After dealing with the people, Yan Shang returned to his residence, and he was still distracted. Because of his eyesight, it didn't matter whether he turned on the light at night, so he sat in the dark, lost in thought.
That fiancé, known as "Mr. Pei", should be Mu Wanyao's future prince consort, Pei Qing.
Yan Shang was thinking about the afternoon when he came down from the stage and she came over to put a coat on him. She put her hand on the back of his neck and gently stroked it. She leaned in his arms and her eyelashes gently brushed his neck.
His body seemed to remember her completely. It was as if as soon as she came close to him, before he could react, his body had already woken up.
Yan Shang was thinking about an earlier time, when he met her again on the mountain path, and the look in her eyes when she saw him appear.
Yan Shang was a little annoyed because people like Yun Shu and Han Shuxing should have known that it was Mu Wanyao a long time ago, but perhaps they were threatened by Mu Wanyao and did not tell him.
He never knew she was by his side.
She stood beside him, looking at him.
The more he thought about it, the sadder Yan Shang felt. He held his forehead with one hand, and the heart in his arms felt a sharp pain. He felt the change in Mu Wanyao. Three years ago, how could she look at him quietly and not tease him... She has changed, grown up, and matured.
Know what you can get close to and what you can't get close to.
These are the bloody costs of growth.
Aside from the momentary excitement and joy when he recognized her in the afternoon, at night, Yan Shang was so sad that he tortured himself by thinking about it. The more he thought about it, the more he hated himself. The more he thought about it, the more he felt that it was his fault that she had become so quiet and mature.
If it weren't for him, she would still be lively and playful, still arrogant...
He had always hated himself for appearing in Mu Wanyao's life, causing her to be hurt by human emotions once again. Especially on this night, he hated himself even more for being so bad.
When she suddenly appeared, what she felt more than surprise was Yan Shang's denial and torture.
So he emphasized to himself not to get close to her and not to influence her anymore.
A man like him is not worthy of liking a girl, having feelings for her, or getting love. He should not have made Mu Wan sad. Now that she has Pei Qing, the prince consort who treats her well, he should stay away from her.
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Yan Shang recognized Mu Wan Yao, but he said nothing, pretending that he still didn't know. Yun Shu and others worked hard every day to hide the fact that the person was Mu Wan Yao from him, but Yan Shang didn't say anything.
He didn't really need to say it.
The next day he caught a cold, had a severe fever, and fell ill.
When Mu Wanyao and Pei Qing were having breakfast, Pei Qing told her about leaving Nanyang.
Mu Wanyao was lost in thought, and Pei Qing said it twice before she heard it. She said, "Didn't you want to take a good look at Yan Shang? You don't want to see him anymore after just two days?"
Pei Qing was in a low mood and said self-deprecatingly, "Yesterday I saw Yan Erlang praying for clear weather in the rain. He sat in the rain for three whole hours. All the people were looking at him, and His Highness was also looking at him... I didn't want to watch him anymore. I know I can't compete with him, and if I stay any longer, I might just bring shame upon myself."
He was stunned and said, "...Before I came here, I thought he was just seeking fame and reputation. I didn't expect he was really such a person."
Mu Wan shook her head and drank a sip of tea, thinking to herself, how could the person she had loved be a bad person?
She had always been indifferent to Pei Qing, and no matter how hard she tried, she could not muster up any enthusiasm for him. She always wondered what was wrong with her before, and always felt annoyed with Pei Qing from time to time... However, today, Pei Qing praised her so much, and Mu Wanyao was actually a little happy about Pei Qing.
Pei Qing once again urged Mu Wanyao to leave Nanyang with him.
Mu Wanyao hesitated and said nothing.
She thought that she should leave because when she was putting clothes on Yan Shang yesterday, her heartbeat was louder than the sound of rain when she was close to him. It was because her heart, which had been calm for three years, was beating so hard again. Mu Wanyao was shocked at that time, afraid that if she stayed any longer, she would not be able to let go of Yan Shang.
She can still control herself now, but she is really afraid that in two days, she will not be able to control herself.
But Mu Wanyao was reluctant to leave because she was concerned about Yan Shang's eyes.
If she couldn't see his eyes recover, she would be filled with remorse. Three years had passed, and she began to think back to the damage that the prison had caused to his body. She always felt that she was responsible for this... Mu Wanyao didn't say anything, and Pei Qing couldn't help but feel cold in her heart.
Mu Wanyao hesitated: "Let me write a letter and find a famous doctor here, and then we will leave first..."
