Chapter 48 Never Let Go
Gu Nan is soft-hearted and does not respond to harsh treatment.
It is undeniable that when Lin Layue gave in, her heart also softened.
But reason is stronger than this pitiful softness, and it suppressed the softness in less than a second.
She always remembered her situation and identity. She could talk about love and hug Lin Layue, but she could never get married.
She comforted him, "We are still very young, and no one can predict what will happen in the future. When we reach the legal age for marriage, if we are still together, I will tell you the answer."
This answer finally sounded more genuine. Lin Layue smiled, her peach blossom eyes full of affection and longing. She hugged her tightly and said, "I won't let go."
Gu Nan laughed and said irresponsibly, "I will be very sad if you let go."
Lin Layue was very serious, and her expression became serious and depressed. "I would be very sad if you let me go."
The serious and persistent true love in this world is always very touching, and Gu Nan was lucky to be favored.
She raised her head and kissed Lin Layue gently without any lust, "Then neither of us will let go."
Lin Layue kissed back, her words vague, "I will never let go even if I die."
Although they knew they could do nothing, they still kissed and hugged each other until midnight. They had to work the next day, and staying up late would be too harmful to their health. So they calmed down and fell asleep in each other's arms.
The next day, Gu Nan continued to stay at home playing games to gain experience points, Lin Layue went to work in the restaurant, and Yu Qianqian and the other two followed the agent to look at houses.
In the afternoon, the three girls came back sweating and told Gu Nan that they had found a house they had chosen.
It's a two-bedroom apartment, ready for move-in. It's across the street from Gu Nan's community, only a ten-minute walk away. The location is better than here, so the rent is correspondingly more expensive, but the pressure will be much less if two people share it.
After contacting his relatives, Cen Xiu finally decided to go south to work in the factory. He has already bought a train ticket and will depart tomorrow morning.
Before coming back, she went to the market to buy meat and vegetables, saying that she would cook for herself to thank Gu Nan and Lin Layue for staying with her.
So when Lin Layue came back, the kitchen was already bustling with activity. The soup on the stove was bubbling loudly, and the room was filled with the delicious aroma of corn and pork ribs soup.
"Qianqian and the others are moving out tomorrow. When are we going to pick up Jingzhe and bring him into the city?" Gu Nan asked.
Lin Layue was also thinking about this problem. He really wanted to take his younger brother to his side to take care of him. It would be easy for him to have an accident if he was alone in the countryside, but his current job was not improving and he did not have much savings in his pocket. In the city, food, drink, and toileting all cost money. He could not always rely on Gu Nan for free food and drag her down to take care of his younger brother.
The sense of urgency caused by financial constraints is growing stronger and stronger, but I am struggling to find a way out, and even when I occasionally come across a suitable job opportunity, I don’t have the time.
He was a little anxious, but there was nothing he could do. "Wait a little longer."
"Are you worried about money?" Gu Nan asked in a low voice.
Lin Layue lowered her eyes, and although she felt a little embarrassed, she still said honestly: "Yeah."
Gu Nan took his hand and walked to the balcony. The evening sun was brilliant and dreamy. The evening breeze gradually rose, and the air was full of mixed flavors, all of which were the flavors of life.
Gu Nan leaned on the railing, with the sky like a canvas behind her. The dazzling light embellished her figure, and the hot breeze caressed her long hair, gently and warmly.
"Tell me about Jingzhe's condition. How is his health? Does he need to take medicine?"
Lin Layue, like Gu Nan, leaned against the railing, shoulder to shoulder, and whispered, "A year ago, his left leg was broken. When he was taken to the hospital, it couldn't be saved, so it had to be amputated. He has hypoglycemia and doesn't need medication, but it's easy for him to have an accident when he's alone."
"Did he break his leg due to hypoglycemia?"
Lin Layue lowered her head and said guiltily, "He broke his leg just to earn money for my tuition."
Gu Nan was stunned and looked at him sideways.
His dark and deep eyes were dim, and the sadness and self-blame in them seemed to have solidified and flowed out. It was the first time she saw him look so sad.
He stared blankly at a certain spot in the air. "My father died in a car accident when I was ten. My mother was the only one who supported my brother and me in school. Life was very difficult. After I started high school, she could no longer afford both tuition and living expenses..."
He is only one year older than Lin Jingzhe, but he started school two years earlier than him. He was 18 years old and in his third year of high school, while Lin Jingzhe was 17 years old and in his first year of high school. Moreover, his grades were better than Lin Jingzhe's, and he would take the college entrance examination in one semester. Therefore, no matter from the perspective of investment or prospects, letting him continue studying and taking the college entrance examination would be the option with less loss.
Lin Jingzhe dropped out of school as expected. The next day, his mother used her connections to get a relative to take him to a construction site as an apprentice.
The apprentice's work is very miscellaneous and fragmented, and he has to work from morning to night without stopping, but the salary is very low, only more than 3,000 yuan per month.
Lin Jingzhe had been working for two months when it was almost the end of the year. All the people working outside would go home for the New Year. He also went home and brought back a salary of 7,000 yuan.
Mother Lin took five thousand and gave the remaining two thousand to Lin Layue, which was his transportation and living expenses for the second semester of his senior year in high school.
They cleaned the house, bought meat and vegetables, and chose couplets. The whole family thought they could have a relaxing and happy New Year.
But things went against her wishes. On the day of the Little New Year, Mother Lin suddenly vomited blood and fainted. She was taken to a clinic, but the clinic refused to admit her. She was then sent to the hospital, where examination results showed she had advanced gastric cancer. The cancer cells had spread widely, and no treatment could save her.
The shadow of death mercilessly enveloped this fragile little family and also shattered her last bit of sanity.
Years of hard work and perseverance were shattered by illness. She tried her best to raise two children, but God made her fall in the last few steps.
The approach of death made her silent, and the pain like a landslide made her extreme and irritable. She could no longer treat anyone calmly, not even her children.
That year, the newly bought couplets were not used, and the meat dishes prepared in advance were tasteless. The joy of others had nothing to do with them. The house was dead silent, cold and desperate.
After the New Year, Lin Jingzhe returned to work at the construction site, and Lin Layue went to school, but his academic performance was not good and his test scores were not ideal.
After the last mock exam in May, Lin Layue and Lin Jingzhe were called back home.
Mother Lin was tortured by illness and became emaciated. She was as thin as a skeleton, with a pair of cloudy eyeballs embedded in her deep eye sockets. The brief last breath of light made her eyes look terrifying and sad.
She knew her life was coming to an end, so she called her two sons to her bedside to tell them about her final arrangements.
Her face was pale and gray, her dry gray hair stuck to her sweaty face, she was spitting blood from her mouth, and she was coughing so hard that she felt like she was about to vomit out her heart, liver, spleen, and lungs.
She held her son's hand tightly, her long nails pinching his wrist until it bled, but she didn't want to let go, and didn't want to leave this cruel world unwillingly.
She wanted her son to keep vigil for her for seven days before burying her. Even if she rotted and smelled bad, she wanted her to stay in this world for two more days.
She died, but she was not liberated.
Her children continued her dying pain.
Continue read on readnovelmtl.com
