Chapter 136 Dead Heart

Lin Du walked slowly on the street alone, constantly thinking about how to politely reject Chen Wei.

He thinks that he is a rather evil person and anyone who is with him will end up badly.

Chen Wei is such a good person, he really couldn't bear to harm him.

He really doesn't want to have a relationship now. His heart has been broken into pieces and will be completely shattered at the slightest touch.

Although he didn't want to admit it, his heart no longer had room for anyone else.

Shaking his head in self-mockery, Lin Du even looked down on himself.

It was still early, and Lin Du didn't want to go home. He wandered aimlessly, passing by a baby shop, and he stopped there for a long, long time.

I touched my stomach subconsciously, and tears fell without warning.

Gu Yanchi hid in the crowd, his fingertips twitching and slowly clenching.

Lin Du raised his head slightly and sighed deeply. Maybe this is his fate.

Walking lonely in the crowded streets, everyone's face had a longing for the future, except Lin Du.

His eyes were empty and lifeless, and he no longer had any illusions about the future.

Now he only hopes that Lin Yue can live in peace. As for himself, his biggest wish is to die in his sleep.

Gu Lianchi came to the place where Lin Du had just stood and stopped. His fingertips touched the baby supplies inside through the display window, and his slightly red eyes were pitiful.

After returning home, Lin Du thought for a long time and decided to call Chen Wei. He didn't want to make him wait too long, and he didn't want to make him wait too long with a certain expectation.

I am not worthy.

Chen Wei answered the phone immediately, causing Lin Du to be confused for a moment and not knowing how to start talking.

"Lin Du, you can just tell me the answer. I said I want your sincerity."

Lin Du hugged himself and sighed: "Chen Wei, I'm sorry, I...we are not suitable."

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a moment, and Chen Wei's voice was a little disappointed: "You don't have to apologize to me, but can I know the reason?"

Lin Du pinched his fingers, it was really difficult for him to reject someone.

But he had no choice. A broken man like him shouldn't hold Chen Wei back: "You don't know my past. I'm not as good as you think. I... I'm actually quite annoying. At least that's how I feel."

Chen Wei's heart tightened, as Lin Du's self-evaluation was full of self-denial.

Even though the sadness and grief in the words were deliberately concealed, they still showed through.

"I think you have a biased view of yourself. You can't deny yourself just because of what happened before. I think you are a good person."

Lin Du raised the corners of his mouth bitterly. He knew that what he said was not very convincing.

His body and soul had been worn out, like a withered flower that could never regain its former beauty.

In order to dispel Chen Wei's thoughts about him, Lin Du had no choice but to reveal his scars again. Even though it was bloody, it would be worth it if he could stop Chen Wei.

Chen Wei paused, feeling mixed emotions.

He thought Lin Du must have had a very tiring life before, but he didn't expect that he had experienced so much.

The misfortunes of his family, his physical abnormalities, his emotional setbacks. With so many hardships concentrated on one person, it is really not easy for him to live strong until now.

He finally understood why Lin Du always gave people a pessimistic feeling. After going through so much, who could still laugh?

Chen Wei's long silence made Lin Du fall into misery. He thought that no one could accept himself as he is.

"I'm sorry, Chen Wei. I didn't mean to hide this from you. If you mind, I can resign."

"Lin Du, your life must be very hard." Chen Wei sighed with heartache.

Lin Du was startled. He had no intention of crying. But after hearing what Chen Wei said, he couldn't help but tear up.

"Lin Du, I'm sorry to make you recall your painful past again." Chen Wei clenched his fists in self-blame. "Whether you believe it or not, I don't mind your past. I said that I want spiritual harmony. The suffering you have experienced is not something to be ashamed of in my eyes. I will only feel more distressed for you."

Lin Du was startled: "But Chen Wei, I am not worthy, you..."

"I know you can't accept a new relationship now, and I can also understand that you haven't forgotten the person in your heart. But it doesn't matter, I can wait." Chen Wei said firmly.

"Lin Du, I hope you can give me a chance to enter your heart. Although I am not completely sure that I can replace that person, can you at least give me a chance to try once?"

Lin Du clenched his fists, his fingertips digging deeply into his palms. The uneasy feeling swept through his body like a cold current.

He originally thought that his past experience could persuade Chen Wei to back off, but he didn't expect Chen Wei to be so determined.

"Lin Du, how you live your life is entirely up to you. I want to hold your hand and move forward together, even if we encounter difficulties along the way, but I will never let go of your hand. Can you give me a chance?"

Chen Wei clenched his hands tightly, his eyes flashing with determination, as if he wanted to concentrate all his courage at this moment to pour out his heart to Lin Du.

Lin Du was silent. Facing Chen Wei's sincerity, he was moved. But his heart was surprisingly calm, without the waves and expectations he had imagined. Perhaps this was what they called a dead heart.

My heart is like dead water, unable to stir up any ripples.

But how could he politely reject such a good person?

"Lin Du, don't feel burdened. I know how conflicted your current situation is. We can take it step by step." Chen Wei comforted, "If after trying hard, you still find it unacceptable, I will definitely not pester you. We can still be friends, okay?"

Chen Wei's words were sincere, but they made Lin Du inexplicably frightened.

The better Chen Wei treated him, the more he feared he would hurt Chen Wei.

At this moment, he felt as helpless as if he had fallen into an abyss. It was pitch black all around him, and he could not find a ray of light. He could only allow himself to be swallowed by the darkness.

"Lin Du, if you don't say anything, I'll take it as your consent." Chen Wei grinned, "It's late, I won't disturb you to rest, see you tomorrow."

Before Lin Du could say anything, Chen Wei hung up the phone, as if he was also avoiding Lin Du's rejection.

Lin Du sighed softly and hugged himself tightly, burying his little face in his arms.

After going through so much, he has already become indifferent to everything.

If he accepted Chen Wei's feelings, it would be too unfair to him. But if he didn't accept it, he didn't know how to reject him.

A tangle of pain, helplessness and confusion.

At this moment, Lin Du was like hesitating at a fork in the road, not knowing whether to take that step.