Pei Qing was about to be happy when her maid Qiu Si came running in. Through the curtain, Qiu Si said nervously, "Madam, Yan Erlang is ill."
Mu Wanyao stood up immediately, and then, without preparing to leave or pack her luggage, she was carried by the maids to see Yan Shang. Pei Qing stood up and watched her walk so fast. He was stunned for a long time, feeling extremely depressed.
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When Yan Shang woke up, he felt that his whole body was sweating. But he was extremely tired, so he didn't want to move a finger, he just wanted to relax for a while before getting up to take a bath.
He just lay there quietly. No matter whether he opened his eyes or closed them, all he saw was darkness.
He was not a self-destructive person. In the past month, he had learned to get used to the darkness. And being blind actually allowed him to calm down and think about more things...
Yan Shang just sat there in a daze.
Suddenly, he smelled the fragrance of the girl. He was shocked and tensed up. The next moment, he felt the bed board pressed down and someone sat down. Yan Shang was stunned and began to feel that it was not good to be unable to see.
Mu Wanyao didn’t know how long he had been sitting here. He had only just realized at this moment… When Yan Shang’s heart was beating fast, he suddenly felt someone holding his fingers.
He froze and hesitated for a while, then thought to himself, just let her do whatever she wants and pretend he didn't know.
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Mu Wanyao had been sitting here watching Yan Shang for an hour.
In the evening, his fever subsided, and the servants fed him some porridge. Mu Wanyao watched the whole process. After the servants left, Mu Wanyao watched Yan Shang fall asleep. She sat by the bed and watched him sleep, but she didn't feel bored at all.
He was really quiet. When he slept, he didn't move at all, nor did he turn over, which made Mu Wanyao wonder whether he was fainted or asleep.
No matter how good-looking a person is, you will get bored of looking at them after an hour.
Mu Wanyao struggled for a long time, thinking that since he was asleep, she still wanted to touch him. As soon as she made this decision, she cheered herself up and sat on the bed. She reached out to his slender fingers, and immediately took his hand in hers, playing with it one finger at a time.
Yan Shang felt helpless and thought: That’s fine…it’s just a hand anyway.
But Mu Wanyao soon became dissatisfied.
Yan Shang's waist stiffened for a moment, because he felt the girl's soft fingers, through the thin shirt, on his waist. Mu Wan stretched out her thumb and middle finger, measuring the length, and her fingers lingered on his waist...
Yan Shang's face flushed pink, and his waist became stiffer and stiffer because of her. He had to try hard to pretend to be asleep... He heard Mu Wan's small voice: "What a thin waist."
Yan Shang was stunned, as if he had been hit by a club.
Her voice was soft and husky, and he hadn't heard it in three years.
Mu Wanyao said the second sentence in dissatisfaction: "It's even thinner than before. You really have lost a lot of weight."
She was self-satisfied and complacent again: "But my waist is still thinner than yours."
Yan Shang: “…”
He couldn't help but tighten his lips, trying to hold back the smile. His face turned redder, and he wondered what she was thinking... No, he couldn't think like that, he should think about how she could play with him like this.
She already has a fiancé, so how could she stay in another man's room for so long and play with him?
Yan Shang was caught in such a dilemma, and then, Mu Wan leaned down and hugged him. His fingers couldn't help but jump, and he felt the girl's delicate, watery body, rubbing into his arms. Yan Shang was at a loss, and began to regret why he pretended to sleep.
He should find the right time to wake up...he can't let Mu Wanyao act like this.
But in this struggle, Yan Shang's eyes widened under the white veil, and a trace of desire surged in his heart. He wanted to take a look at her... He wanted to know what she looked like now.
But he couldn't see, so he couldn't even look at her. And when his eyes recovered, she would have left.
He could never look at her.
Mu Wan shook her head and buried her face in Yan Shang's arms. She put her arms around his waist and hugged him. She smelled his scent and felt a sense of satisfaction and happiness. Everyone has a different scent. Yan Shang's scent is so light and fresh, like the sun and the sea...
Muwan swayed suddenly and paused.
I could hear the extremely violent heartbeat beneath my face.
Each sound is faster and more powerful than the last.
Mu Wan raised her head in disbelief. She saw Yan Shang still lying there motionless, but his face was red... He was pretending to sleep!
Mu Wan frowned and felt unhappy.
He...has such a strong feeling about the approach of a strange woman?
lewd!
Dirty!
nausea!
Not observing...the husband's way!
Didn't they say they were getting married soon? Why was he so physically reactive to a girl other than his fiancée?
Mu Wan stood up quickly and left him behind. She stood coldly at the edge of the bed, glaring at the man who was pretending to be asleep for a long time, then turned around and left.
