Chapter 3413 Extra Yin or
Yin Huo knew from a young age that he was different from other children, because he was like an ice cube in summer, which had to be carefully protected and prevented from melting.
It seemed as if every day was a day of danger of melting away.
Everyone wanted him to be alive, his grandmother, his father, his sisters, but no one asked him if he wanted to be alive.
Yin Huo didn't want to at all.
He did not feel the joy of living, he only felt pain. In this world, he had no friends and would never have any friends.
He has relatives, but the love they give him makes him almost breathless. Sometimes he even doubts whether they love him or his identity as the continuation of the family line.
When he couldn't sleep at night, he wanted to kill himself more than once. He thought of many ways, none of which required drastic methods such as hanging himself or cutting his wrists or taking medicine. He could achieve his goal by simply kicking away the quilt or pouring out the medicine that was brought to his mouth.
In fact, he had done so, but the result was that the servant who served him was held in the yard and severely punished. If he had not heard the noise and rushed out, he would have been so frightened that he started coughing violently, almost coughing his life out. The servant who served him would probably have been beaten to death.
But since then he has understood that his life is not only his life, but also the lives of those around him.
He could die without caring about his family's grief, but he could not ignore the life and death of the people around him, especially Changshou, who was chosen by him personally to be by his side and was his.
So he felt that life was rather dull. In life, he couldn't fight against heaven; in death, he couldn't fight against people. He couldn't decide whether to live or die. He was the first person in history to achieve this.
He had originally prepared to live his life according to their arrangements, but in the end, he still felt a little unwilling.
He finally got to be a human being, so why should he be trapped in this small courtyard until his death?
So when his family was preparing to arrange a marriage for him, he put in a lot of effort to convince his family to send him to study at the Imperial College.
He didn't desire much, he just wanted to go out and see other people and other scenery. At least, he had to let his heart know that he had lived in this world.
Even if it's only two years, or even one year.
So Yin Huo went out of the house regularly for the first time to attend school at the Imperial College.
Although this puts a lot of strain on his body and makes it hard for him to get up every day, he enjoys doing it because it makes him feel alive.
He could feel that the dosage of medicine sent to him recently was getting larger and larger. They were waiting, waiting for his body to recover to the best condition, waiting for him to find the right person to marry, and then get married and have children...
Once a child is born, his mission in this world is completed.
Yin Huo thought that he should live every day as if it were his last. Before entering the Imperial College, he never expected to meet people like Bai Shan, Zhou Man and Bai Er.
He knew that many people out there hated him. They wouldn't be friends with him or even associate with him, and he knew the reason.
He never thought about making friends.
Making friends...you'd be sad if a friend died, right?
So it’s quite boring. Since we all know that we will have a short life, why should we make friends?
To deceive a tear?
Whenever Yin Huo was emotional, no matter if he was sad, angry, or ashamed, as long as his emotions were up and down, he would cry uncontrollably. He hated himself for being like this and had privately repented with Changshou.
But when he gets emotional, he will cry. No matter how hard he tries to hold back his tears, his eyes will still turn red, which makes him even more emotional, and he will eventually feel dizzy and faint.
He thought that compared to crying, those standing opposite him would be more afraid of him fainting?
So he had no choice but to not change. To him, face was not something he could even consider a human being, so what face did he need?
But I'm still very angry.
Especially because of him, his sister always caused trouble for those people. She was not only angry, but more ashamed.
He even thought about not going to school anymore, but then he thought, this was an opportunity he had fought for with his life, why shouldn't he go?
He thought that his "confrontation" with Bai Shan would end up like those in the past, with Bai Shan being defeated by his sisters and eventually becoming hostile to him. However, he did not expect that his senior sisters and junior brothers would come to him.
He never expected that his senior sister was a young lady younger than him. She was obviously younger than him, but when she saw him, she acted very old. After seeing him, she did not scold or insult him. Instead, she said to him earnestly, "You are sick. This is an illness. You need treatment!"
Yin Huo's eyes were red at that time, and he thought she was scolding him, but after a pause he realized that she was not. She was just stating that she really thought he was sick.
It was the first time someone said that he was sick because he cried so much, and Yin Huo looked at her curiously.
For many years thereafter, whenever Yin Huo thought of their meeting, he would be thankful for his rise to prominence back then, otherwise he would not have gone to the Imperial College, nor would he have met Bai Shan, and then met Zhou Man and Bai Er.
He even felt a little grateful to his sisters. If they hadn't gone to block Bai Shan, the four of them probably wouldn't have had so many interactions.
From then on, Yin Huo felt kindness from outsiders for the first time, and felt treated equally.
It turns out that being treated without any "pity" is so joyful.
He was very happy that he had made friends. For the first time, he felt that being alive was actually quite good.
Whether it's Bai Shan, Zhou Man, or Bai Er, they are all very healthy. Not only can they run and jump, cry and laugh freely, but they can also use sacks to trap people...
Being a human being is so interesting.
For the first time, Yin Huo had the idea of living for himself. He wanted to live without having to pass on his family line, and live according to his own ideas. He would be willing to die early.
Many times, he wanted to talk to Bai Shan and give him Changshou. He had even packed the indenture, but he just couldn't give it to him.
He was not brave enough, and he could not say those words when he met his grandmother's expectant gaze.
In the end, Zhou Man made the decision for him and told him, "As long as you don't get married and take good care of your health, I can help you live many more years, really."
With this reason, Yin Huo was finally able to speak to his grandmother tentatively.
It’s a pity that grandma doesn’t trust Zhou Man, no, she shouldn’t trust him.
Yin Huo made the third boldest decision in his life. He threw away the medicine his family had prepared for him, drank the medicine Zhou Man had prepared for him, and accepted her acupuncture...
This was probably the second best decision he had ever made in his life.
It was also from that day that he deviated from the path chosen for him by his family, and he deviated more and more, until he was able to do everything according to his own ideas.
Yin Huo once asked his father, "Don't you blame me?"
Yin Li shook his head: "I don't blame you, as long as you are alive."
Yin Huo asked with red eyes, "Why didn't you think so before?"
Yin Li said helplessly, "I used to think so too. I thought that was the best way for you to live. I didn't know it was so hard for you to live like that."
The extra chapter is almost over. I'm working on the information and outline for the new book recently, so I won't be updating much. I'll only update two chapters a day from now on.
(End of this chapter)
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