Chapter 84 Walking Side by Side with the Gods
After get off work, Xu Xian drove straight to the hospital. It had been snowing for the past few days, and her mother was afraid that the roads would be slippery and unsafe, so she refused to let her go to the hospital.
Now that the snow had stopped, she had no more worries and couldn't wait to drive to the hospital.
Jiang Shibai specially sought consultation with experts from abroad, but cancer is incurable, not to mention that it is already in the late stage, and even the hope of prolonging his life is slim.
The opportunities for mother and daughter to meet will become fewer and fewer. Every meeting is a blessing, and Xu Xian cherishes it very much.
When they arrived at the ward, Aunt Wan asked, "Xianxian, do you want to eat here today? If so, I'll go to the cafeteria downstairs to buy food."
"Well, thank you for your hard work, Aunt Wan." Xu Xian nodded with a smile, sitting aside and holding Zhang Wan's withered hand, which was wrinkled and had no trace of vitality.
The wrinkles on the back of his hand made Xu Xian's eyes moisten slightly. Fighting back the tears, he asked, "Mom, how are you today? Are you feeling better?"
Zhang Wan had been lying in bed for three years, and she had long since let go of life and death. Her pale lips curved slightly, and she spoke in a low voice, "Every day is the same. Don't worry about it. By the way, why didn't Shi Bai come?"
She spoke each sentence with great effort, trying to express herself as clearly as possible.
Ever since Xianxian got married, every time she came to the hospital, Shibai would follow her. The two of them would tell her interesting things outside and make her laugh.
The first time I saw him, he didn’t come with me, and I felt a little uncomfortable.
Seeing this, Xu Xian suppressed the sobs that came from his nose, and tried to ease the dull atmosphere in the ward. He said with a smirk, "Mom, you always ask him, why don't you ask me, your daughter?"
As expected, her mother had a son-in-law and she no longer saw her daughter. When she came in, she didn't ask about her situation in the past two days, but instead focused her attention on Jiang Shibai who was nowhere to be seen.
Zhang Wan leaned against the pillow and glared at her in a reproachful manner, "You! Why are you still jealous like a child? I'm just concerned. Don't worry, Mom loves you the most."
Xu Xian actually knew that her mother had no other intentions, but she still couldn't help but act like a spoiled child and make unreasonable demands, as if this way she could stay in that happy time forever.
"I love you too, Mom. Shi Bai is on a business trip to Europe and won't be back for a week."
Zhang Wan nodded in understanding, then seemed to have thought of something and said, "My mother-in-law came to the hospital to see me this morning and brought a lot of nutritional supplements."
Xu Xian's grip suddenly tightened, his heart skipping a beat. Realizing he had lost his composure, he quickly eased off a bit, his voice slightly apprehensive. "Why did she come to the hospital to see you? Did she say anything?"
She had just lost face at the hands of Wen Tingyun yesterday, but she didn't expect that she would find her mother today and come to the hospital alone.
Ever since she married Jiang Shibai, because her mother was in poor health, several elders of the Jiang family rushed to the hospital to have a formal meeting with her mother.
But today Wen Tingyun came to her house alone on his own initiative, which had never happened before. She was afraid that Wen Tingyun would say something unpleasant to her mother.
Her mother is already terminally ill, and she doesn't want things like conflicts between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law to bother her and disturb her peace.
Zhang Wan felt the strength of the palm, but did not show it. She could actually see that Shi Bai's mother did not like their Xianxian.
The last time the parents of both sides met, compared to Mrs. Jiang's enthusiasm and joy, Shi Bai's mother's attitude seemed lukewarm. She showed no joy at her son's marriage and seemed like a complete outsider.
She knew that Xianxian was afraid that she would worry, so she never complained to her about the conflicts between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law.
If she didn't say anything, she wouldn't ask.
Thinking of this, Zhang Wan raised the corners of her lips slightly, "What else can I say? Your mother-in-law simply came to visit me and asked me some questions about your childhood."
