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Lu Zisheng's outstretched arms were stuck in mid-air, with a puzzled look on his face: "What's wrong?"
"Go and hug Chen Yu."
Lu Zisheng did as he was told, but Chen Yu hid far away and he realized it only later.
"Damn it! Gao Li Gouyang, if you don't want a brotherly hug, just say it straight out. Why are you beating around the bush like this? Are you still playing around?"
Chen Yu patted Lu Zisheng and pursed his lips: "Keep some distance, it's good for everyone."
"Chen Yu! I haven't settled the score with you yet. Didn't you take your medicine this morning?"
"What medicine? Chen Yu, what's wrong with you?" Gao Liyang looked at Chen Yu. This brother was so fragile.
"No, it's a Chinese medicine for conditioning the body. The treatment course is quite long. I only missed it this morning. I was too sleepy and overslept and forgot. Do you have a dog nose?"
"Tsk! Your deskmate and I have been marinated by the smell of medicine on you. If you don't drink it once, the taste will fade. What do you think?"
"I'm not in a hurry, why are you in a hurry?"
Gao Liyang thought of a sentence: "Chen Yu, this is called the emperor is not anxious, but the eunuch is anxious."
"Damn! You two, one playing the good cop and the other playing the bad cop, it's really interesting!" Lu Zisheng rolled his eyes. He would never tell Chen Yu the truth.
"It's just right that you're back. I'll leave Miss Xiao's flowers to you. I'm really tired. I'll give you the key when I get home."
"Didn't she say she gave it to you?"
Lu Zisheng sneered, his hands on his hips. "What do you call that? Miss Xiao has a plan. I knew you would say that. Even though you were injured and not there at the time, and you didn't see her off, she won't forget you. She said you promised her, and you're not allowed to go back on your word."
"Let me tell you, she even bought you allergy medicine, a mask, and gloves. They're all at her house."
"Hahaha!"
"What are you laughing at, Gao Yuanyuan?" Lu Zisheng was feeling proud of having defeated Gao Liyang, and some people were laughing.
"funny!"
Lu Zisheng pursed his lips and said, "Stop laughing, stop laughing. What's so funny? Gougouyang, you can't run away. Go back and be a bricklayer!"
Gao Liyang knew at a glance that Lu Zisheng was eager to get rid of his job, and he must have exploded many times while helping Xiao Xiaoyu with the flowers.
"I understand. Please step back. Those who are not from my group must have different intentions."
"Oh, who wants to come to your Class 12? Someone doesn't know, there was a fight in your class two days ago, and the girl was making a fuss. "Then let me try it!" Gao Liyang threw away the lid and drank directly from the paper cup. It was still warm, just right.
"Tsk! It's still as hard to drink as before. It makes me quickly regain the feeling I had before." The bricklayer, who was holding back the urge to slap him to death, cried, "Oh my god, the whole grade knows about this. It's so embarrassing. Tsk tsk,"
"What's the matter?" Gao Liyang lowered his voice and turned his chair over to move closer to Zhou Xi.
"I'll tell you when I have time."
After Chen Yu finished speaking, he felt that Class 12 had become much quieter. He felt as if a cold knife was flying towards him, so he quickly pulled Lu Zisheng and said, "Let's go!"
"Why are you leaving? I haven't finished talking yet!" Lu Zisheng pushed Chen Yu away and grabbed his arm.
"Then I'll go first." Chen Yu shook his head, turned around and left.
"Are you really leaving? Why are you in such a hurry? Class won't start until a while." Lu Zisheng saw Chen Yu taking big steps and disappearing in an instant. "Okay, okay, I'm leaving too. See you at noon!"
Lu Zisheng greeted Zhou Xi and turned around to find that the door was slammed shut. A group of people had murderous looks on their faces, smiling but hiding knives, and were ready to punch him.
"Holy shit?"
“Oh my god!”
"Brother, what did you just say?"
"What's with the women making a scene and the men crying? What's shameful? What's rare? Then why are you standing here now?"
Lu Zisheng blinked, not showing any fear at all. He showed off his aura and said in a tone that was asking for a beating: "That's right, your class..."
“Hey hey hey!”
"Wait a moment!"
"No, you guys don't have martial ethics!"
"Wait a minute, don't hit someone in the face..."
“Oh my god…”
Zhou Xi and others did not intend to go up to help Lu Zisheng, but sat aside and watched the show.
"Zhou Xi, I think, sometimes, our class is still very united, right?"
"Against foreign enemies, of course."
"Oh my, Lu Zisheng has really pissed everyone off this time. Tsk, he deserves a beating. He deserves it. He doesn't know the situation when he speaks and he's even trying to provoke people in the enemy camp. I don't think he'll be allowed in anymore."
"Hey, Zhou Xi, tell me what's going on?"
"Wait a minute, let's finish the fight first."
"No one can stop me from listening to gossip. Tell whoever it is!"
"Senior!"
