Huo Qinian stared at Su Yunbai closely.

He was like a child waiting to be affirmed and examined, and his expression was obviously a little nervous.

Su Yunbai's heart trembled slightly.

She asked him: "Why didn't you say these words before?"

Huo Qinian thought she didn't believe him, and was really anxious, "What I said is true. I just..."

"I believe you." Su Yunbai said, "In fact, I may know why you didn't say it before..."

She looked at him, and her eyes fell on the mole on the side of his nose again, "Teacher Tan told me everything, about your childhood, about you and Mr. Huo, about this mole..."

Huo Qinian's expression froze, and the wolfish look on his face flashed away.

Su Yunbai sighed in his heart.

Look, he won't be happy for her to know.

He had never thought of telling her these things.

Their personalities were actually very similar, both willing to share glory, but not necessarily willing to share suffering.

But they were still different.

She wanted him to take the initiative to ask about her shame. As long as he was willing to ask, she would be willing to share. But he never asked. Since he didn't ask, how could she take the initiative to tell him? It was suspected of begging for mercy.

He was trying hard to hide these past events. It was not necessarily that he was not honest with her, but that he was just that kind of person. He might not even be honest with himself.

Su Yunbai sighed, "Qinian, I am willing to believe what you say, and I am willing to believe that you really want to save the relationship."

Huo Qinian's eyes lit up.

Su Yunbai said again, "But I no longer have the courage to turn back."

Huo Qinian was stunned.

Su Yunbai said, "You know what? I used to think that I was a big failure as a person."

She was not as strong-willed as him. She always insisted on being herself. Even if she was criticized, she thought that it was others who were wrong, not herself.

She couldn't do that. She would doubt herself.

There were actually quite a few people in the business circle of City A, but over the years, except for the Xu family, she rarely received obvious goodwill. Even if most people didn't spread rumors about her, they just watched from the other side. Those who didn't get involved from the beginning to the end were actually nice to her.

If one person was like this, Su Yunbai could express her disdain bluntly; if two people were like this, Su Yunbai could continue to insist that it was not her problem...

But what if there were ten or twenty people?

She was also an ordinary person, how could she not doubt herself?

- Is it really my fault? Am I really that unlikable?

Su Yunbai said, "I thought I was very bad, a failure as a person, not good at this or that, so I let people point fingers at me everywhere..."

Huo Qinian subconsciously retorted, "No."

Su Yunbai smiled, "Of course I know it's not. I found out later that your circle is actually very exclusive and it is not easy to accept outsiders, not to mention that there is a Huo Manying who is doing her best to discredit me...

"I understood everything later, but that was something I understood later. I still feel scared when I think about the torment and self-doubt I experienced.

"No one likes to live in an environment full of □□. My emotions have always been gray, do you understand?

"But I could have lived a sunny life. I am living such a life now. "I finally got out of that self-doubt. Tell me, why should I fall into the same pit again?"

Huo Qinian was heartbroken.

He said bitterly, "It's my fault. It's my attitude that affected them..." He took a deep breath, "But I can promise that this will never happen again."

Su Yunbai pulled the corners of his mouth, but the smile did not reach his eyes.

Huo Qinian felt heavy and powerless. He always did not believe in the power of words, but at this moment, he begged Su Yunbai to believe his heartfelt words: "Yunbai, please believe me!"

Su Yunbai thought for a while and said, "Love can actually make people selfless, can make people drink water with love, can make people ignore the bad things in reality... Of course, it also includes enduring those negative voices. "

When Huo Qinian heard this, his expression unconsciously showed a little expectation, but this expectation also contained a little panic.

Is she laying the groundwork for something?

Su Yunbai was indeed just laying the groundwork.

She continued: "But I can't stand such negative voices now, and I don't even want to endure it. Qinian, you are so smart, you must know why, right?"

Huo Qinian gritted his teeth, "I don't know."

Su Yunbai asked him: "Then let me change my angle. Mr. Huo was sorry for you when he was a child, and I believe he must have regretted it later. He must also want to compensate you. Qinian, are you willing to accept Mr. Huo's compensation? "

Huo Qinian's face changed slightly.

If he was willing to accept Mr. Huo's compensation, why would their father-son relationship be like it is today?

He subconsciously said: "Yunbai, this is different. I have long passed the age of craving for father's love..."

Su Yunbai's voice was soft, as if it would be blown away by the wind: "Why not me?"

She said: "When I was a child, I liked to eat candy, watch cartoons, and play with bubble water... But I didn't like it later. You can say that you like novelty and dislike old things, or you can say that you have grown up, you have to admit that people have different ideas and hobbies at different stages.

"I used to be obsessed with you, so obsessed that I was even willing to give up my dignity, work, and personality for you... You are simply my white moonlight.

