Chapter 50
The emergence of Kamado Miryu was the biggest surprise in Dazai Osamu's life so far.
An extreme devotee.
He builds everything on himself, and those who need salvation always come first. Even if they are strangers, he will lend a helping hand without hesitation and give everything he has.
It's a completely unreasonable concept.
You may never meet another person like this in your life.
Dazai Osamu was actually very curious about Kamado Mi-ryu, and he also thought about getting close to him, just like he got to know Odasaku and Ango...
But Dazai gave up.
Because he was considered one of the people who needed a helping hand.
There was no need for Dazai Osamu to approach him, the boy would actively stick to him without any bottom line.
From the moment he met Kamado Miru, many changes occurred in Dazai Osamu's life, which was as calm as dead water.
When he wants to commit suicide, the other person will appear like a shadow sticking to his body, pulling him back from the brink of death forcefully and irresistibly.
When a person is lying on his dark and lonely bed, pondering whether he will leave this world tomorrow, the other person will come to make his presence felt like a worm in his stomach, sending some greeting messages in a calm tone.
Even in the residences that had never been visited by anyone, there were traces of the divine crossing.
There was an extra bag of wheat flour in the container's cabinet, an extra piece of Mushroom Mountain Chocolate on the table, and a set of light bulbs placed at the door.
Every quiet night, Dazai Osamu would sit on a chair next to it and stare at it quietly.
Although he had the tools to illuminate, he never touched them, nor did he dare to light up the beam of light left by the other party.
Dazai Osamu just stared quietly without saying anything.
At first, the curiosity that arose from being attracted to Qianqian had long been replaced by other emotions.
His lonely heart is like a huge black hole, which needs someone to treat it wholeheartedly and fill it. The other person must give him the greatest sense of security and devote more emotion and energy than himself...
Only in this way could Dazai Osamu dare to reveal his fragile heart that was wrapped in a hard layer of ice.
However, when such a person really appeared, his first thought was not joy -
Instead, I want to retreat.
Can the other person really give you a sense of security?
Could he really trust the boy's unconditional kindness, and believe that he would accept all his doubts and temptations and tolerate all his actions?
Maybe the other person will get sick of me one day, after all, he is a hopeless bastard.
Previously, when Lupin and Oda Sakunosuke were drinking together, the other party once said to Dazai Osamu when they were talking about Kamado Mi-ryu: "Dazai, I feel that Kamado is actually very similar to you."
"You can try to get along with him."
“Don’t always push each other away.”
“…”
Dazai Osamu was very silent at that time.
Looks like it?
That's true, he doesn't feel any sense of belonging to this boring world.
Whether it is a port, or any other organization, or even this city or country... Dazai Osamu can survive well anywhere. The organization is just a tool for survival for him.
I'm afraid the same is true for Shen Du Jianliu.
The boy seemed to care about the whole world, but in fact, he only cared about those desperate people who needed to be saved.
Stubborn, do your own thing, and always know what you want.
Once this string pulling the other person is gone, he will become the most indifferent person in the world, caring less about life and death than Dazai Osamu, and nothing can hold the other person back.
"ah……"
Dazai Osamu seemed to understand something at this moment, and he put down the wine glass in his hand.
"I see."
So, this is the source of his uneasiness.
Dazai Osamu knew that Kamado Miyazawa was a "saint" and that universal rescue meant that all those redeemed were equal, regardless of order.
Even if it’s not you, the other person will lend a helping hand to someone in your situation.
He is not the only one, nor is he special.
At the same time, when a redeemed person receives redemption from another person and thus walks toward the other side of light... will the person who is no longer desperate still receive the boy's attention?
Hard to say.
Dazai Osamu admitted that Kamado Miru was a special person to him.
He was the only one who had the guts to cross that extremely private line that he didn't want anyone to cross and reach out to him.
Dazai Osamu had thought of many ways to hurt the other party, such as speaking ill of him, threatening him with death, and taking the initiative to stay away from him. He was always trying to find ways to reject the boy.
Finally, he came to a conclusion - it was impossible to push it away.
But he couldn't let go of his hesitation and accept the other person...
Because under such seemingly wholehearted concern and attack, Dazai Osamu's emotion could only remain on the surface, and deep in his heart there was more of a deep uneasiness hidden under the hard shell.
He decided to give it one more try.
If Shen Du Jian Liu could dispel his groundless speculation and suspicion and give him the greatest sense of peace of mind and affirmation...
Then Dazai Osamu is willing to accept all the kindness of the other party, and this time will be the last time he pushes the other party away.
The so-called temptation is very simple.
On the night of Sasaki's death, Dazai Osamu investigated all the relevant information and immediately realized that the man named Shigeru Eguchi was an undercover agent.
Kamado Miryu, who was introduced by the other party to join PortMafia, is probably also one of the undercover agents of the Supernatural Special Agent Department.
Even if not, at least we know the identity of the triple undercover agent named Shigeru Eguchi.
Takuro Sasaki's death was really strange.
He also discovered something very interesting...
Shigeru Eguchi's profile shows that he has a son and his wife is unknown.
Through a series of follow-up investigations, Dazai Osamu was able to determine that the other party's son had also infiltrated PortMafia, perhaps to avenge his father or to do something else.
The most suspicious person is Haruki Kojima, who often stays with Kamado Miru.
Not only did the other party have a good relationship with Shen Du, he also successfully joined Sasaki's department right after training. The way he met the introducer was also very dramatic, as they met through an explosion incident.
