Chapter 27 I am disappointed that my girlfriend doesn’t want me anymore
Xu Zhijian had been in contact with all kinds of people since he was a child, so how could he not know that people's hearts were unpredictable? But he never thought that Wen Nian would suddenly change so drastically one day.
She had pursued him so passionately, and her eyes were sincere and firm when she made a promise to him in person.
With every minute they spent together, his trust in her kept growing, to the point where he threw everything under the bus and unconditionally exposed himself to her. Even after she abandoned him for a year, he still felt that she had misunderstood him, was just angry, and needed him to coax her more.
He had long regarded her as a part of his life and could never give her up in this life.
But she said if she didn't like it, then she didn't like it.
How I wish this was just a dream...
Xu Zhijian lowered his eyes and muttered, his voice choking a little, "I always thought the problem only arose around the time she graduated. Before that, we still had video calls every day..."
She was going to prepare for the postgraduate entrance exam, and he wanted to accompany her, so he needed an internship. During those three months, he was interning in another province, and he would have long video calls with her every day when he had free time.
He watched her study quietly, and she would tease him from time to time, telling him what she wanted to eat and asking him to go home and take her there. She also asked him to study hard and get into the same school as her.
"We were all fine back then, but now it seems she's had a problem with me for a long time, and the last moment was just the fuse that condensed all her dissatisfaction with me."
Chang Jun thought about it and was quite touched: "Yes, disappointment accumulates slowly, and once it finally explodes, it may lead to irreversible consequences."
"She said she doesn't like to pretend to be cheerful. I think I understand a little bit. Every time I saw her before, she was always smiling and very enthusiastic towards everyone. If she bought something for us, she would buy an extra one. But when I saw her these past two days, that feeling was completely gone. It was like she was a different person. She's actually not that talkative, doesn't like to wander around, and doesn't bother to pay attention to us."
"Think about it, it's really torturous. Wen Nian is a good girl. You didn't realize the problem at the time. I guess she still had expectations of you and didn't express those bad emotions. Also, you really cared about her in the next two years."
It was during that time that they all said that Xu Zhijian had been treated like a dog.
He used to be more extravagant than anyone else, and even they had to be careful in front of him. Unexpectedly, one day he would obey his girlfriend's orders, and the tone he spoke to her was so harsh.
He changed the subject, "But remember when you first started dating her, you often made her angry. You thought you could just coax her away, but maybe scars had already been left in her heart. Who knows, one day they might be uncovered, revealing the blood inside - today is it."
After he finished speaking, seeing Xu Zhijian was silent again, he slapped his own mouth with great regret.
The next two years...
Xu Zhijian remembered very clearly that Wen Nian broke up with him for the first time at the beginning of his sophomore year.
That day, Li Yao had just reported to the school and was not familiar with the area around here. She wanted him to take her for a walk around the area and buy some things. As a friend, it was difficult for him to refuse. They had grown up together and had a good relationship, so he didn't think it was inappropriate.
Later, I met Wen Nian in the mall.
He knew that she was sensitive and had a strong control desire, and would not allow him to get close to other girls, so he immediately introduced the situation to her and wanted to take her with him.
Wen Nian flatly refused, smiling and saying that she had a stomachache and wanted to go back to rest. He was inexperienced at the time and didn't notice anything wrong, so he sent her to the car and went back to accompany Li Yao.
But something unexpected happened at night.
It was raining that day, and he knew she would be too lazy to go out to buy food, so he brought her some food from outside and ran to the girls' dormitory to wait for her. In the end, what he waited for was her cold words: "Xu Zhijian, let's break up."
He was confused and asked her why.
The tip of her nose was red, obviously she had been crying, and she just kept saying that she didn't want to talk to him anymore and hated him.
As he spoke, tears began to fall again.
He was heartbroken at the time and didn't ask any more questions. He quickly wiped her tears, comforted her softly, and said that he brought her her favorite cake.
Wen Nian is actually very impulsive, and if he is unhappy about something, he will stick to it to the end.
Xu Zhijian didn't know how they ended up arguing. He only remembered that he didn't understand why she was angry because he was shopping with his friends, and she also didn't understand why he, a man with a girlfriend, would accompany other girls to the mall.
