Chapter 66 The attic fire is really pitiful

Ye Man felt that he should feel guilty, afraid, and uneasy at this moment.

He had every reason to worry that after today he would be considered mentally ill and sent to a mental hospital.

Being caught here means that my whole busy work throughout the night was completely seen through.

In their view, he must be very unreasonable and irrational.

He asked to go to the North Pole during Chinese New Year, but he refused to smile at me the whole way and just did some weird things without any clue.

Not sensible enough, not considerate enough, not empathetic enough. Useless and unable to provide any value.

...and bothering them to accompany him in his nonsense. It only causes trouble for others.

He had every reason to panic about his situation.

But the heart that was hanging in my throat slowly descended against common sense and intuition.

The familiar body temperature surrounded him from behind, and the belated pain and grievance spread to every part of his body.

Ye Man did not turn around to look at Xu Huaiting. He just kept his back to him, his head leaning against the door. It was as if all the strength in his body was suddenly drained away, and his tense shoulders suddenly relaxed.

The attic was still dark, but Ye Man was no longer so scared that he couldn't speak. He said as if he had found an outlet to vent his feelings: "You should have guessed it. I have always wanted to destroy the power supply of the villa. I planned to take the opportunity to have something happen with Meng Yao. Just like when we were on the boat before, I must have Meng Yao come because I haven't given up on him yet."

葉滿帶着那麽點自暴自棄承認：“我跟你談着戀愛，還對孟曜有想法，現在你抓住我了，然後呢, 你想怎麽樣，跟我分手，還是想狠狠揍我一頓，教訓一下你'不安于室'的男朋友？”

Jin'er was so depressed and lonely, as if it was Xu Huaiting who brought up the breakup instead of him.

Xu Huaiting tightened his hands on the door panel and said in a colder voice, "Six times."

"What?"

"This is the sixth time you've lied to me. You lied to me again," Xu Huaiting whispered in his ear, "Do you remember what we agreed on before?"

Ye Man lowered her head and listened to him, as if she couldn't understand what he was saying. She repeated blankly, "I feel for Meng Yao..."

Xu Huaiting: "I advise you not to say the following sentence, otherwise I will really get angry."

The fabric of clothes rustled behind him, and a slightly heavy weight floated lightly on Ye Man's shoulders.

"You still don't have anything to say to me?" The voice behind me sounded a little tired.

Ye Man slowly clenched his hands at his sides without saying a word.

"I don't mean to condemn you, I mean..."

Xu Huaiting paused, as if looking for a better way to express himself.

But in the end, he just whispered, "I like you."

"I don't know if you understand this feeling, but when you really like someone, you want to be his or her support."

"I want you to think of me first when you encounter difficulties."

He said slowly: "I want you to be carefree to me and to tell me everything. I want to protect you. I want you to tell me your thoughts and worries. I want you to trust me and rely on me..."

Ye Man shuddered vigorously.

"Most importantly..."

"Don't be sad alone anymore."

My eyes suddenly felt extremely sore.

Ye Man's breathing became more trembling, and her hot tears fell uncontrollably on the arms that were lying across her chest.

One drop after another, and there was no way it could stop.

As Ye Man grew up, he always had to weigh and compromise on many things.

He must carefully calculate everything in his life, judge the importance of those things, and devote all his limited energy to the most important things.

He has to make choices all the time, from small things like whether to walk home or take the subway, whether to go home to eat the last-minute instant noodles someone gave him as a gift, or to bite the bullet and buy a pancake, to big things like money and health.

One night more than a year ago, he was kicked six times while holding a bag containing 30,000 yuan. A wine bottle fell from the table and the broken glass pierced his eyes, causing him to bleed so much that he could not see clearly.

Even so, he still didn't let go.

In the blur of blood and red, he heard the man let out a strange cry. He was so scared that he didn't even want the money and ran away.

At that time, he thought that the money was far more important than anything else in life, and it was worth going blind for it.

Only those who are comfortable with life don't have to constantly put themselves in a difficult position, don't have to coax themselves by saying that there's nothing good about it, and that it doesn't matter if they don't have it. They can show their pain generously and frankly without worrying about being laughed at or abandoned.

If Brother Tong comes back, he will definitely say: Because it was not there, he slept in the cupboard all night, ran to a very cold place, and completed a mission alone with great effort.

