Chapter 104: Monologue

Lin Du thought he would cry bitterly, but he didn't.

Doesn't it hurt? No... it hurts so much that I can't breathe.

But he really couldn't cry, he just thought it was ridiculous.

He has been playing the role of a little clown and showing off to others the false feelings he got from Gu Yanchi.

He bit his lip in self-mockery, not daring to imagine how embarrassed he would be in front of Gu Xinchi. He would probably laugh at his stupidity behind his back.

Lin Du felt a sudden pain in his stomach and clutched the corner of his clothes, trying to control his emotions.

"Lin Du, are you okay?" Chu Xu frowned and asked nervously.

Lin Du's face turned pale, but his heart was unusually calm. He shook his head: "It's okay, don't worry."

The two were silent for a while. Chu Xu didn't expect Lin Du to be so calm after knowing the truth. He thought he would break down and cry, but he didn't shed a single tear.

Seeing Lin Du so calm, Chu Xu was worried about him, "What are you going to do in the future?" Chu Xu's eyes fell on Lin Du's already slightly bulging belly.

Lin Du pursed his lips and forced out a heart-wrenching smile. What else could he do? Did he have any way out?

He had already lost one child, so how could he bear to deprive this child of his life?

The child is ultimately innocent.

Just like Gu Xinchi said, he saved Lin Yue's life and he gave him a child, so they no longer owed each other anything.

Moreover, Lin Yue has not yet fully adapted to her new life. If there are any problems later on, the only one who can help her is Gu Yanchi.

Therefore, there is no way out for me to choose.

"Lin Du?" Chu Xu patted Lin Du's hands. The weather was already very warm, but his hands were unnaturally cold.

"Chu Xu, can you promise me one thing?" After a long silence, Lin Du finally spoke.

"You tell me, I will definitely help you." Chu Xu took Lin Du's hand, "I will support you no matter what you do."

Lin Du grinned gratefully, and Chu Xu felt distressed: "Lin Du, stop smiling, it's ugly."

Lin Du pursed his lips. He didn't want to laugh, but he didn't want to cry even more, so he could only laugh instead.

"Chu Xu, if you want to help me, just delete the recording and pretend nothing happened."

Chu Xu frowned and asked in confusion: "Why? You already know the truth, why do you still want to stay with Gu Penchi and let him abuse you?"

Lin Du clenched his hands, breathing tremblingly: "Do you think he will let me leave now?"

Chu Xu was startled and frowned unwillingly.

"Chu Xu, I have no way out. I can't be so cruel as to hurt my child, and my sister's life is in his hands, so I can't go anywhere."

"But..." Chu Xu clenched his fists in pain, "This is not fair."

Lin Du smiled bitterly: "I have never experienced what fairness is."

"I have a miserable life. I have lived in the mud since I was born. I have struggled for almost 30 years, but in the end, it still ended up the same way."

"Maybe this is fate. I accept it."

"So Chu Xu, please pretend you know nothing, so that I can... can keep some dignity and continue to live."

Chu Xu was so distressed that he had difficulty breathing. He was deeply tormented by this feeling of powerlessness.

I already know the truth, but I have to continue pretending to be ignorant.

"Don't feel sad for me." Lin Du patted Chu Xu's hand. "Didn't Gu Yanchi say that he would let me leave when everything was over, so... I don't think I'm that miserable."

"Lin Du, don't say anymore." Chu Xu covered his face. As an outsider, he felt helpless, let alone Lin Du who was deeply involved.

After bidding farewell to Chu Xu, Lin Du told the two bodyguards behind him that he wanted to take a walk alone.

Lin Du pulled his lips awkwardly when he got no response. He knew that they only listened to Gu Yanchi, and it was their responsibility to follow him.

Lin Du didn't want to embarrass them.

Sitting alone at the bus stop, the people coming and going will not make him look so lonely.

A deep sigh and a huge feeling of powerlessness overwhelmed him. He felt like a broken fallen leaf, tossed by the wind, unable to find where he belonged.

Arriving at the gate of Lin Yue's school, Lin Du really wanted to see her.

"Brother!" Lin Yue saw Lin Du happily waving and running towards him.

Seeing Lin Yue jumping around, Lin Du felt somewhat relieved: "Don't run so fast. Remember the doctor's instructions."

"I missed you so much." Lin Yue hugged Lin Du and acted coquettishly.

Lin Du covered his belly with his hands and looked tenderly at the sister he had raised.

If he were dust, he hoped that Lin Yue could be a bird in the sky, free and unrestrained.

"Brother, have you gained some weight?" Lin Yue looked at Lin Du.

Lin Du was startled, and with a guilty conscience he crossed his hands in front of his belly: "A little bit."

"Brother, you should gain some weight. You were too thin before."

Lin Du raised the corner of his mouth and rubbed Lin Yue's head: "Okay."

With a silent sigh, Lin Du knew that he would not be able to visit Lin Yue again, so he had to lie to her: "Lin Yue, our company is sending me on a business trip somewhere else, and it may take more than half a year for me to come back."

Lin Yue immediately lowered his head when he heard this: "Why does it take so long?"

"It's work. There's nothing I can do. Just be obedient and go for regular checkups. I'll bring you a gift when I come back, okay?"

Lin Yue nodded. Although she was reluctant, she also knew that she couldn't delay Lin Du's work.

"Brother, I have something to tell you." Lin Yue pulled Lin Du and shook his head awkwardly.

"You said I was listening."

"Well, there's a boy in our school who...he said he liked me and asked me if I liked him. I...I didn't know how to reply him."

Lin Du grinned. His little girl really lived a normal life. "So do you like him?"

"I don't know, but I'm happy to be with him."

"How old is he? What's his character like? Does he have a good personality?" Lin Du immediately asked the questions he wanted to know.

Lin Yue lowered her head shyly: "She is one year older than me, very gentle and takes good care of me."

Lin Du nodded with relief, and finally a glimmer of hope appeared in his eyes: "I have never had a true love experience, so I don't really understand it. If you think he is not bad, you can observe him more."

"But girls must protect themselves when they are outside and not do things that they will regret, understand?"

Lin Yue nodded: "Brother, I know."

"You can't neglect your studies just to fall in love." Lin Du said worriedly.

"Brother, don't worry about me. I'll take good care of myself when I grow up. You should also take care of yourself when you're on a business trip."

Lin Du nodded, his voice choking. Afraid that Lin Yue would notice something was wrong with him, Lin Du urged her to go back quickly.

Looking at Lin Yue's back, Lin Du finally couldn't control his tears.

Taking out his cell phone, Lin Du wanted to meet Qin Chang, but his call was always unreachable.

The prosperity and bustle of the city can never fill the loneliness of the streets under the night sky. It is like the dim starlight, quietly guarding the lonely time.

Lin Du looked up at the sky covered by lights and sighed deeply, as if he had accepted the reality of being deceived and used.

It turns out that the so-called reunion was just a one-man show.