Chapter 119 Chapter 119 "I never doubted your love...
"I never doubt that you love me, and I never doubt any word you say, including your heart, but sometimes I also feel strange," Li Hanshuang looked at Li Baili and sneered. Maybe he didn't mean to sneer, but the muscles on his face showed it. He was cold and a little mean, and his tone was full of doubt, as if he was going to draw his sword at the next moment. "They hate me so much but they like you. If one day, they knew that we are exactly the same, actually one, would they hate you as much as they hate me?"
"I don't doubt that they hate me," Li Hanshuang's smile gradually widened, and he looked a little crazy, and he didn't restrain himself at all. There was no one else here, so he didn't care what he wanted to do. There was no need to restrain himself, so he was unbridled and almost unscrupulous. "But if they hate you as much as they hate me, I'll be a little sad, because I don't want you to be hated by others."
Li Hanshuang tilted his head and raised his eyebrows slightly. The shadows cast a thick black color under his eyes, so that his face looked like an evil skull. Only his originally dark eyes flashed a faint light in the dark shadows, like a mouse's tail flashing in the corner.
He still stared at Li Baili, very close to her, trying to see clearly every change on that face, as if he was going to die in the next moment, reluctant to let her go, with a mixture of love and hate.
Originally there was only love, but later it wasn't. Although he didn't want to admit it, he sometimes hated Li Baili. It wasn't because Li Baili stabbed him with a sword. He didn't care about that.
"You said," Li Hanshuang laughed uncontrollably, his eyes bent, still with a scrutinizing look in them. The light completely disappeared, leaving only darkness, like the endless deep sea, oppressive cold, without a single light, never able to touch the sun, but with countless deaths. His voice seemed cold and leisurely, wrapped in a gust of cold wind, "We are obviously the same, why do they like you and hate me? Because you can pretend? But you are not like that! Fake is fake."
He paused, as if his throat was blocked by a piece of ice. Tears flashed in his eyes, and his eye sockets turned slightly red. But he quickly blinked and swallowed the ice. But his tone became even colder, so cold that people shivered all over, like a ghost with an ice-covered corpse crawling out of the water, trying to find a substitute: "I don't have any opinion about you. I don't want to pretend. I do whatever I want. So it's normal to be hated. You want it to be like this, and they want to like you. I can't control it. I should be happy, but when I see them next to you, I feel like something is missing."
Li Baili just looked at him calmly, with the corners of her lips slightly raised, like a mural hanging on an ancient monument, her eyes were full of pity and compassion. It cannot be said that she had no feelings, because all her feelings were here, but it cannot be said that she had feelings, because what he gave was different from what Li Hanshuang asked for.
"But why," Li Hanshuang frowned and looked at him, like a white rabbit worshipping the moon on the grass, like a believer worshipping God in front of incense, like an executioner wiping his knife by the clear water. There was confusion in his eyes, and a little trance of prayer. His face seemed to be crying and laughing. His voice was light and weak, and he asked tremblingly, "They can be with you openly, but I can't? Why do I feel that you are not sad at all? Are your tears here with me?"
Li Hanshuang closed her eyes, tears rolling out one by one, like the white bones overturned in a desolate grave. Suddenly she laughed: "Since I don't want to act and can't act, then I won't act. I'm not acting anymore, so why should I walk away? Why is it so difficult to get close to myself?"
He suddenly opened his eyes, tears blurred his vision, and his pupils dilated, bringing in a little bit of scattered light. Li Baili could clearly see that his pupils were trembling, just like his voice.
Tears fell one after another, and a whimper escaped from Li Hanshuang's throat. Like a leopard wet by water, he lowered his head.
Li Baili wiped his tears, held his face, and frowned for a moment, empathizing with his sadness. But then she put on a compassionate smile and asked in a low voice, "Is it because of me?
You should know in your heart that if you don't come to me, it's because you don't want to, not because I don't want to. I have always loved you because it's really hard for me to do anything too extreme, isn't it? "
Li Hanshuang could hardly stop crying, but when he heard what Li Baili said, he still smiled, but it was a miserable smile, not like he was happy. It was like he had finally cut his enemy into pieces before his soul flew away, so he was satisfied.
He looked at Li Baili again and again with his soft, moist and trembling pupils, like a lame cat looking at its master pitifully, afraid that he would leave. He was reluctant to look away, yet felt heartbroken and held Li Baili tightly.
