Chapter 60: Afraid of leaving, but ready to leave at any time

Lin Du was silent. He didn't want to refute Gu Yanchi, but he wouldn't stay away from Qin Chang either.

Qin Chang is also a precious existence to him. He is a little sun, warming his broken life.

Anyone can say bad things about Qin Chang, but he can't.

Noticing Lin Du's awkward mood, Gu Nichi sighed: "I don't want to stop you from making friends, I'm just afraid that you will get hurt."

"Don't be angry, okay? I promise that I will never say anything bad about Qin Chang again, okay?" Gu Nienchi hugged Lin Du tightly and coaxed him softly.

Leaning on Gu Jinchi's chest, Lin Du felt his body temperature and his heart gradually calmed down.

He reached out and hugged Gu Jinshi's waist, a satisfied smile inadvertently appearing on his face.

Although life is still a mess now, I am content to have someone by my side.

"Lin Du." Gu Nichi whispered in his ear, his voice extremely soft and touching, "I want to kiss you."

The hand that was holding Gu Xinchi twitched suddenly. Lin Du reacted a little slowly, wondering if this was asking for his consent or greeting him.

Before he could come up with an answer, Gu Yinchi had already lifted his chin and kissed him.

Lin Du felt his mind go blank, and a soft and warm touch came to his lips. He responded to Gu Jinchi's kiss awkwardly, his hands tightly grasping his clothes.

After the kiss, both of them were breathing rapidly. Gu Jinchi looked at the person in front of him with a blushing face, his eyes became deeper, and he couldn't help but pecked Lin Du's lips again.

"Lin Du, can you go a little deeper?" Gu Nichi tried, but his hands were no longer at rest.

Lin Du was already a little dazed by the kiss, and at this moment, any word from Gu Yanchi was like an aphrodisiac poison.

He wanted to refuse, but he didn't show any sign of rejection. Instead, he gripped the corner of Gu Lanchi's clothes even tighter.

"Lin Du, if you remain silent I will take it as your consent..." Gu Jinchi's warm breath hit Lin Du's neck.

It's a little itchy, but very comfortable.

"Still not talking?" Gu Xinchi bit Lin Du's ear and said seductively, "Lin Du, you know I have always had a low tolerance, but I don't want to force you, so can you please talk?"

Lin Du couldn't help but groan, with a barely perceptible shyness in his tone: "I... I'm not ready yet, Gu Yanchi, can you... wait a little longer?"

Gu Yanchi smiled slightly, "Okay." He held Lin Du in his arms and stroked his back gently, "Look, as long as you tell me, I won't force you."

Lin Du was surprised that Gu Jinchi would actually stop because of his words. This was unlike him.

In the past, no matter how much I begged, he would do what he wanted, but now he has changed.

Lin Du entered Gu Lianchi's arms, and he couldn't help thinking that in the past ten years, he was still the cowardly Lin Du, but Gu Lianchi was no longer the young master who only cared about satisfying himself and never cared about others.

"Are you hugging me so tightly to reward me?" Gu Niechi reached his hand into Lin Du's pajamas and stroked his thin waist with his fingertips. "Baby, eat some weight."

Lin Du instinctively tensed his body and nodded, "Yeah." He knew that he was too thin and would feel uncomfortable if Gu Jinchi hugged him.

He said this ten years ago.

This night was very difficult. Lin Du was held in Gu Lianchi's arms, and his thoughts were in a mess.

"Can't sleep?" Gu Xinchi rubbed Lin Du's ear, "I'll talk to you."

Lin Du did not refuse and nodded, "Yeah." He stroked Gu Jinchi's hand on his lower abdomen, "Aren't you sleepy?"

"I'm sleepy." Gu Yanchi groaned, "But if you don't sleep, I can't sleep either."

Lin Du felt a little guilty: "Then I'll sleep, and you sleep too."

"Okay, Lin Du, let's talk." Gu Yinchi thought for a moment, a faint sneer appeared on the corner of his mouth, and his tone was still gentle, "Let's talk about what we fear most."

"I remember we talked about this before, but ten years have passed, so maybe things have changed." Gu Nichi hugged Lin Du tightly, resting his chin on his shoulder.

What is the most frightening thing? Lin Du repeated it in his mind.

What was he afraid of? He was afraid of so many things that he couldn't even remember them all.

Even after ten years, he still fears the endless darkness and enclosed spaces without light.

"I'm still afraid of the dark and enclosed spaces." Lin Du sighed softly, "Now there's one more thing, which is that I'm afraid Lin Yue will leave."

Gu Xinchi rubbed Lin Du's ear and said, "It's okay. Don't be afraid of these things. I will always be by your side."

Lin Du nodded without saying anything.

In fact, he is still afraid of one thing, which is that he will be separated from Gu Xichi again.

Breaking up and getting back together was too painful, he couldn't bear it.

But he knew in his heart that he and Gu Xinchi would not be able to be together forever because his father would not agree to them being together.

He still remembers the beating he received ten years ago.

So, while he was afraid that Gu Yanshi would leave, he was also prepared for him to leave at any time.

"Lin Du, I'm so sad. It seems like I don't even exist in your world." Gu Xinchi's hand gently pressed on Lin Du's lower abdomen. He raised an evil look. Soon there will be a new life here.

His surname would be Gu, and he would be the child that Gu disliked.

"I... do." Lin Du turned around and held Gu Xinchi's face. He had loved this man for ten years, so how could he live without him?

"What?" Gu Nichi patiently brushed away the loose hair in front of Lin Du's forehead.

"You are in my heart." Lin Du's hands trembled slightly. To him, expressing one's inner thoughts was a science, and he never learned it very well.

After being in a closed mode for a long time, he has forgotten how to express himself.

Gu Niechi touched Lin Du's forehead with satisfaction, their breaths blended together, ambiguous and affectionate: "Just having your words is enough."

Gu Niechi kissed Lin Du's forehead: "Do you still remember what I am most afraid of?"

Lin Du closed his eyes, feeling Gu Jinchi's breath: "Remember, you said you were most afraid of parent-teacher conferences because your mother was gone and you didn't want everyone to know."

Gu Yinchi was stunned. He didn't expect that Lin Du still remembered it.

"Yeah." Gu Xinchi replied softly, burying his face in Lin Du's neck with a sense of grievance. "That was when I was a kid. I'm not afraid anymore now."

Yes! After ten years, Gu Xinchi has obviously become the omnipotent man. He should have nothing to fear now.

Sniffing the scent of Lin Du fiercely, Gu Nichi let out a long breath: "Before I met you, I thought I would never have a weak spot in my life, but after meeting you, I found that for ten years, you have always been my most fatal weakness."

"Having lost you once, I'm afraid of losing you again."

"Although you have tried very hard to respond to me, I know that you still don't trust me in your heart. I understand this."

"But Lindu, I feel pain too."

Lin Du was startled, feeling uncomfortable in his heart.

Gu Lianchi held Lin Du tightly in his arms, as if he wanted to rub him into his body.

"I'm sorry..." Lin Du whispered in Gu Jinchi's ear, "I know I'm sometimes too self-protective, but please believe me, I will change slowly."

Gu Nichi raised his head and looked into Lin Du's eyes, with a hint of determination flashing in his eyes.

"I'm willing to wait, as long as you don't leave me again."

Lin Du nodded slightly, and made up his mind secretly that even if the road ahead was bumpy, he would hold Gu Jinchi's hand tightly and never let go.

The night was silent. Gu Jinshi hugged Lin Du tightly, with coldness raging in his eyes and a playful smile lingering on the corners of his handsome mouth.