. I told him a long time ago that the children are grown up and hold official positions, so he should not beat or scold them like before. But he insisted on acting like a father in front of you to make you obedient. In fact, he just wanted to hear some soft words from the children."
After saying that, he smiled and glared at his son, "It just so happens that you and your son have very similar tempers. Neither of you will admit defeat."
"My son was impulsive," Shao Jingyu said with a smile, "I will go and apologize to my father soon."
"Why should I apologize? It was obviously his fault first," Madam Shao said in feigned anger. "I will talk to him later and he will definitely not let my son suffer any injustice. Since the child you brought back must be a good one, even I feel uncomfortable listening to such unreasonable talk, let alone you."
Mrs. Shao's words really touched Shao Jingyu's heart. She saw her son's face suddenly become gentle when he heard about the girl in the room. She was moved but remained calm and said softly,
"I never had time to ask after I came back, this child..."
"She..." Yan Yiming's name could no longer be used. Shao Jingyu paused before saying, "Mother can just call her Ah Ming."
"A Ming, that's a good name," Mrs. Shao said with a gentle look. She took the tea handed to her by the maid and poured a cup for Shao Jingyu. "When you went to the north, I wanted to send you some good tea, but I was afraid that no one would pour tea for you. It would be better for me to wait for you to come back and make tea for you."
Shao Jingyu took the tea handed over by Mrs. Shao, tasted it, praised it a few times, and then said, "It's okay if mother sends it. Ah Ming's tea pouring technique is very good. When she feels better, mother can try it."
"This kid actually has this ability. Even so, I will definitely try it if I have the chance," Mrs. Shao said in surprise, but then she seemed to be surprised as if she had discovered something. "But you are on the battlefield, how can Ming pour tea for you?"
Shao Jingyu put down the cup and said seriously, "I didn't want to tell anyone, but it doesn't matter if mother doesn't tell others. Ah Ming's family was killed by the Mongolian army, and she was left alone. In order to save her life, she disguised herself as a man and stayed by my side by chance. After all, she is a girl and should not stay in the army. If others know about it, it will be troublesome. Mother, you have to keep it a secret for me now that you know about it."
Shao Jingyu never told anyone about what happened to Yan Yiming in the military camp. As a woman living among men, she wouldn't think too much about it, but there was no guarantee that others would not look down on her because of it.
"Since you told me, it must be kept secret," Madam Shao nodded and said, "Then how did she get injured? I heard from the imperial physician that she was seriously injured."
Speaking of this, Shao Jingyu's face suddenly turned compassionate, and after a while he said solemnly, "She wanted to save me."
Mrs. Shao was startled, and finally her expression changed slightly.
"She blocked an arrow for me, but I failed to protect her and nearly killed her. She was left with a fatal wound on her back. I was able to come back alive from this battle because of her."
Mrs. Shao was horrified when she heard this. She had heard Yun Xiao say that the Marquis Yiyong had saved her son twice, and that countless soldiers had died in the battle to protect the general. Now it turned out that this woman was also her son's savior.
Mrs. Shao felt a little scared for a moment. The battlefield was ruthless. Fortunately, someone rescued her. If it was her son who died, she couldn't even imagine it.
The hand holding the teacup couldn't help but tremble before he said in panic, "I see, then...you are doing this out of gratitude to her..."
"That's not the case. Ah Ming is well-read and is also good at calligraphy, painting and needlework. My son wants to marry her not because she saved me but because she is really a great person. When mother gets to know her better, she will know how good she is."
Mrs. Shao smiled reluctantly, "You said it's okay, so are you going to move to the General's Mansion now?"
"Ah Ming said that since we are a family, it is better for us to live together. I have ordered people to move the things back..."
After hearing this, Xiaopingguo returned to the house and told Yan Yiming about the conversation between Shao Jingyu and Mrs. Shao.
Shao Jingyu tried his best to help her gain favor in front of the Shao family, but every word that Mrs. Shao said just now seemed to be about concern for her, but in fact, it was a deliberate guidance.
This lady seems gentle and virtuous, but she is actually Shao Jingyu's biological mother.