These troubles are so small that if we talk about them as if they were serious matters, we would be laughed at and looked down upon.

......But Brother Tong, I think he would care.

But will the system really come back?

After he had done everything he could think of, no one could give him a definite guarantee.

The system disappeared just as it had come, one day, without any warning, and quietly.

Ye Man didn't even know the real reason why it left.

Just making a last-ditch effort.

There is no one to rely on, no one to talk to.

Ricardo is right, and the system is also right.

He just didn't trust him, or anyone else.

How could he trust them? Sometimes he even wondered if he was crazy!

Hearing the crying, Xu Huaiting nervously turned him around, pinched his sleeves, bent over and wiped his tears, but the more he wiped, the more tears came, and he didn't know what to say.

"I just said a few words to you, and you lied to me, and said you were going to cheat on me in front of me, and you even said you wanted to break up with me, and I didn't cry, but you did."

On a night like this, in a dark attic, during a snowstorm, Ye Man stood in front of Xu Huaiting, crying breathlessly, "My system is gone—"

The hand that was wiping his tears stopped moving.

Ye Man became more and more reckless and self-destructive, crying, "The system... asked me to do a mission... but it's gone! I, I'll do the mission and bring it back! I want my system back!"

See, who will believe it!

Everyone will think he is sick, mentally ill!

Who can be relied on? They are all liars. Who would believe such absurd things——

"Is it enough to just stay in the attic like this?"

"What?"

Xu Huaiting continued to wipe his face with his sleeve with a focused look on his face: "I ask, is it enough to just stay in the attic like now? Is there anything else to do? Let your... system? Let this thing come back."

Ye Man was stunned and tears fell.

"Don't be silent, it will make me look stupid if you take it seriously." Xu Huaiting said, thinking for a moment, and threatened him again: "Don't tell me that you were just playing a trick on me, or you can wait to continue crying all night."

"Do you believe...?"

"To be honest, I don't really believe it. Is the system you're talking about the same as what I understand? Artificial intelligence? Or something else? Where do you usually wear it? When I kiss you like this... there's a third person watching?"

Xu Huaiting spoke a lot, and at the end he didn't know what he was saying anymore, and pressed his forehead with a headache.

"So...are you lying to me?"

"I didn't! Everything I said was true!"

"......Since you didn't lie to me, then of course I have to believe you. If I don't believe you, who should I believe?"

Ye Man was even more stunned.

He never thought the answer would be so simple.

It must be very complicated, and he must be guessing, doubting, and judging a lot of things. If it were him, he would not believe the other person so easily.

Xu Huaiting hugged him and said, "Although my lover is blind, he is mentally normal. I can still judge this. Excuse me, what reason do I have not to believe the words of the person I love the most?"

"Am I so powerful that I have understood all the unknown science and truth in the world, and I am confident that there will never be anything in this world that I don't understand?"

"Then I am too arrogant. Please distinguish the difference between confidence and arrogance."

"...I need some time to accept it," he said with some helplessness after making such a bold statement, "but this will not prevent me from helping you when you ask me for help. You have to believe me, no matter what the situation is, I will definitely help you."

He pulled at his wet sleeves and said, "Stay here and don't move."

I took half a step and couldn't move anymore.

Someone pulled the corner of my clothes.

The person holding him sobbed and said, "Then come back soon."

Xu Huaiting was silent for a moment.

At this moment, there were only three words in his mind: I'm done.

What's more, he had no reluctance at all.

He enjoyed it very much.

After a few breaths, he thought without any psychological burden, everyone will fail a few times in their life anyway, so this is nothing.

He followed his inner thoughts without any hesitation and turned around to kiss Ye Man.

While kissing this person again and again, I thought: In this life, one must meet someone like this who is cherished and regarded as a treasure, so that life will not be lived in vain.

When I think of him existing in this world, I feel uncontrollably happy.

"good."

He couldn't give any other answer to such a person.

......

The whole villa is made of wood. The attic is neither new nor old. There happens to be a fireplace with firewood prepared in advance next to it.

In such an extremely cold place, heating methods such as stoves and firewood are more useful.

Brush——

The warm orange light sways and dispels the darkness.