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Mu Wanyao never went to see Yan Shang again.
However, she still wrote a letter to Chang'an, asking an ophthalmologist among the imperial physicians to leave Chang'an and come to Nanyang to treat her eyes in her name.
The rain stopped in Nanyang. Because he was angry with Yan Shang, Mu Wanyao angrily started to yell at people to pack their luggage and prepare to leave Nanyang. Pei Qing was naturally happy, and Yan Shang did not stop him. He even asked people to ask the two nobles if they needed local specialties from Nanyang, and he would send some to the two of them.
He had delivered all his good intentions to the door of the wing room, but Mu Wanyao rejected them all.
Mu Wan shook her head coldly: "I don't need his fake kindness!"
That night, Mu Wanyao was inexplicably depressed and sat in the garden in a daze. She didn't know how long she sat there. As the sky gradually darkened, lanterns were lit in the mansion, and a layer of cold night fog enveloped the mansion. The fog was thick and clouds were rolling over the corridor.
After sitting for a long time, Qiusi, the maid who followed behind her, felt a little numb from standing. When she was about to persuade the princess to go back, Muwan, who had been sitting, shook her eyes and looked in one direction.
Mu Wanyao and her maid saw Yan Shang walking towards them from the other end of the corridor.
He had no servants by his side, so he just walked along the wall and pillars. His thin spring clothes fluttered in the night breeze, and his face was always gentle, even though he often tripped over the stairs.
Yan Shang walked very carefully, but he was not familiar with every place in such a big yard as he had only been blind for a month. When he was about to trip over a step again, someone suddenly held his left hand, supported his arm, palm up, and slender fingers pressed against his wrist.
Yan Shang froze for a moment, then tried to retreat.
Mu Wan tried to stop him from retreating and grabbed his arm. She winked at Qiu Si, who spoke for her: "My dear, don't panic, it's us. Our wife was resting in the yard and happened to see you coming. She saw you were about to fall, so she came over to help you."
Qiu Si asked curiously, "But my dear, where are the servants around you? Can you come out alone? It's so late, where are you going?"
Mu Wan held Yan Shang's arm and looked at Qiu Si approvingly: Good question. This is what she wanted to know.
Yan Shang adjusted his mood, and knowing that it was Mu Wan who was rocking him, he felt even more uncomfortable, and doubted whether his clothes were properly put on, and whether there was anything wrong with them. But he quickly put aside these distracting thoughts, secretly ashamed of his own lack of solemnity.
Yan Shang replied in a gentle voice: "It's not a big deal. I suddenly remembered some official business, so I wanted to go to the county government office. This place is not far from the county government office. Yun Shu was sent by me to pass on some messages, so I wondered if I could go to the county government office."
He said ashamedly, "It seems that I overestimated myself and disturbed the lady. I'd better go back to my room."
Qiu Si, under Mu Wanyao's gaze, quickly said, "No need! My dear, it's not far anyway, we'll accompany you to the county government office."
Yan Shang tried to refuse, but Mu Wan insisted. Yan Shang couldn't refuse and had to accept it.
So he walked towards the gate of the mansion with Mu Wan supporting his arm.
No matter how strange the servants' faces were, Qiu Si just followed them with a smile, glaring at those who wanted to disturb the princess and Yan Erlang. She was fifteen years old, the most lively and youthful age. Seeing her own princess supporting Yan Erlang, their shadows fell on the corridor, Qiu Si felt very pleasing to the eye.
The princess is elegant and graceful, and Erlang Shen is handsome and elegant.
They are so well matched, how can we let others disturb them?
Qiusi is different from Chunhua and Xiarong before. She has never seen Mu Wanyao's most difficult time, but only seen the princess's increasing power. So in Qiusi's eyes, the princess doesn't need to look at anyone's eyes, and the princess can do whatever she wants.
She never thought that it was a big deal for the princess to have a consort. The princess was the most important. Even if the princess got married, she didn't need to care about the consort if she wanted to keep a concubine. Besides, the princess wasn't married yet!
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Each of them had their own thoughts, and they left the house in such a strange way.
Yan Shang felt his arm numb from being supported by Mu Wanyao. He pretended not to know it was her and racked his brains to think of how to persuade her to leave. However, Mu Wanyao was very happy. She probably thought it was fun to lead a blind person, so she led the way with extra care and fell in love with this feeling.
Realizing that Mu Wanyao was having a lot of fun, Yan Shang smiled helplessly, feeling that he couldn't see, as if he had provided her with something fun.