The mother and son acted to each other as if it were real.
Yan Yiming's back felt numb after lying down for a long time. He turned over and lay down and felt much more comfortable. Shao Jingyu, who had just finished talking to Mrs. Shao, came back. When she saw it, she thought Yan Yiming was in pain from the wound on his back. She hurried over and asked her, "Does it hurt a lot?"
In fact, it didn't hurt after all, there was no pain, but the wound was so serious that Yan Yiming buried his face in the pillow with a bitter look on his face and said nothing.
Although she has regained her body as a girl, she is still the same as before and never makes a sound no matter how much pain she is in. Shao Jingyu is both angry and distressed.
The maid outside reported that the imperial physician had come to see the girl, and Shao Jingyu hurriedly welcomed him in.
The imperial physician calmly checked Yan Yiming's pulse. After a while, he stroked his beard, stood up and said to Shao Jingyu, "Don't worry, General. This girl is recovering well. I will prescribe some medicine for her to take good care of herself. She will recover one day."
Shao Jingyu breathed a sigh of relief, "Thank you."
"As for the external injuries on the young lady's body," the imperial physician took out three small bottles from the medical box and handed them to Shao Jingyu, "This medicine will help the wound heal faster. General, you can have someone apply it on the injured person. Remember not to scratch it."
Shao Jingyu wrote down everything and then asked someone to send the imperial physician away.
She turned around and asked the maids to go and boil the medicine, while she came over with the medicine bottle. Yan Yiming blushed when he saw the medicine bottle, "Send the maids over."
"When we treated your wound a few days ago, the maids were so scared that they didn't dare to look at it, let alone apply medicine on you," Shao Jingyu said with a smile, "I was the one who undressed you when I dug you out of the battlefield. How do you think you changed the medicine and bathed yourself without a maid by your side all the way back to Beijing?"
Yan Yiming's identity could not be known to others, and there were no women around him, so Shao Jingyu did everything himself. He took care of this scarred body for two months. However, Yan Yiming just woke up and couldn't accept it for a while.
Shao Jingyu watched her turn her face away and finally give up after a long struggle. The white roots of her ears were stained with a light red, and she finally showed the shyness of a woman. Against the backdrop of the face that he loved to the core, it was a beauty he had never seen before.
Although he had helped her many times, this was the first time that Yan Yiming was awake. Shao Jingyu thought he had gotten used to it, but his hands were shaking slightly when he helped her undress.
After taking off his undershirt, Yan Yiming lay on the bed, hiding his face as if he was extremely shy, leaving only his snowy back with crisscrossing scars on it.
Shao Jingyu opened the bottle, and a light medicinal fragrance wafted into his nostrils. The slightly sticky liquid dripped onto Yan Yiming's back. Perhaps it was a little cold, and Yan Yiming's back couldn't help but tremble, but he remained silent.
This figure is very thin, with a narrow back and a slender waist. He wears military armor every day, so he had no idea that there was such a fragile body under the heavy armor.
When the medicine was applied to his waist, Yan Yiming trembled again suddenly. Shao Jingyu was stunned, and then realized that Yan Yiming's waist was too sensitive.
He was clearly applying medicine, but perhaps because he liked it, or perhaps because the body lying on the bed was too charming, Shao Jingyu's hands, which had been cold just now, gradually became hot. Even though he had clearly finished applying the medicine, he was reluctant to take it off.
Yan Yiming didn't notice it at first, but he finally realized it later. He was so angry that he wanted to turn over, but perhaps he pulled the wound when turning over. He groaned and hurriedly tried to pull the quilt next to him.
Shao Jingyu quickly took away the quilt and said, "Don't rub the medicine on the quilt. If I don't move, you can't move either."
"Get out," Yan Yiming, injured but still strong, reached out and grabbed the pillow next to him and threw it out.
Shao Jingyu caught the pillow, hugged it and laughed for a long time, "Okay, okay, I'll go out, and come back in after the medicine has dried, okay?"
He put the pillow back to its original position, closed the window and drew down the bed curtains, then reluctantly left and sighed.
"A Ming, get better soon."
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