Chapter 120: Dating with the Ex "I'm deceiving myself by pretending not to love you, so...
"What if the person you like doesn't choose you in the end?"
Zhu Shengting thought carefully. He didn't say anything absolute, but instead said, "Respect all his decisions."
"I was prepared for this before coming to this show. I will accept any outcome."
"My answer to this question is the same as before."
On the other side, in the back interview room, the staff asked He Yan one last question.
"Is the person you want to choose now the same as the one you chose last time?"
He Yan didn't hesitate, "Same."
"Actually, ever since I joined this show, there has only been one possible choice for me."
"If at first I just wanted to understand why he chose to come to this show, now my answer is becoming clearer as he walks towards me."
*
The interview lasted for three hours. He Yan was the first person to finish the interview. He returned to his room and started choosing clothes for his date tonight.
After all, it was his last date on the show, so he decided to choose his outfit carefully and look a little more formal.
More than ten minutes later, after he changed his clothes, he received a reminder text message from the program team.
"Dear friends, the last date will officially start in fifteen minutes, and the live broadcast will also start simultaneously. Please be prepared~"
He Yan turned off his cell phone and put it in his pocket. He sprayed perfume, and walked out of the room after completing all preparations.
He just opened the door and saw Yuan Xingliang running up from downstairs, panting. "Brother Yan! Are you ready? So handsome!"
"Don't worry." He Yan patted Yuan Xingliang's shoulder and smiled gently.
Yuan Xingliang slowed down, then nodded, "Okay, I'll go change my clothes first."
When He Yan walked downstairs, Zhu Shengting was already standing at the door of the villa.
He was stunned by Zhu Shengting's tall back in a white shirt and black suit pants.
The person being stared at seemed to sense something, turned around, and looked straight into He Yan's eyes.
This was the first time He Yan had seen Zhu Shengting with his hair parted in the back in all these days. It was very different from the smooth-haired look he had a few days ago, and his whole demeanor had become more mature.
It has a completely different charm from smooth hair.
But what’s even more coincidental is that He Yan also picked a white shirt today.
Zhou Chengyin walked down the stairs at this moment and saw the backs of Zhu Shengting and He Yan, feeling quite harmonious.
"You two are a perfect match." He couldn't help but teasing.
Zhu Shengting's eyes were fixed on He Yan without moving an inch. He Yan's ears turned red unconsciously. He smiled calmly at Zhou Chengyin who was teasing him, then turned his head and looked at Zhu Shengting again.
"Let's go." Zhu Shengting's voice was low and pleasant.
He Yan walked up to him and said, "Yeah."
The live broadcast process this time was the same as the previous times. Not long after the two people got in the car, the live broadcast officially began.
【Mom and Dad, here I come again】
[This is our last date, right? Wow, what a shame!]
Time flies... Twenty days ago, I would never have thought that we would be able to perform together again at the feast.
[Hmm… I didn’t expect it to be on a dating variety show]
【Still an ex-boyfriend! 】
[After this show ends, we're no longer exes, right? Right, Feast?]
[That's the package. Now that the feast is sweet, I don't want to say anything more.]
[The last date with the ex, at the feast here is a gift, there are a few couples [pointing fingers]]
[Hehehe! Two of them are wearing matching outfits again! The white shirts go really well together.]
[If you don’t know, you might think we are going to take a photo for the marriage certificate]
[It’s not impossible to stop by, hehe]
[I checked the lunar calendar and it's a good day to get married! I support getting the marriage certificate today.]
"The last time I went to eat Cantonese food was a month ago." Zhu Shengting said casually.
"The time when you went to Hong Kong to receive the award?" He Yan continued.
A trace of surprise flashed in Zhu Shengting's eyes, "You know I..."
He Yan coughed twice, and the atmosphere was a little awkward, but he felt that any explanation would be too vague, so he finally nodded slightly.
"It's on the trending search, congratulations to the great director, it's hard for others not to know about it." He still added with a stiff upper lip.
[Wow...Sister Yan, you]
If I remember correctly, at that time, we were still in the stage of pure regret for not having reunited.
[Facts have proven that hate alone may not outlast love, but intense love combined with hate can outlast anything else!]
