Chapter 15: Starting Over

Everything that happened ten years ago seemed to have happened just yesterday. Lin Du was exhausted both physically and mentally. He no longer had the energy to waste with anyone.

At this moment, Lin Du felt calmer than ever before.

Gu Xinchi broke through this hidden membrane, which meant that he would not have to continue pretending in the future.

"Can you let me go first?" Lin Du sighed deeply, but his tone was surprisingly calm.

Gu Jinchi moved away from Lin Du, but his hand never loosened. Who could not be moved by the cautious look on his face, as if he was afraid of losing her?

Lin Du lowered his eyes and looked at his hand which was tightly held by Gu Nishichi. He pursed his lips and said, "Whether you believe it or not, the conspiracy ten years ago against me..." Lin Du tried to adjust his breathing, "I did not participate, I..." Lin Du wanted to say that he was also a victim, but it was meaningless now.

"I believe you." Gu Nichi frowned with distress, "I admit that I hated you. When I heard all this, I really couldn't accept it. I thought you were playing tricks on me and playing with my feelings, but Lin Du, do you know how much I love you?"

Lin Du lowered his eyes, feeling a pang of pain in his heart.

At first, his love for Gu Cianchi had exceeded his own cognition. He thought that he had nothing to give to Gu Cianchi, so he simply gave his whole heart to her. Even so, he still felt that he owed Gu Cianchi's love.

In Wai Lindu's heart, Gu Shichi was like a god, but such a person actually fell in love with him, so he was terrified and happy at the time.

Ten years ago, Gu Yanchi was a ray of light in his life, warming his life for 17 years. Although the result was not satisfactory, he never denied his feelings for Gu Yanchi.

"Every day I spent abroad was extremely painful, and I spent every difficult night thinking of you." Gu Yanchi lifted Lin Du's hand and placed it on his face, "Lin Du, I haven't seen you for ten years, and I still love you."

Lin Du's eyes widened in shock, his heartbeat quickened, and his breathing became disordered.

He tried to pull his hand back, but Gu Yanchi held it tighter, "Lin Du, can we start over?"

Lin Du shuddered and instinctively wanted to escape.

Start over? No, he doesn't want to.

The past was too painful, he doesn't want to go through it again, or he will collapse.

"I know you are confused now, I won't force you, I want you to be with me willingly." Gu Yanchi kissed Lin Du's palm gently, "I now have enough ability to protect you, and I won't let anyone hurt you again, so Lin Du, I'll wait for you."

Taking advantage of the moment when Gu Yan was distracted, Lin Du withdrew his hand and rushed out the door without hesitation.

He did not look back, for fear of seeing Gu's disappointed and lost look, and for fear of falling into the endless abyss again.

He doesn't want it.

After running all the way out, he didn't know how long he had been running. Lin Du collapsed on the ground, breathing heavily.

Everything happened too suddenly, and he could no longer tell whether it was true or false.

The words "start over" kept lingering in Lin Du's ears. He covered his ears and screamed, with a severe pain in his chest.

He lowered his head in a daze, wandering among the crowd like a zombie.

Lin Du had no idea what to do next.

It was impossible for him to just take Lin Yue and walk away like he did ten years ago. He still owed Gu Yanshi money, and he couldn't be a man who broke his promise.

Lin Du's shoulder was hurt by the oncoming collision, and he almost fell down due to his unstable balance.

There were curses and curses in his ears, but Lin Du sighed deeply and had no time to pay attention.

After returning home, Lin Du was exhausted and locked himself in the room. He leaned against the door and tears flowed down his face.

Before he met Gu Yanchi, he really thought that his life would be ordinary and dull.

Now it seems that I was thinking too simply. Everything was beyond his control. Neither the beginning nor the end could be controlled by him.

Lin Yue stood outside the Lindu Gate and vaguely heard him crying.

She didn't disturb him, but chose to leave quietly.

She knew very well how much pressure Lin Du was under. He usually pretended to be strong and never cried in front of her, but in fact he often cried secretly behind her back.

He struggled to stand up, but his legs and feet were weak and he fell heavily to his knees on the ground.

His knees ached badly, and Lin Du slowly stood up, holding onto the door.

When he walked out the door and saw Lin Yue reading a book, he raised the corners of his mouth with relief.

"Brother, where are you going so late?"

"I'll go get the bike back. Stay home and read your books. Don't run around."

Lin Du walked slowly during this rare leisure time, thinking a lot in his mind, but to no avail.

Everything flashed by and I pondered over it again and again.

When I arrived at the door of the bar, I didn't see my car. After looking around, I found that it had been abandoned in an empty corner.

Lin Du drove to the riverside, where couples in twos and threes hugged each other and admired the scenery by the river.

Lin Du sat aside, his eyes empty.

The wind by the river was very cold, and gradually Lin Du was the only one left.

He sat there quietly, his hair swaying in the cold wind. He wanted to talk to someone, but in his 27 years of life, he didn't have a single close friend.

Hug yourself with self-mockery. Who would want to be friends with a broken person? He is destined to be alone.

Gu leaned lazily on the sofa. The dim room was so quiet that it was suffocating. The cigarette held between two fingertips was still emitting starlight.

Recalling Lin Du's painful struggle, Gu Nichi was in a good mood. He took a deep puff of cigarette and sneered wantonly.

This was exactly the result he wanted. He wanted to make Lin Du's life a living hell and make him struggle miserably.

Just like ten years ago, bullying Lin Du would make him inexplicably excited.

He was absolutely sure that he could control Lin Du, just like he had ten years ago.

But this time, he would not give him any chance to escape.

It was late at night, and Lin Du drove the car back.

Life was hard, but he had no money to stop.

What he thought about most every day was how to make money. As long as he could pay off Gu Kushi's debt, he could stay away from him and never have any contact with him again.

Gu Yanchi kept his promise and did not bother Lin Du again. Except for the agreed repayment time every month, they never contacted each other again.

Gu Linchi expressed more than once that he didn't need to pay back the money, but Lin Du refused every time.

Lin Du knew that this was a time bomb and he didn't know when it would explode, so he didn't dare to take the risk.

As the money he earned became less and less, Lin Du once suspected that the stationmaster was targeting him, but he could not find a reason. After all, he had no grudge against the stationmaster and he had no reason to do this.

After much thought, Lin Du still put the responsibility on himself. He blamed himself for not working hard enough.

This month he received a salary of more than 3,000 yuan. Lin Du did not keep a penny and planned to return it all to Gu Linchi.

Beichuan's winter and summer are almost two extremes, with fierce cold winds and biting cold.

Lin Du rode his electric bike alone on a road full of luxury cars. He looked like a person going against the flow, and also like a joke.