Chapter 554: Confused Emotions
Not long after Anliu left, Qin Xiangnuan and Jiang Lin came over. They did not appear with Anliu because they were afraid of exposing Qin Feng and the others to the eyes of someone with ulterior motives.
Therefore, they avoided the sight behind them and arrived late.
After hearing the reason, Qin Feng and the others naturally did not blame him.
After exchanging a few pleasantries, Qin Xiangnuan and Qin Feng went somewhere alone.
"Nuannuan, are you adapting well in Beijing?" Qin Feng spoke in silence.
Qin Xiangnuan responded casually, "I'm used to it, but you seem quite uncomfortable with it, cousin."
Qin Feng's emotions spread throughout his body. Qin Xiangnuan could not tell anything was wrong at first glance. However, she had frequently exchanged letters with her family on the border, and had not heard of anything that would make him look depressed.
People said that Qin Feng not only did not look up to answer Qin Xiangnuan, but lowered his head even more.
"Cousin? Is there anything or anyone in Beijing that is causing you trouble?" Qin Xiangnuan asked.
Qin Feng shook his head dully.
Then Qin Xiangnuan heard Qin Feng's hoarse voice, "It has nothing to do with the capital."
At that moment, Qin Xiangnuan suddenly grasped a direction, her throat slid, and Qin Xiangnuan asked softly: "Is Xue'er gone?"
Qin Feng did not answer, but Qin Xiangnuan knew that she had guessed right.
"Cousin, she..." Qin Xiangnuan wanted to comfort him, but when the words came to her lips, she felt that everything she said was pale and powerless.
So Qin Xiangnuan sat next to Qin Feng.
Qin Feng's stiff body trembled, and then he raised his head in despair, turned to Qin Xiangnuan and said, "Cousin, I'm just a little sad. Although she lied to me, I... also loved her once."
Qin Xiangnuan stared at Qin Feng. When they left the border, Qin Xiangnuan had specifically told Qin Feng that Xue'er's time was really running out, and she herself didn't have much will to live. Maybe soon...
Qin Feng didn't care at that time. He just wanted to do what he had promised in the last possible time.
After arriving in Beijing, Qin Xiangnuan felt that Xue'er, an abandoned child, was useless to her, so she did not inquire about any news about her. The Qin family was even more uncomfortable writing about Xue'er in the letter.
However, Qin Xiangnuan thought that Qin Feng's condition should not be like this. Before they left, Qin Feng had not taken the initiative to look for Xue'er. This could only mean that something happened between the two of them after she left.
"Cousin, no one can ask you to deny your past love or responsibility," Qin Xiangnuan said soothingly, "at least you never did anything to hurt her, so you have a clear conscience."
Qin Feng smiled bitterly after hearing this, "Do you have a clear conscience? I can't do it..."
Qin Xiangnuan frowned, unable to bear seeing Qin Feng so dejected. Qin Feng should have looked the same as when she first saw him.
"Cousin." Qin Xiangnuan couldn't help but speak harshly, "Who are you trying to show off to?"
Qin Feng was not expecting to hear such sarcastic words from Qin Xiangnuan, and for a moment he doubted whether Qin Xiangnuan really said these words to him?
But when Qin Feng looked up and met Qin Xiangnuan's gaze, he discovered that it was indeed Qin Xiangnuan who said that, and she was addressing him.
"Cousin, do you still remember what it was like before you met Xue'er?" Qin Xiangnuan's voice slowed down a little, but it didn't relax completely, and there was still a hint of oppression in it.
Qin Feng couldn't help but think about what Qin Xiangnuan said, and now when he thought about it, it felt so strange.
Seeing a trace of confusion slowly appearing on Qin Feng's face, Qin Xiangnuan let out a breath lightly, and then guided him to think and ponder.
"Cousin, there are many things I don't say, but you should understand them." Qin Xiangnuan spoke earnestly only when she saw a hint of doubt in Qin Feng's expression.
Qin Feng blinked, and the emotion in his eyes was different from a moment ago. Although there was still some sadness, there was also something else.
A person's eyes are really the most deceptive.
Qin Feng said to Qin Xiangnuan, "Cousin, why do people change so much?"
Qin Feng might understand it, but he needed someone to enlighten him before he could really wake up from it.
Qin Xiangnuan pursed her lips and answered his question seriously, "Because people are growing and changing every moment, it's just that some of them are not enough to attract your attention."
"Is that so?" Qin Feng murmured.
Qin Xiangnuan nodded affirmatively, "You noticed it this time because you experienced a feeling you had never experienced before, and the first time was so strange, leaving a deep impression on you that you will never forget it for the rest of your life."
"Then...will I be like this in the future?" Qin Feng may also think that his current state is not good. He also wants to break free from his current state, but he doesn't know how to do it.
Qin Xiangnuan smiled when she heard this, "Cousin, what kind of person you will become is your own choice. You just haven't released your negative emotions yet, and you've suppressed them deep in your heart. You're even more unwilling to touch them, and you've never thought about changing on your own initiative."
Qin Feng had never heard these words from anyone else, but he vaguely felt that as long as Qin Xiangnuan said them, there must be a feasible way.
Qin Feng undoubtedly wanted to cheer himself up again, so he asked Qin Xiangnuan to help him.
Qin Xiangnuan was naturally happy about it, and finally asked Qin Feng to have a good rest today and discuss it tomorrow if there was anything.
The next day, those who came to Beijing automatically split into several groups. As a result, only the vendors went out to play, and the rest of the people stayed at home.
"Nuan Yang, don't you want to go out and play too?" Qin Xiangnuan asked Nuan Yang, who should be the most childlike.
Nuan Yang shook his head uninterested, causing Qin Xiangnuan to raise an eyebrow.
"Why?" Qin Xiangnuan asked.
Nuan Yang indeed turned his head away unhappily and did not answer Qin Xiangnuan's words.
This is a new thing. Qin Xiangnuan looked at the eldest brother of the Jiang family standing aside.
"Miss Qin, we were both out recently," Boss Jiang said after glancing at Nuan Yang. "But after we walked down a street, Nuan Yang saw something and refused to move no matter what I said. She kept pulling me back."
Qin Xiangnuan put away her joking expression and looked at Nuan Yang who was a little restless beside her.
Nuan Yang has always been able to understand what they say. Perhaps it was Boss Jiang's voice that made him remember what happened just now. Qin Xiangnuan watched as Nuan Yang's hands began to make movements like throwing something.
Boss Jiang also saw it, and then said to Qin Xiangnuan, "Miss Qin, Nuanyang did the same thing on the street, and he kicked over everything on the street.
"Is that so..." Qin Xiangnuan's eyes showed some thought.
Nuan Yang's abnormality was definitely not accidental, it could only be due to stimulation on the street.
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