[Okay, now brother-in-law Ting is going to be happy again, knowing that he is being remembered]
[I feel good too...I'm sorry]
[So the feast is that after breaking up, whenever you think of the other person, you still miss them, right?]
[That's it!]
"Well, the Cantonese food in Gangcheng is very authentic. Next time we have a chance, we can go there to eat together. It was my first time to go to Gangcheng to receive the award, and I didn't stay there for long." Zhu Shengting said with a smile, without showing the surprise in his heart.
He Yan's heart moved. He remembered that time because the next day was the day they met again at the dinner party.
The timing was such a coincidence that he had to make a guess.
"In that case, why didn't you stay there for a few more days?" he asked casually.
Zhu Shengting turned his head, looked directly at He Yan, and answered frankly: "To see you."
The answer knocks on the door of He Yan's heart and is also the key to his softest spot.
"Then your view is indeed unique." He Yan tilted his head to look out the window, unable to suppress the corners of his mouth rising.
Zhu Shengting could see He Yan's thoughts clearly in the hazy reflection of the car window.
He said softly: "As long as I can achieve my goal of seeing you."
[Nima…so???]
【The reunion was intentional!!!】
[Oh my god, I knew such a coincidence would happen to us at the banquet! Turns out it was Madam Ting who...]
[Ha, so in other words, during the days of mourning, crying, making a scene, hanging oneself, and lying on the grave, Brother-in-law Ting had actually been "planning" for a reunion for a long time, right?]
[Fuck, this is too good to eat... I've never eaten anything like this before]
[Ah, it's so sweet that Brother-in-law Ting brought this up now. Sister-in-law Yan must be feeling so sweet.]
I command you to kiss me.
[Feast's few words of dialogue woke everyone up. It was terrifying.]
[When I think about the fight at the dinner party that night between Tingsi and Yansi, I want to laugh.]
As soon as Zhu Shengting and He Yan finished talking about this during the live broadcast, the clip became a hot topic.
#The reunion of Zhu Shengting and He Yan was an intentional entry, and within just a dozen minutes, it went from hot to boiling, and even exploded.
The video of their reunion at the dinner party had already been widely circulated, and now the person involved directly confirmed that he did it on purpose. This not only made the CP fans go crazy, but also shocked the onlookers.
The discussion level soared, and the hot discussion that followed on various platforms was: When Zhu Shengting received such an important award, he rushed back from afar just to see He Yan again, but when he asked his partner to order a cup of milk tea, the other party was reluctant, and it was obvious whether he loved him or not.
So not only the CP fans, but also many onlookers couldn't help but sigh at the relationship between the two for so many years, and began to sincerely wish them to get back together when the show ended.
Although there were still some discordant voices, they were quickly suppressed by good reviews.
However, Zhu Shengting and He Yan, who were on a date, were unaware of all these external voices.
*
"Actually, it must have been a long time ago that we two sat down to have a meal alone, right?" He Yan took a sip of slightly hot black tea.
Zhu Shengting took a bite of the sausage and put down his chopsticks. "Actually... it should have only happened once."
"Before, I always had dinner alone at home or in a hotel. Only that time was I photographed."
He smiled and thought about what happened seven years ago.
He Yan lowered his eyes and extracted information from his memories. The conclusion he finally came to was the same as what Zhu Shengting had just said.
Because the time they were together was actually very short, it could only be considered a flash in the pan in seven years.
In fact, that period was the busiest period for their respective careers. Apart from occasionally ordering takeout to eat together in the hotel or Zhu Shengting cooking for himself in the apartment, the only time they ate alone was during the filming of "When the Grain Rain Comes" when Zhu Shengting had something to tell him and asked him to eat.
[Oh, I remember that time... I was even saying that they were deliberately trying to create a CP and have people pretend to meet by chance.]
[Old memories flooded back... I was so impressed by that encounter that the picture is still in my photo album, I can't bear to delete it even though it's blurry.]
[Oh my god, I remember that time I died of drug addiction again]
[Fuck, this is where I got into this! Who knows?! It was because that chance encounter picture was so good-looking that I stepped right into the abyss of the feast... Haha, I almost got doomed.]