He lit the firewood and threw it into the fireplace. After observing and making sure that everything was fine, Xu Huaiting walked back to Ye Man and pulled him to sit next to the fireplace.

Ye Man was hesitating about what to do, but Xu Huaiting had already sat down on the carpet casually, then pulled Ye Man onto his lap, and the warmth gradually dispelled the coldness in his body.

"Can you tell me more about your system?"

Ye Man was still very defensive and had not completely let down his guard. It would be difficult for him to change in a day or two, but he still put his arms around Xu Huaiting's neck and explained in a low voice.

It's not a complicated matter at all, and it will be even more concise if I just focus on the key points.

After saying this, he waited nervously for Xu Huaiting's reaction.

Xu Huaiting's attitude has not changed and remains the same as before.

In Ye Man's imagination, this night he had to endure the cold, loneliness, and darkness alone; endure the uneasiness brought about by the uncertain and unknown results; and endure the howling cold wind outside the window.

This was very uncomfortable, but he didn't think it was unbearable.

It's like sleeping in a cupboard, which is not as comfortable as sleeping on a bed. But as long as he thinks that he won't die from a night of injustice, he feels he can endure it.

But in a night that may seem endless.

He sat in front of the warm fire, leaning gently on Xu Huaiting's shoulder, and suddenly didn't want to endure it anymore.

"I don't like Meng Yao," he explained.

"I know."

"I don't want anything to really happen between him and me. He wants to be with my second brother."

"It's useless for you to think about it. I'm following you right behind you. Do you think Meng Yao dares to touch you?"

They didn't know how long they had to stay here to be considered qualified. To Xu Huaiting, staying here until the end of time didn't seem like a bad idea.

He didn't know how long he would have to stay, and Ye Man, the proposer of this plan, couldn't give a definite answer.

There is no other way except to accompany him and wait for a possibility that he doesn't know whether it will exist or not.

But when the two of them were together, Ye Man felt that it didn't seem so painful anymore.

Xu Huaiting put his arm around his waist, his palm sliding inside along the hem of his clothes, his fingers casually outlining the delicate waistline under his clothes: "But, you won't let me get away with it so easily for lying to me."

The electric current ran from my fingertips up my spine.

Ye Man only had time to squeeze out a thin tone from his trembling voice: "Ricardo——"

Xu Huaiting: "I told you, if you lie to me again, I will do something to teach you a lesson."

"Of course, I also told you that this is a lesson that won't hurt you."

Although it doesn't hurt, the degree of suffering is quite high.

"Xiaoman, let's play a game of truth or dare. We still have a lot of time." Xu Huaiting hugged the person who had buried his head in his arms and was shaking all over.

Ye Man: "Really, truth or dare?"

Xu Huaiting: "There is no big adventure, only the truth. I ask the questions, you answer, and I judge whether what you say is true or not."

Ye Man: "Well, you ask..."

Xu Huaiting put more strength in his palm and deliberately said maliciously: "Have you ever done it yourself before, boyfriend?"

Ye Man buried her ears in his neck with redness.

Xu Huaiting held his shaking waist: "Seven times."

Before he could answer, he was about to judge that he was lying. Ye Man said: "...You are bullying me."

"Yeah, you're right."

Ye Man's face was flushed and he wanted to run away, but in the end he chose to hold him tightly, "I will learn."

He said he might not know what it means to like someone.

"I will try very hard to like you, Ricardo, as much as you like me."

"So...so you have to hug me and kiss me all the time...no matter what happens, never leave me for the rest of your life..."

Xu Huaiting tilted his head and placed a kiss on Ye Man's neck.

He has a lot of anxieties and doubts, but Xu Huaiting will spend his entire life proving himself countless times.

The nights in the Arctic are very long, and the next sunrise is two months away.

In this night that seemed so long that it seemed to have no end, Ye Man lay on the soft carpet, warming herself by the fire, covered with Xu Huaiting's clothes, and fell into a deep sleep curled up in Xu Huaiting's arms.

Xu Huaiting held his face and looked at his sleeping face, with the fire crackling beside him.

Half asleep and half awake, Ye Man heard a beeping sound.

He was too tired and sleepy. His eyelids trembled and he fell into sleep again.

He was holding someone in his sleep, and kept muttering, "You were not here, I slept in the closet all night, so pitiful."

......

"That's really pitiful."