On his way back to the classroom to get something after dinner, Zhou Xi passed by Mingxiang Lake and unexpectedly ran into Wu Yi, the center of gossip a few days ago.
"Ah, junior sister, how did you recognize me?" Wu Yi was wearing a mask and thought no one would recognize her.
"Put this tabby cat pendant on your bag."
Wu Yi's bloodshot eyes showed surprise, but soon a smile appeared on his face hidden under the mask: "I was careless. Yes, I showed off this pendant to you before, so of course you recognized it."
"Senior, you..."
"Ah, you know, it was me the other day. I was too tired and my emotions were out of control. Junior sister, would you be willing to do me a favor? I'm a little exhausted now."
"good."
When Zhou Xi stepped into the senior high school building for the first time, her first impression was completely different from that of the freshman year building. It was covered with motivational posters and signs of various universities. An electronic countdown display screen hung right above the hall, creating an oppressive feeling that made people feel uncomfortable.
Wu Yi saw the red countdown of 38 days, and without any reluctance, she took Zhou Xi into the classroom. There were still many people studying in the classroom, with their heads down. There was only the occasional sound of flipping pages of books, and no one noticed their presence at all.
"Junior sister, please help me get it." Wu Yi picked out the math test paper and exercise book, and took away a withered small potted plant on the table.
Zhou Xi stood in the aisle piled with things, quickly glanced at the crowded and suffocating classroom, and hugged the heavy books in his arms.
"good."
It was different from what she remembered when she came to see Yang Jinyang. She remembered that it was not like that at that time. Everyone was not under so much pressure, and the classroom was not as boring as it is now with piles of books. It was because she was too young at that time and did not notice it at all, or it was because it was too far away for her and she could not understand what the college entrance examination meant.
"Xiaoxuemei, do you still have time?"
"Yes, what's wrong?"
"Come with me to a place. I want to chat with you too."
"good."
Under the setting sun, the shadows of the two people were stretched very long. Wu Yi took Zhou Xi around Mingxiang Lake, crossed the playground, and came to the school garbage dump.
The weather was hot and the garbage dump smelled terrible and was still emitting residual heat. Wu Yi stared at the flies all over the ground for a long time, then lowered his head to look at the test paper full of formulas. Finally, he sighed and threw everything in his and Zhou Xi's hands, including the withered potted plant, into the garbage dump.
"Senior, why don't you want them anymore?"
Zhou Xi couldn't understand Wu Yi's every move, but she could accept such behavior, as if throwing away test papers and exercise books was normal, as she had done it before.
Wu Yi did not answer her and was pulled away from the garbage dump by Wu Yi. When Zhou Xi turned around for the last time, she saw flies surrounding the things that were originally well protected by their owners. The buzzing sound they made seemed like a horn of victory.
Wu Yi found a deserted spot, pulled Zhou Xi to sit on the lawn, and took off his mask. "Xiaoxuemei, you know, in their eyes now, I must be a lunatic, a lunatic who went crazy at such an important time as the college entrance examination."
Zhou Xi wrapped his hands around his knees, startled. Wu Yi looked extremely haggard, with dull eyes, a slightly swollen face, pale lips, dry and flaky skin, and a chin that was even sharper than the last time they saw each other.
"Senior, are you feeling unwell?"
"No, I'm just tired and can't study anymore. Junior sister, I'm really tired."
"Would you like to hear me tell you..."
"Um."
"I can't stand not being able to solve problems. My mother has been pushing me to study Mathematical Olympiads since I was a child, and I didn't let her down. I showed so-called talent and won countless awards. However, the higher I stand, the more I realize that I am just relatively smart, not talented. In the face of absolute talent, intelligence and hard work are worthless."
Zhou Xi found that Wu Yi's face became transparent under the blood-red setting sun, as if it was fragile and could be blown away by the wind at any time.
Wu Yi has set the goal of learning Olympiad mathematics since she was young. She likes to think, enjoys the process of solving problems, and is even more obsessed with the joy she feels at the moment of solving a problem, which cannot be replaced or surpassed by anything else.
When she entered high school, in order to get into a better university, her parents began to stop her from devoting herself to studying Olympiad mathematics, and required her to treat every subject fairly. She couldn't do it because her heart was really small, so small that it could only accommodate Olympiad mathematics and nothing else.
But reality dealt her the most fatal blow. She could not solve more and more problems, which seemed simple to her peers who were studying Mathematical Olympiad, but she needed to spend more time thinking before getting a vague answer, or even had no idea where to start.
No, no, no, how could she? She couldn't bear it. She was gifted. While she was deceiving herself, she clearly saw that the tower of her ideals was crumbling. She couldn't save it. The real collapse was the accumulation of countless failures. Finally, a small failure caused it to explode.
Some people said that she was sick, and many people said that to her, including her parents and friends, but how could they understand this feeling? She was like a drowning person, clinging to the last life-saving straw, and kept deceiving herself that it was okay. As a result, she was drowning deeper and deeper. The moment she couldn't breathe, she suddenly realized that she couldn't get ashore at all. She was just deceiving herself.
