Chapter 18 Chapter 18 Let me stay by your side and take care of you...
There were too many people in the pavilion, so Su Guanzhang carefully took Xuan Jinyu in his arms and walked out, stopping at a distance that was neither too far nor too close to the pavilion and the officers and soldiers.
No one in the pavilion was looking at them.
The officers and soldiers nearby were peeking out from behind a tree. Su Guanzhang glanced at them, and they turned away, whispering to each other, "I heard that His Majesty is still obsessed with the young lady."
"Shh, it's not good if someone hears us. We are just a happy couple!"
"Who in Shengjing doesn't know about this now? Who else are you afraid of hearing about it?"
"Don't worry, we're still far away. They can't hear us talking."
"Don't worry about your majesty, just look at how much the young lady loves the young master."
"That's right. Even though she's been clamoring for a divorce for the past three years, true love is revealed in times of trouble. Look at the young mistress, a delicate young lady from a wealthy family, who actually gave up her good life as a palace concubine and chose to go into exile with me."
"Hey, Madam Xiao Shao really can't bear to part with the young master!"
"Isn't it? Especially since she's pregnant! She actually chose exile. I, Old Wu, really admire her."
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After hearing so many stories like “husband and wife are birds of the same forest, but fly away separately when disaster strikes”, the people were very interested when they suddenly heard a story about a loving couple who never left each other, and this was a story between nobles of the current dynasty.
In particular, there are rumors that the current emperor is deeply in love and silently guards his sweetheart who is now a married woman, which adds a bit of romantic tenderness to the story.
So, this is the fundamental reason why rumors spread so quickly and so widely.
The whispers under the shade of the trees were suppressed so low that the sound could not reach here.
Xuan Jinyu lingered in Su Guanzhang's arms for a while, then slowly pushed him away.
Before she could say anything, Su Guanzhang spoke up, "Jinyu, can I take care of you and the child?" He asked cautiously, and even without Xuan Jinyu raising her eyes, she could sense his uneasiness.
"Don't you want this child?" Xuan Jinyu asked back, her eyes falling on the slowly drying soil at the foot of the mountain. A group of people were walking towards this direction, stepping on the soil and crossing the rocks.
He doesn't want this child at all.
Su Guanzhang's breath caught in his throat. "Jinyu, how could I bear to give it up?"
He leaned over and slowly rested his head on Xuan Jinyu's shoulder, his arms around her shoulders. From a distance, it looked like a hug. "Jinyu, I regret this."
Xuan Jinyu did not move. The weight on her shoulders was almost negligible. She felt the man's warm breath brushing against her neck, and her breathing unconsciously quickened.
"Su Guanzhang, the most useless thing in this world is regret." Xuan Jinyu said softly, suppressing the emotions that were unconsciously aroused.
The wind rustled, and the branches of the big tree behind them rustled.
"Jinyu," Su Guanzhang's voice was tinged with pain, "I'm sorry."
sorry.
Xuan Jinyu lowered her eyelids.
She has heard this sentence for three years.
"Su Guanzhang, I'm tired." She smiled weakly, and the curve of her lips was very forced.
"You always apologize to me, making it seem like I'm being unreasonable." But how could she be being unreasonable? She just wanted this person to like her more.
The Master said, a woman's love should not be given lightly.
But she is married and cannot keep her heart. She just fell in love with her husband and she also wants to get his love. What's wrong with that?
It had been nine years since the fire that consumed the Master, but she could always see the raging flames and smell the smoky smell of tung oil and burning.
She often woke up in his arms in the middle of the night, but then fell asleep again peacefully in his arms.
Su Guanzhang's hands on her shoulders slowly dropped, and he held Xuan Jinyu tightly in his arms.
"Jinyu, I never thought you were being unreasonable."
"Really?" Xuan Jinyu's voice was so soft and weak that it seemed to be blown away by the wind. "But you always have a cold face. You have been ignoring me for three years."
Tears welled up in her eyes, and the grievances in her heart rose to her throat, blocking her nose and making it sore. "I said I would let you go, but you always wanted to keep you."
Three years, not too long, not too short. She had been pampered by her family for sixteen years, but once she got married, she tasted the bitterness of grievance and the pain of love.
All her frustrations, all her unwillingness, and all her pain came from this person.
"Su Guanzhang, I was wondering what I, Xuan Jinyu, owe you."
Without giving Su Guanzhang a chance to speak, Xuan Jinyu continued to speak to herself. She had never spoken her mind so calmly before. In the past, she cried and made a scene, fearing that if she spoke out her heart, she would lose the upper hand in their relationship and follow in the footsteps of her master.
Mother said, be brave...
"Later I found out that it was my grandfather who forced you to marry me."
"Jinyu, it's not like that..." Su Guanzhang was a little anxious and wanted to explain, but was interrupted.
Xuan Jinyu buried her head in his arms, wiping the tears from her eyes onto his clothes, "I owe you, so you and I always have nothing to say to each other."
"Su Guanzhang, I'm unwilling to accept this. I don't want to just accept it like this."
The sunlight shines through the gap onto the two of them, and the mottled light and shadow create a dividing line between them, as if it is a barrier they have never crossed.
Su Guanzhang's skin was burned by her tears, and his heart seemed to be in a volcano. "Jinyu, you have never owed me anything."
The man who had been silent for many years struggled to analyze his inner thoughts, "No one forced me to marry you. I did it of my own accord. I am very willing."
