Chapter 250: Longing for Death

Not daring to disturb Gu Jinchi's rest, Lin Du silently moved towards the bed and curled up his body. This posture made him feel safe.

Thinking of the dream he had this afternoon, Lin Du felt a sharp pain in his heart.

He hadn't dreamed of Qin Chang since he left. Now he dreamed of him, and he was waving at him with his two children. Did it mean that he felt sorry for him and wanted him to find him and be freed like him?

He also wanted to be free, but he was worried about Lin Yue.

Lin Du sighed and hugged himself tightly.

If he can save Lin Yue this time, can he be himself again?

By then, he should be able to go find Qin Chang and the two babies.

If I had left at that time, Lin Yue probably wouldn't have blamed me, right?

Inexplicably with a feeling of longing, the corners of Lin Du's mouth slowly curled up.

The night was lonely, and I was tired but couldn't fall asleep.

It is so painful to face the person I want to love deeply every day, but I dare not show it.

But if I don't show it, I'm afraid he won't notice it, and I'm self-contradictory and can't find a way out.

Lin Du murmured incoherently while sleeping: "Don't go...wait for me..."

Gu Yanchi sat up and listened carefully.

"Qin Chang, wait for me. I...I will go with you..."

Gu Yanchi's eyes suddenly widened. He simply couldn't believe what he heard.

The pain in his heart was like being torn apart, and every breath was accompanied by severe pain, making Gu Yanchi almost suffocate.

Lin Du cried in his sleep with a wronged look on his face. He tried hard to hug himself, but was still in great pain.

Lin Du was immersed in nightmares, unable to extricate himself, like an endless struggle.

Gu Niechi was in unbearable pain. He threw away his so-called dignity and pulled Lin Du into his arms. He kept kissing his forehead and whispered in his ear: "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

The sudden warmth made Lin Du find a sense of belonging. He kept diving into Gu Jianchi's arms, crying one after another.

Gu Niechi gritted his teeth fiercely, and his hands kept patting the frightened person in his arms.

Looking back on the past, Lin Du seemed equally miserable.

I could have lived a carefree life, but I was restricted to the point where I had no freedom at all.

Apart from betraying me, he didn't seem to have done anything else to let me down.

After coaxing for a long time, the person in my arms finally calmed down a little.

Lin Du's tears wet Gu Jinshi's chest and also hurt his heart.

After a sleepless night, Gu Nichi held the person tightly in his arms.

Sunlight shone into the room. Lin Du opened his eyes uncomfortably and looked around out of habit, but there was no one there.

I hurried downstairs, but didn't see Gu Xichi.

Lin Du stood in the living room, muttering, "Has he left?"

"Mr. Lin, you're awake. Come and have breakfast."

Lin Du looked at the person in front of him warily: "Who are you?"

"I'm the new nutritionist who's in charge of taking care of you."

"Take care of me? Did Gu Nianchi ask you to come?"

"Yes."

Since it was Gu Yanchi's arrangement, Lin Du didn't dare to say anything more. After all, he had no qualifications.

The food prepared by the nutritionist looked delicious and was carefully prepared, but Lin Du's appetite was not very good and he felt full after just a few bites.

The nutritionist told Gu Yanchi about Lin Du's eating situation. He looked solemn and said in an unhappy tone, "I don't pay you to listen to your complaints. The fact that he didn't eat a few bites proves that what you cooked is not to his liking."

"You should reflect on your own abilities instead of criticizing me."

"Also, your job is to take good care of him. If you don't have the ability to do so, get out."

Gu Nichi was already upset when he heard that Lin Du didn't eat much. He didn't expect that the nutritionist would dare to gossip in front of him.

The nutritionist was so terrified that he dared not say a word.

Lin Du came to Gu Xingxing, chatted with him for a while, and turned the soil for the flowers.

When he had nothing to do, he went to Chen Wei's store to help.

People can't be too idle. When they are idle, they always think about all kinds of messy things.

Looking at Lin Du whom he hadn't seen for many days, Chen Wei went over to him with some guilt: "Lin Du, I'm really sorry, I can't get that much money right away."

Lin Du shook his head and quickly explained: "I didn't come here to borrow money from you today. I just wanted to see if the store was busy and wanted to come over to help."

"What are you going to do with Lin Yue's medical expenses?"

Lin Du pulled the corner of his mouth and rubbed his hands nervously: "It has been... found."

Chen Wei frowned, wondering how such a large amount could be settled so quickly: "How did you do it?"

Lin Du was startled and lowered his eyes: "You should have guessed it!"

Chen Wei's mouth twitched, and he clenched his fists slightly: "Are you looking for Gu Yanchi again?"

Lin Du nodded, his lips curled up bitterly.

"You...he treated you so badly, yet you still wanted to go find him. How could you..."

Chen Wei did not say the unbearable words, but Lin Du knew in his heart that he must be looking down on him as well.

But what else could he do? She couldn't just watch Lin Yue die.

That was his sister, the one he raised, and she couldn't do it.

Chen Wei felt a tightness in his chest and punched the wall fiercely.

Lin Du sighed lightly. He thought Chen Wei could understand him.

Noticing Lin Du's helpless look, Chen Wei suddenly realized that he had lost his composure.

He held Lin Du's shoulders and tried to save the situation: "I'm sorry, Lin Du, I'm not blaming you, I'm just worried about you, after all, Gu Ni Chi did so many bastard things to you."

Lin Du tried hard to put on a smile and patted Chen Wei on the shoulder: "I know, I'm not angry with you."

"Actually, I look down on myself, but..."

Lin Du couldn't help but sigh: "Forget it, let's not talk about it."

Chen Wei's heart skipped a beat; his gaffe just now had obviously hurt Lin Du's heart.

No matter how much I defend myself, I can't undo the harm I have done to him.

Looking at Lin Du's busy back, Chen Wei clenched his fists in regret.

But when he thought of Lin Du returning to Gu Nichi, he felt unwilling in his heart.

"Here, this is a new product in the store. You haven't tried it yet." Chen Wei packed a cake and handed it to Lin Du.

"Thank you."

Chen Wei pursed her lips and rubbed her hands: "I'm sorry Lin Du, I lost my composure today."

"In fact, I also hate myself for being incompetent and unable to help you. Otherwise, you wouldn't have to ask that bastard Gu Yanchi for help."

Lin Du curled his lips in relief: "Don't say that, I'm already very grateful that you have this intention."

The alarm rang and Lin Du quickly packed up and prepared to leave.

"Why are you suddenly so anxious?" Chen Wei asked worriedly.

Lin Du smiled without explaining, waved and left.

He got on the bus. It was still about half an hour before Gu Xinchi got home from work, so he could just catch up if he went back now.

Ever since Gu Nichi came home without seeing him last time, Lin Du set an alarm in case he forgot to go home on time due to some things.