[Damn, I feel so sad. So Shengyan only went out for a date alone that one time?? And that was before they were together.]
【Loving my feast baby】
[This is all due to Meng Chuan, haha! ]
You two must go on more dates in the future.
"There should be more opportunities in the future, right?" Zhu Shengting raised his glass and smiled gently at He Yan.
He Yan curled his eyes and tilted his head, clinking glasses with the others, "Let's talk about the future later."
"After all, this is the second time now, isn't it?"
Zhu Shengting looked straight at He Yan, and fell quietly into the other's charming and beautiful eyes as the seconds passed.
He couldn't even bear to look away. He just wanted to sit opposite He Yan and watch him do anything until the end of time.
"He Yan, in these years of separation, haven't you thought about developing a new relationship?" Zhu Shengting couldn't help but ask the question he had always wanted to ask but didn't have the courage to ask.
And today is our last official date on the show, so there's no better time.
He Yan looked at him, "Do you want me to say yes or no?"
Zhu Shengting felt a dull pain in his heart. He spoke frankly, "I hope you say yes, but I also hope you say no."
He Yan blinked slowly, waiting for Zhu Shengting to continue.
"I hope you do, because I hope you can have a new relationship. It must be with someone better than me, so that I can match you and make you forget the pain I have caused you."
"I also hope you haven't, because I'm a very selfish person. If I had the chance, I would hold you tightly again and never let go. I hope that I can be the only one standing by your side from beginning to end, but seven years is a bit too long. I told myself that I can't be so selfish. After all, ensuring your happiness is the primary purpose of my decision."
Zhu Shengting spoke seriously, analyzing everything in his heart.
[Ah, brother-in-law Ting, you...sigh]
Zhu Shengting was probably also afraid that Sister Yan would fall in love with someone else after he left. After all, it was Sister Yan who left for no reason, so it was understandable that she would fall in love with someone else and develop a new relationship.
[It hurts so much... I love you so much, but I have to leave you. This is the reality that makes me sad.]
[Such a real thought, because I still love the other person, but I have also hurt the other person, so on the one hand I hope that there will be a better person to love the other person, and on the other hand I hope that the other person can only love me]
[In fact, if it were someone else, perhaps other relationships would develop, but for Mrs. Yan... there should be no one who can make her heart flutter anymore, otherwise there wouldn't be so many years without a single scandal, sealing her heart and locking away her love.]
[But love is uncontrollable. Some people have hurt me before, and I can't stop loving them. What's more, Ting's husband was forced to do so. Alas.]
[But the damage was inevitable, so I feel even more guilty and painful. Sometimes I wonder if it would have been better if I hadn't taken that step.]
[But that was a brave step towards love. It was precisely because of the resoluteness at that time that we have the firm two-way running towards each other today.]
"Zhu Shengting." He Yan put down the glass, supported his chin with one hand and looked at the person opposite him.
"When you broke up with me, all my emotions were poured out in that last phone call with you."
"I was shocked, puzzled, exhausted, heartbroken, depressed, and even filled with hatred. Not a single emotion remained at that time. For a while afterwards, I also tried to think about why you gave me this answer. After a long time, I seemed to guess a little. Later, I saw that you had become an excellent director and saw your works. At that time, I began to allow myself to admit my attachment to you."
"It's not like someone hasn't told me in these seven years that you shouldn't hang yourself on a tree. Human nature usually won't let you do that. But I just can't forget. In the days since you left, I've found myself gradually forgetting the pain you caused me, and finally recalling the unique things you gave me. Perhaps the love you gave me is more precious than the pain, so you said you'd hope there was someone better to be with me. But I don't want that 'good' person, I want my own 'love'."
“No matter how good a person is, if I don’t love them, they shouldn’t belong to me.”
Zhu Shengting's eyes slowly turned red as he listened to He Yan's words, and he was reluctant to blink.
He Yan looked at him and smiled. The steam from the seafood porridge made his cheeks flush a beautiful pink. He continued.
"Zhu Shengting, do you know that I discovered a secret during these seven years?"
"The secret is, the process of forgiving you will be painful for me, but deceiving myself by pretending that I don't love you will make me even more painful."
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