Chapter 1300 The Returnee's Notes 374
Cao Zi looked at the hotel suite Xie Ning had booked with a blank expression, his eyes filled with curiosity mixed with a strange fear.
When Xie Ning carefully chose his words to ask him, Cao Zi just looked quietly into Xie Ning's eyes. At this moment, Xie Ning took off his glasses and seemed less indifferent than he had been during the day.
It didn't answer Xie Ning's question first, but said softly, "Master, are you afraid that I will be in pain?"
Xie Ning was stunned, and then she heard Cao Zi's voice lower even further, "Are you concerned about my feelings?"
"This is just a normal sentence..."
"No, this is not normal."
Cao Zi shook its head, one of its eyes almost falling off, then grinned and said, "Maybe I'm just unlucky and haven't met a normal person like you, so I take the abnormal for normal."
It is very clear-headed.
"You know I lost my father when I was very young, and my mother raised me."
When I was little, I didn't understand why my dad would learn to bark like a dog for such a small amount of money—just two hundred yuan... He could endure so many people's ridicule and lie on the ground barking like a dog.
I was extremely upset at that time. I never wore the clothes my dad bought for me with those two hundred yuan.
Then my dad passed away. How could he be so careless about his health? He was always squeezing in extra time to cover shifts for others, and that little bit of extra money was slowly eroding his lifespan...
He eventually died at the train station, with all his belongings lying beside him in a large snakeskin bag.
Like my dad, my mom sets up her stall before dawn and haggles over every penny, which doesn't look very respectable.
These are things I didn't understand when I was a child, because all I needed to do was study. My parents always said that as long as I studied, there would be a future for me.
The phrase "can read books" and "get ashore" seem so ideal and wonderful, as if we've been in a puddle since birth, and all that's needed is to get ashore.
There are those who pass the college entrance exam, those who pass the postgraduate entrance exam, and those who pass the civil service exam. Our journey is like climbing out of one puddle, then jumping into another, climbing out again, and jumping in again...
Does this road have an end?
The road has no end, but for some people, it is full of puddles and thorns, while for others it is a smooth road paved with flowers.
Why is life so unfair? I'm jealous, but I also feel I shouldn't be jealous; it's just that I'm not destined for that.
I didn't pass the postgraduate entrance exam or the civil service exam; I just climbed out of the quagmire of the college entrance exam and then went into a tall office building.
The place was brightly lit, and from the outside, it looked like a dazzling sight, a modern display of neon colors.
The cows were kept in cowsheds, while the people were kept in individual cubicles inside.
Perhaps I should be thankful that I can sit in an office building, even though the suffocating smell still permeates the space. But this smell is everywhere, only less noticeable in some places.
I am able to wear a presentable suit and go with my boss to discuss cooperation.
Drinking to the point of stomach bleeding is common and nothing to talk about, but I never imagined as a child that I would end up like my father.
My mother is sick... I need money to buy medicine.
The clothes it didn't wear as a child were worn by it as an adult.
Looking at Xie Ning, and then at the understated yet luxurious suite, Cao Zi suddenly felt a pang of sadness. It had only ever been in contact with second-generation figures, and not even the heirs.
Those second-generation rich kids only need to play around and invest, and they'll still have one or two small companies under their belt.
It may not seem that impressive, but for the company it belongs to, a little bit of resources is enough to make it very prosperous.
They'll feed you if they're happy.
Cao Zi also thought, "Where can't we eat?"
But it couldn't move. Its mother's illness weighed heavily on it. If it left, it might never find such a high-paying job again. It needed that performance bonus.
Unfortunately, its bent back was still broken.
Dignity is nothing, money is all that matters. Money is the most important thing; only with money can you survive.
Dignity is nothing compared to life.
It's nothing more than trying to please others and acting like a servant to them. Most people in this world are acting like servants. They want to muster the courage to be themselves, but it's hard to live if you're true to yourself.
The highway in Huai Mountain is like a coiled snake. It drives along, thinking that as long as it reaches the destination, it can get a big order, but it can't avoid the bend of death.
Just like it can never avoid the puddles on the road.
They are all those perpetually damp "landers";
Xie Ning remained silent, and Cao Zi did not need Xie Ning's comfort.
“My story is insignificant, because most people in this world live like this, yet they are always like cattle and sheep penned up, never able to escape this pasture.”
Why is our life like this? Is it because I haven't tried hard enough?
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