Chapter 2440 A Letter to Pian Pian
A letter to Pian Pian
Hello, Pianpian, I am Gu Chuyang.
I am now recuperating in a nursing home in California. Ye Danggui said that it will take another two months for me to return to China to see you.
I miss you very much, but I think if I see you, I should say sorry to you first.
I'm speaking for my brother and for myself.
My brother's name is Gu Chuyan, the Chu Yan you know.
He is not a qualified brother. He is not often with me and does not take good care of me. I often get lost in a foreign country. And I know that he has more important things in his heart than taking care of me, his sister.
But I don't blame him. Although he is not a qualified brother, he is a very good brother.
He once told me that even though I couldn't stop him from making any decision, it didn't mean I wasn't important.
I was a little fool at that time and didn’t understand anything, but now I am sober and I think I understand it all.
My brother is not a good person. I know you must think so too, Pianpian. In fact, I think so too.
He did a lot of things that he shouldn't have done. He did a lot of things that hurt you and Mr. Cheng. If he were still alive, I would definitely scold him or beat him angrily, but my brother is dead, so I can't help you beat him... I'm sorry to say that I would like to ask Pianpian to hate my brother a little, just a little, less.
Because I know that although my brother is a bad guy, he likes you.
At that time I was too stupid to understand, but now I have become smarter and I know everything. After knowing it, I am even more grateful to Pian Pian (crooked smile)
My brother lives a very hard life.
A month ago, I actually couldn’t understand why my brother made himself work so hard when he could have lived an easier life. But now I have figured it out. People are different, and their choices and priorities are also different.
For some things, some people can choose to let go, but some people cannot, and cannot let go. Letting go means death.
My brother is like that.
There is no right or wrong in people’s choices. What my brother did was wrong because it was his way of achieving his goal.
He shouldn't have hurt innocent people, shouldn't have done so many bad things for his own goals, and shouldn't have kidnapped Pianpian. He didn't do anything wrong to hurt Mr. Cheng, and he almost couldn't wake up... I know that during the time you were waiting for Mr. Cheng to wake up, you must have been very sad and tormented, so after knowing that you also built a cenotaph for your brother, I am even more grateful to you.
I remember you always called me the little sun, but Pianpian, in my eyes you are the little sun.
If I hadn't met you, the rest of my brother's life would probably have been filled with cold and bloody revenge, without any sunshine at all.
After all, I, his sister, am a fool who makes him despair. Not only can I not make him happy, but I can only make him sad.
I know he is sad. In fact, he must be very sad every time he sees me, because I represent the death of my parents, I represent the darkest memory of my family. I live like that hatred standing in front of my brother every day, bloody and vivid, constantly reminding him that he should take revenge.
...Luckily you are here, Pianpian.
If it weren't for you, I really wouldn't dare to get better.
I dare not use my clear mind to recall my brother's life, let alone guess what he was thinking before he died.
But now I dare.
Because of you, I know that, even if it's just a little bit, he must have felt warm and worthwhile before he died.
Whenever I think of this, I can't help but smile.
Pianpian, on behalf of my bad brother and myself, who is troublesome, I want to say thank you and sorry to you.
The doctor told me to go for a walk, so I'll stop writing here for now.
I can't write well, and I can't speak well either. My words are always incoherent. I hope Pianpian won't dislike it. When I have practiced well, I will stand in front of you and say it in person.
By the way, I will also apologize to Mr. Cheng... If he is willing to see me, can Pian Pian put in a good word for me? If I want to come to your house, do I need Mr. Cheng's permission?
————I like you, Chuyang】
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