“Click.”
Someone stepped on a broken branch and fell, and a cry of "ouch" was heard clearly by the two men.
Xuan Jinyu slowly stopped crying, raised her head, and looked down the mountain over Su Guanzhang's shoulder.
The group of people at the foot of the mountain have reached halfway and will arrive here in a moment.
They didn't have much time to talk.
"Su Guanzhang, if I don't want you anymore, you..."
The force on her waist increased, holding her tightly. She heard the man's trembling voice, "Jinyu, don't leave me."
"You can hit me, scold me, just don't push me away."
Su Guanzhang's voice was very low and hoarse, as if the words were squeezed out from his throat with difficulty. He said word by word, "Can you let me stay with you and take care of you and the child?"
The wind blew open the gaps between the leaves, and the warm sunlight fell on the two of them, casting long shadows behind them. Their shadows intertwined with each other, appearing to be very close.
The haze in her heart was blown away by the wind. Xuan Jinyu pondered over Su Guanzhang's words, and the heat spread from her heart to her face.
He said, let him stay with her.
Such an ordinary sentence made her heart soften.
The man she married never knew how to say nice things. He lived for twenty-two years, and even his own mother disliked him for being so quiet.
But his occasional heartfelt words touched her heart sweetly.
It was such a simple sentence, but it caused the ice wall she had built with great difficulty to collapse.
She is so easy to please.
Otherwise, she wouldn't have spent three years with this taciturn and cold warrior. His simple and ordinary words could make her forgive him so easily.
Oh, she is really useless!
Xuan Jinyu's heart was touched, and a smile rose on her lips. Her heart was throbbing, but she said, "I haven't forgiven you yet."
This is the promise.
Su Guanzhang's breathing quickened a little. He looked up at her, his eyes level with hers.
"I'll wait for you. Just let me be by your side. It doesn't matter if you never forgive me."
This man can actually say such nice things!
Xuan Jinyu avoided his gaze and muttered, "Who wants to be with you forever." Although she said that, her heart felt like it was soaked in honey water, bubbling, so sweet that she wanted to get into this man's heart.
The couple who had broken up and separated for half a month hugged each other quietly, and their two hearts, which were so close yet so far away, were slowly getting closer.
The sunlight shining on my body is getting hotter, but the wind blowing over me is cool.
Such comfortable weather made Xuan Jinyu feel a little drowsy.
But when she was about to close her eyes, she remembered something - a very important thing that prompted her to throw the divorce papers to this man.
He has someone else in his heart, yet he says such things to her!
Xuan Jinyu's expression suddenly changed slightly, and she disappeared from her sleepiness.
"You stinky man, you have someone in your heart and you still say such things to me."
Su Guanzhang was confused. His wife's attitude had clearly softened, but her mood changed in an instant. At this time, she had pushed him away unhappily.
"Jinyu, I..."
"Zhang boy, Zhang boy's wife."
"Zhang boy, Jinyu."
"Young Master, Young Madam."
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The group of people from the foot of the mountain have arrived.
His explanation was interrupted and Su Guanzhang stood up helplessly.
A group of well-dressed and distinguished people quickly turned the corner and appeared in front of the two.
"Uncle, aunt, cousin, Lord Chang, Madam Li..." Su Guanzhang and Xuan Jinyu called them over one by one.
The group greeted each other and soon walked towards the pavilion.
Xu Yu Niang, Xu Xuan Niang, Chang Mei Yan and the children had already stood up and walked out quickly to greet them.
Old Madam Su's family had long been in decline. Fourth sister-in-law Ding Qianqian's brother, General Dianxi, was stationed at the border all year round, and his family was not in Shengjing City.
The people who came now were the wife of Duke Su Xu Yu Niang, the eldest sister-in-law Xu Xuan Niang, and the third sister-in-law Chang Mei Yan's family members.
Over the past two weeks, while the Su family was still in prison, they had gone to the Ministry of Justice to take care of things and had even visited them a few times. Now that they were leaving, they came to see them off with their packed luggage and belongings.
Carriages of all sizes blocked the road down the mountain.
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It took nearly two hours for the group to say goodbye, and they also ate some of the food and desserts that each family had brought. The Shili Pavilion was bustling with activity, with laughter and crying drifting out from time to time.
More than thirty officers and soldiers stood guard silently around and did not disturb them.
At about half past noon, they finally couldn't wait any longer and sent someone to urge them to leave. "If you don't leave now, you won't be able to catch the nearest post station by night."
There was a moment of silence in the Shili Pavilion, and the women in the family all wiped away their tears.
After this farewell, I don’t know when we will meet again.
A large group of nearly a hundred people walked down the Shili Pavilion, went down the mountain, and turned onto the official road.
Finally it was time for our final farewell.
"Mom, Dad, and big brother, we are leaving." Xuan Jinyu held back her tears and bowed deeply to her parents and brother.
Lin Qingwan let out an "ah" and burst into tears.
After thousands of miles of farewell, we must finally say goodbye. Take care.
Each family stood quietly on the official road to see the Su family off for the last time.
Just as they were about to set off, they heard the sound of galloping horses. Judging from the noise, there were quite a few people coming.
The crowd quickly moved to the sides and turned to look.
"Commander Xi." Su Sheng recognized the leading commander of the imperial guards, Xi Fang. He was an old acquaintance.
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