Let her pretend to be dumb, not recognize me, and tease me secretly.
As they were about to leave the house, Qiu Si hummed a little tune and looked around casually, signaling the servants who were in the way to get out of the way and not block the princess's way. Unexpectedly, Qiu Si looked casually and saw the swaying grass and trees on the wall at the entrance of the house. Among the swaying grass and trees, a snake was spitting out its tongue and climbing higher and higher.
Qiu Si screamed and jumped up in fright: "Snake! There's a snake! Help—"
Mu Wanyao didn't see any snakes, but she was frightened by the maid's terrible scream. She also screamed, her whole body trembled, and she grabbed Yan Shang's hand tightly. She screamed with tears in her eyes and jumped up with Qiu Si.
Qiusi was so scared that she could only hide far away, but Muwan was always beside her.
Mu Wan screamed and threw herself into Yan Shang's arms, hugged him tightly, and sobbed.
The screams of girls suddenly exploded in his ears, making Yan Shang's ears numb. Then Mu Wan threw herself into his arms, trembling in fear, shouting, "Snake! Snake!"
Yan Shang hugged her, put his hands on her back, gently stroked her back, and said softly: "Okay, okay, don't cry..."
He tilted his head, knowing that there must be servants nearby, so he asked, "Is there a snake in the bushes?"
When the two girls screamed one after the other, the servants were frightened and ran over to see. Qiu Si quickly hid a few feet away. A servant carefully went into the bushes and checked for a long time without saying anything: "My dear, it's just a branch."
Qiu Si hugged the pillar, poked his head out from behind it, and shouted, "Did you see it wrong? I really saw a snake."
So Mu Wanyao in Yan Shang's arms grabbed Yan Shang's clothes even tighter and shook it.
Yan Shang kept stroking her back, and seeing that she was still afraid, he couldn't help but laugh: "How could there be a snake? Don't be afraid, it's nothing... I'm here."
The servants looked at each other in bewilderment. Seeing their own husband hugging the girl from another family and comforting her softly, they couldn't help but look strange. But they couldn't say anything, so they had to retreat awkwardly. Only Qiusi hid behind the pillar, stroking her fragile heart, muttering: There must be a snake.
Yan Shang held Mu Wan and stood at the gate of the mansion, coaxing her in a low voice for a long time before letting her raise her face from his arms. She choked for a long time, and when she raised her face, she was about to say something to Yan Shang, but she felt that Yan Shang's body suddenly froze, and his face looked a little unnatural.
Mu Wan shook her head and realized: Oh, yes, he is holding her.
Yan Shang's arms around her stiffened, and he whispered, "Sorry for being so abrupt."
He regained his serious look and tried to push her away gently. Mu Wan said nothing and held onto his arm, refusing to let go. Yan Shang turned his head to the side. Although he couldn't see her, he could imagine her suddenly being stubborn again.
He whispered: "I know, I know you are frightened and need someone to accompany you...but, but this is not right, I will find your fiancé for my wife..."
Mu Wan shook her head in annoyance: She doesn’t want Pei Qing!
If Pei Qing appeared at this moment, she would be annoyed to death!
Just as the two were arguing, Pei Qing's voice came from the direction of the mansion gate, suppressing his anger and asking, "What are you doing?"
Pei Qing came in from outside and saw Yan Shang hugging the princess and talking to her with his head down. How could they be so intimate?
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Yan Shang reacted and looked in the direction of the mansion gate in amazement.
Mu Wanyao was still holding his arm, and for some reason, she didn't move at all. Yan Shang heard her sob, as if she hadn't recovered from her previous emotions at all.
Hearing Pei Qiang's footsteps coming towards him, Yan Shang instantly became nervous and panicked.
He grabbed Mu Wanyao's arm with his backhand and pulled her behind him. Facing Pei Qing who was walking towards him, Yan Shang's lips were slightly stiff, and his voice was low as if he was asking for peace: "Mr. Pei, calm down first. Things are not as you see... My wife was frightened by a snake. I saw that she was frightened and couldn't help but comfort her. This matter has nothing to do with my wife..."
Mu Wan was dazed when Yan Shang pulled her behind him. When she heard him suddenly stop calling her "Madam" and start calling her "wife" instead, she blinked.
Pei Qing was furious: "Get out of the way!"
Yan Shang stepped back, but refused to let Mu Wanyao go to Pei Qing. He could hear the anger in Pei Qing's words, and was only worried that the other party would hurt Mu Wanyao because of what he saw.
Yan Shang felt extremely ashamed, but he firmly advised: "It really has nothing to do with my wife. People often say that seeing is not necessarily believing..."