She was actually also surprised by this. Today, Bai's mother's attitude was still as calm as last time, but she seemed a little cautious in the conversation, and the questions she asked were inexplicable.
In addition to asking about Xianxian's childhood, he also asked about her past love history, as if he was asking a question in a cliché, but it was somewhat different.
"Really?" Xu Xian looked into Zhang Wan's eyes, afraid that she would be wronged, so he didn't tell her.
She didn't quite believe that Wen Tingyun came to the hospital simply to see her mother.
Zhang Wan laughed and said, "How could Mom lie to you? If you don't believe me, go ask your mother-in-law."
Xu Xian: “…”
She went to ask Wen Tingyun? Forget it.
Zhang Wan took a look at her expression and said, "Your mother-in-law also said that she hopes you and Shi Bai will have a baby soon. Is their family putting pressure on you?"
The time for labor has come for her to give birth, and she has to ask.
“Cough cough cough——”
Xu Xian was suddenly choked by his saliva, and he covered his mouth tightly, tears welling up in his eyes and hanging at the corners of his eyes.
Zhang Wan subconsciously reached out to take the water cup on the bedside table. Seeing this, Xu Xian immediately reached out to stop her, poured himself some water, and drank several sips before the itch in his throat stopped.
Her cough subsided, the corners of her eyes turned red, and a blush appeared on her fair face.
"Are you okay? Do you still want to cough?" Zhang Wan looked at her worriedly, her fingers slightly clenched.
She didn't expect Xianxian to react so strongly when talking about children.
Xu Xian shook his head in panic, sniffed, and said with a slightly nasal tone: "Their family didn't put any pressure on me, nor did they mention this matter to me."
Didn't Wen Tingyun want her and Jiang Shibai to divorce? Why did he come to her mother to talk about having children?
An invisible sense of weirdness lingered in her heart, and her expression was strange, but she couldn't figure out the reason.
Zhang Wan sighed. She could tell Xianxian wasn't lying. "Maybe your mother-in-law wanted a grandchild, but she didn't have the nerve to bring it up with you, so she came to me in a roundabout way. But Xianxian, do you want to have a baby now?"
Xu Xian held the water cup in silence for a moment, then shook his head firmly.
She has no plans to have children in the past two years. Her career has not yet started and she does not have the extra energy to focus on children.
Having a child requires not only money, but also love and companionship, the latter of which she is currently unable to provide.
In fact, according to the financial resources of the Jiang family, she does not need to go out to work. She can be a full-time housewife at home and raise children without any problem.
But she was unwilling to depend on Jiang Shibai like a velvet flower for the rest of her life. She wanted to realize her previous dream and become someone on par with him, instead of always looking up to him.
The gods are willing to step down from the altar and bend their noble backs for her, so why can't she climb up the altar and walk side by side with the gods?
It sounds hypocritical, but it is her true thought.
Zhang Wan smiled when she heard this and couldn't help but sigh, "In the blink of an eye, my Xianxian has grown up and is old enough to be a mother."
Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, the little girl who was acting coquettishly in her arms has grown into an adult who can hold up the sky.
Xu Xian paused for a moment, pursed his lips and looked at her, his voice tentative, "If you want to hold your grandson, I—"
Her mother doesn't have much time left, and if her mother wants to see her next generation with her own eyes, she can temporarily give up her career and not leave any regrets.
Before she finished speaking, Zhang Wan interrupted her with a heavy and meaningful tone, "Xianxian, don't compromise for anyone. Remember what your mother said, you are yourself, even for your mother."
"Mom brought you to this wonderful world so that you can see the world, not be swept up by the world, do you understand?"
She looks forward to Xianxian getting married and seeing her children, but that doesn't mean she needs to compromise herself for anyone.
She is her mother, and she should protect her, respect her, and love her, instead of restricting her freedom in the name of motherhood.
"I understand." Xu Xian's voice was filled with tears, and a tear slid down the corner of his eye.
Zhang Wan gently wiped away the hot tear, and her thin face was filled with tenderness, just like when she was a child and she was coaxing her crying child.
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