His hands were shaking as much as his pupils, so much so that Li Baili's clothes were almost torn off by him, but neither of them cared about it.
"You won't tell me," Li Baili narrowed her eyes, as if she wanted to see into Li Hanshuang's heart through his eyes, and asked with a half-smile, "You hate me, don't you?"
Li Baili lowered her eyes, the soft look on her face gradually disappeared, her voice was as cold as snow in winter: "If this is the case -"
Then I have nothing to say.
Li Hanshuang didn't answer for a while, but just refused to let go. After a long while, he blinked and said in a weak, dying voice: "I really hope to be with you forever."
A hot tear fell on the back of Li Baili's hand.
Li Baili admitted that she was scalded.
He was silent for a while, then smiled and said, "I know."
Li Hanshuang looked at Li Baili, and Li Baili looked into his eyes and said word by word: "I understand."
Li Hanshuang forced a smile, hugged Li Baili, and remained silent for a long time.
After that, he stopped crying and let go of Li Baili. Li Baili changed her clothes slowly, glanced at him, and found him sitting next to her, wiping his face, and smiled secretly.
Li Hanshuang noticed it and turned to look over. Li Baihe restrained her smile and pretended not to know why he was looking over and asked, "What's wrong?"
"Let me help you put it on!" Li Hanshuang stood up and approached Li Baili.
Li Baili threw the thing in her hand at his face: "Forget it! Wipe your face! Be careful when you get out, or people will think you got beaten up in there!"
"It's not certain who will be beaten." Li Hanshuang took the thing, looked at Li Baili, his eyes fell on his fingertips, and said with a smile.
Li Baili saw the red tooth marks on her fingers, raised her hand and looked at it, then said with an ambiguous smile, "Indeed."
Li Hanshuang threw back the thing he had just caught: "Put on your clothes!"
Li Baili smiled and continued, "Oh my, it's only been a short while, don't you want to see me anymore?"
He put on his clothes while talking. After he was dressed, he walked towards Li Hanshuang, stood beside him, bent down and asked, "Do you look normal?"
Li Hanshuang looked at him, smiled and smoothed his collar: "Okay."
After taking his hand back, Li Hanshuang took another look and said, "Anyway, I can't see what's there."
"That's nothing!" Li Baili smiled.
At the same time, Yang Yushu, who couldn't wait any longer, knocked on the door and shouted, "Are you okay? Speak!"
The system shouted, "A third crack is about to appear outside! I'm afraid one of you will have to jump in! If we kill them outside instead of inside, the situation will definitely be more serious!"
"Will the situation be better if we kill them inside?" Li Hanshuang asked with a raised eyebrow.
"I have loaded a small program," the system said hastily, "If I jump in now, I can use the program to collect the information inside. Once I have enough information, I can get a formation to deal with the gap.
You just need to set up the formation inside and make sure it works. I can transfer you out when it works. After that, the gap you entered through will be safe! It will be much better outside too!"
"That sounds good." Li Hanshuang glanced at Li Baihe and asked, "Are you going or should I go?"
Li Baili thought about it, and Li Hanshuang smiled slightly: "I can go. Anyway, I have fallen out with them, so there is no need to stay. However, I can't leave empty-handed."
Li Baili opened her eyes, looked at Li Hanshuang and asked, "What do you want?"
Li Hanshuang lowered his eyes, sneered, and pointed at his heart: "I want this. I don't want to take anything else with me, but I want to take this with me. Seeing something reminds me of someone."
Although most people wouldn't want something like this, what does that have to do with him? He wants it. He can't just bear it, right? That would be too miserable!
Li Hanshuang raised his eyes and looked at Li Baili, revealing a gritted teeth smile. It was hard to tell whether it was more hatred or love, but there was no doubt that he had to have her.
Li Baili was a little surprised, but she didn't find it strange. She smiled and said, "If you want it, it's not impossible to give it to you. What's the difference between us anyway?"
As he spoke, he unbuttoned the clothes he had just put on, revealing a flat chest. He waved to Li Hanshuang, and Li Hanshuang handed him the sword he had wiped clean and placed it in his hand.
He took Li Hanshuang's sword, cut open his heart, and took out the still beating bright red heart. It must be said that, whether for Li Hanshuang or Li Baili, this thing, even though it was bloody, looked delicious.
The two of them raised their eyebrows at the same time, then looked at each other and couldn't help laughing.
Li Baili handed the heart to Li Hanshuang with one hand, and also returned the sword to him, looking at him gently: "Take it."
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