"But everything in this world has a shelf life, and so do feelings and waiting. Now, I have passed that stage, and I no longer..."

Huo Qinian almost covered Su Yunbai's mouth in panic.

He said in a fierce voice: "I don't believe it! You just want me to give up, I won't believe it..."

How is it possible? They have only been divorced for a year, and she no longer likes him?

He doesn't believe it!

Huo Qinian said: "You are just too angry with me and too disappointed in me, so you feel exhausted physically and mentally, and you feel that you will never again... right?"

He looked at Su Yunbai eagerly, as if he wanted to verify something from the look in her eyes.

He seemed to remember something, and held Su Yunbai's hand, and put it on his brow bone, "Haven't you always wanted to touch it? Touch it.

"Look into my eyes, Yunbai... I don't believe it."

Su Yunbai's hand was placed on Huo Qinian's brow bone, but he didn't move.

The small area under the palm of his hand was warm, tight, and bony, with a sense of power that never lost. But now, its owner was looking at her with a confused and frightened look, and he looked a little pitiful.

Su Yunbai whispered: "So, you actually knew it all along. "

Knowing her cautiousness, knowing her restlessness, knowing her sour but strong little thoughts...

Yes, how could he not know? He always knows people's hearts. He

was just reluctant to respond to her. When she passed the stage of expectation, he wanted to turn back.

But it was too late! She no longer had the time, let alone the energy to toss around. In her twenties, she could still be dazzled by love, but now she has reached the end of her twenties. , what he longed for was something else.

Huo Qinian looked into Su Yunbai's eyes.

His shadow was reflected in those clear and unique eyes, as if his heart and eyes were filled with him. But the emotions of its owner were hidden in a deeper and heavier place, as if there was a layer of thick fog between them, and all that was left in front of him was a cold and thin warmth.

Huo Qinian grabbed Su Yunbai's hand unconsciously with force, "I ignored you too much in the past, and I didn't know how to get along with you... No one taught me these. I will learn, and I will learn quickly..."

Su Yunbai sighed: "Qinian, you don't need to learn to love someone, it is something inherent in your body. The fact that you still need to learn it means..."

Either he doesn't love you enough, or he is used to relying on her love to feel fearless.

But it doesn't matter, she doesn't care anymore.

Su Yunbai said: "Qinian, let go, it's not worth it. The time and energy you spend are heavy costs. The more unwilling you are, the more stubborn you will be..."

She was like this a year ago, like she was addicted, and there was no reason at all.

Su Yunbai continued: "You are like a gambler who is obsessed with winning at the gambling table. You are just drunk and may not know what you want at all."

"Don't be so sure. You are not me, how do you know what I think? "Huo Qinian's voice was hoarse.

Su Yunbai said: "But in my opinion, you just don't understand what you want. I'm not that important, at least not to you.

"We have been divorced for a year. You see, we are still doing well after divorcing each other."

"I'm not doing well, I won't let go." Huo Qinian's eyes were particularly stubborn.

Su Yunbai was amused by this, "What are you holding on to? Qinian, I'm leaving. I don't know when I will come back, maybe there will be no return at all. Whether you are living a life of debauchery or going through ups and downs here, I will not know.

"I don't want to know anymore. I once loved you, but that's the past. If you still appreciate my efforts, please stand in my shoes and don't bother me anymore. "

She looked into his eyes," and don't look so betrayed and hurt anymore. There's no need. I'm more accustomed to the way you used to be. Proud and arrogant.

"I hope you can always be so proud and realize all your ambitions and dreams one by one.

"I'm not being sarcastic, I mean it sincerely. "

She smiled, and there was warmth in her smile, as if it was really a farewell between old friends, with a warm pulse.

Huo Qinian's heart was frozen and trembling.

He grabbed Su Yunbai's hand and didn't want to let go. But it was useless. Time is the fairest thing in the world and never stops for anyone. The reminder of the boarding gate rang as expected. The person he saw finally ran out of patience and called the security personnel in a cold tone.

He was stopped unceremoniously, but she straightened her back and walked towards the boarding gate, step by step, very calmly.

She was still that Su Yunbai, never used to looking back.

The plane crossed the sky and took away the person he was thinking about.

Huo Qinian's heart also became empty.

Su Yunbai's words before parting were sincere and could be regarded as blessings, but they seemed like a curse that took effect on Huo Qinian on the day she left.

He was not proud at all, but could only stay in the study on the first floor of Lianshan, drunk as a dregs, like a wounded bereaved dog.

Life is a big drunk, and everything is empty when you wake up. But there is everything in the dream - they love each other, they are in love.

They have no quarrels, no divorce, no so many distant regrets and mistakes between them...

They will never be separated.