Outside the dormitory door that day, the pouring rain could not drown out their voices, and the students passing by glanced at them hurriedly again and again.
Then, there is a month-long cold treatment.
Xu Zhijian was completely panicked and didn't care who was right or wrong. He ran to her every day to apologize. It was at that time that he realized how important Wen Nian was to him.
She was the only person in the world who put him first, and he couldn't even imagine how terrible life would be without her.
After they reconciled, he finally learned to cherish her, put her first in everything, learned to take care of others, forced himself to change many bad habits, and paid more attention to the distance between himself and the opposite sex, reporting everything in advance.
But he was used to being a playboy after all, and he was not very familiar with these things the first time. It took him a long time to slowly satisfy her, and he only treated her well for a year.
In addition, they lived together outside later, and they were actually very happy in the last year. He was so completely immersed in the sweet life that he forgot all the unpleasantness in the past. He thought that they were the closest people to each other and no matter how big the storm was, it could not separate them.
But she didn't forget.
Xu Zhijian was very angry at first. He was angry about what she said, angry that she forgot her promise, and even more angry that she didn't like him. But now he thought a lot and couldn't be angry anymore.
To be honest, he is not good at falling in love, and he doesn't know how to like someone.
At the beginning, he didn't think love was that important, and even felt it was a bit troublesome. He would either ignore the girls' advances or reject them outright.
She is also very self-aware and thinks that she is not suitable for dating. If she becomes his girlfriend, she will probably be driven crazy. He doesn't like those roundabout ways and is used to being straightforward. He will not do anything romantic to express his love. He is also very selfish and does not like to be restricted. He only treats himself well.
Although he had a different feeling for Wen Nian, if she hadn't taken the initiative to pursue him, he probably wouldn't have taken any action. In the end, he agreed just because he had nothing better to do and wanted to give it a try.
So, at first, he was not nice to Wen Nian.
Her love made him feel that it was natural, and he didn't think he could stay with her for long.
But she was very well behaved at first, accommodating him in everything, pretending to be cheerful and generous, and never losing her temper with him. He became more and more unscrupulous due to his indulgence, and was always asking for more. In many aspects, he did not have the qualities of a qualified boyfriend.
At that time, I was in the situation and didn’t think anything of it. But now when I think about it, I realize how hateful I was.
He later found out that Wen Nian was actually a very insecure girl who liked to keep her anger to herself and endure it silently.
He was also very careless and must have done many things to hurt her in some trivial and unnoticeable places.
If she hated him at that time, he had no complaints.
A huge regret spread in his heart, like a thorny needle, piercing into his flesh and blood again and again. Xu Zhijian wished he could go back and beat himself up.
Seeing that he didn't react, Chang Jun thought his persuasion was effective, so he breathed a sigh of relief and spoke more vigorously, "If you ask me, just let it go, so that both of you can have peace and quiet, Tianya——"
The next second was interrupted.
"I said, she can only be mine in this life." Xu Zhijian spoke in a calm voice, but his words were almost stubborn. He put out the half-smoked cigarette between his fingers, stood up and left.
"At worst, I'll chase her ten more times."
The low and deep voice was firm, and it circled around the room for a few times before finally dissipating into the vast night at sea.
Watching his back disappear into the darkness, Chang Jun was stunned for a moment, then downed the rest of his wine in one gulp and sighed deeply, "Dating is such a hassle."
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Disembark the next day.
The weather was not good and it was drizzling.
In the foggy weather, it was damp and hot, the rain felt sticky on the body, and people's mood became inexplicably bad.
At six in the morning, there weren't many people at the airport.
Fortunately, the rain was not heavy and the flight was normal.
Before boarding the plane, Wen Nian held an umbrella and waited on the side of the road for Shen Wan to tie his shoelaces.
As his sight wandered, he saw Xu Zhijian passing by not far away.
He was pulling the suitcase with one hand and answering the phone with the other. He seemed to be unchanged, still looking lazy and idle. The only different feeling he gave was that he probably didn't sleep well and his face looked lifeless.
He must have noticed something, as his gaze swept over them lightly, as indifferent as the cool air around them.
The moment their eyes met, Wen Nian did not dodge. Compared to his indifference, she was quite frank, with a faint smile on the corner of her lips.