Kojima happened to save his introducer and became his savior, so he was able to successfully join Sasaki's department through that introducer.
Is it really just a coincidence? not necessarily.
Of course, these are just his guesses, maybe the three things added together are really a coincidence.
Since he was able to infiltrate here as an undercover agent, his resume must be very clean. Dazai Osamu will not easily make a conclusion, so he plans to use him to set up a trap.
On the day when he went to Arsenal No. 11 for the first time to trade goods with Kamado Miru, Dazai Osamu specifically asked him to bring Kojima Haruki along.
PortMafia became famous after the Dragon Head War. Everyone in the underworld of Yokohama knew about it, and it was true that no one dared to attack them.
So Dazai Osamu secretly spread the news, hoping to attract some ignorant people to attack them.
He was sitting in the car and frequently looked at the scenery outside the window to confirm the time when the enemy would arrive.
Sure enough, the enemy took the bait.
Everything was as planned.
Dazai Osamu deliberately left a wrong message in the alley, seemingly to deceive the other end of the communicator...
In fact, it was said to Haruki Kojima who was present at the scene.
Even if Kojima Haruki is not Eguchi Shigeru's son, it doesn't matter. Today's conversation will definitely get out, and it will definitely attract the other party's real son to take the initiative to find out about this matter.
The reason why Shigeru Eguchi went undercover at GSS is confidential, but if you look carefully, it is not difficult to find the answer.
After understanding what really happened, you will find that he was deliberately confusing right and wrong, and had treated the undercover agent as a pawn.
Under one's deliberate guidance, there is a 70% chance that the other party will take action.
It turns out that…
Dazai Osamu guessed right.
PortMafia's armory began to come under attack a few days later, and it was easy to tell who did it.
He took the initiative to take over the investigation task from Mori Ogai, and proposed to go to Kamado Miru's armory to confirm his guess.
Kojima Haruki was not there, and Dazai Osamu discovered this fact after a simple observation.
The plan went so smoothly that it became a bit boring.
really……
Except for Shen Du Jianliu, these people are easy to guess and will take the bait as soon as you throw it.
This world that is easy to see through cannot arouse one's nostalgia at all, and human nature cannot stand the test at any time.
Fortunately, he will soon know the answer he wants to know.
Dazai Osamu deliberately allowed himself to be captured by Kojima Haruki, pretending to be knocked unconscious by hypnotic gas, and allowed Kojima to tie him up and take him to the second floor of the church, where he stayed alone in a quiet and empty room.
Quietly waiting for Shendujianliu to come.
He said in advance that he was going to Armory No. 5, and with the other party's ability, it was easy to see that there was something wrong.
The other party will definitely come to the church to save me.
This matter seemed to be led by Haruki Kojima, but in fact it was Dazai Osamu who took advantage of the other party.
He wanted to see whether Kamado Miru would flee with Eguchi Shigeru's son or kill him, a member of the port mafia, in this situation of choosing between two options...
Or choose to save him and continue to stay in Hong Kong underworld.
This also means that the other party's extensive salvation has been conflicted. At the same time, it is also testing whether Shen Du Jianliu will care about those who have already been redeemed.
What the other party will choose between the two will determine his future views and attitudes towards the white-haired boy.
Of course, Dazai Osamu did not design any major events. What he really designed was himself.
He had been longing for death, and if Shen Du really chose to kill him, then it would be perfect for him, as he no longer had any attachment to this world, and he could directly get the death he wanted.
…
Dazai Osamu missed only one step.
When the gun in his hand was knocked away by Shen Du Jianliu, his fast-moving brain instantly realized what the other party wanted to do.
"Wait...see you, Ryu-kun."
He tried to stop the other party and tried his best to sound calm.
But time waits for no one, and all of Shen Du Jianliu's actions were too fast.
"I killed Sasaki. I'm sorry."
When the white-haired boy said this, Haruki Kojima who was standing next to him undoubtedly had a blank expression.
He seemed to want to understand something, but he couldn't wrap his mind around it for a short while.
This also caused the opponent to be unable to react to Shen Du Jianliu's next move.
"Bang--"
The moment the silenced gunshot rang out, Dazai Osamu removed the handcuffs from his wrists without any hesitation, and threw aside the things that seemed to be tied tightly to his body but could actually be easily removed with his clever brain.
He supported himself on the railing not far away with one hand, then turned over and jumped down from the second floor.
However--
What meets the eye is a sea of red.
The boy, whose skin was already pale, had lost his life at this point, with only the last few seconds of his heartbeat remaining.
Dazai Osamu couldn't feel his own breathing.
The church, which had just been echoing with sound, was now eerily silent.
The bandaged black-haired boy walked over in a daze. He wanted to touch the other person, so he held onto Shen Du Jian Liu's shoulders and sat up from the cold ground...
But his arms seemed to be shaking and he had little strength.
Something is lost forever at this moment.
He finally helped the other person up, half-knelt on the ground, looked down at the pale-skinned boy with closed eyes, and said nothing.
Dazai Osamu wanted to say something, but he couldn't open his mouth at all, so he could only keep doing this...
Let the other person gradually lose their warmth in your arms.
From now on, no one will come to save him again and again.
***
On this day, Dazai Osamu lost his friend forever.
He is one of the few, the third one besides Oda Sakunosuke and Sakaguchi Ango.
He is also the only one who has taken that step towards him and constantly tried to pull him out of the darkness...the most special friend.
He killed the other person with his own hands.
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