She discovered this secret very early. During a math Olympiad competition when she was ten years old, she met a truly talented person. As expected, she was completely defeated. She refused to believe it and continued to pursue knowledge. Yes, she received praise. The young are indeed formidable.
She had been hiding this secret, trying not to be discovered, carefully maintaining the aura of a gifted child, searching for the ease she had as a child, but it was gone. She began to panic. The number of problems she couldn't solve kept increasing, and more and more people began to question her. As people began to identify those with greater potential, she was gradually being eroded by mediocrity.
She refused to believe it. Could it be that she really couldn't make it on this path to Mathematical Olympiads? She frantically practiced exercises, begged teachers for guidance, and constantly searched for books, learning ever more profound and obscure formulas. But she found it was all in vain. She truly had no talent, and she simply couldn't make it...
It collapsed, it collapsed, the dust that rose up buried her. She couldn't struggle, she could only accept it. She wanted to escape, but she couldn't bear it...
"Xiaoxuemei, you know, when I saw you take first place with such a calm face, I was jealous. I used to be like that too, easily winning the highest honor, but now I can't do that anymore."
Wu Yi began to choke, tears wet her eyelashes, and she tasted something salty.
"This feels like a god fallen from the altar, reduced to a mortal. Now everyone is asking me to stop, all for my own good. How kind! But why did they praise me so highly from the beginning? Why! Why!"
Zhou Xi stiffly reached out and hugged Wu Yi, gently patting her back.
The reason why the flower on the top of a mountain is the flower on the top of a mountain is that others have praised that person to that height.
"I really, really crave that feeling. Ahem, why, why am I not that talented person that everyone envies? I really, really like Mathematical Olympiads. I don't like anything else. I only like Mathematical Olympiads. Why don't you even give me a chance?"
"ah!"
"Why!"
"Why!"
“It’s not fair!”
“Cough cough cough!”
Zhou Xi couldn't hold back anymore as Wu Yi talked. She was on the verge of collapse, crying breathlessly, her sobs were heartbreaking.
"Senior, you are not crazy, you are just a devout fan of the Mathematical Olympiad. The journey is long. Maybe you can't reach the end, but you can help others reach the end. Your love for the Mathematical Olympiad will always, never change."
Wu Yi closed her eyes and felt the pain from her heart. It was beating strongly, but it seemed as if it would jump out in the next second. Her throat was stuck. She really had no strength, was really tired, and wanted to leave.
"Sister, I'm really tired, so tired, I want to rest..."
Zhou Xi let go of Wu Yi and helped her wipe away her tears. Seeing that her eyes were dead, he made up his mind and reached out his hand.
"Senior, does it hurt?"
Five clear palm prints appeared on Wu Yi's cheeks. His ears buzzed and his eyes rolled around. "It hurts."
"It's normal to feel pain. If you still feel pain, then are you really willing to give up your life? You are only 18 years old, in the prime of your life. Why can't you try your best to live? Many people want to live but can't. You have a healthy body and a normal IQ, so why do you give up? Do you really want to be a coward?"
Wu Yi stared at Zhou Xi in a daze. The girl's eyes were filled with anger, worry, fear, and sadness. It was so vivid. Wu Yi lowered her head, her eyes reddening again. Big tears fell on the back of her hand. It hurt, it really hurt.
"It's just a math Olympiad, it's just the college entrance exam. Life is so long, you'll have a more exciting life in the future. Even without this, you can still live a good life. Senior, you know what? We're choosing subjects, and I chose politics, history, and geography."
"What? You chose politics, history, and geography? W-why? Shouldn't you be..."
Zhou Xi smiled, and the wind blew, bringing the joyful sounds from the playground.
"Yes, in everyone's eyes, I should choose Physics, Chemistry, and Biology, but I don't like it. No one has ever asked me what I like, and they just assumed I should do it. But I still choose to be myself, give myself a chance, and let go of my younger self."
"For example, when I was a kid, my family suggested I learn the piano. I did, but I wasn't happy afterwards. I really wasn't happy, so I gave up. Don't force yourself. So, senior sister, don't force yourself either. Just do your best. A blessing in disguise. Isn't it better to look forward?"
"Really?"
"Give yourself one more chance, you can do it."
"Senior, I read one of your articles. Just like what you wrote, you should become that kind of person. You deserve it. If you are really tired, you can stop and adjust yourself. When you start again, you will be a more fulfilled person, right?"
"Senior, I've given you so much chicken soup, you must be tired of it. I hope you can think about it carefully because of my hard work."
Zhou Xi observed Wu Yi's expression and breathed a sigh of relief. It was the first time she fed someone the chicken soup she had read eight hundred times in a book. Although the chicken soup was very greasy and made her feel like a boy pretending to be a clamp, it was uncomfortable, but it was worth it as long as it worked.
Wu Yi was cold all over and nodded: "Okay."
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