Chapter 64 Chapter 64 Jinyu, the person in my heart has always been...
Passing by the densest part of the forest, Xuan Jinyu said, "There's a cave here," "Shall we go take a look?"
According to the experience instilled in her by those who had experienced it, it would take at least one to two days before giving birth after the onset of bleeding. However, there were exceptions, and some women gave birth a few hours after the onset of bleeding.
However, since this was Xuan Jinyu's first child and she had no experience with this, she was still a little scared.
She had to distract herself to avoid getting too flustered; besides, this was only the beginning and the pain was almost unbearable.
Besides, they might have to sleep at the bottom of the cliff tonight. Having a cave is better than sleeping in the wilderness, and she is about to give birth to a fragile baby!
Su Guanzhang would usually agree with whatever she said on a normal day, let alone at this time.
Seeing the light reflected from the cave and the sound of gurgling water coming from inside, Su Guanzhang knew that there would be no danger such as invisible miasma inside.
Just in case, he picked up a stone and threw it in, and soon heard the sound of the stone hitting the cliff.
He waited for a long time and didn't hear any sound of insects or snakes crawling, so he carefully helped Xuan Jinyu in.
They soon discovered that this was actually a cave within a cave. There was a small cave outside, and a large cave inside.
The small cave outside is connected to a mountain spring, and the spring water flows along the mountain stream into the big cave inside.
There was actually a very flat and smooth platform in the big cave. It was warm to the touch and could be used as a bed.
"We're so lucky." Xuan Jinyu endured the pain and said to Su Guanzhang with a smile, "We still have a bed to sleep in tonight."
Su Guanzhang knew that she was in great pain. The temperature at the bottom of the cliff was not cold, but not hot either. Cold sweat was still oozing from her forehead.
"It hurts a lot?" Su Guanzhang took out a handkerchief and wiped the sweat off her face, thinking of a way to make her feel better. "Will biting me make it feel better?"
Xuan Jinyu didn't respond at first. He didn't provoke her, so there was no need for her to bite him as a punishment.
But she soon retracted her thoughts.
"Ouch." Xuan Jinyu was in so much pain that she couldn't help but bite him. As she bit him, she remembered something that she had forgotten for a long time.
She cried and began to accuse him of all the abominable things he had done to her.
"You're like a piece of wood, not a bit human at all. How is you any different from that ice sculpture?"
"There's someone hiding in my heart."
Xuan Jinyu felt extremely wronged. She hadn't thought about this for months, but when she did, a wave of frustration and sadness washed over her. Tears streamed down her face. "Why did you marry me when you had someone else in your heart?"
"You stinky bastard, stinky man."
Su Guanzhang was scolded by her so much that he didn't dare to say a word at first. But when he heard her say that he had someone else in his heart, he got a little anxious and hurriedly explained: "I have someone in my heart, but it has always been you."
Xuan Jinyu was still sobbing and didn't hear what he was saying at all.
Su Guanzhang didn't know what to do when he saw this. But in a moment, he leaned over and covered her lips, gently soothing her.
Xuan Jinyu was crying so hard that she was dazed by his sudden kiss and forgot to cry for a moment.
"Jinyu, you have always been the one in my heart." Su Guanzhang said softly, "I'm sorry, I haven't found a chance to tell you." His eyes were gentle, with a hint of tenderness.
As early as the first night they were in the death row of the Ministry of Justice, he wanted to explain everything to her, but was interrupted by someone who came secretly.
Then, he realized that she might still have a chance of survival, so he refrained from mentioning the matter again.
What happened next was that Xuan Jinyu broke up with him, had a cold war with him, and then returned home to take care of her pregnancy, leaving him no chance to explain.
The two of them finally reconciled at Shili Pavilion. He wanted to explain and didn't want her to misunderstand him again, but he was interrupted by the Xu and Chang families who came to see him off.
From that day on, they began to live a life of being monitored and escorted south. At first, he couldn't find a chance to explain; later, when the two of them were alone, he wanted to explain again, but Xuan Jinyu said that she had thought it through and asked him not to mention it again in the future.
And when he saw that she seemed to have no grudges, he thought that she really understood that she was the one in his heart, so he really never mentioned the matter again.
It was not until just now, after listening to Xuan Jinyu's accusation, that Su Guanzhang understood what she had meant when she said that day, "I've figured it out."
She clearly had a grudge, but forced herself not to think about it or care about it. She was so "connected"!
Without his knowledge, she had been enduring such grievances throughout her difficult pregnancy.
"It's my fault, Jinyu." Su Guanzhang's eyes, which had never been filled with emotion, were filled with regret and guilt. He thought of the past, "We clearly had three years before, but I never told you."
"In fact, the day I returned to Beijing, I caught a glimpse of you at the foot of Yaque Tower, and you immediately won my heart."