A complete provocation.
Xu Zhijian's heart skipped a beat, but his face remained expressionless. He turned away indifferently, hiding the loneliness in his eyes where no one could see.
Menmen said to the other end of the phone: "Yes, my girlfriend doesn't want me anymore."
Looking at his receding back, there was no emotion in Wen Nian's eyes.
It was a bit unexpected, unlike his temperament of never suffering any loss.
It seems that there is still a difference.
"Come with me to buy a bottle of water first." Shen Wan took in the "affection" between the two people's eyebrows and eyes, and decided to go into the party later to avoid embarrassment.
After listening to Wen Nian's story last night, she was now filled with helplessness and couldn't help but sigh.
However, it is worth it to be able to witness Xu Zhijian's emotional setback in his lifetime.
Wen Nian: "Okay."
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In fact, the outcome of this incident was completely different from what Wen Nian had imagined. She had thought that Xu Zhijian would throw a tantrum for a few days and then continue to pester her, that he would use a series of schemes to gain her sympathy, and even that he would directly retaliate against her, but she had not expected it to be like this.
She hadn't seen him for nearly a week.
There was no change in the room next door, but the person never came back, and the office desk was not cleaned up. For WeChat users who were set to the only one with no message disturbance, their daily self-entertainment breakfast, noon and night messages were also interrupted.
On Friday, the company received news that Xu Zhijian had resigned. It was not a formal employment in the first place, and his resignation seemed like a casual remark.
The studio discussed it for a few minutes and then moved on.
It has been half a month since they met again.
The days with Xu Zhijian around were not peaceful at all, and Wen Nian was still a little uncomfortable when he suddenly disappeared from her sight.
At night, only the rustling sound of the cool air from the air conditioner surrounds my ears.
Wen Nian lay on the sofa, petting the cat and lost in thought.
The long-lost peaceful life has returned, but it doesn’t seem as happy as I imagined.
It was like a dream, a not very happy dream, short, noisy, and a little annoying.
She finally attributed the inexplicable emptiness to the trance of waking up from a dream.
Didi——
Several messages popped up on the phone, bringing Wen Nian back to reality.
She was a little surprised when she saw the notes clearly.
Chu Yuxuan, the neighbor's brother, is five years older than her.
I remember playing together a few times when I was a kid, but we didn’t have much interaction after we started school.
Speaking of which, when Wen Nian left school last year and boarded the train, his mind was completely bewildered, like a lonely ship without a sail, not knowing where to go or where he should go.
In the end I just bought a ticket.
She was not a very brave person. It was her first time taking a long-distance trip alone, and the slight uneasiness she felt was nothing compared to her urgent determination to escape.
Ningcheng.
It is a southern city with beautiful scenery, picturesque mist and rain, green stones and blue tiles everywhere, which is completely different from the feeling given by the north.
There are no dazzling neon lights, nor busy streets. It is like a soft song that can soothe even the most anxious heart into a quiet lake.
There, she met Chu Yuxuan, who was working as a resident doctor in a Grade A hospital in Ningcheng at the time and happened to run into her while he was on a free medical consultation.
Come to think of it, I haven't seen him for many years.
The two chatted for a while, and he roughly understood her situation and agreed to help keep her whereabouts a secret.
Chu Yuxuan advised her to find a job there first and then prepare for the second postgraduate entrance examination. However, Wen Nian was completely overwhelmed by pain at that time. She would cry every time she took a few steps. How could she have the mood and motivation to prepare for these?
I quickly said goodbye to him and went to a nearby island to relax.
The two of them were not familiar with each other and had hardly contacted each other. Wen Nian picked up his phone with curiosity and clicked into the chat box -
【Long time no see, how are you feeling recently? 】
[I heard you're in Beijing. I'm going to be transferred there soon, probably in a week. I'll treat you to a meal then.]
【If you need anything in the future, please remember to contact me so that we can look after each other. 】
The landscape photo as a profile picture, with three paragraphs of text without any interjections or emoticons, is very consistent with his aloofness that makes people feel cold when they get close to him.
Just by looking at these, Wen Nian couldn't help but think of his face, cold, clean, and with a natural abstinence-like feeling of a flower from the high mountains.
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