Chapter 389 Let It Go and Look Forward
"Although I really want to, I probably can't." Gu Nan said.
It's a shame to die in a world that hates you.
Junyi didn't know what to say, so she hugged Gu Nan tightly.
Gu Nan put his arm around his waist and patted him gently on the back, "Tomorrow..."
The door suddenly opened, and someone hurried in. He quickly closed the door and asked in a low voice, "Where are you going?"
Gu Nan was a little angry and sighed, "Cui Shao, you are eavesdropping on me."
She hates being monitored the most. How could this happen?
"I've programmed the robot with special trigger verbs." Cui Shao quickly walked to the bedside and insisted on his previous question, but his tone was too urgent and a bit aggressive: "Where are you going? Where is your home?"
Gu Nan didn't have the energy to form a tactful wording, so he said, "You'll know tomorrow."
Cui Shao was silent for two seconds, then took a deep, rapid breath, sounding like he was taking a deep breath to calm himself down. "Gu Nansheng, don't be so self-righteous as to think you can help me. I don't need you to die in such a hurry."
Gu Nan turned around and said, "I didn't do this for you, I did this for myself."
"If not for me, then for them." Cui Shao's breathing quickened, his chest rising and falling. "Why can't you think about yourself and try to live on?"
"I can't survive anymore." Gu Nan replied calmly.
Cui Shao lowered his voice, "Then tell me where you are going and how many years it will take, and I will come find you."
Cui Shao, like everyone else who wanted to know the secret, felt that she did have the ability to come back to life, and that leaving meant she wanted to change her body.
But Gu Nan didn't have that. If she really had the ability to come back to life, she would have escaped long ago.
Instead of rotting away bit by bit on the bed like a piece of rotten meat, he relied entirely on Cui Shao and Chunyi to keep him alive.
If two people are talking at cross purposes, no matter how much they argue, there will be no result.
Gu Nan pondered whether it would be more cruel to tell him the truth directly or to let him wait with hopeless expectations. He switched words over and over, and in the end, he only said one sentence, "Cui Shao, let it go and move on."
Cui Shao was stunned at first, then he took a big step forward, leaned over the bed and stared at Gu Nan: "What do you mean? You don't plan to come back? You don't even want Lin Jingchun and Qi Yan anymore?"
Gu Nan couldn't cope with it and repeated, "Cui Shao, let it go."
Cui Shao was unwilling to receive such a reply, but the tiredness in Gu Nan's tone hit him hard.
It was obvious that she didn't want him to know her plan and was tired of his relentless pursuit.
She was determined to leave, and she didn't want anyone to disturb her except Junyi.
Cui Shao lost his temper and knelt on one knee beside the bed. His voice was a little shaky due to his lack of confidence. "Why? Is it because I didn't do well? Are you unhappy?"
Gu Nan was distracted by this question. Not long ago, Junyi had asked her the same question.
Her answer was: You are good and I am happy too, but there is something I have to do.
But this time, she said, "I'm not happy. I don't like this world. I want to leave."
Her tone was more resolute than ever before. Even though her voice was weak and her chest was wheezing, she still spoke with a decisive tone.
She is leaving.
Lin Jingchun doesn't want it anymore, and Qi Yan doesn't want it either.
She wants to leave everything behind and leave here forever.
Cui Shao stared at Gu Nan blankly, looking at her with a strange look, as if he didn't know when she became so pessimistic and desperate.
In his impression, Gu Nan is the first forsythia in early spring, the most attractive tree in midsummer, the hibiscus in autumn, and the green pine in the snow. He loves wind and rain, is free and passionate, always upright and always high-spirited.
She shouldn't look so lifeless and full of resentment.
Did the disease destroy her vitality?
Is it this dirty world that disgusts her?
Why not.
She was miserable and out of tune with the world.
For her, dragging a genetically broken body to survive was like a torture of slow slicing.
The brighter the flame, the faster it will go out.
When the water is full, it overflows; when the moon waxes, it wanes; this is the law of nature.
She doesn't belong here, she was supposed to leave.
Cui Shao knelt on the ground, exhausted, his voice almost inaudible, "I don't like this world either."
Changes are as fast as...
“It feels fake.”
In just ten years, everything has changed beyond recognition.
Gu Nan's hearing had clearly deteriorated a lot, but at this moment he could still clearly hear Cui Shao's almost inaudible murmur.
Gu Nan was shocked and stared at Cui Shao.
His gentle face seemed to be shrouded in thick fog, a hazy blank.
He also didn't like this world. Even though he stood at the pinnacle of wealth and power, a giant controlling the direction of social development, he still said that this world seemed fake.
It is indeed fake. This world was made up by the creator at random. The process of social development goes against common sense and is so fast that it seems to be running at ten times the speed.
He has an extraordinary intuition.
But this intuition didn't seem to be a good thing for him.
It is difficult to sink again after awakening. The most painful thing is to be the most sober.
There seemed to be a flash of light in my peripheral vision.
Gu Nan turned his head to look, but saw nothing.
Her eyesight is not very good either. Like an elderly person, she has difficulty seeing everything.
All his stored energy was exhausted, and Gu Nan was too tired to worry about it and put it out of his mind.
Perhaps it was just the glare from further vision loss.
She tilted her head and fell into a deep sleep, but woke up in the middle of the night and suddenly remembered the strange light.
The slightest movement from her made Junyi sober up, "What's wrong?"
Gu Nan pointed at the bedside table and said, "When Cui Shao was talking, something seemed to flash there."
Chunyi frowned, and with a slight twitch of his five fingers in the air, the bedside table began to float. With another twitch, the exquisite bedside table shattered into pieces.
But upon closer inspection, there was nothing but a pile of wood chips.
"Nothing unusual." Junyi said, and lifted up the sofa and table not far away, but after checking, he still found nothing wrong.
Junyi wanted to continue smashing the windows and walls, and was about to tear down the house, but Gu Nan stopped him and said, "I must have seen it wrong."
She sat up from Junyi's arms, and for once she didn't feel the tiredness and exhaustion she had felt before. Her soft hands and feet seemed to be filled with strength in an instant.
I glanced at the time and it was already past midnight, the new year had arrived.
"Let's go to the cliff." Gu Nan said to Chunyi.
"Bang!"
The floor lamp floating in the air was smashed to pieces.
Junyi was like a robot that suddenly malfunctioned, frozen in place and motionless.
This villa has a backyard with a small glass plank road at the end of the yard. Below the plank road is a small cliff several meters high. From there, you can overlook a large area of Kyoto city. The scenery is very beautiful.
Gu Nan planned to end his life there.
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