But after that bowl of abortion medicine, she was left with only fear and hatred towards Zhao Yun.
After Zhao Yun got engaged to Fu Qianran, Ye Wanhe became very clear-headed. She knew that there was no possibility of a good outcome with Zhao Yun. How could she dare to be moved or love him? All she could do was count the days until she could leave the palace and do what a palace maid should do.
Later, even though Zhao Yun was willing to promise her the title of Crown Princess, it was humiliating her background and her parents, so Ye Wanhe only had hatred for him.
How could she possibly fall in love with Zhao Yun?
Zhao Yun said, "I know you are still awake."
Ye Wanhe opened her eyes and said slowly, "I don't want to say anything against my will anymore. I really don't love you. After we lost our first child, it's impossible for me to love the murderer who killed my child."
Zhao Yun slowly explained, "I didn't kill the child. I only found out about the abortion pills the wet nurse gave you afterward."
Ye Wanhe listened to Zhao Yun's explanation and chuckled, "Does it make any difference? Even if the wet nurse acted first and asked for your permission later, you didn't punish her afterwards. You also tacitly agreed that the child in my belly shouldn't live. You even made me take contraceptive pills before even two months had passed..."
Six years, six whole years of taking birth control pills. How can I love you? I can only hate you.
"In the past six years, I've thought countless times about how I'm going to live after leaving the palace. I'm afraid that after taking so many contraceptive pills, I won't be able to have my own children. I'll have to find a widower with children to marry and become a stepmother...
After all, I am not worthy of being a mother anymore. I couldn’t even keep my first child…”
When Ye Wanhe thought of the child, her eyes became blurred with tears.
Zhao Yun asked, "Haven't you ever thought about marrying Su Zhan after leaving the palace?"
(End of this chapter)
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