Mu Wan came back to her senses.
She hid behind Yan Shang, and was held by his arm. The more Yan Shang said this, the angrier Pei Qing became. Mu Wan couldn't help but smile, and playfully poked her head out from behind Yan Shang, curiously watching the two men, one who wanted to take her away and the other who refused to let her be taken away.
Pei Qing: "Yan Erlang, how can I hurt her?"
Yan Shang was stunned.
Then he heard Mu Wan's mischievous laugh from behind him.
Then, Yan Shang suddenly woke up and realized what he had done.
Yes, what can Pei Qing do to Mu Wanyao? Mu Wanyao is not an ordinary girl. She is a princess. What can a prince consort who has not yet married into the family...married into the family...yet married into the family do to the princess, even if he is angry that the princess is fighting with other princes?
It was Yan Shang who was confused and treated Mu Wanyao as an ordinary girl. He was afraid that Pei Qing would scold and beat her, so he protected Pei Qing from touching Mu Wanyao.
This idea is ridiculous.
Yan Shang was so ashamed that he was speechless and stood there in a daze. Pei Qing felt bitter in his heart when he saw that he finally reacted and sighed.
Pei Qing couldn't help but think: How good was the relationship between Yan Erlang and the princess in the past, that Yan Erlang would forget about Mu Wanyao's identity as a princess?
Why would Yan Erlang be unable to help himself and treat a princess with the same attitude as he would treat an ordinary girl?
Wouldn't the princess say that he was committing treason? Would the princess let Yan Erlang get so close to her?
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Pei Qing couldn't help thinking that his marriage to the princess...probably, probably wouldn't happen.
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After returning to the house, Mu Wanyao sat down to drink tea, deep in thought.
Pei Qing stood beside her and whispered to her to stay away from Yan Erlang.
Mu Wan shook her head impatiently: "Shut up.
She put her fingers on her forehead, feeling that something was wrong. Pei Qing kept mumbling in her ear, interrupting her thoughts and making it difficult for her to remember where the wrong thing was.
Now that Pei Qing had shut up, Mu Wanyao could think carefully.
Yan Shang’s attitude towards her was…not right.
He had never thought about it carefully before, but now that he thinks about it, he will hug her tonight and can't help but comfort her... This is his attitude towards Mu Wanyao, not his attitude towards an ordinary girl.
Going back further... He was distant from her, yet inexplicably concerned about her. When he was sick, his heartbeat was so intense when she hugged him... Going back further, on a rainy day when she prayed for clear weather, she put a coat on him, and he held her in his arms.
Mu Wan let out an "Ah" and suddenly realized: it turned out that his "abnormality" had appeared so early.
It turns out... Yan Shang recognized her!
Mu Wan stood up suddenly, startling Pei Qing. She walked out with a gloomy face, and Pei Qing followed behind her: "Where are you going now, Your Highness?"
Mu Wan shook his knife and said, "Look for Yan Shang!"
Pei Qing: “…”
Pei Qing was going crazy: "Didn't you just end your love affair in front of me? Why did Your Highness go to see him again?"
Mu Wan hesitated, and felt that she had gone too far. She stopped at the door and explained, "I just found out that he lied to me..."
Pei Qing's eyes lit up slightly, and he said, "Then your highness should go find him quickly."
Mu Wan shook: "..."
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Yan Shang originally wanted to go to the county government office, but because of the accident involving Mu Wanyao in the evening, he did not go and returned to his room.
He was uneasy. Although he convinced himself that Mu Wan's transformation into a princess would not affect her, he still couldn't help but worry that she would be blamed by Pei Qing. She liked Pei Qing so much. If Pei Qing refused to marry her because of him, how sad she would be...
"Bang", the door was pushed open.
Mu Wan shook his head and said sternly: "Yan Shang!"
Yan Shang raised his head, stood up and frowned. He said softly: "I've thought about it. Why don't you blame it on me and say that I behaved improperly, forced you, and wanted to hug you. Only then will he not blame you. Don't even mention the snake. With so many factors, people will not believe it..."
He talked for a long time, then realized something was wrong and gradually stopped talking.
I heard Mu Wan's cold laughter.
Yan Shang was silent for a long time, then whispered, "What did you say?"
Mu Wanyao sneered: "Why are you pretending? Didn't you recognize who I am?"
Yan Shang was speechless.
He lowered his eyes, thinking he hadn't said anything, but his extremely low murmur and tender whispers melted into Mu Wanyao's ears, making her ears feel hot: "...Yaoyao."
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