Su Guanzhang analyzed his thoughts with an unnatural expression, "I have already found out who your daughter is from. I was just about to ask my mother to come and propose marriage."
"It was at this time that my grandfather came to our Su family and explained his purpose."
"I told my grandfather that I fell in love with you at first sight, which is why he has been optimistic about our marriage for the next three years."
The more Su Guanzhang spoke, the gentler his expression became, and his unnatural posture disappeared. "Jinyu, there is no one else. The person in my heart has always been you."
"I'm sorry to tell you this at a time like this." He kissed her eyes affectionately, kissing away her tears.
"I don't dare to ask for your forgiveness. But now, please don't cry, okay? After the baby is born and the confinement period is over, I will let you beat and scold me as long as you calm down."
At this moment, the affection in his eyes almost overflowed from his eyes. It was like he had become a different person, no longer as cold and taciturn as before, like a cold jade sculpture.
Xuan Jinyu's mind went blank after hearing his series of confessions. It took her a while to come back to her senses.
This man said that she has always been the one in his heart?
"You didn't lie to me?" She was silent for a long time before she spoke, her voice trembling with tears.
"Jinyu, I didn't lie to you."
For some people, once they break through the psychological barriers and speak out the love words hidden in their hearts, they seem to speak them very smoothly and naturally, as if there is no transition time at all.
Or perhaps, it had been brewing silently during the years of silence, and now the transition was completed quietly.
Su Guanzhang is most likely the latter.
He looked at Xuan Jinyu tenderly, "Before marriage, the person in my heart was you; after marriage, the person in my heart is still you; for the rest of my life, it will still be you."
He stroked Xuan Jinyu's cheek, which was much fuller than before she was pregnant. "The day the Su family was imprisoned, my father received a message from Mobei in advance. I didn't want to implicate you."
"I arranged for the two maids you met in the garden, and I also taught them what to say."
The more he talked, the more Su Guanzhang felt like a bastard and that his crime was "unforgivable."
He closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, he said to Xuan Jinyu solemnly, "I'm sorry, I bullied you."
He married her, but did not let her know his feelings for three years, and made her bear the resentment and grievance of her husband having someone else in his heart during the long pregnancy.
He is unworthy of being a husband.
Sorry, that was all he could say.
At this moment, he was powerless, but he was willing to put his whole heart in front of his wife and let her do whatever she wanted with it. It didn't matter even if she tore it into pieces, because that was what he deserved.
"Su Guanzhang, you bastard." Xuan Jinyu listened to his confession word by word, her mind was in a mess and she had a mixed feeling in her heart.
She wanted to cry, but when she thought of what he had just said, she held it back.
The baby is about to be born and she can't cry.
Finally, anger took over, and she leaned over his shoulder and bit him hard. A few months later, she once again tasted the blood between her lips and teeth.
"I'm an asshole. I'm sorry for making you sad."
"I don't dare to ask for your forgiveness, but Jinyu," Su Guanzhang asked her nervously, "After the baby is born, if we return to the cliff, will you still be willing to live with me?"
"I promise I won't do that again."
"You don't like my silence, so I will talk to you more. You don't like me not smiling, so I will smile at you more."
"You said I don't understand romance, so I'll learn it, as long as you're happy."
"Anyway, I'll change anything you don't like."
At the end, he was a little cautious, "Is this okay?"
It was the first time that Xuan Jinyu saw this man so panicked yet pretending to be calm. Her heart began to soften, but she didn't want to let him go so easily. He had made her shed many tears.
However, before she could answer, her stomach, which had just calmed down a little, began to hurt again. The pain made her double over and gasp for air.
It hurt so much that Xuan Jinyu lost her strength and fell softly into Su Guanzhang's arms.
Su Guanzhang panicked a bit. Thinking of the warm water lake outside, he immediately picked up Xuan Jinyu and carried her sideways. "Jinyu, hold on. Let's go to the lake."
Giving birth in warm water can relieve the pain of the mother, which was told to him by a very prestigious old midwife.
"However, warm water can't be absolutely clean," the midwife said, "but I don't know what dangers it might pose to the mother and child."
She smiled, then quickly said to him in a serious tone, "General Su, giving birth is like going through hell for a woman, no matter where you give birth."
Even though he was a prisoner in the death row of the Ministry of Justice, she still regarded him as the young major general who had saved her family in Mobei, so she spoke without reservation.
"However, if conditions permit and it can alleviate the mother's pain, based on my 40 years of midwifery experience, I believe it's worth the risk."
The old midwife is over 60 years old, but she still insists on delivering babies. Every year, she pulls countless women back from the brink of death and sends newborn babies back to the world.
Her words are very valuable for reference.
Su Guanzhang recalled the old midwife's words and walked quickly. He was already at the lake with the baby in his arms.
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